Is this cartoonist mentally ill?.

Chapter 419: Famous Quotes (Original)

Get out of the library.

Fu Liyu, carrying his schoolbag, ended the day's self-disciplined study.

He was a little tired, after all, he had spent the whole day studying in the library, although he also enjoyed learning.

But learning itself is not a very happy thing after all.

Fu Liyu got on his bicycle outside the library and rode all the way back to the dormitory.

"Ayu, you're back."

His roommate Yao Zihan was still playing games as usual, and he was sometimes envious.

But he was just envious.

"I'm back. It's already night after all."

Fu Liyu stopped talking and said jokingly, "I can't sleep in the library."

"Ayu, you're back."

Another roommate, Fan Siwei, was there too, but seeing as he was wearing headphones and holding a cell phone...he must be chatting with his girlfriend again.

This is the real winner in life.

Fu Liyu envied Fan Siwei even more, after all, he could actually live the same life as Yao Zihan.

As long as he indulges himself a little, he can play games and have fun every day like Yao Zihan.

But he was unwilling to do so. In addition to his own ambitions and love of learning, his family environment was of course an indispensable reason.

So Yao Zihan was not the one he envied the most.

My roommate Fan Siwei is different.

It was impossible for him to do the same thing as Fan Siwei. He was introverted, sensitive and not very handsome. It was impossible for him to have good interpersonal relationships like Fan Siwei, where almost everyone in his grade was his friend.

He was also able to find his girlfriend quickly after entering college and find a beautiful and lovely girl as his girlfriend.

"Um...Ah Wei, don't worry about me, just continue chatting."

Fu Liyu responded with a smile, then he found his clothes and said, "I'm going to take a shower first."

"Yeah, go ahead, we've all washed up."

Yao Zihan responded with a smile.

……

By the time Fu Liyu finished taking a shower, blow-dried his hair, and put his clothes in the washing machine, it was almost dark.

"Good night, everyone."

Since Yao Zihan and Fan Siwei both had early classes the next day, they went to bed early on Thursday night.

"I'll just turn off the light."

Fu Liyu said with a smile.

Then he turned off the lights and went back to bed.

But he didn't just sleep like that, he didn't have early classes the next day.

But even if this is the case, given Fu Liyu's personality as a self-disciplined academic master, he should have followed a regular schedule and gone to study early the next day.

However...Fu Liyu did not do that.

Instead, he hid in the bed. Because the air conditioner was on, it wouldn't be too hot in this gradually warming weather.

Then he took out his cell phone and carefully inserted the earphones into his ears.

Only then did he click on... a newly updated anime series on C Station that he had chosen to follow - "Magical Ghoul".

Even Yao Zihan and Fan Siwei didn’t know that Fu Liyu actually liked the anime series "Ghoul" very much.

Compared to the more popular "Akame ga Kill!" and the second season of "Chainsaw Man", which has more fans and is known as the new anime overlord of the season, he prefers "Matou Ghoul", a "niche" anime that is not very popular.

The depressing and artistic atmosphere, the not-so-outstanding plot, and the restrained meanings between humans and ghouls...

and the weak male protagonist Kaneki, who is considered a coward by others but is very much like him in Fu Liyu's eyes.

Fu Liyu likes this anime very much.

During the updates on Thursday nights and Friday mornings, he would always stay in bed, and try to watch the show quietly by himself because he was worried about disturbing his roommates.

Not to mention……

This episode, episode 12, is the finale of the first season of "Madu Ghoul".

Unlike "Kill! Akame ga Kill", which was directly announced as a six-month series, there are a total of twenty-four episodes, and more will be updated later.

The first season of "Magical Ghoul" has announced its finale. There's nothing else to watch after this episode.

So even though he had early classes the next day, he had to finish watching it first.

Fu Liyu put on headphones and immediately clicked play.

At this time, the animation series begins with... Kaneki being taken away by a gecko and restrained in a restraint chair, but at this moment he seems to be in a sea of ​​flowers.

Kaneki was already covered in scars, and under the terrifying "1000-7" torture of Gecko, he accepted the torture consciously and fearfully.

Pulling out nails, breaking limbs, centipedes stuck in ears...

All of this tortured Kaneki to the point where he was no longer in human form.

This even has some connection with the setting of the self-abuse of the Nestorian Church in Lin Qingshan's currently serialized comic "The Taoist Immortal".

But Kaneki could not die under this torture because of his powerful regenerative ability as a ghoul.

Being unable to die and unable to live made Kaneki in extreme pain, and his spirit seemed to be on the verge of collapse.

And at this moment... a gentle hand touched his face.

"Mommy mommy."

Kaneki thought it was his mother's touch, but when he looked up he saw...it was.

"Ms. Rize...

And his torture continued...

Gecko, wearing the mask of the famous serial killer Jason, used all the torture methods he had learned from the perverted ghoul investigator on Kaneki.

"How many did you count?"

He asked Kaneki like a pervert.

Kaneki, like Li Huowang, constantly wandered between... the real world where he was being tortured by the gecko, and the illusion where Kamishiro Rize appeared.

While he was answering Gecko's "math" questions, Kamishiro Rize was also talking to him.

"You're still alive..."

The illusion of Kamishiro Rize squatted beside him, looked at him pitifully, and said, "But... this kind of thing doesn't matter. Hey... what kind of person is Kaneki's mother?"

Kaneki's...mother?
Fu Liyu was stunned for a moment. He only knew that Jinmu had been an orphan for a long time.

But in the early days, Kaneki was actually a child from a single-parent family. His father... seemed to have never been mentioned, and he only said that his mother had passed away.

Suddenly, under the guidance of Rize Kamishiro in the hallucination, Kaneki began to remember... his mother who had passed away for a long time.

When he was a child, Kaneki studied under the guidance of his mother, and read a large number of books left by his father who passed away before he was old enough to understand. He gradually fell in love with literature and literary novels.

So in his eyes, his mother is a very gentle and kind woman.

At this moment, the torture inflicted by the gecko in the real world and the real pain once again interrupted Kaneki's illusion.

He is still suffering from the torture of this gecko.

But soon, it seemed that the gecko had left, and when Kaneki had a chance to catch his breath, the hallucination of Kamishiro Rize appeared again.

He has gone crazy...

But this time, Kamishiro Rize smiled and said to him, "Is your mother really a gentle, kind, and amazing person?"

Fu Liyu was stunned for a moment. Could there be some hidden secret?

Then the animation continued to play, and suddenly Kaneki's memories appeared again. But this time...

A woman whose face could not be seen appeared here. Kaneki's mother gave her a large stack of banknotes, and she immediately counted them happily and left.

"Who is that?"

Kamishiro Rize asked curiously.

"Mom's...sister."

Jin Mu said a little disappointedly, "He said he didn't have much money, so he always asked his mother for money..."

This is... raising a vampire.

Fu Liyu pursed his lips immediately because this reminded him of his family.

It's just that his family is... Dad and his brother.

As the eldest son, my father's brother took away almost all of my grandfather's funds, and even inherited the house that my grandfather had paid for and had already built in his hometown.

But he refused to take care of his grandmother, so she lived with him in Fu Liyu's home.

That would be fine, but... my father's brother did not give any child support. Instead, he used the excuse that he had to pay for a house and never gave any money to grandma or their family.

Not only that, the money for his grandfather's medical treatment before his death was all paid by Fu Liyu's father, and he didn't pay a penny.

At the same time, all the pension given by the unit after my grandfather passed away was taken away.

My father just said that after all, he was his eldest brother, and grandpa had placed all his hopes on him when he was alive...

Fu Liyu, her mother and her sister immediately felt helpless towards their cowardly father.

Although he didn't ask for money directly like Kaneki's mother's sister, he could have the same deep understanding as Kaneki.

But Kaneki is a little worse off.

because……

"Because of this, my mother works at work during the day and at home at night. She works day and night, and also works in her free time..."

That is how it went on until one day.

Kaneki's mother was exhausted.

She slumped over the table, but the work was still in front of her.

“I became a human being.”

Kaneki said sadly.

But later he met his good friend Chen Yingliang, and when he recalled this memory, it seemed that there was finally light in his eyes.

But at this moment...

"But you have lost even this important friend."

Kamishiro Rize looked at him with a strange smile and said, "...Because of yourself."

Once again, Kaneki was grabbed by the gecko in the real world, and he saw...

In front of the couple who once helped him, Gecko asked Kaneki to choose one person and let Gecko kill him.

Gecko told Kaneki that these two people were asked to take care of Kaneki just for the preparation of this "show", so that Kaneki would think that he would be rescued and regard them as his benefactors.

“All the adverse situations in this world…are caused by the lack of ability of the parties involved.”

The gecko immediately uttered a famous saying that has been passed down through the ages.

"All the unfavorable situations in this world...are caused by the lack of ability of the parties involved?"

Fu Liyu was a little dazed. He actually felt that this sentence... made sense?
Yes... As long as you are strong enough, no unfavorable situations will occur.

So it is true that most of the unfavorable situations in the world are caused by the inability of the parties involved.

Just like my father...if he had been brave enough to confront his brother...

Does that mean... their family won’t have to bear such a heavy burden?
Then, when Gecko asked Kaneki to make a choice between killing one of the two and letting the other live, he was unable to make the choice to take either life.

So... Gecko killed both of them right in front of him.

Kaneki was suddenly devastated!
It was just like Li Huowang heard Yingzi say that he was the one who killed everyone in the town.

Kaneki was kind-hearted by nature, but because of his cowardice, he killed two people whom he regarded as his benefactors.

At this moment, the illusion reappears...

"It's not me...it's not me..."

After Jinmu struggled internally, he said painfully, "No, it's all my fault..."

At this time, Kamishiro Rize reappeared, laughing and mocking him, saying, "It's obvious... what's there to say? You just blame yourself like this, constantly blaming others, blaming others, but you haven't changed at all, and you won't try to change..."

Kaneki opened his eyes, as if he was listening carefully to Kamishiro Rize's teachings.

"It's all your fault, of course."

Kamishiro Rize continued, "Whose fault is it that it turned out like this? Chance? Accident? Luck?"

At this point, she laughed again and said, "Luck does not exist. There is only a combination of circumstances. Who creates this situation?"

"Who is it?"

"It's you."

She looked at Kaneki and said coldly.

however……

Fu Liyu had a strange expression on his face. He remembered...

Kamishiro Rize herself was killed by steel bars because of "bad luck".

She herself said that luck doesn't exist?
Emmmmm...it seems a bit funny due to the contrast.

But Kaneki believed it completely... because this was not what Kamishiro Rize said to him, this was an illusion, an illusion created by Kaneki himself because of the extreme pain.

So this is not Kamishiro Rize speaking to him, but rather...his true thoughts at the moment.

“All the unfavorable situations in this world are caused by the lack of ability of the parties involved.”

She came to Kaneki again and said in a persuasive manner, "This is the truth, right..."

As "Kamishiro Rize" spoke, Kaneki let out a howl of pain.

However, Kamishiro Rize ignored it and continued to stimulate Kaneki with words.

This kind of mental pain made Kaneki feel more painful than physical torture.

"Everything started because you were ignorant, idiot."

"It's all... it's all your fault..."

"It's better to be the one who gets hurt than to be the one who hurts others. That's why you are so miserable..."

"If you were strong enough to kill the gecko, wouldn't those two people be saved?"

"If you choose not to kill the man, then the woman might be saved."

“At that time, too…”

……

The death of Fueguchi Ryoko replayed itself before Kaneki's eyes again, and... he also saw that it seemed as if because of him, Mirai Hinami and the others also died tragically in front of him.

And... the accusations against him by his good friend Yingliang.

All of this made him feel so miserable that he wanted to die and screamed at the top of his lungs.

"understand?"

Kamishiro Rize touched his head affectionately, her eyes filled with hatred for him, and said, "This is the way of life you chose, the future you chose, why are you crying, why are you shouting?"

"It was your choice. You chose to be hurt by others rather than hurt others... It was so gentle and beautiful..."

"But you seem to have chosen everything, but you are losing everything. Your mother... is losing everything too."

(End of this chapter)