Don't be afraid, fairy, I'm blind

Chapter 145 The Diary of the Jade Butterfly Saint (6k added for Narukami)
"Something happened? What happened?"

You Su's eyes widened. He had waited so long, how could something happen when he was about to be ten days old? Should I say this is really a trick of God?

"Don't worry, Young Master You. It's not a particularly serious situation. Please believe that Yuhuan Pond will definitely meet your needs. I originally thought that the lotus root heart would mature tomorrow, but I'm afraid it will have to wait for the day after tomorrow. I'm here just to give you something. Just a reminder, please be patient."

You Su frowned inadvertently, "It's just a matter of waiting two more days, it doesn't matter. Thank you for your hard work, Master Jade."

"Thank you for your understanding, Master You. Yuhuanchi will not let you down."

As he spoke, Yu Zhen flipped his hands, and a luxurious brocade box appeared in his palm, about half the size of a palm.

He bowed and brought it to You Su, "This is Yuhuanchi's apology gift to Mr. You. It is lotus root powder ground from Yuhuanchi spiritual lotus root through eighty-one manual steps. Taken orally, it can strengthen the meridians, It can stabilize the spiritual platform; when applied externally, it can heal wounds and leave no scars. It can even be added to the incense burner to become a top-quality spice, which has a different flavor compared to the fragrance of thousands of jade lotus flowers."

You Su was surprised and secretly thought that Yuhuanchi's move was really generous. Exchanging treasures is not necessary for them, but they are still willing to give such a precious apology for the little time Yusudo spent.

Maybe... maybe this lotus root starch can wake up the little white fish again. However, You Su still had to do his best to show off his politeness.

"It's just two more days to play in Yuhuan Pond. You Su can't accept such an expensive gift."

Not everyone is as sober as the Jade Butterfly Saint. Helpless girls are always looking forward to the appearance of a hero to save them. But no one from Yuhuan Pond has walked out of Yuhuan Pond in the past fifty-four years, and this will not change because of his arrival in Yusu.

"Yeah." You Su nodded lightly.

"Thinking about it this way, it's really been a long time since I had a dinner at Koike Palace..."

You Su raised his hand to thank him, and Yu Zhen smiled back and started to walk away.

You Su closed his eyes, and the faint aroma exuded by the lotus root powder seemed to have magic power, making people unconsciously concentrate on their cultivation.

"Yu Long! Pay attention!"

You Su ignored her, put down his chopsticks, sighed slightly, and then asked quietly:
"Yu Long, what happened?"

Yulong wanted to wipe away her tears with her hands, but couldn't stop it and could only sob softly.

"Then can you take me and my sister away with you...?" Yulong asked her biggest begging while sobbing.

After You Su gave instructions to Yumeng Yulu, he returned to the dormitory and opened the brocade box filled with lotus root powder. He didn't know where the little white fish was hiding, so he could only fish it out in this way.

Even though I have eaten it for nine days, it is still a completely new and completely different dish. Obviously the ingredients are all the same, just fish, shells and the like, but there are always novel cooking techniques.

But Yu Zhen took another step forward and said: "Young Master You, you don't have to be polite. This is a gift from Venerable Shenxi. The head of the house personally gave the gift. It's fine for You Young Master to accept it calmly. But not everyone has such treatment." ”

"Yu Meng!" Yu Meng glared and stopped her sister's rudeness.

The two women looked at each other and sat on either side of You Su without hesitation.

"Young Master You... Yulong, she didn't do it on purpose."

When Yulong heard this, her heart seemed to have died for the most part, and tears froze in the corners of her eyes and stopped falling. Yuhuan Pond will reopen its doors one day, but not in her generation. She bit her lip, as if she had found the last glimmer of hope:
"Then... Then don't leave, okay? Just stay in Yuhuan Pond. Everything is good in Yuhuan Pond. My sister, me, and the saint... will definitely treat You Gongzi better than Shenshan treats you!" "

"You guys sit down and eat together."

You Su sighed in a low voice, and was secretly amused in his heart. It was easy to go from frugality to luxury, but it was difficult to go from luxury to frugality. Once he was used to eating the delicacies and fine wines of Yuhuan Pond, he could still go back to the time when he was in Izumo City and faced a plate of chestnut roast chicken. Does he feel satisfied?
The answer is obvious, what matters is not what you eat, but who you eat with.

Yu Meng carefully looked at You Su's face. She finally got closer to You Su, but her sister did such a stupid thing, which made her feel helpless.

"This is an order." You Su was already picking up a chopstick of fresh white fish.

They ate very restrainedly, taking small bites of food that they were already tired of.

Yu Mengyu was obviously surprised, but she still pretended to be reserved: "This is against the rules, Master You, just use it slowly."

Time seemed to be pressed forward by someone. When You Su opened his eyes again, it was evening. He stood up, his body full of energy, but his stomach was empty.

"Yes."

"Yu Meng Yu Lu, prepare dinner for me." You Su shouted to the outside of the hall.

The affirmative answer also made Yu Meng cry harder, and Yu Meng on the side also showed a dejected and sad expression.

You Su knelt down at the dining table and greeted the two women. There was so much food that he couldn't finish by himself.

Beauty is the Taoist philosophy of the people of Yuhuanchi.

Yulong was innocent and cried again while eating. Tears flowed down her cheeks and fell on the side of the plate on the dining table.

Calculating the time, it has been thirteen days since I left the sect. I wonder if the senior sister is impatient, and has the senior lady discovered that she is no longer in the sect? Now that success is imminent, I just hope that the third elder can delay them.

But the little white fish seemed to have completely disappeared and there was no movement for a long time. You Su had no choice but to sit on the lotus platform and wait quietly while breathing.

When Yu Lu heard You Su's inquiry, she suppressed her tears and said, "Ugh, Mr. You...are you really going to leave after you get the lotus root heart?"

You Su held the cup filled with fruit wine. He was silent for a while and then said:

When I think about it, it's actually not quite right. Yuhuanchi's emphasis is not only on food, but also on the pursuit of ultimate beauty in everything from clothes to robes and caves.

"Actually, you know very well that I can't take you away, so it's better not to have such delusions."

Seeing this, Yumeng was very anxious and quickly reminded in a low voice:

It didn't take long for two pretty girls to bring the exquisite meals that had been prepared to the table.

"Then Yu Zhen will resign first. Once there is news, I will come back to inform Young Master You immediately."

Lord Shenxi? Did any of the three family heads finally notice him as a visitor from the sacred mountain?
"Then...it's better to be respectful than to obey. I also ask Master Yuxian to thank Venerable Shenxi for me."

The people in Yuhuan Pond are really astonishing about their food. This made You Su feel that the family monks in this lake didn't even look like immortals practicing the Tao of Immortals, but more like those off-beat monks who entered Taoism through cooking.

"Don't enter the temple without my permission. I want to practice."

Since You Su couldn't take them out, they left You Su behind.

"Is this a task assigned to you by the head of the family?" You Su sat up straighter.

Yumeng pursed her lips and said apologetically: "Since Yuhuanchi has been hiding from the world, there has been no support. The only descendant who can take advantage of it is the eldest son. However, Yuhuanchi attaches great importance to his roots, so he cannot recruit talents at all." Only those monks who have been favored by Yuhuan Pool can be invited to join Yuhuan Pool, but there are not many people who respond. Young Master You is amazingly talented and has a close relationship with Lord Lianjian. He has obtained the immortal seed of Lord Lianjian. He is half a member of Yuhuanchi. Ever since he knew that Young Master You was coming, Yuhuanchi has been hoping to keep Young Master You, and I believe that Young Master You has also seen it."

"You Su was flattered. It must be for this reason that he would not hesitate to let a pool of saints approach me." You Su's voice was like the cool lake breeze blowing from the window.

"The saint...she is not..." Yumeng lowered his eyes, "At first we thought that the saint was approaching Mr. You on purpose, and the three family heads even ordered that some special means be used... …”

"If she were a saint fifty-four years ago, the family heads would definitely not dare to talk to her like this. But Saint Jade Butterfly is just a mortal without cultivation, and her status has long been in name only. This pool of cultivators, How can you be so respectful to a mortal? But when my sister and I observed the behavior of the saint, we discovered that she was not approaching you to fulfill the purpose of the three family heads, she was just too lonely..."

When Yumeng said this, she seemed to feel the same way for the saint who had grown up with her. The saint was actually far more lonely and pitiful than their sisters. She wiped the corners of her eyes and said:
"So after Young Master You was willing to jump off the cliff to save the Saint, the Holy Lady no longer dared to come to Young Master You in person. She was afraid that she really didn't want Young Master You to leave... so she hid. My sister and I are thinking Retaining Young Master You is definitely not based on the orders of the family heads, but based on our own wishes!"

The girl's face turned red, as if she had exhausted all her strength from saying a long series of heartfelt words. She looked at Yu Su who was nervous and did not dare to breathe.

The scene fell into silence for a while, the two women's eyes were warm but timid. You Su nodded slightly and just said:

"I know, but I will leave eventually."

Then he drank the fruit wine in one gulp and stood up, as indifferently as the ink sword in his hand:
"You guys eat slowly. I'm full. Let's go out for a walk."

The weather was getting colder and the days were getting shorter. Before the lamp outside the door had time to be lit, You Su's back quickly disappeared into the night outside the court.

Yulong cried even more miserably: "Sister...are we so unlovable?"

Yu Meng wiped the tears from her sister's eyes, and she forced a smile to comfort her sister:

"No, it's just that he is blind and has never seen us in his eyes. How could he stay for us..."

……

You Su walked on the wooden path by the lake. The fragrance of lotus flowers was carried by the evening breeze and was very pleasant. He met almost no pedestrians along the way.

He once asked the saint why the Yuhuanchi monks rarely go out. The saint explained: Years of hiding from the world have made the people of Yuhuanchi tired of the beautiful scenery where they live, and they prefer to suffer at home rather than going out for fun. build. Only when some festivals or activities are held, the Yuhuanchi monks will come out to participate in the grand event and join in the fun.

You Su understood and walked slowly and leisurely. This vast swamp is something that Yuhuanchi monks are used to, but it is still new to You Su.

The purpose of his going out was of course not to take a walk to eat, but to visit Koike Palace, which he had not been to for three days.

He always felt that there was another reason for the saint's deliberate avoidance, and the curiosity in his heart drove him here.

Returning after three days, You Su felt a familiar yet unfamiliar feeling.

The pure white herons that often stayed on the roof of Koike Palace no longer seemed to be afraid of Yu Su, and did not fly away again because of his arrival.

But the maids stationed outside Xiaochi Palace were different from the birds and herons who were accustomed to Yu Su. They had once tacitly allowed Yu Su to come in and out, but they actually blocked Yu Su's way.

"Young Master You, please stop."

You Su frowned and said, "Please tell the saint for me that it is You Su who is here to visit."

The maid did not move, as if she had been prepared, and replied:
"It's not convenient for the saint to see guests. Master You, please come back." "Then when will it be convenient for the saint to see guests?"

The maid paused for a moment, and her tone was a little sad:

"My slave doesn't know either."

This maid was the personal maid of Saint Jade Butterfly. Judging from her hesitation, You Su knew what she should know, but deliberately concealed it.

"Then tell the saint that I have been here."

"My slave will do it."

Since the other party deliberately disappeared, You Su had no intention of continuing to force him, so he simply turned around and prepared to leave.

When the maid saw this, she suddenly called to You Su:

"By the way, Mr. You, the saint said that you helped her fly the sky lanterns that night, and she still owes you a question."

You Su paused. According to the deal, this was indeed the case. He could also ask the Jade Butterfly Saint a question.

But what to ask?

He already had a preliminary understanding of the Yuhuan Pond, and even if he asked the other party deeper secrets, he would not really admit it to him. This opportunity to ask questions actually seemed a bit redundant.

Seeing You Su's silence, the maid bowed again and said:

"Young Master You, don't worry. You can ask before you get the lotus root heart. You can think about it slowly."

You Su was stunned for a moment, replied "Okay" and turned to leave.

……

This was the tenth day after arriving at Yuhuan Pond, the day when I was supposed to get the lotus root heart as promised.

After Yu Mengyu Yulu confessed her motives yesterday and was rejected, her relationship with You Su became awkward. You Su also enjoyed this and tried his best to avoid their service.

After dinner, You Su came outside Xiaochi Palace again.

His consciousness couldn't penetrate, so he didn't know what was going on inside.

I wanted to use that question as an excuse to meet the saint, but I really couldn't think of what questions to ask. I just paced back and forth outside Koike Palace, looking very anxious.

Saint Jade Butterfly's personal maid was still blocking the door. She couldn't bear to see You Su's anxious appearance, so she came over and said:

"Master You, have you thought about what questions you want to ask?"

You Su thought for a moment and then said, "I want to ask my master about his retreat back then."

The maid shook her head: "Master You, please come back. This is not the question you really want to ask."

Real question?
You Su looked a little surprised and walked away thoughtfully.

The maid looked at You Su's back and sighed deeply.

The eleventh day.

Yu Mengyu found that You Su wanted to go out again, but still couldn't hold back the impulse and asked:

"Young Master You, are you going to find the saint again?"

You Su nodded, "Not bad."

"But the saint is nowhere to be seen, so why would Mr. You want to look for her?"

"The saint still owes me a question. After she tells me the answer, I will not look for her again."

"Young Master You is really...a man of every penny."

Yu Mengyu looked at each other, hope in their eyes rekindled. In their opinion, the problem is just an excuse, and it is true that Yousu wants to see the saint.

"Have you thought about Mr. You's problem?"

You Su stepped over the threshold without looking back, silently walking on the same road again.

When You Su came outside Xiaochi Palace, the maid stopped him when she saw him and asked with concern:
"Young Master, have you thought about the problem? Tomorrow... the lotus root heart will be mature."

"Well, I've thought about it." You Su clasped his hands behind his back and asked solemnly, "Is the saint okay?"

The maid raised her head and glanced at him, with tears in her eyes, she leaned over and murmured:
"Young Master You, please forgive me. In fact, yesterday I was supposed to answer Young Master You's question for the saint, but I made my own decision and refused."

"Why?"

"The slave is the saint's personal maid. The saint once complained when she was taking a bath. She said that Mr. You spent six days with the saint and asked dozens of questions, but none of them were about her. This made her feel... Frustrated. The slave couldn't bear to see the saint in sorrow, so she secretly remembered this sentence, so she wanted to wait until Master You asked about the saint before answering. "

The maid glanced at You Su who had a worried look on her face and sighed inwardly. She was indeed right. It was not that You Su had no feelings for her saint at all. Otherwise, she would not have taken the initiative to come to the saint, let alone ask about the saint. The situation of women.

"Then is she okay?" You Su did not pursue the little maid's own opinion.

The maid wiped the tears from her eyes and took out a book with wrinkled footers from her arms. The book exudes a moderately light fragrance. Yu Su can smell this fragrance. It is not the fragrance of the maid. He clearly remembers that it is the fragrance of the saint.

"Master You will know after seeing this."

The maid handed the book to You Su. You Su stretched out his hand and hesitated for a while before taking it.

……

When You Su returned to Qinglan Hall, Yu Meng Yulu was still waiting for him in the yard.

You Su's face was solemn, his brows were tightly knitted together, and his silence made the atmosphere a little depressing, like majestic dark clouds accumulating in the deep sky at night.

This was the first time for Yumeng and Yulong to see Yousu in this state, and they were both a little frightened. Finally, Yumeng mustered up the courage and asked quietly:
"Have Mr. You seen the saint?"

You Su still didn't speak, but it made people think of the tranquility before the rainstorm. He handed over the book he just received from the maid. Yu Meng didn't know what it was, but she could feel something strange.

She led her sister closer to the light and carefully opened the book.

The handwriting on the page is beautiful, and each stroke is written very seriously. It seems that writing is not a hard task for the author, but something worth enjoying.

After reading two lines, Yumeng realized that this was actually a diary written by Saint Jade Butterfly herself.

Each page of the diary is written very briefly, recording the life of the saint since she was a child.

She was a saint when she was born, but unlike the previous saints who were worshiped as a pool of hope since her birth, everyone's hopes were dashed after discovering that she had no spiritual veins. Because she is a mirror that reflects the state of Yuhuan Pond, she has no spiritual veins, which means that Yuhuan Pond, which so many people depend on for survival, has not improved yet.

This child who should have been loved by all received almost all cold looks. She was trapped in Xiaochi Palace and grew up. It was not a palace, it was more like a prison.

In the world of immortals, it is unacceptable for a mortal to be a symbol of faith. For that mortal, the pressure and expectations she endures are enough to crush her mortal body.

Fortunately, Yudie is strong and lively by nature, and she is also smart. If she can practice, she must be a very competent saint. She also relied on her personality charm to gradually change the views of those close to her. At least in the eyes of these maids, she was a real saint.

The saint seldom recorded sad past events in her diary, but only recorded some happy things, so her diary was very brief. However, Yumeng noticed that the latest pages of the diary were filled to the brim, and one could feel her joy on the page.

After Yu Meng read through it, he discovered that all the details recorded above were the details of getting along with You Su.

"I danced with You Gongzi today. It was the happiest dance I've ever had. But actually I shouldn't have told him the story about Jade Immortal Bench. He also drank a lot of wine. He must have thought he was drinking immortal wine. I must be the one who gets drunk first, right? Huh, this is the price of underestimating Yudie. But he looks very good when he is drunk, but he keeps saying "Junior Sister, Senior Sister, Senior Wife, Master", why not? "How about 'Jade Butterfly'?"

"Today I went to Huxi Pavilion with You Gongzi to enjoy the lake. I met the eldest son and Miss Ji on the way. The poems and essays written by You Gongzi are really masterpieces, but he insisted that the author was someone else. If there was someone else, why didn't I hear about it at all? ? Later, when we arrived at Huxi Pavilion, he read several more poems, each of which was worthy of immortality. I memorized them quietly, but I couldn't bear to tell others, especially that Miss Ji. "

"It was actually my willful request to place a sky lantern on the top of the mountain. I had never stood at such a high place. When I looked down, I felt like I had become an immortal superior to mortals. But in fact, when I reached the edge of the cliff, I I'm still very scared, but when I think of Mr. You standing behind me, I feel inexplicably relieved..."

"I don't dare to see him again. He doesn't belong here and he shouldn't stay here."

"There is something wrong with the Lotus Root Heart, but the date of the appointment with Young Master You is coming soon. Does he think I am lying to him? He came all the way here to ask for the Lotus Root Heart. It should be very important to him... It doesn't matter. I am a saint, I will definitely hand the lotus root heart into his hands... This is an agreement, anyway, I will soon..."

The last page is covered with round wrinkles, which are probably dried tears, and the word 'death' at the end is soaked and blurred.

When Yumeng and Yulong raised their heads again, tears were streaming down their faces unconsciously. They originally thought that the saint was capturing You Su with her own charm, but they did not expect that the saint had already become someone else's 'captive'.

The diary rolled to the ground, and a broken page fell out.

Yumeng quickly picked it up and found it was the suicide note of the previous saint.

Like Jade Butterfly, the previous generation of saints was a saint who could not practice cultivation. Most of her suicide notes recalled her many experiences as a mortal in Yuhuan Pond.

But the last sentence made Yumeng take a breath of cold air——

"I'm not dying naturally at all."

(End of this chapter)