Don't be afraid, fairy, I'm blind

Chapter 221 The heroine's name is He Shutong
"After that... I pretended to be a Taoist couple with your traveling master and stayed in Izumo City to experience the secular world... until today."

He Shutong spoke in a gentle tone, and her beautiful eyes glanced at You Su from time to time while she spoke, as if she wanted to see the changes in the boy's heart from his expression.

After telling this traumatic experience, He Shutong was really worried that his image in the boy's mind would be greatly damaged.

"So Master's wife was so cold before...was it because she practiced the Ice Heart Technique?"

You Su frowned, but it was not with contempt or confusion, but full of heartache.

It turns out that he really thinks I'm cold...

"That's right. But... now the Ice Heart Technique has been dissolved, and I am no different from an ordinary person."

He Shutong hesitated for a moment, but still chose to explain.

"How did it get resolved?" You Su asked with concern.

He Shutong lowered his eyes slightly. Of course, he couldn't tell You Su in person that it was him, so he could only conceal it:

"If you have successfully experienced it, it will naturally dissipate."

You Su nodded when he heard this, but did not ask any more questions. Instead, he seemed to be muttering to himself:

"That's great...it turns out that Master's Wife wasn't being so cold on purpose...I thought..."

The voice was very faint, but it could not escape the ears of Master Dongxu.

He Shutong blinked her beautiful eyes, and felt that the softest corner of her heart was touched.

Instead of blaming her, the young man was glad that it was not because of his poor performance that he failed to win the favor of his master's wife, but because of the passive nature of her martial arts.

"After listening to this... you have nothing to say?"

He Shutong's eyes flickered as he asked tentatively.

Because this life experience was too painful, she had always kept it deep in her heart and had never shown it to anyone. You Su was the first person she took the initiative to tell about it.

Therefore, she wanted to know what the boy thought of her.

You Su pondered for a long time.

In this cold December, the red fairy flowers emit heat, warming up the originally cold pond water.

The pool water enveloped You Su completely, and the thick mysterious energy in it seeped into his body through his pores, while He Shutong waited for the boy's answer at the other side of the pool.

You Su had a vague illusion that the warm pool water was an extension of his master's embrace and she was hugging him.

How cold she was before, how gentle she is now.

"Master's wife is a pitiful person."

You Su gave his own evaluation, and as soon as he finished speaking, he hurriedly explained:

"I didn't mean anything else. I just said it casually. Please don't take it seriously, Master's wife."

There is no reason to say that Venerable Dongxu should be pitied in this world. If it were someone else, he would have been punished for disrespect long ago.

He Shutong was slightly stunned. She actually felt that this word was so appropriate for her, and a bitter feeling rose in her heart.

"It's just a casual chat, no need to be so formal. Why... do you feel that way?"

"If you start over again, will you stick to the sword path you have chosen, or choose to listen to my mother and learn the literary path that she doesn't like?" You Su asked back.

In fact, He Shutong has thought about the answer to this question many times, and she regretted it every time. If she had not stubbornly chosen what she liked, perhaps everything would be different.

But that seemingly firm answer hesitated when You Su asked it.

"I...I don't know either."

He Shutong could vaguely sense that if she expressed regret, You Su would probably look down on her even more...

"Does Master's wife feel very guilty?" You Su continued to ask.

However, the tone of the question was not like that of a younger generation asking a question to a respected elder, but rather like that of a doctor examining a timid patient.

"Um……"

"Master's wife should indeed blame herself." You Su suddenly said.

He Shutong's expression froze, her red lips moved slightly, and she looked surprised.

She thought You Su would say something comforting to comfort her, but she didn't expect that the young man also thought that her crime was unforgivable?
Thinking of this, her body became lighter, as if she had lost her soul.

"Master's Wife secretly learned Bing Xin's forbidden skills, which led to her losing her emotions and running away from home for decades. She even missed her mother's funeral. Before she died, she ruthlessly broke the master's wish to continue the family line. Not only that, she also killed the Yu Jing Master who gave his life to save her. She also failed to fulfill her responsibilities as a master to her only disciple. It can be said that all of this is Master's Wife's own fault for learning Bing Xin's teachings."

He Shutong stood there in a daze upon hearing this, and leaned against the round white stone by the pool as if he was exhausted.

All the bitterness in her heart was evoked by You Su. This top female fairy at the top of the mountain actually recalled the urge to cry two hundred years ago.

"But Master's wife is wrong, but the fault is not entirely hers." You Su said.

He Shutong raised his eyes, as if he had grasped the last straw, and looked at the boy with hope.

"Zhuazhou is just a custom. Who can guarantee that the things you grab will be suitable for her? It is too arbitrary to say that the things a one-year-old grabs will accompany her for the rest of her life."

"Although Master's Wife didn't mention your name, you should be from a prominent family. Master's Wife was born with full expectations from her parents. I think Master's Wife once tried very hard to live up to their expectations. She even went so far as to learn the Ice Heart Skill, which has rapid progress but huge side effects, just so that when Mother talks about her, she can be a little more proud."

He Shutong slowly sat up again. She had omitted many details in her previous narration, but she had not expected You Su's speculation to be so accurate. It was as if the boy was the only one in this vast world who understood her.

"But how can a child grow up completely according to the parents' ideas? That's not a child, that's just a piece of exquisite porcelain molded by the parents. I think this is also the reason why Master's Wife gave up reading and took up swordsmanship. The sword is a sharp weapon, and Master's Wife also hopes to have a sword that can break the shackles that her mother has forced on her."

You Su told the story slowly, hiding the sympathy in his tone very lightly.

"So I think you don't have to regret it. It's understandable for you to choose what you like as a teenager. After all, no one knows what will happen in the future. Even if you insist on studying literature, you may not live a better life than now."

Looking back at He Shutong's past two hundred years of unbearable memories, the biggest problem actually stems from her original family. She shouldn't blame herself so much and put all the responsibility on her shoulders.

He Shutong remained silent for a long time. He never expected that one day he would be enlightened by a young man who was nearly two hundred years younger than him.

"Yes, even if I had to start all over again, I would choose to learn swordsmanship."

He Shutong's tone was firm, her sword heart was clear, and she felt that her fusion with the lotus heart had deepened. She should never, ever, blame the sword art that had accompanied her for a hundred years.

"Although Master's Wife passed away with some regrets, it was Master's Wife who allowed Junior Sister to become the heir of Yang Sword. Master's Wife personally ended the suffering of Venerable Yu Jing, but she also guarded Xuan Xiao Sect for a hundred years as the master of Thirteen Peaks. And Senior Sister has no complaints against Master's Wife, and Master's Wife still has plenty of opportunities to improve the master-disciple relationship. In this case, isn't it a kind of bitter before sweet? Master's Wife should indeed blame herself, but she should turn her self-blame into strength to compensate those people and things that you think are important."

You Su had never spoken so many words to his master's wife at one time, and he had said a little more without realizing it. However, He Shutong didn't care at all. Instead, he fell into deep thought because of You Su's words.

For a long time, she has been trapped in a self-consuming pain, thinking that all the tragedies were caused by her.

But in fact, as You Su said, instead of worrying about whose fault it is, it is better to make up for it with practical actions.

She did so, but there was one thing that could not be made up for——

Her mother.

She loved her very much when she was a child, and resented her when she grew up. Later, when she calmed down, she wanted to see her, but found that they would never meet again, and she was left with only disappointment in her heart.

"There are things in this world that cannot be made up for..."

He Shutong muttered to himself in a sad voice.

You Su seemed to have guessed what the woman was thinking, so he asked, "Has Master's Wife never returned home again?"

"Um……"

You Su thought about it and it made sense. How could someone like Master's wife go looking for her after hearing such words before his mother's funeral?

She must have felt, as those gossipy women said, that her mother had never forgiven her for leaving without saying goodbye since her death, and the rest of her family probably felt the same way.

Therefore, she was too ashamed to go home. As a sinner, how could she dare to face those who were once closest to her?

You Su smiled bitterly to himself. On the surface, his master's wife looked like a cold and aloof swordsman, but in fact, that was just a disguise for her timidity and inferiority complex.

"Are they still alive?"

He Shutong paused for a moment before nodding her head slightly.

“They are monks too.”

It seems that although the master's wife doesn't dare to go home, she actually still cares about her family behind the scenes...

"After practicing the Ice Heart Technique, Master's wife would unconsciously walk to the front door of the house. How could your mother not understand you? No matter what knot you have in your heart, talking about it face to face is the best way to solve it."

He Shutong knew this truth, so she stretched out her delicate hands, scooped up a handful of water, and then sprinkled it onto the surface of the pool, her eyes soft and she said:

"There are many things that I don't say out, and they stay in my heart for a long time and I can't feel relieved. After talking with you, I feel much more clear about my thoughts. Thank you."

You Su was somewhat flattered. He could see that his master's wife had indeed let it go a little, but the knot in her family was still not untied, otherwise she would not have done that helpless gesture of holding the water just now.

After Master's Wife Bingxin melted away, she has been trapped in the Lotus Pond ever since. Even though she wanted to see her family, she was unable to do so.

You Su suddenly felt a sense of responsibility.

I don’t know how long it will take to refine my natal object. If I have this worry on my mind, how can my master concentrate on refining it?
Then he sat up in the water and said:
"I am also very happy to be able to chat with Master's wife. Master's wife...can I ask another question?"

"Just ask whatever you want to ask. Don't be polite with me." He Shutong looked around with eyes as gentle as water.

"Master's wife...can you tell me your name?"

my name?

He Shutong was slightly stunned. She didn't understand the boy's seriousness.

Her eyes reflected You Su's face through the mist.

The boy's face was firm, and he was looking at her earnestly.

She didn't know why, but her real name, which she hadn't revealed to anyone for nearly two hundred years, came out of her lips naturally, like a treasure box that opened automatically when it met a wise master:
"My name is He Shutong."

……

The waning moon hangs on the sparse tree, Shutong, my master's wife's name is really nice.

You Su thought so.

Looking at the clouds rolling on the top of the mountain, You Su kept recalling his master's wife's name in his mind.

As he thought about it, the corners of his mouth couldn't help but raise a hint of fantasy.

Ji Lingruo quietly hid behind a big rock, looking suspiciously at this senior brother who seemed a little strange since he went to Liansheng Pond yesterday.

What's wrong with this life?

The girl tiptoed behind the young man, trying to hear You Su's whispers more clearly.

"He Shutong... He Shutong..."

Who is He Shutong? !

"Cough cough!"

Ji Lingruo coughed loudly twice on purpose, put her hands on her hips and asked angrily: "Tell me! Who is He Shutong!"

You Su was suddenly startled and covered his chest with his hands, looking frightened.

"Junior sister, why are you so reckless?"

"I'm reckless? In the past, you could tell when I was within three meters of you, but today, I stood behind you for quite a while and you didn't even notice. Tell me! Who is this woman?"

Ji Lingruo's eyes widened as she asked aggressively.

"Can't you just be a man?" You Su looked helpless.

"Do you believe that you would be so obsessed with a man's name?"

When it comes to catching an adulterer, Ji Lingruo is not so easily fooled.

"If you don't tell me who it is, I'll be angry!" the girl threatened.

You Su couldn't admit that he was obsessed with thinking about the name of his master's wife. Suddenly, he had an idea and said:
"Junior sister, do you still remember that when we were in Izumo City, I once dreamed of a life in Henggao Mountain with you? We would continue to write books, make a lot of money and buy a house in Henggao City?"

When Ji Lingruo heard this, a soft light appeared in her eyes, and she seemed to recall the time when she was full of longing for the future.

"Remember, I thought you had forgotten..."

"Brother, how could you forget? I was just thinking about that new story. He Shutong is the name of the heroine in this new story, and I'm still thinking about her plot."

"real?!"

Ji Lingruo blinked her beautiful eyes, "So, you already have a new inspiration?"

Seeing how convinced his junior sister was, You Su hesitated for a moment whether he should tell the truth or continue lying.

But feeling the girl's hopeful state, he couldn't help but hesitate.

How about going with the flow... naming the heroine after Master's Wife and writing a book?
In this way, it would not be considered as deceiving my junior sister, and I could still fulfill the agreement with her.

"Yes, the inspiration came to me last night, so I have been working hard on it."

"Great!"

Ji Lingruo cheered with joy. She had read through all the books written by You Su, and she felt that none of the storybooks circulating on the market were as interesting as the ones told by her senior brother.

“But you have to be careful with the He family, because the He family is one of the three great immortal families in Henggao City.” Ji Lingruo reminded.

You Su raised his eyebrows and asked again:

"Junior sister, are there many people with the surname He in Zhongzhou?"

"How would I know? But the most famous one is the He family in Henggao City."

You Su nodded slightly and secretly made a note of helping his master's wife resolve her worries.

"By the way, senior brother! What is the title of this book?" Ji Lingruo pulled You Su's clothes and asked eagerly.

You Su actually had no inspiration and didn't know how to deal with it.

At this moment, a large eagle cried out from the edge of the mountain. You Su immediately extended his index finger and said:
"Just call it... The Condor Heroes!"

(End of this chapter)