Don't be afraid, fairy, I'm blind

Chapter 463 Is This Still the Su Er I Know? (5.4k)

He Shutong's fingertips unconsciously stroked the edge of the teacup. The coolness of the celadon penetrated into the bones, but it couldn't suppress the slight redness that was gradually forming behind his ears.

"I... I didn't do anything..." You Sumo's hair fell on his shoulders, and the candlelight made the outline of his face flicker like a distant mountain in the fog. "I just ran into the proprietress of Zhaiyun Clothing Store when I went out..."

"Didn't I tell you to stay in the yard and not run around without my company? It's very dangerous outside. Why did you go out by yourself?" He Shutong said in a reproachful tone.

You Su felt even more excited when he heard this. He wondered if it was because Master's Wife was worried that there would be too many people in his dream and that would expose the problem, so she didn't let him go out, or if she wanted to leave his little world with only Master's Wife, so she made this rule...

Probably, it's the latter, right?

"Usually, it's my master's wife who cooks for me, but I couldn't find her recently, so I went out because I was really hungry..."

He Shutong raised her eyebrows slightly, "Then how did you run into her when you went to buy food?"

She and You Su had been together in this dream world for a long time. Although they stayed in the courtyard together most of the time, they also went out to play together. She was naturally familiar with some of the residents who usually took extra care of You Su.

Of course she had seen the proprietress of Zhaiyun Clothing Shop before. She was a pretty lady with some looks. However, what impressed her most was not the gorgeous clothes in the shop, but the way the beautiful lady looked at You Su - it seemed like she was seducing and even coveting him.

"Thinking that winter was coming, I wanted to buy some winter clothes, and then I met her." You Su made up a story that sounded really good.

"Didn't I tell you to keep some distance from her? It seems that you didn't take my words to heart at all."

He Shutong seldom questioned or blamed You Su. His repeated serious questioning actually came from his subconscious resistance deep in his heart.

Because she is definitely not an ignorant person who knows nothing about the world, You Su is still laying the groundwork, but how could she not guess where the young man is going to lead the topic?
She thought of the difference in status between them and knew that it was wrong and bad, so she tried to stop the boy from continuing to talk by questioning him. It seemed that if she pretended to be more serious, she could awaken the boy's sense of boundaries so that the relationship would not deteriorate further.

But she forgot that the relationship between them as a master and a disciple was no longer so clear-cut. How could she stop herself from going too far by pretending to be serious? This was like the fluttering of a drowning person. Apart from delaying the process of drowning, how could it be a life-saving straw?
"Master's wife, please don't be angry! I have never dared to forget your teachings, but..." You Su was so anxious that he wanted to stand up and salute, biting his lower lip tightly, as if he had something to hide. "Forget it, Master's wife, I accept the punishment and will not say any more."

He Shutong frowned slightly, but blurted out: "I know you are obedient and well-behaved, so it is understandable that you disobeyed orders. Accepting the punishment will be a matter for you after you recover. Since I promised to help you, just say it boldly."

She was speaking seriously, but she regretted it right after she finished speaking. She should have taken advantage of this opportunity to talk about this and left the topic at that. But why...

"It's just that I wanted to buy a nice dress for my master's wife..." You Su's Adam's apple rolled for a moment, "She said that the clothes of Zhaiyun Clothing Store are the best in Chuyun City, and the famous fairies in the surrounding area buy their clothes from her. She also said..."

"What else did you say?" He Shutong heard his own voice as light as falling snow, as if a little heavier would shatter the thin layer of ice.

"She said..." The young man's voice was as hoarse as gravel, as if he was trying to squeeze it out carefully, "She said that a woman as cold as ice as Master's wife lacks bright colors the most."

He suddenly raised his eyes, and in his eyes was reflected the white magnolia on the desk. It was bought for him by his master's wife when they went to the Lantern Festival for the first time. It is still in full bloom today.

Without waiting for He Shutong to speak, he continued, "I know that Master's Wife is highly skilled and is not afraid of cold or heat, but I think she is right. Women should always like to be pretty. I am blind and do not understand beauty and ugliness, so I thought of asking that concubine to choose a gift for Master's Wife on my behalf."

"So, you went into her shop?" He Shutong held the cup, his voice revealing a bit of his usual coldness, as if he was really angry.

You Su was secretly nervous, his heart pounding like a drum, but his determination would never fade at this moment: "No, not in the store..."

He Shutong was stunned for a moment, and her beautiful eyes flickered as she looked at the humble appearance of the young man. "Where is that?"

"That aunt said that clothes that match Master's wife's would never be displayed openly in the store, and that she kept such good things in the warehouse. She also said that if she didn't like me, she would never take it out. I was very grateful, so she asked me to go with her to the warehouse to get it..."

He Shutong changed his sitting position without noticing, as if he was feeling uneasy. "And then?"

"Then when we got there, she warmly invited me to have dinner. I happened to be there to buy food, so we ate together... But after dinner, she didn't mean to take me to get clothes. She just pulled me aside to ask about my recent situation... I was a little anxious to go back, so she pulled me aside and said, 'You are young and full of energy. It's getting late. I'll go back tomorrow.'"

You Su had never blushed so much in his life, but there was no turning back after making up a story to this extent. He even felt a special kind of excitement from the shame of pretending to be innocent, and quietly raised his eyes to see the reaction of his master's wife.

"But...what does this have to do with your abnormal temper?" He Shutong asked knowingly, lowering his eyes slightly, not daring to meet You Su's eyes.

"Since then, I have always been unable to sleep at night, always dreaming of some... strange scenes, and my condition has become worse..."

He Shutong gritted her teeth, waves rising in her heart. She had never thought that You Su could make up such a real and fascinating story, and to such an extent -

The boy fell into a romantic trap in order to show his respect for his master's wife. The lonely beautiful woman had bad intentions towards the boy. What she did to him could not be as simple as a few words. Although the boy escaped by luck, he was also opened a certain switch because of this misfortune...

If she didn't know that this was made up by You Su, she would probably believe it was true.

Was such a story full of obscure hints really written by the You Su I know?

In her heart, You Su has always been the polite and sensible young man. Although she has seen some absurdities of young people before, it does not affect her evaluation of him. But now, she truly realizes that You Su does not seem to be as simple as she thought, and his "filial piety" to her does not seem to be so pure...

When did it start?
Did it start when I, as his master’s wife, counseled him? Or did it start when he wanted to know his own name? Or did it start when I persuaded him to work hard for his greed?
Or...did she make the decision when she realized that she was not his real master's wife?

She suddenly felt angry, flustered, and embarrassed. The complex feelings were hard to describe. She actually felt regretful, wondering why it was so difficult to sort out the seven emotions and six desires. If she had known this, she would have kept her heart frozen...

But is it really okay? She couldn't really be sure of the answer.

The joy of being remembered, the anger when she found out he was in danger, the shock and sadness when she learned of his death... These emotions made her feel that she really existed, but now was she going to blame the boy for melting her heart?

She couldn't bring herself to blame the boy, but she didn't know how to deal with his emotions. Although the identity of the master's wife was fake, the two of them were inextricably linked. She should have made up her mind to stop here and even let the boy give up this idea.

But could she really make it clear? What would become of him? What would become of herself?

He must be extremely ashamed, feeling that he will never be able to face her again in his life... Will she feel comforted by thinking of such a lost and alienated boy?
But no matter whether I had counselled him twice, or let him bathe with me in the lotus pond, as well as all the things in the past and today that gave rise to the young man's ambition, how could I say that I was innocent?

It is you who want to pry into the true thoughts of others, but it is also you who are afraid and resist after prying into them.

He Shutong, oh He Shutong, how can you say that you have a clear conscience?

Anyway...it was just a dream...

Anyway, as long as Su'er doesn't know that I actually know who he is, then it's fine... He only dares to show these presumptuous thoughts in his dreams. In reality, isn't he still the self-disciplined and polite boy?

“Master’s wife…?” the young man called out tremblingly.

He Shutong was startled by the young man's gentle call. She stood up suddenly, her silk skirt falling to the ground like snow, as if she was caught doing something bad.

You Su stared at her in a daze, also a little surprised: "What's wrong with Master's wife?"

"I..." He Shutong heard his own voice as ethereal as clouds, as if he had made some kind of decision, and quickly lowered his tone, "I'll go teach that lady boss a lesson, and she'll know in the future that there are some things she can't touch."

As soon as the words fell, the beams and pillars creaked under the pressure of Dongxu, but the young man stubbornly grasped a corner of her sleeve.

"Master's wife, don't... Auntie, she, she didn't do anything. She is a good person. It is the disciple who likes to have wild thoughts."

Although it was just acting, He Shutong felt a little jealous when she heard You Su still speaking well of the woman, but then she thought that the lady boss had also been blamed for no reason, so she just gently pushed up her skirt and sat back. The fairy skirt was simple and elegant, but it couldn't hide her beautiful curves.

It was easy to sit down, but she was too embarrassed to continue the conversation. There was a silent awkwardness between the two of them.

"Master's wife...is there any solution?" The young man's voice suddenly lowered.

He Shutong secretly stroked his clothes to relieve his tension, thinking that the young man would not give up so easily...

"Of course there is a way." She picked up the cup and took a sip. "You said you always dreamed of some strange scenes. What exactly is strange about them?"

"This……"

You Su's reluctance to speak was indeed not fake. He had not said it very directly because he felt that the female fairy was holy and he could not use explicit words to pollute her. He thought that if he stopped at that point, the master's wife would be able to understand, but she insisted on asking for clarification. He felt as if the master's wife was tempting him to say more embarrassing words...

In fact, his feeling was not wrong. This could be regarded as He Shutong's small "revenge" against the young man's presumptuous heart.

"You don't have to be afraid of seeing a doctor when you're sick, and my master's wife won't tell anyone else." He Shutong straightened his back and sat upright.

"It's just... I dreamed about my junior sister."

He Shutong opened her beautiful eyes slightly, and she felt a little disappointed, as if she was holding some personal grudge and continued to ask:
"What did you dream about your junior sister?"

You Su took a deep breath and wondered if this was something he could say.

Young people yearn for the purest and most beautiful love, but they have to admit that sometimes their minds are dirtier than toilets.

If he wanted You Su to tell his master's wife, that would be no different from turning himself in.

Fortunately, You Su suddenly had an idea and came up with an explanation: "I dreamed that I was teaching my teacher sister to control Xuan Qi again."

"Again? When did you teach your junior sister how to control Xuan Qi?"

"Just before Junior Sister returned to the sect, I was able to control the flow of Xuanqi after breaking through the Lingtai, so I thought about helping her."

"How did you help?"

Of course He Shutong had explored Ji Lingruo's spiritual veins. She was ignorant at that time and had not thought of helping her, but she knew that it was definitely not a simple illness, and You Su was just a young swordsman at that time. She was curious about how You Su could make up a story.

You Su hesitated for a moment, then told He Shutong the method he had derived when he was still in Izumo City through evolving the method of circulation of mysterious Qi during dual cultivation in the Hehuan Gong.

He Shutong was really surprised. First, she was amazed at You Su's keenness in the technique, and second, she praised the boy's patience. She believed that the story was not fabricated by the boy, because she thought about it and it was feasible. This was definitely not an idea that came up in a flash of inspiration. But leading others to circulate Xuan Qi step by step was no different from teaching a baby to learn to walk. No wonder Ling Ruo was so devoted to Su Er.

But she had also changed her opinion of You Su, and could not help but think that what made You Su patiently endure the trouble was probably not only his kindness in caring about his junior sister, but also the pair of hands that could explore with justification.

"You have such a deep understanding of the sect's skills, which shows that you are extremely talented. But with your good intentions, you have committed a big taboo." He Shutong sighed softly, as if expressing regret.

You Su's heart tightened, "What's the big taboo?"

"Since it is practiced from the method of dual cultivation, it cannot escape the essence of dual cultivation. Not only did it harm myself, it might even harm her."

You Su was really confused. "How did you harm her?"

"Just maybe."

He Shutong looked down at You Su who was eager to learn from him. He felt a sense of accomplishment and completely forgot that the knowledge passed down between the master and the apprentice was enough to make people blush if they told others about it.

"People want to pursue the balance of yin and yang, but the Hehuan Gong seeks perfection, which is to refine the yin and yang separately. Only when you meet the people you love can you practice the great way together and practice yin and yang to the extreme. Although it goes against common sense, fortunately, the Hehuan Gong is broad and profound. Before you practice, you can practice yin and yang alone. The principle is to deceive the body's instinct. However, after you practice, the body will no longer be deceived. If there is no yin and yang at this time, you will suffer the pain of being alone in yin and yang." He Shutong said slowly and logically, "You and your junior sister have merged the mysterious qi, and you are operating according to the method of dual cultivation. Although you don't do anything, it's not much different. She knows that there is yang in the world, and you know that there is yin in the world. Fortunately, she has only been a disciple for three years, and I'm afraid she only feels uncomfortable occasionally. But you have been practicing this skill since you were a child, which is why you are struggling more and more."

You Su blinked when he heard this. He had a general understanding of the cause of Yang poison, and his master's wife's explanation was reasonable. However, he did not expect that the reason for guiding the mysterious Qi for his junior sister would become an excuse for the accumulation of Yang Qi poison. He thought... it would be even more exaggerated.

"Then, what should we do?" You Su could almost hear his own heartbeat, and his voice trembled with excitement.

The sound of wind and snow outside the window seemed to have fallen into deathly silence at this moment, and even the heaven and earth seemed to be silent, just waiting for the answer from the cold fairy in front of him.

He Shutong dug her fingertips deep into her palm, ashamed and annoyed that the boy actually asked her what to do...

She knew that she had underestimated her own charm and the boy's greed. He had never mentioned those two times of guidance, out of respect and love for her, because he didn't dare to do anything to destroy this relationship, not because he forgot, or because he didn't want to...

Thinking back to when he was complaining about his greed, I had advised him and told him to work hard for his greed, but I never expected that his greed had spread to myself.

Maybe she was wrong then, but now...she can only make the best of it.

"When Yang Qi accumulates and becomes poisonous, it is natural that it must be detoxified."

He Shutong's cold tone did not prevent the boy from being stimulated by this sentence. Even if he didn't have Yang poison, he could become Yang poison in this moment.

You Su sat on the edge of the bed with his eyes downcast, his knuckles unconsciously twisting the hem of his clothes. The sound of the young man's Adam's apple rolling was particularly clear in the silence.

"The Yang poison is stagnant... we need to guide the fire back to its origin." The fairy finally spoke, her voice even softer than the sound of the ice edges melting on the eaves. "Do you... still remember the method you taught Ling Ruo to control the Xuan Qi?"

You Su raised his head suddenly, and the tips of his ears were instantly covered with rosy clouds. The candlelight swayed in the wind, casting the shadow of his eyelashes under his eyes, like a shy little animal.

"Master's wife is saying..." His throat tightened and the end of his words was lost in the aroma of tea.

"You need to start from the outside and work your way in, guiding the Yin and Yang." He Shutong turned her face away. She suddenly reached out and pressed her fingertips on his wrist. The touch was as hot as molten gold. "You... lie closer."

The candlelight suddenly went out, leaving only thin smoke rising from the gilded incense burner on the bedside, blending the two figures into a hazy painting.

He Shutong's hand that was about to lift the quilt stopped in mid-air. He heard You Su's inhalation, which felt like snowflakes falling on his heart.

She suddenly remembered the first time she saw You Su practicing sword in the Sword Sect courtyard eight years ago. His small figure was as stubborn as a cedar tree in the wind and snow.

"Master's wife?" You Su's voice was trembling with a young man's tone, which startled the snowflake perched on the beam.

He Shutong suddenly came back to his senses, and when his cold palm touched the hot skin, they both trembled at the same time.

"Don't be afraid." She soothed him softly, her fingertips moving along his waistline, as if she was painting the most precious picture.

The feeling of the boy's tense abdominal muscles transmitted through her fingertips reminded her of the slender neck immersed in the water that she saw in the Lotus Pond.

The mysterious Qi was injected into her fingertips, but when it met the burning Yang Poison, it was like encountering a raging flame. She had to use the Ice Heart Technique to make a thin layer of frost appear on her fingertips.

"The Yang Fire flows through the Ren Meridian, and needs to be..." Her throat suddenly tightened, and she remembered that when You Su taught Ji Lingruo, he also held her hand patiently, "It needs to be led to the Lingtai."

Before she could finish her words, his fingertips had slid to three inches below her navel, and You Su suddenly grabbed her wrist with such force that he almost pulled her into his arms.

"do not move."

She forced herself to suppress the trembling sound in her throat and placed her other hand on his heart, feeling that she had never felt so ashamed in her life.

The real You Su seemed to be so frightened that he lost his soul, and dared not move, let alone speak. But the You Su in the dream was already used to being intimate with her, and even showed his wolfish ambitions, and obviously he would no longer be so tactful.

The snow fell heavier and heavier, and the window paper rustled in the wind.

The fairy took off the handkerchief that was stained with wet marks without saying a word. She carefully put it away and was about to throw it away, but the young man gently grabbed her hand.

"Master's wife, thank you..."

He Shutong turned back suddenly and suddenly remembered that in her dream, she had seduced the young man by saying "The disciple only has the mistress now."

The snow fell silently, but it stirred up thousands of waves in the hearts of both of them. At this moment, looking at herself reflected in his eyes, He Shutong suddenly found that he was not as resistant as he thought.

This blend of coolness and heat is like a destined blooming of a flower.

(End of this chapter)