Don't be afraid, fairy, I'm blind

Chapter 473: Divine Sense Connection; Be Yourself

The candle shadow shakes red.

Ji Xueruo's fingertips stroked the blurred ink marks on the letter, and the candlelight illuminated the words on it, sometimes bright and sometimes dim.

"It must be the cold night. It irritated the plum blossoms and made them unable to sleep.

I miss the plum blossoms and the flowers miss me, with love.

Get up and see the clear ice filling the jade bottle..."

Every time she read it, the girl couldn't help but recite the words silently.

The edges of the letter paper were slightly curled, as if they had been rubbed repeatedly thousands of times.

She sighed lightly and looked away.

There was a branch of white plum blossoms in the celadon vase on the desk, with frost flowers on the petals that she had condensed with magic in the past.

Her practice of magic has always been practical, and she had learned this little trick specifically just to preserve the first piece of white plum blossom that bloomed in the snake clan.

Although red plum blossoms are beautiful, in her opinion, they are not as good as white plum blossoms. However, most of the plum blossoms planted in the tribe are colorful, because there are many sisters in the tribe and naturally they don’t like the monotonous white. Only near her own palace are there more white plum blossoms.

She has always been like this, extremely restrained in her selfishness, and always seems to put her tribe above herself.

Just like she was originally a white snake, but she liked to wear black. Actually, she didn't like black at first, but Granny Liu once said to her, who had just taken office as the clan leader, "Young lady, you really look like a lady in white."

But how could a clan leader have the temperament of a lady from a noble family? So she changed to black, and her temperament became more profound. Even with her slightly childish face, she could still see the dignity that a clan leader should have. So she only wore black from then on, and after wearing it many times, she got used to it and gradually began to like black.

She had imagined that if the snake tribe was still prosperous and she was not the tribe leader, would she not like this lifeless black? She could be like the Wangshu fairy in the legend, wearing white all day, writing poems and painting, and being a carefree and elegant fairy?

Unfortunately, she cannot be such a fairy. She must be a young clan leader who is dressed in black, calm, dignified, and serious, so as to match the responsibilities on her shoulders and be able to control both her clan members and outsiders.

"pat".

The candle wax splashed on the word "关情", burning a small black hole.

Ji Xueruo suddenly came back to her senses, quickly took back the letter, and carefully wiped it with her fingertips, but no matter how hard she tried, she could not repair the burn marks on the paper.

She regretted it so much that she bit her lower lip tightly and stared blankly at the blurred word "care".

For some reason, through the burnt hole, she seemed to see You Su standing at the door of the council hall today - he had a dejected face, and when he said goodbye to her with a wry smile, the corner of his eye was red.

She shouldn't have chased him away with such a cold face. He must have been very sad...

But the clan leader's token weighs on her shoulders, and her mother's blood feud is still in her heart... These shackles have become her armor, and they only reveal their flaws when facing You Su.

Her vision gradually blurred, and she seemed to be back in the beautiful Yuhuan Pool.

"What if it takes a very long time? Will Xueruo be annoyed?"

"How long will it last? The sea will dry up and the rocks will rot, and the world will be forever? What you should ask is not me. What you should ask is the illusion of Zangtu. Can it persist until that day..."

This was almost the most naked love words she had ever said to him. After reincarnating a thousand times in the illusion of Tibet, she no longer had to consider everything. Only the young man in front of her was enough. At that moment, she actually hoped that the illusion would never disappear.

The sound of waves from the Fairy Island in the South China Sea echoed in her ears. That was the first time he showed his terrifying side in front of her—he sucked the power of an evil cultivator dry, but she was not frightened by him. The young man smiled and said to her:
"You are already an accomplice, so you can't get away from it."

"I was forced to do this!"

"Being forced is also an accomplice. Anyway, you will be tied to me for the rest of your life."

There was a hint of childish unreasonableness in these words, but her heart was beating wildly at that time.

She had to admit that she was really moved.

It was only later that You Su's disappearance made her realize that there is no such thing as a lifetime in this world. Rather than suffering from loss, it is better to never have it in the first place.

She couldn't help being happy about You Su's safe return, but it also made her determined to return You Su to her sister.

Just treat her encounter with You Su as a mistake, and let it disappear along with the illusion of Zangtu and the collapsed fairy island.

He doesn't need a beauty like her, and my sister can share more love with her lover, and she can also devote herself to her career.

This is the best outcome for everyone. The only difficult thing may be the current labor pain.

However, it is not easy to forget someone, because her heart is also made of flesh.

But as long as you continue to distance yourself from him for a while, he will give up and you will truly ignore his existence.

Thinking of this, she made up her mind and placed the stack of letters on the candlelight.

But when she saw the letters she had always cherished were stained by candle smoke, she hurriedly took them back.

Never mind... I can't bear to part with it, so I'll just hide it deeper...

Anyway, she has become accustomed to having no selfish desires of her own.

"Don't come here and get yourself beaten to a pulp again..."

She murmured softly, but as soon as she finished her words, a tingling sensation shot up from her tailbone to the top of her head.

Ji Xueruo clenched the corner of the table fiercely. Under the loose black veil, a few white snake scales were standing up along the back.

It’s Lingruo!
This realization made her body stiffen, and the bond of spiritual connection became hot in her blood. Only the perception that could shock the soul could be transmitted through the spiritual sense.

The twin sisters' divine sense was like entangled vines under the moon, and at this moment, they were pouring all the tenderness not far away into her body.

You Su's fingertips brushed across the blue scales behind Ji Lingruo's ears. His black hair fell to cover their crossed brows. The low moans from his throat mixed with hot breath were like a ball of fire exploding in Ji Lingruo's heart.

"don't want……"

At this moment, Ji Xueruo only wanted to sever the blood connection, and her fingertips left deep crescent marks on the table.

The closest bond between the twins seemed to have become her most shameful 'torture device' at this moment, forcing her to feel the trembling of her sister and her lover when they were in physical contact, making all her determination and righteousness seem like a joke.

The celadon vase fell over with a clang, and the white plum fell into the candlestick. The flames leaped up, making Ji Xueruo's ears red.

She had clearly decided to forget him, but with this relationship, how could she possibly forget him?
"Shameless..." She murmured, biting her lower lip, feeling inexplicably bitter in her heart.

But he and his sister loved each other, and they were naturally passionate about each other after a long separation. So why should she be bitter? Was she annoyed that he had to seek comfort from his sister at night after hitting a wall with her during the day? Or was she jealous that this happiness would only be enjoyed by her sister, and she could only hide in her room and feel lonely?

"Stop..." She whispered to the void, but she didn't know whether she was begging her sister and You Su, or herself.

The divine feeling surged over her like a tide, and she even had the thought of giving up.

Since there is no harm in resisting, why not choose to accept it as before?
If you can't forget it, then just forget it... Anyway, he won't know about this relationship, and the two of you will just be strangers in the future.

But in this silent night, she can use this opportunity to imagine a beautiful dream of herself and him being in love.

She suddenly felt that this bond was not so annoying. On the contrary, it was the greatest gift God had given her - it allowed her to be a selfless good clan leader and a good sister on the surface, while secretly feeling the pleasure of satisfying her selfish desires.

She could hear her heart beating like a drum, because she was surprised to find that after she had this thought, she was trying to tell how much of the heat in her heart was from her sister, and how much was from You Su...

The candlelight flickered in the night wind, and the feeling was like boiling soup. The white plum blossom was burned by the candlelight, and even the fragrance became hot and sticky.

Ji Xueruo was in a daze, as if she saw You Su right beside her, calling her name softly.

"You--" She looked up suddenly, only to see You Su standing behind the veil at some point, his black hair falling like the night, his eyes reflecting her red ears.

"I hope Miss Xueruo will forgive me for disturbing you so late at night." The young man walked slowly over the veil, holding a white plum blossom that he had picked from somewhere.

"How dare you!" She suppressed the trembling sound in her throat, "This is the bedroom of the clan leader, how dare you break in so late at night!"

Before she could finish her words, You Su had already approached, but he was not heading towards the girl.

"Don't! Don't touch me!" Ji Xueruo felt so numb that she couldn't move. She could only watch You Su touch her "selfish heart".

The young man carefully spread out the letter paper folded on the table, looked at the familiar poem on the letter paper and read it aloud unconsciously.

Every word was like adding fuel to the fire, making Ji Xueruo's face burn brighter than the candlelight.

"Ms. Xueruo has kept it all along." You Su put down the letter and smiled at her, "I thought I was the only one who kept the letter."

"I'm going to call for help." Ji Xueruo turned her face away slightly, her tone forced with distance.

"Go ahead and shout." You Su leaned close to her ear, "I want the entire snake tribe to know more than you do. Their tribe leader is a woman I will never give up."

Ji Xueruo heard her own rapid breathing, but still managed to push him away, "I am the leader of the snake tribe and Lingruo's sister, you, you stay away from me!"

"Why don't you say you are Ji Xueruo?" You Su grabbed her hand that was pressed against his chest. "But in my eyes, you are just Ji Xueruo. It is the Xueruo who spent a thousand reincarnations with me in the Tibetan fantasy world, and it is the Xueruo who survived with me back to back on the South Sea Fairy Island. Why don't you give yourself a chance to be Ji Xueruo?"

The feeling suddenly became so intense that Ji Xueruo felt like she didn't even have the strength to speak.

"Lingruo is waiting for you." She finally found her voice, but with a tremor that was unfamiliar to herself, "She is the one with you—"

"I know." You Su suddenly let go of his hand and took a half step back.

Ji Xueruo felt empty in her heart, but the surge of emotion in her mind had not subsided.

"Junior sister helped me to find you. I owe you a lot, but at this moment, the most important thing is to help Miss Xueruo find herself. Junior sister also told me so."

He said it confidently, and took two steps forward, getting closer than before.

Ji Xueruo subconsciously clenched her jade fingers upon seeing this. She knew, of course, that without her sister's help and instructions, he would never dare to break into her bedroom at night.

The sister even told him the secret of their spiritual connection... Did she know that once this greedy boy knew this secret, he would never let them go? But she still used this special bond to help him...

Even at this moment, this endless flow of divine feelings also came from Ling Ruo who was alone in her empty room. She was willing to let her lover leave at the most intimate moment and go to another woman's bedroom.

Just because... that woman is her sister...

Ji Xueruo's nose suddenly felt sour. This sister was not the only one who would hide under her wings. She still felt guilty about taking away her sister's demon pill, but her sister only wanted to share her best things with her.

"Xue Ruo, you don't need to sacrifice yourself for others. You can have your own joys and sorrows. Not only Ling Ruo, but your tribesmen think the same way. They can see your hard work and they all pity you. You are the only one who doesn't pity yourself."

You Su suddenly knelt on one knee in front of her, like the most devout believer.

"I don't want you to suffer so much, I want to help you. I know you resist me because you are afraid that I will leave without saying goodbye like last time. Even if I have many difficulties, I don't want to explain, because I know you are really hurt. But please believe me, I will never disappear from your side for no reason again. Don't be so cold to me, I am really sad today..."

"Don't, don't say it..."

Ji Xueruo suddenly covered You Su's lips with her hand, feeling that these long words were more burning than the divine feeling in her body.

"I, I understand... I'll ask you to help me... You just reunited, you go and accompany her first, I, I'm so confused..."

Ji Xueruo was panting, secretly annoyed that Ling Ruolan was so passionate in her own pleasure. Did she really have to let her sister become so helpless in front of this young man?
"Didn't we just meet again?" You Su took her hand and pulled it gently, and the boneless girl lay in his arms.

The candlelight suddenly appeared, casting a warm light on You Su's eyebrows and eyes.

"I won't leave. I won't go anywhere tonight until you choose to be Ji Xueruo."

Ji Xueruo looked at the young man's face so close to her and felt that he was the calamity that she could not escape in this life.

Before he appeared, she had clearly built a high wall in her heart, but the defense she thought was impenetrable suddenly became riddled with holes.

"If you dare to betray Ling Ruo, I will not let you go even if I become a ghost."

Although her words were cold and harsh, she lay powerlessly in the boy's arms, as if she had given up struggling.

Even his sister took the initiative to help him, and the biggest reason he used to convince himself became unconvincing.

"I promised Junior Sister that I will not let you down."

The boy held her head and pecked her lips lightly.

She hid her blushing self, still not used to kissing the boy. Because even in the illusion, her intimacy with You Su could be said to have "an ulterior motive", and she had been deceiving herself with this reason.

But since this kiss that was only out of love, she could no longer deceive herself.

Under the black gauze dress, the white snake scales were lying down obediently, like snow blown by the spring breeze.

In the burning pain of having her defenses broken, she suddenly hated her honest body.

(End of this chapter)