After I died, the scumbag went crazy

Chapter 139 Ah Xing has always been my salvation

My head was a little dazed, and I sat stiffly on the edge of the bed. My ears were ringing for a long time.

"Xixi?"

"Lin Xi?"

I could hear Fu Mingyu calling my name, but I was in a dizzy state.

I stood up suddenly, and the world was spinning before my eyes.

"Xixi?"

……

Before I lost my memory, was there a mental illness?

Is this why I forgot everything related to the orphanage and Li Sichen?
In the end what happened.

"Xixi...forget it, I don't blame you, just forget it..."

"Don't be afraid, Xixi, I will always be by your side."

"If your current life makes it easy for you, then forget about me..."

"Cheng Xi, who am I? Am I a forgotten product of your memory?"

"Cheng Xi... don't die, I beg you, don't let me become your legacy, you know I will not live alone."

In my mind, there was always a voice roaring, crying, and yelling.

Xixi, don't leave me.

For a moment of blurred consciousness, I seemed to be back before my death. I ran out of the night in disheveled clothes and was blocked in the alley by those homeless people.

That tall and scary figure, carrying a stick, hit those people hard one after another.

"Touch her and die."

"Don't be afraid...I'm always here."

"Why should you forget me? Am I also a part of your painful memory? Xixi..."

"I do not blame you."

Also, when I passed out in the alley due to hypoglycemia, the figure covered me with clothes, let me lie on his lap, and stayed with me all night.

Ah Xing.

It’s A Xing!
The blurry back slowly became clear.

Ah Xing stood with his back to me in the darkness.

He slowly stopped and looked back at me.

There were tears on his face and blood on his hands.

He looked at me with red eyes. "Xixi...this world is so disgusting."

"A Xing...A Xing."

The moment he turned around, that beam of light seemed to bloom in front of my eyes. He has always been my salvation. He may be a madman or a devil in the eyes of others, but he is my salvation alone.

Just my own salvation.

"A Xing." In my memory, I hugged A Xing so happily and put the gift for him on the table. "This is a gift from my mother to you. I personally selected the clothes. My mother said that you will grow taller, so you need to buy a larger size of clothes."

"Axing, if you weren't a genius, what would you most want to do?"

"Love you……"

You don’t have to be a genius to love you.

Even if I become a fool, I will love you.

Only love you.

"Are you pregnant?" The doctor came to see my condition and asked the nurse to give me glucose. "Pay more attention. After pregnancy, hormones are unstable and you are prone to dizziness, but this is not necessarily the main reason. Please pay more attention."

The doctor's question brought me back from my thoughts.

Unknowingly, tears had soaked my hair.

I was too eager to recall the past memories. Just a few clips related to Ah Xing made my heart hurt so much that I couldn't breathe.

"Doctor..." I asked in a low voice in the treatment room. "Is there any way to quickly restore memory..."

The doctor was stunned for a moment. "Amnesia? Have you been seriously injured before? I don't think you have a history of serious injuries?"

At the door, Fu Mingyu's hand holding the water glass froze, and he quickly ran over and squatted in front of me. "You are Xixi, right..."

I looked at Fu Mingyu with trembling eyes and clenched my fingers until they were numb.

"Mr. Fu, I heard that your mother is exorcising evil spirits for you. I think you are really crazy about gain and loss." I gritted my teeth and said, slapping Fu Mingyu's hand away. "Don't say I'm not Cheng Xi. Even if Cheng Xi is still alive, what do you think is worth her taking another look at?"

Fu Mingyu's eyes turned red. "I can make up for it, at least give me a chance..." "You don't deserve it..." I suppressed my anger and pushed Fu Mingyu away and walked out. "You are a liar."

I have thought of countless reasons why Fu Mingyu no longer loves me, but I have never thought of the fact that I am the one with confused memory, I am the one who loved the wrong person, and I am the one who was deceived.

There was a suppressed fire in my heart, and I felt like I was going crazy. My whole body was shaking to the point where I couldn't walk.

The tears were uncontrollable, and all I could think about was Ah Xing.

He stood in the fog of backlight and looked back at me.

Why? Cheng Xi, why did you forget him, why did you forget him completely, why did you fall in love with someone else as a matter of course... sadomasochism.

Why do you...

I cried and hid in the safe passage, raised my hand and slapped myself hard.

"Why do you..." I am asking myself, why can't I remember, why can't I remember!
"Ah!" I collapsed in despair, squatting in the corner, pulling my hair and growling, why can't I remember everything, why should I forget Asing.

Why should I rely on Fu Mingyu?

So, I deserve to die, right?

Because I 'betrayed' Ah Xing.

So even if he killed me, I deserved it and I should die.

I deserve it!
"Sissy..."

On the stairs of the emergency passage, Ah Xing was wearing a hospital gown and his fingers were bleeding.

I raised my head and looked at him. I couldn't help but lower my head and continued to cry.

"Don't you want me anymore..." Ah Xing walked up to me and spoke in a hoarse voice.

I looked up at him as if I were looking at my god.

He is not the devil, never has been.

"Li Sichen..." I reached out to him.

He grabbed my hand nervously, his eyes panicked.

"Are you a fool..." How can there be a genius like him?

He reached out and pulled me into his arms, hugging me tightly. "Well, I'm a fool..."

As long as Xixi doesn't want him.

"The nurse said she won't let you get out of bed." I cried.

"I'm sorry, I didn't obey." Axing apologized softly, every word seemed to comfort me. "You punish me..."

"Don't let me go, don't let me be taken away, don't believe him..."

"Did you pull out the needle yourself and run away?" I panicked and pressed the back of his hand that was still bleeding and wiped away my tears.

"It doesn't hurt at all..." he whispered, wiping my tears.

"Idiot." I said reproachfully.

"Why are you crying?" Ah Xing held my face and whispered. "Did he make you angry? I killed him..."

I cried and shook my head. "Why can't I remember? I can't remember..."

Why, no matter how hard I try, I can only recall those little fragments of memory.

Why should I forget Ah Xing.

I hate myself, I blame myself.

Ah Xing's fingers froze for a moment, and his fingertips were cold. "Don't think about it...this is good."

He lowered his head and gently kissed the tears at the corners of my eyes.

His movements were very light, as if he was holding his most precious work of art...

Suddenly, I remembered the basement where Gu Yuchen took me, full of glass display cases and animal specimens.

"Axing...why did you collect those animal carcasses? Were you the ones who killed those small animals?" I asked in a low voice.

A Xing's eyes flashed with panic and dodge.

I looked at Ah Xing nervously, fearing that the animal specimens in the glass covers were all killed by him.

"No...it was a gift from someone else." Axing lowered his head and tugged on his fingers.

I was stunned for a moment. Was A Xing lying, or was it really a gift from a friend?

I don’t know why, but the first thing I thought of was Ah Chen. This person disappeared even more cleanly in my memory.

It is easy to see from the photos of Achen’s sister’s residence that the three of us used to have a good relationship. We could at least take photos together, but I have no impression of him at all.

(End of this chapter)