After I died, the scumbag went crazy

Probably because I was frightened, I didn't sleep well.

I was almost violated by Zheng Hao and almost abducted by them. This incident was still very exciting for me.

I'm thinking, if it was not me now but Cheng Xi in the past, how would she handle it?

She would probably have the sense to bring a knife, chop both of them up and hand them over to the police?
But I am not the Cheng Xi that I was then.

Sometimes I also wonder if I am the Cheng Xi that Ah Xing loves.

If Ah Xing loved the old Cheng Xi, then would I still be the one he loved after losing my memory and losing my former personality?

His personality has changed, but is he still the same person?
"Xixi...I want you to live. I just ask you to live."

"Axing...you can't tie me up."

"Cheng Xi, don't be so cruel."

"I have no heart..."

I had a nightmare. In the dream, I kept mutilating and hurting myself. I tried every means to die and to be free.

Ah Xing tied me up with chains and cried and begged me not to do this.

He couldn't stop me, so he committed suicide and self-mutilation with me. He hurt himself in front of me, but I was indifferent and didn't stop him.

"If you want to die, I will accompany you. If you want to hurt yourself, I will accompany you too..." Ah Xing's voice was always full of pleading.

I looked at him indifferently and tried hard to break free of the chains. "Axing, it's useless. We can't escape... I'm just a monster. I won't really have feelings for you. Even if you die in front of me, I won't be really sad."

Ah Xing looked at me desperately, the knife in his hand fell to the ground, blood dripping down his fingertips.

He was silent for a long time and spoke with red eyes. "Xixi, are you hungry? I'm going to buy you something to eat."

He left, he left so desperately.

I struggled hard in my dream, and the clanking sound of the chains made my heart hurt so much.

I really want to call out to Ah Xing and ask him not to hurt himself.

"No...Axing, no."

"Axing!"

I woke up from the dream, my breathing was rapid, and the sweat on my forehead had soaked into my hair.

Axing held me in his arms from behind and whispered comfort. "Xixi...did you have a nightmare?"

I looked at Ah Xing with rapid breathing, took a long breath, and then hugged him.

I don’t know what my feelings are for Ah Xing now, dependence? Still like...

But too many memories are missing, and love can never be reached.

"Stop hurting yourself, okay?" I whispered as my fingers gently touched the scar on his wrist.

Ah Xing's body stiffened while holding me, and he spoke in a low voice. "Xixi, do you feel bad?"

I can feel that he is looking forward to my answer, hoping that I can tell him that I feel sorry for him.

He seemed to have been waiting for an answer.

I was struggling in my heart, even if I lied to him, I still had to say the words that hurt me.

"Axing..." I held his wrist and whispered. "I feel bad."

Ah Xing was stunned for a long time, and suddenly he kissed my forehead as if he was very excited, and then he hugged me and rolled around.

"..." His behavior is a bit childish.

"Stop going away..." In the end, I was held by him and lay on top of him. This action was too ambiguous, and the gun would go off if I wasn't careful.

Ah Xing just looked at me, his eyes were so beautiful, I couldn’t help but sigh with emotion every time I saw them.

"Xixi..." Ah Xing whispered my name, as happy as an adult child.

"You won't disbelieve me, right?" I was eager to find a sense of security.

"I will always... recognize you immediately." Axing pressed my head and kissed my forehead.

I leaned in his arms, lying on my stomach, quietly listening to his heartbeat.

"Let's sleep a little longer, it's still early." Axing whispered.

But I no longer feel sleepy.

Seeing that I wouldn't get off him, Ah Xing carefully moved his body, obviously feeling a little uncomfortable...

I didn't notice it at first until I felt his body heating up.

"Xixi... don't torture me." He begged softly.

My ears turned red and I sat up in confusion.

As soon as he sat up, Ah Xing's expression became even worse.

I quickly lay aside, with my back to Asing, and stopped talking.

It is indeed too dangerous for a man and a woman to lie alone in the same bed.

"Xixi..." Ah Xing hugged me from behind, breathing hot. I'm a little scared, probably because the shadow of losing my child and being forced by Zheng Hao is still there...

"Don't be afraid, I can't bear to touch you." Ah Xing's voice was so gentle that it made people relax.

He just held me like that, and his breathing slowly became hot.

The roots of my ears are getting redder and redder. Why is this person so energetic? He just lay down for a while...

Probably not satisfied with just rubbing, he reached out and held my hand.

I wanted to struggle, but I couldn't resist him. "Xixi...help me."

"..." I don't want to help.

I'm sleepy.

This kind of thing is so dirty.

"Xixi, we are husband and wife." I knew that whenever this happened, he would bring up the topic of husband and wife.

I turned around helplessly, holding my whole body in his arms like a shrimp, helping him...

Although it's not the first time, every time, my heart beats faster and it feels... strange.

It's a feeling I've never felt before.

When she was still Cheng Xi, she had sex with Fu Mingyu more than once, but every time she felt it was humiliating, and she had no good memories at all.

Fu Mingyu mostly vents to me, never comforting me with soft words or gently plucking the nerve strings with his fingers.

"Xixi..." Ah Xing's final voice was slightly sexy, and there was a hint of blush at the end of his eyes.

My fingers felt hot to the touch and I didn't dare look at him.

"The doctor said that if it takes more than a month... you can do that kind of thing." I whispered.

She blushed even more.

Human instinct, I can't let him hold it back like this forever.

Azing paused in holding my finger, pulled me closer, leaned over and kissed me.

His kiss was hot, but he didn't let me stop what I was doing. "I'm afraid of hurting you...three months is best."

He had already asked clearly.

I gritted my teeth and took a bite on his beautiful lip, which made it bleed...

He was so good-looking, his eyebrows and eyes were tinged with eroticism, especially his lips, which were stained with traces of blood. He looked like a fairy, tempting me to bite him.

"Xixi..." He always looks at me with affectionate and hot eyes.

That look seemed to scorch my soul.

I wanted to escape, but he trapped my chin.

He didn't seem to have any extravagant hopes for me to fall in love with him, but he still spoke in a low voice. "Can you love me?"

Love him as much as I once loved Fu Mingyu...

My eyes were red, but I didn't know how to answer his question.

I don't know how to love someone anymore.

I am obviously not in love with Fu Mingyu.

Seeing that I didn't answer, Ah Xing stopped asking and continued to kiss me.

But I found loss in his kiss...

He said: Xixi... This is fine, it’s fine if you don’t love me.

If you don’t love, you won’t be sad after losing.

After struggling for a long time, my wrists were sore and my body was very soft. He finally let me go, wiped it clean, and held me to sleep.

It was probably early the next morning that Ah Xing received a call from Gu Yuchen.

"We have conducted an in-depth investigation on the human traffickers. If we are lucky, we should be able to find those talented young people who disappeared."

"Where is my wife?" Axing asked in a deep voice. He just wanted to help Lin Xi get away with it first.

"There is some trouble. Zheng Hao insists that Lin Xi rescues those street children for human trafficking, saying that she is the mastermind..." Gu Yuchen was a little embarrassed. "We... have to take her away for investigation. This is the rule."

Ah Xing didn't say anything, and I felt his low pressure even when I was half asleep and half awake, as if he wanted to eat people.

"No... don't be angry. This is just a process. We all know that she was wronged. Doesn't that require evidence?" Gu Yuchen panicked.

"Will Zheng Hao die?" Ah Xing wanted Zheng Hao to die.

"Most likely not, the sentence will be several years." Gu Yuchen sighed.

"Okay... then I tell you, he will die." Ah Xing's voice was low, like the call of the god of death.

Gu Yuchen's voice was obviously panicked. "Li Sichen, what do you want to do? He is still in the detention center until the case is over..." (End of Chapter)