You go crazy, I make things worse, I make everyone cry and become the favorite of the group

Chapter 169 I Want to Kill You
"I originally only wanted to usurp the throne, but I thought I could let you go and leave the capital."

Shen Jinmo fell into memories, "But I didn't expect there would be such a day. I am speechless in front of my ancestors."

"Your Majesty, you probably don't know how the common people and other old ministers evaluate me in private."

"In their eyes, I, the Imperial Master, am no different from a young prostitute."

"I have never thought that there is anything wrong with being by the side of a female emperor. The only difference from the previous dynasties is the gender swap, which I can accept. But I cannot accept being by your side without any status, like a pet in captivity."

"I originally thought that everyone was the same, but in the end, you chose to crown Lu Huai as the queen as well. On the day of your wedding, I really wanted to kill you."

Jiang Sier: “…”

"I know you've never taken me seriously. In your eyes, I am different from them. Lu Huai can be your queen, Pei Du is the person you trust the most, you smile when you treat Jiang Xingli, and you indulge Bai Xu. Only me..."

"At one point, I even thought about giving up the throne and staying by your side like them. But you always couldn't see me."

"Later, I thought that I would keep you by my side when I ascend the throne. What you can't give me, I can give you. Then I will keep you alone by my side."

"But I can't seem to wait any longer. You really, really like him. Not the same feeling you have for Pei Du. The two of you don't act like a king and his subject at all. I've never seen the way you act in front of him."

"Similarly, I also feel that he doesn't seem to have a strong obsession with the throne."

"So, I'm going to use him to kill you. Then I'll die with you. They won't go that far, will they? Then you'll be all mine."

"..." This was the first time that Jiang Si'er heard Shen Jinmo's true inner thoughts. It was impossible for her to remain calm. After all, this seemingly gentle man in front of her expressed his love for her and murderous intent in every word.

He had indeed tried to kill her more than once.

Of course, it almost succeeded.

Just a little bit different.

Jiang Si'er couldn't remain calm after hearing his words. She took a deep breath, trying to comfort herself, but she felt that he seemed to need some comfort as well.

"So, after I drank that cup of poisoned wine, were you happy?"

After a long while, she asked this question.

Shen Jinmo stared at the tea leaves floating in the cup and shook his head slowly.

"I regret it very much. So I am very grateful that we still have the opportunity to start over."

"But after you saw me in this world, you still wanted to harm me."

Shen Jinmo still shook his head and argued: "I want you to belong to me."

As he spoke, he began to laugh. "Your Majesty, you are really too eye-catching. I was already very troubled by those competitors. In this world, I am nothing. I am just one of the many suitors who like you, just like them. I am very afraid that I have no advantage and will not be favored by you."

"I hope you can be mine, and I hope your eyes can stay on me a little longer."

"I am not yours, nor anyone else's. Even if Lu Huaiye and I are together, I am not Lu Huaiye's." Jiang Sier corrected his wrong view, "Including you, you only belong to yourself, you only live for yourself. No one can be more important to yourself than you are to yourself."

Shen Jinmo smiled, "But to me, Your Majesty is the most important." "..."

"Don't worry, even so, I don't plan to pursue you."

Jiang Sier was stunned. He didn't expect him to say that. For a moment, he didn't know whether to be happy or sad.

She also worried that he might behave in other, more paranoid ways.

Shen Jinmo explained to her in a gentle voice: "I no longer expect Your Majesty to belong to me alone. I just hope that you can treat me like you treat others."

"I don't ask for more, I just want to get your attention equally."

In fact, deep down, he is also an extremely proud person, but for Jiang Sier, he has always been compromising. This time he lowered his posture and tried to get a little attention from her in this despicable way.

Just like now, he didn't mind showing her his heart again, exposing his dirty, mean, and aggrieved self nakedly in front of her.

"So, my purpose of wanting to join Croissant is the same. You signed other people, and this time I am the only one left. I don't have any ambitions for Croissant. You know, with my current ability, I can still make a name for myself in the entertainment industry without signing with Croissant. But I still hope to stay by your side, just like before."

“I don’t want to be isolated again.”

"You even let Bai Xu stay by your side without any defense and stayed by his side when he was in trouble. I thought if I begged you well, I could do the same. But you rejected me last time."

"..." Jiang Si'er didn't know how many times she felt helpless. She felt the need to defend herself: "I took care of Bai Xu because he is my artist. I am his agent. I can't be indifferent when he got hurt. I didn't mix any personal feelings with it. Don't misunderstand me."

Shen Jinmo remained calm, "I know. So I also want to have the same relationship with you as they have with you. I don't ask for anything more."

"Before, you always said that you hoped we could let go of the past. I did have some plans and obsessions before, but now I hope I can really let go of the past, and I hope Your Majesty can do the same."

"Okay." Jiang Sier agreed. "But I still want to tell you clearly that even if you sign with me, we are just partners and friends in private. I won't have any other thoughts about you."

Shen Jinmo sighed and smiled, "Okay. Friends are good too."

"Besides that, I still want to apologize to you for what happened before."

Regardless, I still have to say sorry.

She had wanted to say it earlier, but she didn't have the heart to interrupt him.

Shen Jinmo knew why she apologized, "Although now that I think about it, it's not your Majesty's fault, I still want to accept your apology this time."

Jiang Si'er couldn't help laughing out loud. After letting down his guard, he looked at Shen Jinmo again and found that he was actually... quite interesting.

"It's good that you can accept it, otherwise I will have to atone for my sins." She joked, "How about I kowtow to you? Can you be so generous and forgive me?"

The smile in Shen Jinmo's eyes deepened. This was the first time he saw Jiang Sier showing such an unguarded side in front of him.

very childish.

But also very cute.