The betrothal gift is 100,000 yuan, what does it mean to give 200,000

Chapter 439 Pressure Cycle
A desk lamp was on on the desk, and the room seemed to be muted.

A warm yellow halo illuminated Jiang Ning's cheeks, and she looked a little drunk.

The thick curtains block out the sound of wind outside.

Jiang Ning was happy tonight and drank a lot. According to her usual drinking amount, she would be almost in a state of confusion. Because she had to send someone off, she had been holding on until now.

She went to the study where no one would disturb her and rested for a long time, finally recovering from the dizzy state.

During this period of time, Jiang Ning felt countless pressures brought by life.

But now, she actually felt a sense of happiness and relief after the transformation and rebirth.

Because growing up is always a false word.

She always felt that she had grown up, and when she protected and took care of her younger sister in various matters, her uncle always said that she had the feeling of a 'little adult', but in fact she did not.

When studying abroad, a person faces an unfamiliar environment and faces various challenges. She overcame them all and obtained the degree she wanted. She felt that she had grown up, but in fact she had not.

She left Mingzhu City with her sister and came to Lanjing. Facing the daily necessities of life, the two of them lived a good life. She was also very satisfied with her job and the sense of honor brought by the profession of teacher. She stepped out of the ivory tower of school and became a part of building society. She felt that she had grown up, but in fact she had not.

She ran and chased.

But I don’t understand what I’m chasing.

It is a vague, general concept, something that can never be touched.

She wanted it very much, and every time she thought she had got it, after a while, she realized she didn't get it at all.

Therefore, she feels that growing up is a false and empty word.

Then she found out she was wrong again.

After going around in circles for a long time, Jiang Ning realized that what she wanted was not to grow up.

It is to prove to others, it is meaningless to real life, and there is no benefit after obtaining it...

She didn't desire this, and in so many moments, Jiang Ning never realized this.

After receiving the news that the company was acquired, she gradually came to her senses and understood what really happened. She felt a great happiness falling on her head.

That kind of happiness even makes people dizzy.

She was ashamed to admit what she was thinking.

She was stunned by the sweetness and joy in her heart.

After being drunk.

Think back to the experiences of the past twenty years.

Jiang Ning discovered that she did not enjoy the process of endless hard work and struggle, that was an illusion of self-deception.

Because of her identity, everything she saw, and because of her deceased father and ignorant sister, the precocious Jiang Ning constructed an infinite loop in her still unsound outlook on life - pathological belief in herself and reliance on herself.

Only in this way can you become strong, escape bad luck and have a happy life.

This cycle made her ignore her inner feelings and made it impossible for her to stop and take a good look at herself.

She suddenly realized an unbelievable fact.

When the young Jiang Ning stepped forward, grabbed the ruler in Jiang Ruxue's hand, frowned and asked her to stop.

After graduating from high school, Jiang Ning, who went abroad to study at a university, was stared at by a homeless person on the street on a rainy day and hid alone in an unfamiliar street corner.

When we arrived at Lanjing and were carrying countless large and small bags to move into the suite, the elevator was out of service, so we had to drag ourselves up the stairs while holding our clothes.

Countless times, she fantasized about having someone standing by her side.

He blocked the ruler for her, stood in front of her, and picked up the package. That man was as warm and trustworthy as a father.

The man's shoulders were neither broad nor narrow, just enough for her to lean on.

Self-improvement and constantly solving problems can indeed give people a sense of infinite accomplishment. This feeling will nourish a person, allowing him to climb upward infinitely and also exercise his own tenacious character.

But Jiang Ning was a little too morbid.

Her stubbornness has somewhat hindered her steps.

If this long-term self-suppression is not improved, it will eventually cause unimaginable backlash.

People need to be vulnerable occasionally to release their emotions.

Jiang Yao always said that her sister was a terrible person and that there must be a violent person hidden deep inside. This was probably the conclusion that the younger sister came to after witnessing her sister's repression over the years.

Not a lie.

In other words, people who put unlimited pressure on themselves for some purpose are ruthless people.

Time passed by, and when Jiang Ning woke up a little, she rubbed her cheeks and stood up from her chair.

There were "bang bang" sounds coming from the study. Some books that were not placed firmly fell from the bookshelf and landed on the ground, but Jiang Ning didn't care.

She pushed the bookshelf, opened the box that Jiang Ruxue had hidden, and took out a photo of her father and Jiang Ruxue when they were young.

Looking at the familiar yet unfamiliar father in the photo frame, Jiang Ning had a lot to say, but it was difficult to find a starting point in her aimless thoughts.

She wanted to say that this time was really difficult. After she left her grandparents' house, she felt desperate and wanted to find a place to cry and release her grievances, but she felt it was shameful to cry like that. She wanted to say that she didn't blame her grandparents and uncles. After all, her mother had made such a mess and didn't show any mercy. She could understand. She wanted to say that she and Yaoyao were living well now, but they had encountered an unsolvable problem. She couldn't figure out the answer to this problem. She wanted to say that even if she lived a poor life in the future, she would not complain. As long as her mother was safe, it would be fine.

She wanted to say:
Dad, you should be proud to have a daughter like me. I can take care of my sister and I am also taking care of my mother.

Your spirit in heaven should be very pleased...

……

downstairs.

Chen Yuan was comforting Jiang Yao in a low voice.

"You're wrong to think so. You can't say you're useless. If I went back to Lanjing with you and knew about this, we would also try our best to solve the problem first. Yaoyao, you are actually a very reliable person when encountering things. This is just a matter of who came first. The key is that you were in Tokyo at the time."

"Do you really think so?" Jiang Yao curled her lips, not quite believing it.

"To be honest, Yaoyao, you appear to be lively and outgoing, but this is just a mask. I know very well that when you take off the mask, the mature you will appear, and everyone will be surprised by your transformation."

"Hehehe," Jiang Yao couldn't help but curl up the corners of her mouth, smiling very cutely: "You found out all this."

She raised her head and felt a little proud.

After a year of dating, Chen Yuan can be said to have understood Jiang Yao well enough.

These three sentences turned Yaoyao into a human machine.

"Okay, okay, let me rest for a while and get off me." Chen Yuan pushed her without any mercy.

Jiang Yao fell on the sofa in an instant.

When she stood up, the hair on her cheeks was a little messy, but there was no resentment at all, and the corners of her mouth were still slightly raised.

"Why are you pushing me? It's annoying~"

"Hey, stop pretending, I'm getting goosebumps."

"Why? You seem a little restrained in my house. You're not like this in the hotel..." Jiang Yao bit her lip and acted coquettishly.

(End of this chapter)