Classmate Li Zhuangsheng doesn’t want to be reborn

Chapter 552

Although there were many twists and turns in the process, everything went just as Hu Mengdie expected.

After breaking up with Li Zhuangsheng, she just sent a text message of condolence and then calmed down, recovering from her injuries and waiting for the opportunity.

She knew that Li Xiuyu would come to her, so there was no need to make any small moves that were not in line with her personality in advance. Today's schedule was also very smooth, and the four of them playing cards would make Li Zhuangsheng recall the good old days.

When people are hurt, they always miss the good things. Hu Mengdie thought that she had done nothing wrong to Li Zhuangsheng back then, and that was also a happy memory.

Even cooking went smoothly.

Simply imitating the future Hu Mengdie will not be able to replace her. Only by giving Li Zhuangsheng some unexpected surprises and letting him discover some differences can he be attracted.

So Hu Mengdie chose to cook. A guy like Li Zhuangsheng would definitely not be able to refuse a beautiful girl wearing an apron. Although Zhu Zhixue was a beautiful woman before, being her "ex-wife" would not be much different.

In order to make Li Zhuangsheng sure who she learned to cook for, Hu Mengdie even deliberately mentioned the conversation between the three of them in the restaurant last year. However, her "grudge" at this time did not highlight her stinginess.

In fact, Hu Mengdie had no intention of "taking advantage of the opportunity" to take down Li Zhuangsheng directly, because Li Zhuangsheng was very sensitive, and if she acted too radically, the other party would definitely notice it and even be alert.

Moreover, if things progress too quickly, Zhu Zhixue will definitely come to her senses, and this is not the result Hu Mengdie wants.

She only needed to intervene a little bit, and she had enough patience. After all, she had been enduring for more than a year.

Hu Mengdie was not worried for the time being that Li Zhuangsheng would get back together with Zhu Zhixue, because Li Zhuangsheng was a proud person at heart, even arrogant.

Hu Mengdie had noticed this a long time ago. From childhood to adulthood, Hu Mengdie had never lacked suitors, and their methods of pursuit were varied, but without exception, they would almost always humble themselves in front of her, or even bow down to her.

Hu Mengdie understood that this was because of her appearance. She had long been accustomed to it and didn't even care.

But Li Zhuangsheng was different. When he was with her, it was more of a test than a flattery. He tried to be nice to her and then observed her reaction.

If Hu Mengdie showed a little indifference, he would also become indifferent. But his indifference was a kind of discouragement, ready to give up at any time.

Although Li Zhuangsheng ridiculed himself as a licking dog, Hu Mengdie never thought so. Li Zhuangsheng has never been a qualified licking dog, even in front of Hu Mengdie.

It was the first time that Hu Mengdie felt like she was out of control.

Before she established a relationship with Li Zhuangsheng, she could always feel his gentleness and kindness, but she also felt that as long as she took a step back, this gentleness and kindness would immediately become polite.

Li Zhuangsheng had no attachment to her...

Even if Hu Mengdie said one day that we were not suitable, he would never bow his head to keep her. So when Li Zhuangsheng finally asked her if they were dating, Hu Mengdie nodded.

What she thought at that time was that if she refused at that moment, or did not make a clear statement but said something ambiguous, Li Zhuangsheng would definitely leave him.

He might feel embarrassed or sad, but he would definitely turn around and not give her another chance.

If you don't like me, forget it, sorry to bother you. This is Li Zhuangsheng's logic.

Unlike Hu Mengdie's previous suitors, who were reluctant to give up, pestering her, and even writing her a long string of essays that she was too lazy to read.

He was really arrogant, he looked harmless, even too gentle on the surface, using his gentle appearance to cover up his inner arrogance.

I don't know who made him so arrogant, maybe it was Li Xiuyu. After all, with such a beautiful sister, it is normal to regard beautiful women as nothing.

It was this pride that made him decisively choose to divorce after seeing the video.

Hu Mengdie even felt that what Li Zhuangsheng really cared about was not the ownership of her first love, but his pride and unwillingness to accept the fact that after his identity as a "savior" was exposed, he had to cover it up as if nothing had happened.

He can give all the tenderness to others, but he will not accept charity from others.

This is the fundamental contradiction between Hu Mengdie and him. He felt that Hu Mengdie did not really love him, but was compromising with reality and giving him "charity". His pride could not accept someone who did not love him from the inside out, and he felt that this was a humiliation to him, even though the other person was a great beauty like Hu Mengdie.

Although Li Zhuangsheng said a lot of things when he rejected her, Hu Mengdie summarized his core idea into just one: If you don't love me, get out of here.

This is a really annoying character for Hu Mengdie. But it is the same for Zhu Zhixue.

As long as Zhu Zhixue proposed to break up, Li Zhuangsheng would not beg her to stay no matter how painful it was. He would be reluctant to let her go, but he would not act like a defeated dog.

In fact, Hu Mengdie knew very well that if Li Zhuangsheng really apologized to Zhu Zhixue with tears in his eyes and even knelt down, Zhu Zhixue would most likely soften her heart, but unfortunately Li Zhuangsheng would not do so.

When Hu Mengdie was chatting with Li Zhuangsheng, Li Zhuangsheng once inadvertently said that if a person does not love himself, no one will love him. If a person does not even respect himself, he will not be respected by others.

He was not talking about himself at the time, but they were talking about a friend of Hu Mengdie. He also took out the example of "Chinese Partners" and said that the most impressive part of the whole movie was said by the third male lead. The gist of it was that when a girl wants to break up with you, trying to keep her will only make her throw you away like waste paper. The only thing you should do is to turn around and leave without hesitation.

That's the crux of the problem.

According to Hu Mengdie's understanding, Li Zhuangsheng could kneel down and kowtow 100 times to help a passerby, but he would not bend over backwards because of personal feelings, even if that person was Hu Mengdie, even if that person was Zhu Zhixue who loved him deeply.

Li Zhuangsheng once said that he was a loser who was not loved by anyone, so if a girl was nice to him, he would be eager to open his heart to her.

What a bastard who didn't know himself well. He grew up with Li Xiuyu, and he was not a loser who was not loved by anyone. He was obviously a stubborn and proud person.

He is just too gentle, and when others are kind to him, he will return the favor double. This actually has nothing to do with love between men and women.

The person who truly lacks love is Hu Mengdie herself.

So she was attracted to Li Zhuangsheng, not only because of his pure and unpolluted childlike heart, but also because of his selfless kindness to her like a young man.

Rather than an unconcealable desire.

Unfortunately, she didn't know that Li Zhuangsheng's intention was really nothing. By the time she found out the truth, it was too late. She was already deeply involved and couldn't extricate herself.

The above is Hu Mengdie’s perspective.

"Just say what you want to say quickly. Go back early. Your house usually has access control, right?" Li Zhuangsheng took a step back awkwardly.

To be honest, he felt that breathing alone with Hu Mengdie now was a minor infidelity.

"I just want to know why you two broke up." "This... is my personal privacy. But it really has nothing to do with you..." Li Zhuangsheng said after thinking for a while.

He recalled what Zhu Zhixue said, Hu Mengdie and Lin Yuehua were probably at a 30:70 level.

"It's personal privacy, but I can guess it." Hu Mengdie sighed softly, "Zhu Zhixue, you came to me after you broke up."

"What did she say to you?" Li Zhuangsheng was shocked.

"I won't tell you. This is my personal privacy." Hu Mengdie counterattacked.

Of course she would not tell Li Zhuangsheng the truth. She just used this method to make Li Zhuangsheng uncomfortable.

Li Zhuangsheng looked at her speechlessly. The boomerang came so fast.

"I think she still loves you. This breakup may just be a momentary impulse. She will calm down after a while."

Hu Mengdie pretended to be gentle and comforted him. What she said was pure nonsense, and Li Zhuangsheng knew it even if she didn't say it. But what she knew more was that every bit of gentleness she showed to Li Zhuangsheng would be remembered by him and rewarded.

"I feel that it was not a momentary impulse..." Li Zhuangsheng said in a low voice, "but a long-standing grudge."

"But she loves you, doesn't she?"

"That's true..."

Li Zhuangsheng sighed quietly. In fact, this was his last resort. He hoped that Zhu Zhixue's feelings for him would be enough for them to reconcile.

The corners of Hu Mengdie's mouth froze slightly. Although she was the one who said the words, she still felt jealous when she heard Li Zhuangsheng speak without hesitation.

Even at this point, Li Zhuangsheng did not doubt Zhu Zhixue's feelings for him.

Damn it! If she loved you, why would she break up with you? Hu Mengdie thought bitterly.

"Well, I'm glad you can think positively... Don't be too sad, you still have a chance." Hu Mengdie said reluctantly.

"Thank you for your concern."

"It's okay, it's mainly because of your sister. She cares about you the most." Hu Mengdie smiled, "You may not know that she has talked to me a lot these days!"

"Yes, I know." Li Zhuangsheng smiled, "After all, she is my sister!"

Hu Mengdie nodded slightly.

"Thank you for coming to play with me today. I am very grateful to you!" Li Zhuangsheng said again.

"It's okay, we're still friends after the divorce!" Hu Mengdie said playfully, "Who made you my ex-husband?"

"Oh, by the way, I have something... I want to tell you." Li Zhuangsheng suddenly looked at Hu Mengdie, his tone hesitant.

It was very dark at this time, and neither of them could see each other's faces. There was only the starry sky and the quiet croaking of frogs in the summer night.

"What's the matter?" Hu Mengdie was stunned.

"Actually, I didn't want to tell you." Li Zhuangsheng licked his lips. "I wanted to tell her."

"She?" Hu Mengdie didn't react for a moment and still thought it was Zhu Zhixue.

"That's you in the future." Li Zhuangsheng grinned, "That's my real ex-wife."

Hu Mengdie was horrified. What did this mean? Has he discovered it?

"It's a pity that she is no longer here..." Li Zhuangsheng continued, "Of course, I'm not saying anything bad about you, it's just... I really want to say this to her."

"What...do you mean?" Hu Mengdie asked tentatively, "What do you want to say?"

"sorry."

Li Zhuangsheng lowered his head.

"Ah?" Hu Mengdie frowned fiercely. What is that?
Sorry again? What's the point of saying this at this time?

What's more, even if Li Zhuangsheng wasn't tired of saying the three words "I'm sorry", she was tired of hearing them!
"I now deeply understand that people cannot understand each other. If you want to truly understand, you have to stand in the other person's shoes." Li Zhuangsheng said, "So, these days, I can't help but think about how sad she must have been when I rejected her."

Hu Mengdie was stunned.

"Actually..." Li Zhuangsheng took a deep breath, "I felt guilty before. Maybe she wrote in that diary that I said a lot of excessive things when I rejected her. It really wasn't my intention at that time, and I really feel sorry... But when I was feeling bad these past few days, I suddenly thought. Zhu Zhixue just dumped me very gently, and I felt so bad... Then when she lost her face and dignity, but was verbally attacked by me, how sad and painful she must have been. I'm sorry for her, I'm really sorry for her."

Hu Mengdie stared at Li Zhuangsheng blankly, her heart in turmoil.

"Actually, it's useless for me to say these now. I have deeply hurt her and there is no way to make up for it." Li Zhuangsheng turned his head and looked up at the starry sky, and said in a hoarse voice, "Haha, I don't know what kind of feeling this is. Maybe it's sympathy. I really feel guilty. Actually, there is no point in telling you... But if I don't say it, it's really uncomfortable. If time could go back, I would definitely not say such cruel words to her."

"What's the use of you telling me all this now?" Hu Mengdie clenched her fists slowly.

"It's useless. Maybe I'm just touching myself." Li Zhuangsheng smiled very ugly. "I'm sorry. After all, you are the same person. If you did something wrong, you should apologize. Forgiveness is one thing, and apology is another."

"After Zhu Zhixue dumped you, did you realize her pain?"

"Yes, I'm a really bad person... Before this, I only knew that I was too much, but this time I really realized that for the person involved... it's so much. Don't misunderstand her. Although I was the one who filed for divorce, she is actually a really good person. She sometimes cleans my study and organizes my books. She respects my preferences and never stops me from playing games. She even cuts fruit plates for me. She actually knows that I like to eat pears. Sometimes I throw my clothes around, and she folds them for me. She has never complained about me... She is actually a really good person. She shouldn't be treated like that by me. I am sorry for her. I want to kowtow to her and apologize!"

"Ha ha……"

Hu Mengdie listened and suddenly couldn't help laughing twice. Her nose felt sore and tears burst out instantly with all the grievances and resentment. Fortunately, it was a dark and windy night and Li Zhuangsheng didn't look at her, so she quietly wiped away her tears.

"You just said that you regretted treating her like that. If you were given the choice again and went back to before she disappeared, would you choose her or Zhu Zhixue?"

(End of this chapter)