Classmate Li Zhuangsheng doesn’t want to be reborn

Chapter 632 Smart
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"Look, honey, does this sound like your tone? Our sister can't tell, right?"

Hu Mengdie smiled and showed Li Zhuangsheng the reply to Li Xiuyu. Li Zhuangsheng was in a daze without any life.

"Hubby, please don't be like this." Hu Mengdie smiled and threw her phone aside, which was about to run out of battery. She hugged Li Zhuangsheng affectionately again and whispered in his ear, "I have good news to tell you again. I didn't lie just now. You are really my first man, in this life and in this life. On 0520, you made me lose my virginity."

Li Zhuangsheng raised his eyelids.

"Are you happy? Hehe, we are destined to be Zhuangzi's dream and butterfly. How could I let another man enter my body before you? I am a chaste and heroic woman!"

"Do you want to know why I didn't tell you before? Hehe, if you ask me, I'll tell you."

Li Zhuangsheng remained silent. Hu Mengdie smiled and said, "It's fine if you don't ask. It doesn't matter now!"

Hu Mengdie did not lie, because she was brought up in a strict family, and even when she was the most rebellious, she felt that the first time should be saved for the wedding night. Moreover, there were many boys pursuing her, which made her think highly of herself, and she felt that she had the "confidence" to let the man accept this test.

Maybe in her heart, she didn't love Qi Haoyu very much, she just wanted to resist the big hand that was manipulating her life.

But Hu Mengdie didn't expect that soon after entering university, she learned from Qi Haoyu's roommate that he had been soliciting prostitution. I don't know why the roommate told Hu Mengdie, whether it was out of justice or jealousy. In short, the purpose is not important. What is important is that Hu Mengdie knew what Qi Haoyu had done.

She confronted Qi Haoyu immediately. Qi Haoyu wanted to deny it at first, but when Hu Mengdie showed him the evidence, Qi Haoyu finally had to admit it. Hu Mengdie proposed to break up, and Qi Haoyu knelt on the ground to admit his mistake. Seeing him crying, Hu Mengdie finally softened her heart and asked Qi Haoyu to write a letter of guarantee before reluctantly forgiving him.

But this was only superficial forgiveness. From then on, whenever Qi Haoyu wanted to get close to Hu Mengdie, she would think of Qi Haoyu's prostitution. She felt as uncomfortable as if she had eaten a fly, and could not help but reject his touch.

Hu Mengdie thought this was a "punishment" for Qi Haoyu's infidelity, and she didn't think there was anything wrong with her doing this. If you do something wrong, you should be punished, right? I have forgiven him, so he should be content and change his ways from now on.

However, Hu Mengdie's "punishment" brought Qi Haoyu's second betrayal. He cheated with a schoolmate. Because the two schools were far apart, Qi Haoyu cheated for more than half a year before Hu Mengdie discovered it.

Hu Mengdie trembled as she read the chat records between the two. The progress of this couple was amazing. They had even checked into a room. The explicit conversation between them made her furious. She once again proposed to break up, but Qi Haoyu still knelt down and begged for mercy.

He made the excuse that it was his junior who seduced him first, and Hu Mengdie was not around, so he was just confused for a moment. At the same time, he repeatedly assured that he would break up with the junior and swore that there would be no next time.

So, Hu Mengdie forgave him for the second time, but she became more resistant to Qi Haoyu.

Although she forgave Qi Haoyu's cheating, Hu Mengdie was tormented in her heart. Hu Mengdie didn't understand why he cheated. There were obviously many boys pursuing her, so why could she stick to her heart but he couldn't?
Is it him who is not good enough, or is it all men who are not good enough?

She no longer had the energy to investigate. Because of her tolerance, Qi Haoyu became even more unscrupulous. He cheated again and even solicited prostitution. He was caught again and again, and he knelt down to apologize again and again.

Even at the end, Qi Haoyu had already confidently accused Hu Mengdie. He blamed Hu Mengdie for not fulfilling her responsibilities as a girlfriend, not even letting him touch her hand. Which man could stand that?
The reason he cheated on his wife was all Hu Mengdie’s fault!
Hu Mengdie was in great torment and struggle. Wasn't it because of Qi Haoyu that she was like this? Why did it become her fault? He had clearly asked her for forgiveness, so why was he blaming her now?

In this painful torment, she thought about ending her relationship with Qi Haoyu countless times, but he kept pestering her to admit his mistakes. After all, they still had feelings for each other for many years.

More importantly, Hu Mengdie was a person who cared a lot about her reputation. If they broke up, Qi Haoyu would definitely make a scene that was extremely disgraceful.

But she is Hu Mengdie, she should be the most perfect and decent! Who doesn't know that she and Qi Haoyu were campus lovers? So even if she was cheated on, even if she was in great pain, she had to create an appearance that the two of them were always sweet.

She has been living a good life, and she wants not only her classmates and friends to know it, but also her father to know it.

Her rebellion against her father with gritted teeth and stubbornness, and her protest against his wanton manipulation of her life, was an extremely correct decision!

She didn't want to admit defeat. She would never bow her head in front of her father again and admit her mistakes to him! That would mean a complete failure in her life, a sneer of contempt on her father's face from now on, and her self-esteem would be completely trampled under her father's feet!
From now on, her pain and failure will become the sharpest blade that her father will use to hit and hurt her after dinner!
So, even though her relationship with Qi Haoyu was in name only, and even though she was extremely depressed and painful inside, she gritted her teeth and persevered.

Although she clearly knew that all her persistence and disguise was just a self-deceiving joke. Just like the story of the man from Zheng buying shoes in the first ancient Chinese text in junior high school, the man from Zheng must have known that he was wrong in the end, but he could only be stubborn and not admit it. Just like Ah Q in the high school text, blind self-esteem and inferiority are intertwined, painful and confused.

But the two broke up because Qi Haoyu completely touched her bottom line.

At that time, Hu Mengke had just dropped out of technical secondary school, and Hu Mengdie originally wanted to invite her to Nanjing to relax and have a good talk. But at this time, Qi Haoyu actually wanted to make a move on her sister, Hu Mengke.

This was the straw that broke the camel's back.

It was not only because Hu Mengke was her sister, the closest relative in the world, but also because Qi Haoyu's action completely tore apart the shadow play that Hu Mengdie had been creating in front of her family all these years.

She read confusion and a hint of sneer in Hu Mengke's eyes when he looked at her.

Hu Mengdie resolutely broke up with him. Over the years, she kept all the evidence of Qi Haoyu's cheating and prostitution, as well as the video of him crying and begging for her forgiveness. She used these to threaten Qi Haoyu, saying that if he didn't agree, she would send these things to all his friends and family.

Finally, it’s over after years of tormenting each other.

She was exhausted physically and mentally, like a lost dog. However, Qi Haoyu wanted to step on her lost dog again. He agreed to break up, but the condition was that Hu Mengdie would accompany him for one night.

It turned out that Qi Haoyu only cared about her body. He was so unwilling to accept that he had been dating for so many years but still hadn't slept with her. Fortunately, Hu Mengdie had evidence of him cheating in the exam and hiring someone to write his graduation project for him. So he didn't succeed.

After that, there is no story. She returned home and admitted her complete failure to her father in the most undignified way, allowing herself to rot bit by bit... until she met Li Zhuangsheng.

Li Zhuangsheng was a classmate of hers, and he only knew about her past relationship with Qi Haoyu. When the two of them were chatting, Hu Mengdie had already noticed that he never talked about her past relationship history, which just showed that he cared about it. Li Zhuangsheng probably also tacitly acknowledged that she and Qi Haoyu had had it.

Not only Li Zhuangsheng, almost everyone, including her parents, thought that she had had a relationship with Qi Haoyu.

Yes, you loved so passionately at the beginning, how could you remain chaste after so many years?
The world seems to have changed over the years.

When they were in school, everyone said that "relationships that are not aimed at marriage are hooliganism" and everyone agreed that the first time should be saved for the wedding night... Why do they think now that she must progress to that step with Qi Haoyu?

Or is this just how the world is, and only in the ivory tower of high school does such fantasy of love exist?
Hu Mengdie did not explain to anyone except Xie Jiangqing, who did not know that her virginity was still there.

Of course, Li Zhuangsheng will eventually know about this matter. If he knows it, he will definitely be happier.

However, Hu Mengdie did not intend to tell him, perhaps because it would be considered as "fawning". She wanted to wait until the first time between the two of them, and then let Li Zhuangsheng know.

What would Li Zhuangsheng's expression be at that time? He would definitely pretend not to care, but his mouth would be raised to the sky, right?
But Li Xiuyu changed her mind.

Speaking of Li Xiuyu, this bitch, Hu Mengdie hated her to the core. She was the instigator of everything.

At the beginning, it was she who deliberately threw Li Zhuangsheng's remarks in the family group online, such as "I will not marry unless she is a virgin", in front of Hu Mengdie.

Of course, Hu Mengdie didn't feel any emotion after reading it, she just wanted to laugh.

I am Hu Mengdie, I am so beautiful and gentle, not to mention that it is my virginity, so what if I am not a virgin?
Isn’t your brother so considerate and caring towards me?

Before she met Li Zhuangsheng, her life could be said to be a complete failure, but her appearance was the only thing she was confident about.

She read some of Li Zhuangsheng's remarks with great interest. She could understand some of Li Zhuangsheng's remarks and did not feel offended. After all, she was still a virgin. What did it have to do with her if he did not marry a virgin?
What's wrong with a pure boy who has never had a girlfriend having some fantasies about love? You can't blame others for not tolerating you just because you have an unruly private life, right?

They didn't make personal attacks on non-virgins, so what's wrong with expressing their own mate selection criteria? You non-virgins have the same status as us virgins, so what's the point of us keeping our virginity pure?
Looking at the relevant remarks made by Li Zhuangsheng in the past, Hu Mengdie just smiled and thought that after getting these "black histories", she could tease him in the future.

But after reading it, Hu Mengdie's mentality changed slightly.

It turns out that some boys care so much about a girl’s first time?
She is not a boy, so she cannot see things from a boy's perspective. She just vaguely knows that many boys want to have sex with girls once. She can understand that people want to monopolize beautiful things, just like she is a little glad that Li Zhuangsheng has never had any women before.

The original purpose of reading these things was to further understand Li Zhuangsheng's inner thoughts. Now that she knew it, Hu Mengdie had other thoughts.

She believed that Li Zhuangsheng's kindness to her was 100% good and unreserved, even though she was "not a virgin".

If the other person loves her so sincerely and passionately, then what benefits can the identity of "virgin" bring to her?

Among the posts forwarded by Li Zhuangsheng, there is one that roughly says that the identity of a virgin is a layer of resurrection armor, which is a blood pack when the blood is low.

But Hu Mengdie is very good at playing Honor of Kings. She thinks that the resurrection armor is not used when the blood is full, and the blood pack is not eaten when the blood is full.

On the one hand, Hu Mengdie is confident in Li Zhuangsheng's unconditional love for her at the moment, but on the other hand, she is afraid that one day in the future Li Zhuangsheng will see through her empty inner self.

Perhaps because Li Zhuangsheng's gentle love confused her, she made the most wrong decision in her life, which was also the most foolish little cleverness:

She decided not to let Li Zhuangsheng know for the time being.

Since Li Zhuangsheng thought she was "not a virgin" at the moment, she would not talk about it for now. In the future, when Li Zhuangsheng's feelings for her faded and he felt "not good enough", or when she did something wrong, she would bring this up again.

At that time, she could also act aggrieved, stand on the moral high ground, make Li Zhuangsheng feel guilty, and thus control this relationship... As for why she didn't tell him before, she could explain it in any way she wanted. She gave it to Li Zhuangsheng for the first time, but she was "wronged", so of course she had the final right to explain! She could point fingers at Li Zhuangsheng at will!
She felt that she knew Li Zhuangsheng too well, and the other party would definitely believe her words. Moreover, she had all kinds of evidence against Qi Haoyu and screenshots of his remarks during the subsequent entanglement, as well as Xie Jiangqing as a witness.

In order to prevent Li Zhuangsheng from discovering the big flaws, before May 520, Hu Mengdie carefully studied the relevant knowledge from the Internet, and also arranged the room as a dark room, and took the lead in inviting Li Zhuangsheng to come in order to take the initiative.

It went smoothly the first time. Afterwards, she put away the bloody bed sheet, feeling very proud of her little plan.

Unfortunately, she was too young and had simple ideas at that time. She was also confused by Li Zhuangsheng's appearance and did not truly understand his inner world.

The health pack should be eaten when the enemy is almost at the killing line, but who could have known that for Li Zhuangsheng, as long as the blood is not full, it can be at the killing line, which is so unexpected!
After her rebirth, Hu Mengdie tossed and turned in sleep countless times, regretted her own cleverness countless times, and was filled with hatred for the culprit Li Xiuyu countless times.

If she hadn't shown herself Li Zhuangsheng's remarks, she would never have done such a stupid thing!

(End of this chapter)