Classmate Li Zhuangsheng doesn’t want to be reborn

Chapter 646 Untitled
"You are really crazy!" Hu Mengdie was angry, with a trembling of disbelief in her voice, "Do you really want to die!"

"I don't want to die, but I'm not afraid of death, nor am I afraid of becoming a ghost." Li Xiuyu showed his white teeth, "I will go to hell after I die, but so what?"

Li Xiuyu's tone was extremely light, but his eyes revealed unusual ruthlessness and determination.

The ruthlessness in the other party's tone made Hu Mengdie shudder. The color on her face faded instantly, and then turned red again because of uncontrollable anger.

"You are really crazy, do you think what you are doing will help? You will only drive him to death!"

"Then you wait." Li Xiuyu lowered his eyes.

Li Zhuangsheng came back, looking dejected. He had just gone to pay the bill, and when he came back he sat by the bed with a blank look in his eyes.

Hu Mengdie didn't know what to say for a moment, so she could only walk up to him and pat him on the back.

Li Zhuangsheng had no reaction, but his eyes were bleak.

"You should go to school. You can't always ask for leave." Li Zhuangsheng said in a hoarse voice.

"It's okay, it's okay." Hu Mengdie hugged Li Zhuangsheng gently.

Li Zhuangsheng murmured softly: "What on earth do you want me to be let go of? What on earth do you want me to be let go of?"

No one answered him. Hu Mengdie and Li Xiuyu were both silent.

Tears of pain rolled down Li Zhuangsheng's eyes and he cried inconsolably in the hospital.

Li Zhuangsheng stayed with Li Xiuyu for two days and then took him out of the hospital.

"Do you want to tell your uncle and aunt?" Hu Mengdie asked.

"It's useless, it's useless..."

It's useless to tell anyone what Li Xiuyu wants to do. Her parents can't control her.

Li Zhuangsheng looked ashen, and when he was going down the stairs, he missed a step and almost fell down. Li Xiuyu just watched calmly, and Hu Mengdie silently stepped forward to support him.

She supported the two of them and limped back home. When she got home, she suddenly thought, isn't this the way Li Zhuangsheng looks now what she wanted to see? Isn't it her wish to see Li Zhuangsheng in pain?

Why was she angry now? So upset?

Oh, yes, she wanted to see Li Zhuangsheng suffer because of her, not Li Xiuyu. Now, his mind was full of Li Xiuyu.

I didn't expect Li Xiuyu to be so cruel, so cruel that he would not even risk his life. But even if Li Zhuangsheng's energy was diverted to him, it would not be able to cure the trauma in his heart.

After bringing the two injured people home, Hu Mengdie cooked in the kitchen in a upset mood.

"Xiu Yu, why are you doing this?"

In the bedroom, Li Zhuangsheng was in tears, exhausted both physically and mentally, as if he had aged 20 years.

He questioned Li Xiu Yu, but his voice no longer had any weight.

If the last time might have been an accident, then this time, Li Zhuangsheng could also see that Li Xiuyu did it on purpose.

Li Xiuyu did not answer, but just lowered his head silently. His expression was the same as Li Zhuangsheng's before, he didn't know whether he was alive or dead.

"Don't be like this, okay?" Li Zhuangsheng hugged Li Xiuyu tightly.

Li Xiuyu remained silent.

Li Zhuangsheng burst into tears: "Are you going to force me to death? Will this end only when I die? I've had enough, I really have had enough!"

"It's okay. If you don't want to live, just die. We will die together." Li Xiuyu held Li Zhuangsheng's hand.

"I don't want you to die, you have to live well, I beg you, I beg you...you live well, okay?"

Li Zhuangsheng roared in pain, the voice seemed to be squeezed out of his throat, full of pleading.

However, what responded to him was still Li Xiuyu's silence.

"What on earth do you want from me? What on earth do you want from me!"

Li Zhuang was so angry that he stamped his feet and banged his head against the wall, causing it to bleed.

Hu Mengdie from the kitchen rushed over immediately after hearing the noise, only to see Li Xiuyu also banging his head against the wall, with both the brother and sister having bloody heads.

"What are you doing? Are you crazy?"

Hu Mengdie screamed.

She realized at this time that the development of the situation had exceeded her expectations and was out of her control.

But there was no other way now, she could only bite the bullet and treat the wounds of the two men.

She felt a faint sense of regret in her heart. She never thought that one day she would feel so heartbroken.

She hated Li Zhuangsheng the most. She was the culprit who caused today's situation and the root of everything. She, Li Zhuangsheng, would suffer for the rest of her life.

But, Li Xiuyu, how could you bear to let your brother suffer so much!
After a few days in this depressing atmosphere, Li Xiuyu's body was basically healed except for the bruises. Li Zhuangsheng stayed by her side all the time. He became more cheerful these days and told jokes to Li Xiuyu with a smile all day long.

However, even Hu Mengdie could not deceive the fear and grief beneath his smile.

After Li Xiuyu recovered from her injury, Li Zhuangsheng took her hand and went to the studio to accompany her to relax.

Li Zhuangsheng hasn't come to the studio for quite some time. Usually, Hu Mengdie handles any problems on his behalf. Everyone feels very novel to see him.

Li Zhuangsheng convened a meeting with a smile on his face, asked everyone in the studio about their schedules, learned about the recent progress of their work, and then announced that he would treat everyone to a big dinner tonight, which would be counted as two hours of overtime and would be paid overtime.

Amid the cheers, Rong Hongguang and Qian Feishu were the most gratified.

"The former young boss is finally back." Qian Feishu looked at Li Zhuangsheng sitting in the main seat, turned sideways and said to Rong Hongguang.

"It may be because my sister has come back to live with me, so I have to be more restrained." Rong Hongguang teased with a smile.

Among the crowd, only Bai Min looked at Li Zhuangsheng with a smile on his face and showed a hint of doubt.

Perhaps intuitively, she felt that something was wrong, but she couldn't tell what it was.

However, the boss's sister seemed to be even colder than before... although she was cold enough at the beginning.

After work that day, Li Zhuangsheng invited everyone to a high-end restaurant. After a good meal and a good drink, everyone was moved and said they would do their best for the boss. Li Zhuangsheng smiled and said, "Work hard, and when the company becomes bigger, I will never forget you, the original employees."

During the dinner, Hu Mengdie's smile became more and more forced. She could see that Li Zhuangsheng was forcing a smile, and that he was actually about to break down completely.

Before this, Li Zhuangsheng had the intention to die, but not to the extent he did today. He still had a lingering attachment to the world. He just hated the world.

But now, Hu Mengdie clearly saw the madness of wanting death in Li Zhuangsheng's eyes. Death had become his greatest desire at the moment.

But she had no way out.

"Then let's go back tonight."

After everyone left, Hu Mengdie held Li Zhuangsheng's hand and said softly.

"Okay, let's go back tonight!" Li Zhuangsheng laughed and held Li Xiuyu's hand, "Xiuyu, how do you think brother is doing recently? Brother is full of energy now. Brother has decided that we must fight for the rise of Chinese comics all our lives!"

Li Xiu Yu said nothing, just looked at the traffic on the street in the distance.

"My shoelaces came off." said Li Xiuyu.

So Li Zhuangsheng let go of Li Xiuyu's hand.

The next moment, Li Xiuyu walked towards the road.

Li Zhuangsheng was stunned for a moment, then he quickly stepped forward and hugged her tightly.

The expression on his face collapsed in an instant, followed by endless resentment and despair. "Xiu Yu, what are you going to do?"

"Tie your shoes."

"You are wearing sandals today, without shoelaces."

"I dropped my phone on the side of the road, I'm going to pick it up."

"Your phone is in your pocket."

"That means my shoelaces are loose, I'm tying them."

Li Zhuangsheng hugged Li Xiuyu tightly and cried bitterly:

"Is it because I didn't do well enough? Don't be like this. I have tried my best. I will try harder in the future. I am very happy now. Please don't be like this... Please, please... What do you want from me..."

"Li Xiuyu, let's reconcile." Hu Mengdie finally couldn't hold on any longer.

She didn't care about Li Xiu Yu's suicidal behavior, but she couldn't accept Li Zhuangsheng's despair.

She thought that the more pain Li Zhuangsheng suffered, the happier she would be, but she was wrong. She was very distressed now. When Li Zhuangsheng was in pain, she was also in pain so much that she could hardly breathe. So she was willing to admit defeat, or to reconcile.

If we reconcile, will my brother be able to change back to normal? Li Xiuyu looked at Hu Mengdie coldly, forcing out a hideous smile.

Meeting Li Xiuyu's eyes, Hu Mengdie also understood the other party's rejection. She knew why, she had no bargaining chips.

At this time, even if she was willing to reconcile, Li Zhuangsheng could not go back to his original state.

Li Zhuangsheng was shouting and crying bitterly. Passersby all looked at him sideways.

He questioned Li Xiu Yu, he questioned himself, and he questioned the heavens.

I am guilty of many crimes and I deserve to die. If I were cut into pieces, would that put an end to all this?
"I want to go home." Li Xiuyu finally spoke.

"Okay, let's go home!"

"I want to go home."

"Okay, let's go back home!" Li Zhuangsheng immediately took out his mobile phone and found the phone number of the black car.

It was almost ten o'clock, and there were no more illegal taxis. But Li Zhuangsheng desperately raised the price, and soon someone picked up the passenger.

"Are you going back to the county?" Hu Mengdie asked.

Li Zhuangsheng nodded heavily.

"I'll go too," she said immediately.

"If you go, I will leave." Li Xiuyu said softly.

Hu Mengdie was startled: "...Okay, when will you come back?"

No one could answer her question.

The three of them waited quietly on the roadside, the atmosphere was extremely depressing. Finally, the black car driver arrived. Hu Mengdie watched Li Xiuyu get into the car, and then hugged Li Zhuangsheng tightly.

"I love you." After a long time, Hu Mengdie spoke.

Li Zhuangsheng nodded woodenly and got into the car.

"Are you students? Why are you going back to the county so late?" The drivers of these illegal taxis between the city and the county are usually from the same hometown. As soon as they get in the car, the drivers will ask curiously in the dialect.

No one answered his question, Li Zhuangsheng just transferred 500 yuan for the bus fare. A single trip was 50 yuan, and 500 yuan was the fare for ten people. It was more than the money for a full round trip.

The driver received the money and although he was curious, he didn't say anything else.

After nearly three hours of driving, the driver safely brought the two people to the downstairs of the community.

"Classmate, wake up, you are home."

The driver looked back and saw that the two of them had fallen asleep in each other's arms without him noticing.

I really admire these two people. In order to avoid falling asleep, he played DJ on the car stereo all the way.

After returning to their long-lost home, the brother and sister walked into Li Zhuangsheng's bedroom.

"Xiu Yu, do you want to take a shower?" Li Zhuangsheng forced out a desperate smile.

Li Xiu Yu said nothing, just lay on the bed.

"Okay, then we won't wash it." Li Zhuangsheng found the air conditioner remote control, "It's too late, let's go to bed!"

Li Xiuyu remained silent and let Li Zhuangsheng turn off the lights.

In the dark night, she opened her eyes and stared at the ceiling.

After a long time, she suddenly stood up and sat on Li Zhuangsheng, then lowered her body and whispered in Li Zhuangsheng's ear, "Brother, do you want to die together?"

"I don't want to die." said Li Zhuangsheng.

"you are lying."

"I want you to live well."

"You're lying again."

"I do not have."

"You know very well that I am in so much pain. I can't live anymore."

The night was as silent as death. Li Zhuangsheng could not see Li Xiuyu's expression, but could only hear her sad voice.

"Now it's your turn. Your feelings are my feelings." Li Xiuyu said again.

"What should I do to make you not so sad?" Li Zhuangsheng shed tears.

"I want to suffer with you. If death is necessary, we must bear it together." Li Xiu Yu gently lay on Li Zhuangsheng's body.

"Xiu Yu, I, I, thought I was a good person. I think, at least, I am a good person."

Li Zhuangsheng smiled, tears streaming down his face.

"But I suddenly realized that everything I did was just acting, acting for God and myself. I actually didn't have a conscience, I just pretended to have one. I didn't care about anyone, I was just satisfying myself."

"You know, Xiu Yu, I often don't know what I should do, or whether it's right to do so, but doing so makes me more like a good person. I don't want a true conscience, but I want to be judged by others. I live in the labels of others, and I crave that label."

"I clearly wanted to be a good person, I clearly wanted to be a good person..." Li Zhuangsheng choked up as he spoke, "But, but, I hurt so many people. Hu Mengdie, Hu Mengdie, I drove her crazy! I drove her crazy! And so many others!"

"I was deceived by her. I was deceived by her, but she made me realize that I was also a hypocritical scumbag!"

"I would also be impatient. I would be impatient because of Zhu Zhixue's arrogance. It's obvious that she only has me in her heart, and it's obvious that she is what I want. I know, I know everything, but I was still seduced by Hu Mengdie. It turns out that I can't see anything clearly, I don't understand anything, and I still talk nonsense. Why am I a scumbag, who cheats on me just by seducing me... It turns out that I am such a powerless person!"

Li Zhuangsheng hugged Li Xiuyu tightly and cried bitterly, like a child, telling her all his grievances.

He cried and sobbed, he was in excruciating pain because he couldn't get what he wanted.

Li Xiuyu did not interrupt Li Zhuangsheng. She calmly accepted everything from Li Zhuangsheng until the end.

"I already knew what kind of person you are." Li Xiuyu said softly, "But so what?"

"Even if you deserve to die, so what?" Li Xiu Yu said.

(End of this chapter)