Classmate Li Zhuangsheng doesn’t want to be reborn

Chapter 654 Confession
Hu Mengdie suddenly raised her head and stared into Li Zhuangsheng's eyes for a long time, then she gave a self-deprecating smile.

"Oh, really? Thank you for your tolerance and generosity." There was a hint of sarcasm in Hu Mengdie's voice.

"Why are you thanking me? You know me so well, you should be able to guess it." Li Zhuangsheng smiled, "Do you think I hate you?"

Hu Mengdie gathered her hair and smiled, "Well, how could you hate me? After all, you are so shameless."

"When did you learn that word?"

"Many people in the company are from the second dimension, so they know a little bit about it."

"Thanks to you, we have been able to keep things running smoothly during this period."

"I didn't do anything extra. The main reason was that I still had money in my account."

"If you like to manage the accounts, you can manage the company forever."

"I dare not do that. If the name is not right, then the words will not flow. What qualifications do I have to manage your company?"

Li Zhuangsheng was silent for a moment, then he took Hu Mengdie's hand and laughed, "You are so arrogant, aren't you? You are still the same person as before."

Hu Mengdie raised her eyebrows and forced out a cold smile: "Okay, I heard that you promised Zhu Zhixue that you would host a banquet. Do you want to host a banquet with me?"

"Then you are really asking too much..." Li Zhuangsheng scratched his face.

"Hmph, I knew it."

Hu Mengdie took a deep breath and tried to control her emotions.

She turned away and slightly sideways. It seemed that she had nothing to say to Li Zhuangsheng. Both sides had completely torn their faces apart. What else was there to say now?

But she didn't seem to have any intention of turning around and leaving. She just stood there stiffly, as if waiting for Li Zhuangsheng's next words.

"Actually, I know that a lot of what you said to me that day was sophistry or even substitution of concepts... But you are right in saying that I am indeed quite hypocritical."

"I really am a people-pleaser, and of course I may be a little arrogant. In fact, I care a lot about other people's opinions, even if no one... This should be a bit of a performance personality. I like to do things for others to see, want to get high evaluations from others, and want self-satisfaction."

"You're right, this is hypocritical. I always appear to be humble, but in fact I'm arrogant and stubborn... Why should I pretend to be humble? Because I think it's the right thing to do. A gentleman should be respectful, honest, quick-witted and virtuous!"

"Perhaps I really only did it on the surface, because deep down I am actually a person who cannot listen to other people's opinions and is very self-centered... But I have to pretend to be humble and righteous, because humans are social animals. I always have to deceive myself and others at the same time."

"So what?" Hu Mengdie finally couldn't help but speak, she was a little impatient.

At this moment, she really didn't want to listen to Li Zhuangsheng's self-analysis nonsense. To her, it was totally unimportant!
"You and I are the same. We both care about society's evaluation and other people's affirmation. So I feel sorry for you," said Li Zhuangsheng.

"You don't need to pity me!" Hu Mengdie interrupted Li Zhuangsheng without getting annoyed. "Actually, you just want to say that you don't blame me, because you slept with me, once, twice, three times, countless times, because I am a virgin, and because my body has given you so much pleasure, so you don't blame me, right?"

Her voice became louder and louder, attracting curious glances from passers-by.

Li Zhuangsheng tilted his head. Hu Mengdie's tone was more of a request for verification than a question.

"Well, what you said makes sense... But the fundamental reason is that you didn't really hurt me." Li Zhuangsheng blinked, "You don't know why I was so sad. In fact, I felt that I was the one who hurt you. I thought at the time that you were really crazy, but it was me who forced you into this state. I was sorry for you. So, I never blamed you. I was just angry at myself."

"……hehe."

After a long silence, Hu Mengdie let out two hollow laughs.

"Then you really are Azashi."

"Of course, it could also be that I feel I've gotten a great advantage, and your means of revenge are too gentle." Li Zhuangsheng said softly, "You're a person who doesn't understand how to turn evil. If I think about it carefully, July, to some extent, was just like heaven."

Hu Mengdie pursed her lips and her face felt slightly hot.

"I feel like you're not taking revenge, but acting like a spoiled child," Li Zhuangsheng continued.

"Shut up!" Hu Mengdie was extremely angry and slapped Li Zhuangsheng in the face.

"Actually, I think you're pretty cute, like a few days ago, when you confessed to me before I went back to the county."

Hu Mengdie's face felt hot, as if it was burning, and as red as an apple in October.

"I know you care about me a lot. You are afraid that I will be upset, so you confessed to me in a hurry." Li Zhuangsheng gently stroked Hu Mengdie's hot cheek and kissed her uncontrollably, "You are so cute!"

"Shut up!" Hu Mengdie screamed and hit him again, but this slap was soft and powerless.

Li Zhuangsheng hugged Hu Mengdie into his arms: "I am also quite lucky that you like me so much, even though I have hurt you so much... because in your heart I am your only man, right? You said before that it was our first time before we traveled through time. I believe you, although I don't know why you kept it from me. But when I think about it carefully, it was indeed not normal at that time. Your behavior was different from what it was afterwards... You didn't seem to be experienced."

Hu Mengdie was so ashamed that she wanted to find a hole to crawl into immediately, but Li Zhuangsheng held her tightly, leaving her with nowhere to escape.

How annoying! Why did this guy Li Zhuangsheng become so calm? What on earth did he rely on? Why did he become different from before?

Damn it, why did he change back to his original form? And he even became more casual and rogue.

"Hu Mengdie, I like you, no, I love you. There is no point in tangling up explanations for love. I want to be with you, I want you to never leave me, and I want to continue sleeping with you. Whether it's possessiveness or some other factor, who cares? Anyway, what I say is what it is!"

"I... don't love you, let me go!" Hu Mengdie's eyes were filled with tears and her eyes were charming. She struggled feebly in Li Zhuangsheng's arms.

Li Zhuangsheng let her go.

However, Hu Mengdie, who was freed, was at a loss for a moment. She seemed not to have expected that Li Zhuangsheng would let her go so easily.

"You've said so much, but you just haven't slept enough." Hu Mengdie bit her lip and said sarcastically, "You still want to sleep with me, right?" "This is just part of it, although I don't deny that it accounts for a large part."

"You are shameless!"

"Sometimes I don't know whether you are conservative or open-minded... Food, sex, and nature are all there. This desire is engraved into the DNA of living things. Let's not talk about sexual change, okay?" Li Zhuangsheng shrugged frankly, "And I also said that this is only part of the reason. I just feel that being with you will make me feel comfortable and it will make me look forward to tomorrow."

"Don't explain. Explanation is just covering up! You have no shame! It's nothing more than your lower body controlling your brain!"

"Hey, can you please stop being like this? You are enjoying it yourself, and you always cater to me... Besides, don't selectively ignore what I say!"

"What are you talking about? You said so many high-sounding words, do you still want to deceive yourself and others?"

"Okay, okay, you have to say that to be happy, right?" Li Zhuang laughed angrily, "Okay, okay, then I'll say something you like to hear. That's right, it's because you are as beautiful as a fairy and have great sex skills that I can't bear to give up on you! That's right, it's because your first time belonged to me and you had a clean body, so I forgave you! In fact, I've figured it out, the first time of the soul, that thing is too empty, I only care about the first time of the body!"

Hu Mengdie wiped her tears and sneered: "You finally spoke your true feelings, so shameless, hypocritical... scumbag!"

Li Zhuangsheng smiled bitterly, hugged Hu Mengdie again and kissed her ear: "Don't be like this anymore, you are just like me, unwilling to accept other people's kindness. Let me guess, it's because you don't trust the outside world, you think others must have some ulterior motives to be nice to you, ulterior motives for your face and body. Do you feel at ease this way? You don't think you are unattractive, do you? Really, don't look down on yourself like this. I married you not only because I thought you were good-looking, not only because you were a 'suitable marriage partner'. I will feel bad if you think of yourself this way."

Hu Mengdie suddenly froze, and at that moment her soul almost left her body. She never thought that the inferiority hidden deep in her heart was actually seen through by Li Zhuangsheng.

How long did this mentality last? Perhaps it started from college. She became more and more doubtful of herself and felt that she was useless except for her appearance. Her heart was extremely desolate and her spirit was barren.

How did Li Zhuangsheng know this? She was clearly trying her best to cover it up.

"Hu Mengdie, my feelings for you are not just about your face and body. I promise that what I like is the feeling when I am with you. I feel that you are a great person, you are very good at empathizing with me, you are very good at making me happy, and it is really good to have you around." Li Zhuangsheng rubbed Hu Mengdie's cheek.

"You lied... You lied!" Hu Mengdie pushed Li Zhuangsheng away desperately, tears finally flowing down her cheeks. She tore at her face as if it was something she hated. "Or are you deceiving yourself again? Haven't you noticed that you like to date me just because of my face!"

Li Zhuangsheng looked at her distressedly and said, "Your face is a part of you. There is no way to completely give it up. This face belongs to you, and this body also belongs to you. This is you."

"Do you remember The Little Prince? When the little prince saw a rose garden, he realized that his rose was not special, not even the most beautiful one. But it was still his favorite rose, and no one could replace it. There may be people more beautiful than you in this world, but to me, they are beautiful and empty, and they are not as important as you. Important things can only be seen with the heart. Every bit of our time together makes you so important and unique."

Hu Mengdie's hands dropped weakly, leaving only the sound of sobbing.

"Mengdie, my dear wife, I am sorry for you. Although it is a bit shameless for me to say this, and even though I have hurt you so much, I hope you can forgive me and we can reconcile."

"I don't want it!" Hu Mengdie gritted her teeth stubbornly, tears streaming down her face. "You said we should reconcile, so what about the harm you've done to me? What about my pain? What about my sadness? What about my dedication to you?"

"Yeah, this is really a confusing account... I don't know how to compensate you. If you want money, I can give you a lot of money, but I know that's not what you want."

Li Zhuangsheng looked embarrassed, "Then how do you want me to compensate you..."

Before he finished speaking, he suddenly cried out in pain. It turned out that Hu Mengdie had bitten him on the shoulder.

He was in great pain, but did not resist or struggle.

When Hu Mengdie was tired of biting, blood started to flow from her shoulder.

"I'll bite you to death, I'll bite you to death!" Hu Mengdie cried.

"If you're still not satisfied, you can do it again here." Li Zhuangsheng gasped in pain.

Hu Mengdie said nothing, but just leaned on Li Zhuangsheng's shoulder and cried, trying to vent all the grievances and pains of the past few years without reservation.

"To be honest, I'm in a bit of pain. Can I go to a roadside clinic first to stop the bleeding and disinfect it?" Li Zhuangsheng smiled bitterly.

Hu Mengdie kept sobbing and pulled Li Zhuangsheng to a nearby clinic.

"You should bite the other side as well." Li Zhuangsheng kindly reminded.

"You're crazy!" Hu Mengdie wiped her tears, "Let's make peace, I owe you too much in my last life. I know it's hard for you to face Zhu Zhixue, I will talk to her for you, I'll be the bad guy!"

"Why is it difficult to face it?" Li Zhuangsheng turned his face away, "Anyway, we will all be a family in the future."

Hu Mengdie stopped and looked puzzled, as if she didn't understand what Li Zhuangsheng was saying.

She really didn’t understand: Am I not the one and only rose?

"What's wrong?" Li Zhuangsheng asked knowingly.

"What did you say?"

"I said we are all family from now on, so don't be polite!"

"Who and whom?"

"Us!"

"'We', who are we?"

Li Zhuangsheng was silent for a moment. Facing Hu Mengdie's threatening gaze, he secretly pinched his thigh. Don't be afraid, don't be afraid. You came here with such high ambitions. How could you be frightened so easily? The worst that can happen is that you will be slapped in the face. Even if you are despised by everyone in the world, so what? There will always be someone who will accept everything about you.

"We are who we are, like me, you, Zhu Zhixue, Lin Yuehua... If Yi Yunshui also wants to join this family... it's not impossible." Li Zhuangsheng's eyes were vague.

Hu Mengdie stayed there in silence for a long time, then tilted her head and stared at Li Zhuangsheng.

Li Zhuangsheng felt uneasy when he was being stared at and subconsciously took a step back. Suddenly he realized this and took another step forward.

(End of this chapter)