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Chapter 311 If I don't do this, I'll go crazy

11 month 23 day.

late at night.

The candle has been blown out.

The rags that served as curtains were also drawn together, and the room was extremely dark.

"..."

There were no words, Su Ming could only hear her somewhat disordered breathing.

With night vision, Su Ming can see it clearly... Unbelievable.

so big.

Almost blurted it out.

The Saint's Baby Canteen.

The straps that originally squeezed her slender shoulders became loose after the buckles were detached, revealing a state like a hidden peach or a small melon.

Beautiful shape.

Like soft meat buns, round.

No wonder sometimes it seems a little bigger, and sometimes it seems just average... It can be fastened very tightly, is it to cover it up?
"..."

Looking away, the saint's cheeks also turned extremely red.

He lay on his back in bed, his mouth opening and closing, perhaps trying to say something, but unable to really form the words.

Feel the heavy weight for yourself.

"嘤咛."

She obviously reacted to being touched, but she was very restrained and tried her best to endure it.

All three wishes were fulfilled.

Although it's all back rubbing, massage... and the service behind. But we'll know tomorrow whether it counts. You can totally regard it as an extra reward after completing the task with "hard work".

"Well!"

Perhaps because Su Ming suddenly touched her belly button, she shuddered and her legs twisted restlessly.

"Natasha."

"..."

The slightly hazy eyes looked at Su Ming. She probably couldn't see clearly.

"Actually, I don't believe in love at first sight."

This is the truth.

Love is the resonance between souls, love at first sight... no matter how you look at it, it's like organs against organs. You don't even know where the other person comes from, who they are, what their identity is... How can you talk about anything other than organs?

"There must be some other reason, right? Some reason why you have a crush on me."

"..."

The Saint remained silent for a long time, her eyes closed, and her body trembled inexplicably.

"I...had a dream when I was in the temple."

"Ok?"

"Someone, very good, will come and rescue me."

"So, it's because you regard me as the hero in your dream?"

"..."

Whether it is the buttocks or the baby canteen that is completely willing to show, the tactile feedback is first-class.

What should we be concerned about in this situation?

Even if she was turned over immediately and the card was swiped repeatedly with the drum, there would be no problem at all.

"You...are better than in my dreams."

What exactly is going on?

Maybe it doesn't matter. After all, Su Ming is ready to go. I asked this only because I could see the entry box on her head.

【Favourability: 153】

[Description: She loves you deeply, and you can trust that she will never do anything to harm you]

For some unknown reason, she, who was originally just lying there trembling...with no courage to move at all, suddenly stretched out her hand.

"..."

There's no way to have a calm chat anymore.

Start with the heavy baby canteen.

11 month 23 day.

late at night.

"..."

I don't know when it started, but it was very noisy outside.

Occasionally, you can hear someone screaming.

The Saint's Canteen in front of him was already filthy. Her face was flushed. Although her legs were still pressed together in resistance... Su Ming could move away without any effort.

"..."

There was a flash of fire through the rag-covered curtains.

"It's noisy."

"I'll go out and see."

Is it considered done?
I guess so.

After all, normally speaking, using a card to swipe in the baby cafeteria is more awkward than normal.

"You stay here."

Su Ming pulled up his pants. Thoughts always become more advanced as something is missing from the body. He suddenly began to think about the meaning of life.

If she insists on giving it to me, should I take it myself?

The buttocks... are nothing more than a piece of rubbery pork belly.

What kind of hero was I looking forward to and dreaming about in the temple? I am better than the one in my dream... Tsk, it feels weird and like NTR.

To be honest, this abnormal admiration made Su Ming a little uncomfortable.

Well, maybe it would be the same no matter who saves her. She has a "give and take" personality developed from living a lonely and depressed life in the temple for too long.

11 month 23 day.

late at night.

I was left alone in the hut by Mr. Ming. The candle was still unlit. It was very dark.

But the warmth conveyed by the baby's canteen and neck is not false.

"..."

It's very noisy outside.

But the sounds weren't close enough to warrant going out to see. I screwed up.

If you tell one lie, you will have to tell countless more to make up for it.

I never dreamed, and never expected someone to come back and save me. At most, I thought about when I would die.

Being too happy will backfire.

'Natasha'.

Who is that?
A fictitious person. Fake.

love at first sight?
There is no such saying.

I think that all love at first sight in the world is just lust. But am I expecting him to be lustful towards me?

Too greedy.

Now I... reached out and gently stroked the remnants of the baby's canteen, and actually wanted more.

Not Natasha.

But the real me.

How long can I install it?
Even if Natasha or the saint gets everything, what does it mean?
I miss the warmth I can get now, but I hate the pseudonym "Natasha".

"..."

He's already been deceived.

Now, I'm lying again. Am I really... I can never change?
In this case, it’s no wonder that people dislike it, right?

"..."

I walked to the bathroom, took the towel I had used to wipe his body, covered my face with it and sniffed it.

When being called Natasha... I can no longer hide the feeling of inferiority.

But after covering my nose with a towel, I can forget about it for a short time. I can't be greedy for more things... Now, it's already the limit. If I can't control myself, what awaits me is only hell.

11 month 24 day.

early morning.

The noisiest area was the pubs and the red-light district. Flames shot up into the sky... Someone had set fire to both the red-light district and the pubs.

"Pfft-"

There were also people wearing black armbands and masks nearby, hacking at anyone they saw.

"Bro?"

Su Ming had just dealt with the two masked swordsmen when a voice came from behind him.

"This is crazy... Do those guys from the South really want to start a war?!"

"Fire...Duoduo is still inside!"

"..."

The boss lady didn't live in the store, she just arrived. The store was smashed to pieces, and Duoduo, who was supposed to live on the second floor, was nowhere to be seen. The quilt still had some residual warmth.

"Don't worry, I'll go find the people from the East Sect right away... They should be heading here too!"

"These people are so bold! They dare to bully me!"

"..."

Su Ming didn't wait there for her to go and contact someone.

"The southern faction's territory is south of the fountain?"

"Young man, you want to go alone? Wait a minute, the people from the East faction will definitely come, soon..."

"..."

In fact, what happened to Duoduo had nothing to do with Su Ming. It didn't matter if she died or was sold at the beginning. It wouldn't bring any benefit to Su Ming, nor would it cause any loss.

But Su Ming adheres to one principle.

If you intend to do good to someone, do it to the end. At least if it is happening in front of you and you have the ability to do it, you will do it.

Or, don't give people any hope from the beginning.

It just so happens that Xingyu, who has not been fully released, wouldn’t it be nice to switch to killing?
11 month 24 day.

2 points in the early hours.

When Duoduo was found, she was hiding in a ditch to avoid being hunted down, and her whole body was filled with a foul smell.

"..."

The moment he saw Su Ming, those gray eyes clearly flashed with color.

Perhaps he had completely forgotten that his body was still covered in the filth from the sewer, and only thought about being rescued. He desperately climbed up and threw himself into Su Ming's arms.

She does stink.

But Su Ming, whose clothes and face were covered in blood, was not much different.

"..."

The proprietress also came over with her people.

"Is he the funny weirdo you were talking about?"

"..."

The man standing next to the proprietress looked around at the scattered corpses, then turned his gaze to Su Ming.

"That's not something some funny weirdo would do."

11 month 24 day.

Three o'clock in the morning.

The first floor of the pub was the most severely damaged, and the proprietress had no plans to clean it up tonight.

The second floor is still habitable and the bathroom is also usable.

"Brother... together."

Without any shyness, she just gently pulled the corner of Su Ming's clothes.

"Duoduo, can you help your brother wash..."

Maybe she didn't just want to help. It was normal for her to be afraid after having just experienced danger.

The landlady brought some clean clothes.

"Little brother, you can live here if you want." He left with just these words. She still had to find out why this happened.

Unlike where Su Ming lived, the bathroom here could be refilled with charcoal to heat the bathtub at any time, and it was also very convenient to fill the water.

"Wow--"

Duoduo took off her clothes first, washed off the bad smell on her body, and then walked to Su Ming.

Carefully help wipe the blood off the face and hands.

"..."

She didn't say thank you, but it seemed unnecessary.

After all, kneeling on the ground with that flat body, carefully helping Su Ming clean the stains on his ankles, was more indicative of what she was thinking than a thank you.

Although she was being candid, she didn't seem to feel shy at all.

Just like being treated as a brother or something like that?
Halfway through wiping, her shoulders suddenly trembled slightly, and tears welled up in her eyes.

"..."

Men who have climbed Mount Everest are generally not interested in the nearby hills, but it is inevitable that the hills will arouse men's desire to protect them.

Su Ming simply reached out and embraced her.

"Woo..."

She was immediately hugged tightly, and her sobs became increasingly difficult to conceal.

11 month 24 day.

early.

Su Ming went to the red light district for the second time.

The proprietress said that people from the East faction wanted to see him.

"..."

Because of the arson last night, none of the scantily clad women who were standing at the door to receive customers were there. There were no customers coming and going.

The man who wanted to see Su Ming was in a separate private room on the second floor.

You can see it just by opening the door.

There was a long scar on the left side of his angular face. The weather was very cold, but he was only wearing a single layer of clothing.

"sit down."

The man waved his hand and lit up a local specialty cigarette. Compared with the ones from Snow Country, the taste was actually similar, except that the craftsmanship was not as good.

"..."

As soon as Su Ming came in, the two men guarding the door closed it. He was not polite and sat directly opposite the man and lit a cigarette.

"Let me introduce myself first. I'm Paimon. Have you heard of me?"

"The leader of the Eastern faction."

"Ah."

The man nodded, shook the ashes into the glass jar, and crossed his legs naturally.

"I don't like beating around the bush. I'll just say it straight."

"The female captain of the guard who was beheaded earlier, was it you who did it?"

"..."

Su Ming didn't say anything.

"You know what? Because of this incident, those guys in the South Faction easily pushed the responsibility onto the East Faction. We have suffered a lot during this period."

"..."

"Do the work for me, and bring the Saint here unharmed. I won't pursue the responsibility of taking the blame for you."

"..."

Su Ming also shook off the cigarette ash and looked at him calmly, "I don't know what you are talking about. If the East Faction's territory doesn't welcome me, I can always change places."

"You want to go to the Southern Sect's territory? Bring the beautiful Saint, and... oh, the woman you saved. She has no status over there and will be eaten to the bone. Or do you want to go to the Agate District? Forget it. It's difficult to even sneak across nowadays."

"I'm giving you a chance to live, understand?"

The man smiled.

"..."

Su Ming didn't answer, he put out his cigarette and stood up. The men blocking the door stood there with no intention of giving way.

"Okay, let him go."

"You can continue to live in the East Faction's territory. The big sister also said so. Although you are a little weird, you are a good person."

"It doesn't matter if you only have brute force and can't recognize the form. Listen to me, you may not feel it. But it won't be long before you understand... what I mean by the chance to survive."

"Protect the Saint well. If anything happens to her, no one can save you."

"..."

The people standing in front of Su Ming moved aside.

That’s normal, right?

So many things have happened recently, and a stranger like me happened to come out and kill so many people. Maybe there is some other way to confirm that it was me who did it, such as when I took the saint out and was seen by someone who knew her.

So, what's the point of them taking such a big risk to save the saint?
Forget it.

It doesn't matter if they know that I killed the guards and rescued the saint. It doesn't matter if they have good intentions or hostile intentions.

After not sleeping all night, Su Ming felt a little tired.

It doesn’t matter what their plans are, as long as they don’t hinder me from completing my mission.

At this point, if the wish counts, it should be settled, right?

Or is it that massage and the like are not considered wishes at all?

"elder brother……!"

Su Ming had just reached the door and before he could react, he was hugged by the petite figure.

"It's my fault. I shouldn't have told Duoduo that you were coming to see Paimon."

"I kept crying because I was worried."

"Are you okay, little brother? Paimon should give me some face."

The proprietress stood by and smiled playfully.

"Anyway, I don't know what experiences the young man had before, but Duoduo said that her goal is to become a woman who can attract men's attention like me."

"Ah... so pure."

"No matter what, as long as you treat yourself as your brother's, you won't be embarrassed if someone sees you naked."

"..."

"As far as I'm concerned, having a wife is nothing."

"Brother, you've already saved her, and Duoduo is willing to be her junior. Why wouldn't you want to? You were so angry yesterday, and you went to save her by yourself. Even I'm a little tempted~"

"Duoduo, can I hug you too?"

"..."

The lady boss teased her deliberately, and Duoduo in Su Ming's arms was easily fooled. She hugged him tighter as if protecting food.

"..."

Su Ming was wearing a coat when he came out yesterday, but he threw it away in the bar because it was stained with blood. Now he is only wearing a single layer of clothes, and he can easily feel his face pressed against his chest getting hotter and hotter.

is it?

It turns out that the reason why she didn't blush even though she was honest with him yesterday was because she already considered herself as 'brother's woman'. With this thought in mind, plus she wanted to do something more than thank him... she didn't have time to be shy.

"Clap."

Su Minggang pulled Duoduo out of his arms, touched her head and was about to say something inappropriate.

"Ah...Mr. Ming, you are here."

"..."

Su Ming almost forgot about it. He said he would come and see yesterday, but he hasn't returned yet.

The favorability on the saint's head was real. It was normal for her to come out to find me. And she had disguised herself according to the makeup I had given her. She was wearing a headscarf.

"I'm glad you're okay."

Those eyes were dim for a moment, but then they immediately smiled.

"There's something cooking in the pot. I'll go back first. Please come back when you're done..."

The saint came quickly and left quickly.

"It's over. What should I do now, little brother?"

The proprietress didn't seem to feel guilty at all, instead she kept smiling.

"elder brother……?"

Duoduo was somewhat at a loss, staring at Su Ming with her fingers interlocked, like a child who had done something wrong.

"fine."

The favorability is still as high as before, not affected at all. What could be the problem?

The biggest problem was that he had just used the Saint's baby cafeteria... and was caught hugging another woman. Although Duoduo insisted on giving it to him.

A little bit of guilt.

【mission completed】

Just as Su Ming was about to speak again, everything around him stopped.

It really counts.

Just a massage and body rub... What kind of mission is this? If every mission is this simple, the extremely difficult one should just complete 100 wishes. It seems that it is not unacceptable to lower the moral bottom line and feel sad because of the multiple consciences...

11 month 24 day.

early.

Mr. Ming didn't come back all night.

I know it's impossible for her to suddenly abandon me. After all... she's Natasha.

It was a woman I had just had intimate contact with.

What happened?
Once I thought about it, I couldn't suppress my anxiety at all. I didn't even care about the towel I had secretly used.

But if the situation is dangerous...

What can I do with the strength that I have to work hard to move the bedside table?
I walked to the door several times and turned back several times.

"May the goddess Terena protect me..."

prayer.

Even I know that the goddess is untrustworthy. How can a god who does not exist really provide any protection?
It doesn’t matter whether it’s a dream or not.

"..."

Holding his chest.

Whether it was a dream or real, I couldn't stay in the room with a clear conscience and let him stay out all night without being moved.

I hid a knife in my pocket, begging...if anything really happened, I could be of even a little use.

Could it be that the fact that I'm still alive has been exposed?
Could it be that he was in some trouble?
If he died...

"..."

I hurried out. It was easy to find, after all, everyone was talking about the pub being set on fire, and the red-light district with a powerful backing was also set on fire.

"..."

He is still alive.

But, hugging another woman. Very intimate.

Last night, I didn't hold back on myself. But I didn't do it to the end.

Is this retribution?
A liar will never get true love. He was just helplessly interested in Natasha's overly active and obscene body.

No.

There can be no true love.

I have lied again. The moment I lied... there is no reason to have real emotions. This is all I need, anything more... I am not qualified.

So, did the woman leaning against his arms use her real name? Was she really devoted to him...did she not lie at all?

"Brother Ming..."

I don't deserve to be called that anymore.

I just... don't want to find relief by self-harming.

So I changed it to something I could sink into and forget about temporarily.

I should call him Mr. Ming. If I get used to being attached to a name that should be concealed... What if I can't distinguish between reality and fantasy and get exposed?
"..."

But, I don't want to be called Mr. Ming anymore. I also don't want to be called Natasha.

I am also from the Snow Country. I am not Natasha who was born and raised here and was captured to be a saint.

I also want to be embraced by the lovely girl just now, in a normal, genuine embrace without deception. If that happens... I will be so happy that I will cry.

This cannot continue.

I have to be possessed...I have to be truly possessed. I have to be treated like a woman. If I don't do this...I will go crazy.

(End of this chapter)