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Chapter 373 I also want the same happiness as her
11 month 14 day.

Early in the morning, just after 0:.

restaurant.

No matter how beautifully salmon is presented, it is still just salmon. It is not delicious.

The roasted guinea pig, which is said to be a South American dish, looks weird. I don't know what the green thing inside is. But it tastes good.

"..."

and so.

After meeting someone, would it be a bad idea to order a table full of food and eat it just because you are too hungry?
The girl in front of me hasn't taken off her mask and gloves yet.

Forget it.

Su Ming swallowed the meat in his mouth without chewing it much. It was quite crispy.

If you try to deliberately create an image of how miserable your life is, how worthy of sympathy you are, and how you ask for forgiveness, then that is not yourself.

It would be better to just go straight to the point and tell again what has already happened.

"Ellie, in a nutshell."

"I came to Izu through a special method, but I have a set time, um. You can understand it that way."

"I will be deported on a fixed date."

"Well, before repatriation...what I can do."

"..."

11 month 14 day.

early morning.

Ming, has not changed. The look, voice, and eyes are all exactly the same.

Maybe reincarnation exists in the world, after all, monsters exist.

But he is definitely not, there is no reincarnation, he is just the same person as before.

"At first I just wanted to take advantage of Ye Ye."

"But later on, I discovered that she...actually, she was used in the end, right? It's just that my perception of her has changed. I don't think of her as a monster anymore."

"I can't stay, it's just her."

"..."

I know it all.

All of this was said in full in the notes left for me and Ye Ye respectively.

By now, it was clear that there was no lie. It was not a trick to fool children. It was not a reunion in the underworld.

"child."

"Hmm? Your voice... a voice changer?"

"..."

Maybe it was because I spoke so suddenly that Ming paused.

"How many months old is the baby in her belly?"

"At most, half a year."

"Have you thought of a name?"

"Although she had already chosen a name after she confirmed her pregnancy at the hospital, she seems to have thought of a better one. She is still hesitating... Maybe she will let me make the final decision when we register the household registration later."

"..."

I don't know what to do here either.

What's even more unclear is why I, who can give up anything, still have a rusty butterfly hairpin in my pocket.

Anything else you want?
In terms of risks, it's not just me. Even if I abandon this body and give it back to Ye Ye.

You can't stay with him for too long.

What if, by some chance, I was discovered by a monster whose whereabouts and appearance were still unknown? The original story of being eaten was fake.

Then...everything he has now will be gone. Not just me.

one day.

What if it’s just for a day, no, just a little while?
"Ellie."

Maybe because I had been silent for too long, Ming took the initiative to bring up the topic.

"After that, you figured out how to get here? From a completely different world."

"..."

I shook my head. "It's right here. It's always been here."

"always there?"

“When civilization is destroyed, it is rebuilt.”

"..."

Ming stood there in a daze, as if he had not expected this to happen.

It is generally impossible to think of it.

People can live that long.

But now, I can't be considered a human being. I haven't actually lived that much time. I just sleep when I'm tired, wake up when I'm tired, and solve the problem when I smell something uncomfortable. I have been living in a daze with boring expectations until now.

It's always the same.

When Izu planned to avenge his father, he didn't think about what to do after the revenge.

When I left Izu planning to avenge him, I didn't expect that what was written on the note was real. What should I do if I really encountered it?

"Can you take off your mask?"

Perhaps, Ming already has a general idea of ​​what is going on.

So I ignored most of the questions and started focusing on what was in front of me, myself.

I have a hunch.

If he really took off the mask and saw my old face, which was no longer pretty, but even ugly, he would not feel disgusted.

I was planning to leave. I felt that I couldn't be influenced by the sentiment of "it's okay to stay for a while" any longer.

But, this body is not my own.

It seemed as if it could sense what I was thinking and what I wanted to do. I had not thought about restoring my appearance, and I did not intend to waste any extra energy.

is it?

Every night I hope I can spend some time with Mingduo.

11 month 14 day.

One o'clock.

Su Ming couldn't go home. If he didn't reconcile with Tokugawa Aili, he wouldn't be able to explain himself when he returned.

That's not right either.

It should be said that my wife at home gave me time to do this. If I couldn't solve the problem, I would be too embarrassed to go back. I couldn't sleep if I went back.

“I once thought that mankind was going to be extinct.”

Tokugawa Airi beside her had taken off her mask, and her golden hair fell on the side of her hood, still shining with a soft luster.

That face was the same as in my memory. As long as he wasn't facing a monster and frowned seriously, a normal smile like now would look good.

"..."

Whether it was destroyed or not, it was difficult to judge from Su Ming's point of view.

I had that kind of speculation at the beginning.

Could it be a super ancient civilization? But I feel the time span is too long.

Such a long time ago, it is not something that can be resolved by just saying "I'm sorry". Ye Ye died, and it is not something that can be casually asked about her final relationship with her.

"bright."

"Ok?"

"It's been too long. You... seem a little strange."

"…Strange?"

"Do you think that I, who was a wife long enough ago, still have that feeling now?"

"..."

Her expression was just as calm.

No joy, anger, sorrow or joy can be seen.

If the time is long enough, thousands or even more years, would you still feel the same if it were you?
Su Ming can immediately check the favorability using the entry box in the entertainment function.

But I don’t think that’s necessary.

"Generally speaking, I consider myself to be a relatively possessive person."

Not related to games.

It has nothing to do with trials or the future.

Su Ming doesn't like to have any regrets.

It doesn't matter whether you were born or not. It's a simple question, do you want to be born or do you want a woman you've been in love with to hand you a wedding invitation to someone else? Choose the former.

"Possessive?"

"..."

She still had no expression.

"The woman next to you was poisoned. It must have been done by someone similar to Ye Ye. Or it could have been done by a monster further away."

"But I've dealt with it."

"You have to be serious next time. Pregnant women... their minds will become stubborn when they are polluted like that."

"..."

Su Ming was somewhat aware of this matter, as he noticed twice when he got up from the sofa that his clothes had been changed.

I just haven't asked in person yet.

Made by Xia You?

Or, are there other people like Xiaoye?

"Ming, since you mentioned possessiveness."

"Then I also want to see if I still have it now. What exactly do I think?"

"so……"

She turned her head, lowered her hood, and lifted her blonde hair from her ears. "Hotel, shall we go?"

11 month 14 day.

One thirty in the morning.

hotel.

Su Ming went to the front desk to get a standard room. It wasn't a particularly good place, just a common king-size bed room.

"..."

Although there was a circle of rose petals placed in the middle of the bed, which was quite romantic.

but.

"I've almost forgotten whether it was me or Ming who took the initiative before."

The person who said this solemnly was a radiantly beautiful girl.

Shoulder-length blonde hair, amber eyes that sparkle like gemstones. Her features are regular, and it's not an exaggeration to say that they look like those in a game CG. Her skin is as white as snow, and her cherry-like mouth emits a sweet voice like a silver bell.

However, Tokugawa Airi's eyes were a little sharp. She was petite but gave off an inexplicable sense of distance, with her arms folded across her chest. There was no trace of the tenderness in my memories.

strangeness?

11 month 14 day.

Two o'clock in the morning.

Hotel standard room.

The roses smelled really good. They weren't fake, they were real petals. 200 yen was very cheap compared to the old Izu prices.

"I've almost forgotten whether it was me or Ming who took the initiative before."

I tried my best to suppress my emotions.

In fact, I have understood it long ago. If it is really as what they said, because of the long time, it has faded and become unfamiliar. The rusty hairpin in my pocket should have been thrown away long ago.

I'm scared.

Especially after seeing so many outstanding women around him, I felt an inexplicable inferiority complex. Even though he helped me regain my youth every night, my figure... was not that attractive.

'I am very possessive.'

Actually, I am very happy.

I understand that everything is done to protect me, and there is no other way.

What reason do I have to hate it?

Even if I had complaints and a lot of bad things to say, they disappeared when I heard this sentence.

Just like Nogizaka’s extremely limited waking time, the question is asked over and over again - is it worth it?
worth it.

Is revenge all about the satisfaction of getting your revenge? Wouldn't it be better to go from having the dignity to face your husband in the afterlife to having the loss restored?

If the reward for revenge is to recover what is lost, I'm afraid many people would be willing to do it.

"..."

The lights were off, the curtains were drawn, and there was no light at all.

But with my current physical condition, I can see clearly.

Ming was as reserved as I was.

But he still sat down next to me, and I could feel the mattress sag slightly. Then he reached out and touched my face.

Who took the initiative in the past?
I think it should be me.

They will say blatantly that it is time to go to bed, conveying the idea of ​​what they want to be done.

Even now.

"A little thinner?"

"No, my current body won't change shape just because I don't eat well."

"..."

With the current conversation, there is no way it will become as harmonious as it was before.

But that's enough.

11 month 14 day.

Three o'clock in the morning.

It was over. My clothes were stripped off.

The more I see it with my own eyes, the more uncomfortable it is.

Because this is not what I would do if feelings naturally developed. I deliberately wanted to create a sense of "strangeness".

So, Ming will feel it naturally. There is no way to be too excited.

"I'm not possessive."

"Ah."

"It's been so long, they're pretty good."

"This kind of thing makes my body dirty, and I don't feel anything."

"I just woke up and found that this world seemed to be the same as what Ming described on paper. I decided to come and take a look."

"Means nothing."

"Next, I plan to visit other countries... Izu seems to have become an island country now. I'll go there first."

"..."

My nose feels sore.

My throat also became dry unconsciously.

Ming was the same as before, his expression was calm no matter what happened. But I knew very well that he would be upset to hear me say this.

But there is no time.

The power provided by Ye Ye is already very weak, and wasting it for no reason like this will only make the situation worse.

I dressed again, put on my mask and gloves, and felt my wrists where wrinkles were reappearing.

"You should go back. There are probably still many problems in Nogizaka."

That's how it ends.

If I wanted to hide, no one would find me.

"Ellie."

"..."

But Ming stood in front of me. "It's not very convincing, right? You wrinkled your nose and dropped the little pearl while pretending to be indifferent."

"?"

why?
"I don't think it's a big deal, and it's convenient for me to observe my wife's little movements and cute expressions that she thinks I haven't noticed."

"So I wouldn't normally say that I can see well in most completely dark environments."

"..."

The wrist was grabbed.

“This feeling…”

While I was stunned, the gloves were taken off.

Completely different from before, the extremely thin and ugly hands covered with wrinkles were exposed to the air.

I really don't understand.

It was still my body just now, isn’t it good?

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You have to look at such ugly things.

"Ellie, don't imitate me."

"I had no other choice, but now that I'm here, I can claim my reward."

"Why not?"

"Don't tell me I have a way to make you recover. Even if I can't, do you think I would have any objection?"

"Haven't we long passed the stage of being attracted by appearance alone?"

"..."

It was because I knew what Ming would say that I chose to do this.

What rewards can be claimed?
I can't stay with this body for too long. And it happens every night.

Should I deprive her of her life forever and sacrifice her just for some stupid promise like 'I want to protect my mother'?

The endless revenge could no longer continue, so it was left to the women around Ye Ye and Ming.

It is impossible for me to be a woman who has everything and can do nothing just to stay young and by his side.

"Don't……"

What's so good about kissing the wrinkles at the corners of your eyes?
So disgusting.

I am a person who is useless without help from others and should have died long ago. I am much worse than the pregnant woman. At least she can maintain positive thinking with that weak strength.

"If you're worried about the real body that Ye Ye and I were going to fight against, that's unnecessary thinking."

"I had two around me long before that."

"If I was going to come, I would have come a long time ago."

"Even if it comes, it's something I should deal with, not you."

"..."

Feet without socks.

Same wrinkles. Same dryness.

Will it still be attractive?
Why would you pose in front of me with a happier attitude than the one I had just seen, with a body that could barely be called beautiful as in my memory?
It was because I knew that the woman next to him was the same as Ye Ye that I was confused and didn't know what to do with the smell I smelled, so I planned to disappear and stop thinking.

So, what should I do?
"You think I won't know if you cover it with your hand?"

"..."

I hate it. Although my body is so ugly, I recall the memories that are buried far and near in my memory, and my body temperature gradually rises.

"A jacket doesn't suit you, and now this robe doesn't suit you even more. As for Ellie... you look best in a skirt, right?"

"..."

I stretched out my hand unconsciously, and just when I was about to pull it back, it was held in his mouth.

What do you want to say?

Can't organize the appropriate language.

Yeah. How could I not want a reward? I've waited so long. From despair to numbness, to hope, to seeing... and then knowing that I couldn't stay because of my own thoughts.

"I have no right... to deprive Ye Ye of her life."

"Why would you take her life?"

"My body, the fact that I can live till now, the fact that Nogizaka can live till now... all because Ye Ye gave me what she had."

"Well. I just received a message at the front desk. It seems... my wife has sensed Ye Ye's regret, and she is trying to create a body suitable for Ye Ye."

"...?"

never heard of that.

A wife who can do this.

11 month 14 day.

Three o'clock in the morning.

To be honest, it can be said that except for meeting Tokugawa Aili, all other matters were taken care of by Su Ming's wives.

Xiaoye, who was a little worried at first, had returned without knowing when. When I was checking in and paying at the front desk, she sent me a message at the perfect time.

【Big brother, Ye Ye, who is it? 】

【…】

【Big brother, loli, control. 】

That really can't be explained in a short time. Although she is not a wife, Xiaoye can share emotions and even some memories with Yeye. God knows whether they have shared the use of Yeye's bare feet. Not to mention sleeping and bathing together with their naked bodies. It's better to keep silent.

[There are many things, but Xiaoye feels that Big Brother is very busy]

[So I just take the simplest one. She asked me for help, and I will help her survive. She has packed up her body and sent it to the woman next to my big brother.]

【…】

When you say you're busy or something like that, are you really not angry?

[The price for asking Xiaoye to help is very simple. Use rice and fill up the grid twice.]

One hundred percent, they are having a quarrel.

Therefore, with these prerequisites, if Su Ming still doesn’t know what to do when facing Tokugawa Airi who is shaking unconsciously in front of him, he would be a real waste.

So what if I’m old?
That was because she was waiting for him. Not to mention that she could recover, even if she couldn't recover, Su Ming would never look at her with disdain.

Why are wrinkles not beautiful?

I know exactly what it was like.

so……

"Are you still planning to cover it with your hands?"

He quietly removed her hand, which was showing some resistance, and everything was exposed.

There are no obstacles.

Her baby canteen is inevitably sagging due to the aging of her body. But the reaction is as cute as in memory.

When I touch the switch, I shudder unconsciously.

If there hadn't been all this preparation, if An Shiyao hadn't asked me to come, and if Xiaoye hadn't sent me a message, what should I have done?

It's actually very simple.

Do you feel that it is not enough to just come to the hotel to pretend to be someone you are not. Protecting Nogizaka to live until now, helping An Shiyao, and even coming to the hotel to pretend to be someone you are not... too naive.

A true parting doesn’t involve all these twists and turns. There is really no feeling, no sight at all, and no news.

"Oh, if I'm discovered, I'll die..."

"If it was really going to be discovered, it should have been discovered when I was with my other wife. And even though I knew that such a thing existed, I didn't intend to abandon her. I also didn't intend to abandon you. If you say that you can't accept it because you found out that my wife is actually alive and well, it will be more convincing."

"With this body, there is no way...

"I feel pretty good. At least I can feel that my Ellie still doesn't hate being with me, and she even seems quite happy."

"..."

She opened and closed her mouth, but no sound came out. Tears overflowed from the corners of her eyes, rising and falling along her wrinkles, sliding down and soaking the pillow.

The hands finally took the initiative to hug Su Ming's neck.

“I…will just be an old lady after I return it to Ye Ye.”

"An old lady who won't live long."

"..."

"Then I'll send you to the grave. The worry monster has been answered, the old question has been answered, any other questions?"

"..."

"…I can't compare to them."

After a long silence, she spoke again.

"Why should we compare? They will grow old, and so will I. Follow me when you are the most beautiful, and I will dump you when you are old? I was not born that way. Besides, I will find a way to help you recover. Even if you don't want the body that I give you every night."

"..."

"Any question?"

"……without."

She pressed her face against Su Ming's neck and her voice became much weaker.

"Then I'm going to start. I want to see if my Ellie really has no feelings."

"……Do not."

"Ok?"

"It's been too long... too long. I, I... am a little scared."

"You have to cut the Gordian knot quickly. You'll get used to it after a while."

Su Ming pretended to be ready to attack, and he clearly felt the hands unconsciously grasping the hem of his clothes.

"I lied to you."

How is it possible that it is just because you want to release thoughts?
As she said, she was neither young nor beautiful. The only good thing was that her teeth were still intact and very white.

Dry blonde hair, not smooth at all.

What I want to feel is just that tiny response, the love that is suppressed with all efforts.

[Consumption points*10]

【Character: Tokugawa Airi】

【Favourability: 201】

[Description: She has extreme love for you. Because of your existence, her way of thinking, words and deeds will be greatly affected. Please pay attention to the guidance]

You can now check your favorability.

See it.

It's not much different from what I imagined. After that, it will slowly fall back to normal. Then... I will be integrated into this family.

11 month 14 day.

Early in the morning, four o'clock.

I'm a little hungry. I want to eat something.

Chow mein... No. The current living conditions are not doomsday, and I want to eat something sweet.

“This one, highly recommended.”

"Yao, that's the one you saw yesterday. She never gets tired of eating this stuff."

"..."

I was a little bit careful.

Say, don't want what she likes. Want Ming to feel that I will like it.

"Well, I like bread with red bean filling and burnt outside."

"If I had to recommend this, I think you would like it. Even if you don't like it, I think you would like it because I like it and I won't say it's not tasty."

"..."

Just run out and buy it.

I don't know where to buy dessert at this time. But it doesn't matter, no matter what I get back in the end, I will like it.

After all... I can feel that you feel guilty and love towards me.

She didn't show any disdain for my body.

I have a cell phone.

But that's just for internet, navigation, or shopping. Unlike Snow Country and Izu, most places use QR codes for payment.

It took me a lot of time to figure this out.

Logically, I'm the only one who knows my number...but there is one exception.

She would know that she and I shared the same body and were even one.

[Mom, other moms found me a useful body. The same as the one given to mom. ]

[Mom has to listen to her older brother too. Revenge is not good.]

[Big brother wants revenge, let's go together. 】

[Ye Ye, I won't die. Mom, neither will I. Ye Ye will do embarrassing things in the future. Hehe, now Ye Ye and I haven't completely separated yet, can you understand Mom's strange feelings? 】

【…】

The phone screen is on.

I wonder if this is a lie?
But I feel it is unnecessary.

Ming had no need to lie at this time, and Ye Ye would not lie. No one else could easily imitate Ye Ye's voice.

Can you understand my feelings?
That kind of... light and airy feeling, without having to think about anything. Just wanting to be tender for a little longer, to be touched.

I put on the mask and took it off again.

Sitting in front of the frosted glass in the bathroom, you can see your shadow reflected.

If all this were true, I wouldn't have to stay with him with this miserable face, nor would I have to sacrifice Ye Ye.

Any other reasons?
It's just a little... hard to take in. A little unreal.

"Clap."

The door opened.

The aroma of toasted bread and the smell of barbecue invaded my nostrils. I was getting hungrier.

Where can I buy toast at this time?

"Where? Ah, after all, as the saying goes, a little bit of time makes the devil go round."

"Knock on the door a few more times to wake up the owner, and you will get what you want."

"I bought some barbecue by the way. It looks good. Let me try it."

"..."

I stared straight at Ming's face.

I can’t say he’s that handsome, or that he can compare to the male models in magazines, but… I can’t take my eyes off him.

"Ellie?"

"..."

I'm really hungry.

"Is it really that easy to be seen if I'm pretending?"

"It's full of holes."

"is it?"

Are there many loopholes?
"You...feed me."

"Ok?"

"I'm old and can't carry it."

"Good fellow, are you taking advantage of your age?"

"..."

Is this normal, resuming the conversation after such a long time and creating the warm atmosphere that once made people infatuated?
do not know.

But when I bit into the bread, I tasted the red bean filling that Ming said he liked. It was sweet.

It was so sweet that it made my nose sour. I couldn't stop crying.

"Next time, I want to eat her favorite."

"Ah? No, it's hard not to think you're jealous when you're crying and laughing at the same time."

"I'm just jealous. From now on, my favorite thing is toast with red bean filling."

I envy her very much.

Her belly was bulging. She was obviously a useless woman like me. But she was so happy.

I want the same reward as her.

(End of this chapter)