The villain killed the master. What? I am the master!

Chapter 158 Yuan Xia’s Treatment Plan (2)

Yuan Xia's illness is very troublesome.

The people I met in this world all had some psychological problems to varying degrees, and not long ago, Feng Yi even tried to deceive me.

This made Jiang He suspicious and even had a hint of doubt: Was Yuan Xia's weakness a deliberate disguise to lure him?

After all, her reputation was too great, and it was hard to connect the legendary devil with the girl in front of him who was so scared that she knelt down.

And he is now convinced that Yuan Xia's mental state is indeed quite unstable, which may be one of the reasons why Feng Yi easily deceived Yuan Xia.

Problems that existed in the past, such as inferiority, sensitivity, timidity, etc., have not only not been alleviated in the past four years, but have been further deepened and alienated.

Not to mention his previous experience in Aoki Castle, Jiang He was able to catch a glimpse of some clues just from his limited contact with her recently.

She always uses a thick curtain to isolate herself from the outside world and reduce contact with people.

Xiao He's concern for Yuan Xia goes beyond her duty as a maid, and she carefully isolates herself from all adverse influences. Xiao He is Yuan Xia's personal maid, and she also loves Yuan Xia sincerely. She must have done this because of Yuan Xia's situation.

What worries Jiang He even more is that Yuan Xia seems to have a tendency to abuse and self-harm.

How could such a Yuan Xia become the notorious demon as rumored?

"Master."

She raised her eyes cautiously. The man in front of her was frowning and pushing up her sleeves, revealing her slender wrists that were whiter than snow.

Centipede-like scars were crawling hideously on it.

The familiar face made her inexplicable, perhaps unrealistic expectations grow again.

The previous master was someone else in disguise, which means all those words were false.

She looked carefully at his frowning expression again, and her heart trembled.

In the past, whenever the master bullied them, he would frown, which meant that he was angry, and his methods would be much more cruel than usual.

"Yuan Xia, are you scared because you saw me today?"

Jiang He communicated with her in a casual and calm tone. When he looked directly at her, Yuan Xia's eyes trembled again and she looked at his lips uncontrollably.

Master, please don't find out
Jiang Yuanxia secretly prayed in her heart that her master would not notice her abnormality.

For some reason, she always looked at things in her peripheral vision uncontrollably. The more she resisted and didn't want to look, the more her gaze would be attracted.

Especially when her master was looking at her, she knew clearly that her peeping behavior would be discovered, but even though she felt extremely ashamed, she just couldn't control her gaze.

Just like the idea of ​​hurting others, the more you care about someone, the more you want to hurt them.

Fortunately, Master seemed to feel some discomfort in his eyes and was rubbing his eyes, so he didn't notice her gaze.

Her eyes were swollen and painful from trying so hard to control them. While her master wasn't paying attention, she took the opportunity to stare at his lips nervously, and the discomfort in her heart immediately eased.

But when her master didn't notice, her strange desire actually subsided a lot.

Jiang Yuanxia secretly breathed a sigh of relief and explained carefully: "No, a little bit. But I don't hate Master."

Her words were disjointed and incoherent.

But he did not continue to deny it.

Jiang He felt very uncomfortable. Once a person focuses his attention on a certain part of the body, that part will feel uncomfortable.

For example, if you think about breathing, your breathing may become obstructed; if you think about walking, your walking may become awkward; if you think about your sleeping posture, then no matter how you sleep, you will feel uncomfortable.

He could clearly feel that Yuan Xia was secretly looking at his lips, which caused him to focus on his lips. He wanted to move his lips, but he was afraid that the girl would find out that he had noticed it, so he could only endure it.

Yuan Xia also seems to have a fear of peripheral vision?
In fact, all of her symptoms have something in common. They are all related to the trauma she suffered in her childhood and her sensitive and inferior personality.

Jiang Yuanxia saw that Jiang He was silent for a long time, so she mustered up her courage and said softly, "Actually, it's not so painful this way."

Jiang He smiled bitterly, he understood the implication of Yuan Xia's words.

It is precisely because the fear of oneself is too strong that it can suppress all kinds of mental discomfort.

No wonder. This also explains why Yuan Xia clearly disliked him before, but always liked to hug him.

At that time he was complacent and thought he had influenced Yuan Xia, but later he realized that something was wrong.

Now it seems that Yuan Xia had all kinds of problems in her heart at that time, and she was using him to suppress them.

but.
Jiang He knew that her fear of herself was the root of all these problems.

Yuan Xia in the original text did not have these problems. After killing herself, she just went crazy.

But perhaps it was precisely because of these illnesses that she did not completely turn evil.

He changed from a demon who was supposed to kill people without restraint to a holy son who hid in a palace and never saw the sun.

Of course, it was only in his eyes that Yuan Xia was timid. To others, she was mysterious and unpredictable, with an unpredictable temperament.

These illnesses only suppressed the dark side of her heart, but did not completely eliminate it.

From the various rumors about the Son of Good Law in the world of cultivation, it can still be seen that what Yuan Xia had done was extremely cruel.

But her targets were basically disciples of the Shanfa Hall.
These people deserve it.

This means that Yuan Xia has not yet reached a point of no return.

Jiang He naturally would not commit suicide to solve the problem directly. Not to mention other things for now, perhaps this would solve the pain that is bothering her at the moment, but it would also remove any obstacles on her path to evil.

"Are you afraid of me?"

Jiang He suddenly said in a calm voice.

These emotionless words instantly wiped out her courage. She said with a pale face, "No, I'm not afraid. Yuan Xia respects Master very much."

"Your face, which was originally white, has become so white, and you still say you are not afraid."

Jiang He smiled and gently pinched her cold face.
"You may be afraid, but Master won't bully you."

"what"

The black-haired girl let out a long sigh as if relieved, and when she came to her senses, she couldn't help but continue peeping.

This feeling made her extremely uncomfortable.

Her clothes were soaked with cold sweat from the panic just now, and a thought suddenly crossed her mind:
If the master punished her for her impolite peek, she would never dare to peek again and would not have to suffer such torture again.

Jiang He didn't know what Yuan Xia was thinking, and his behavior just now was not just to scare Yuan Xia.

To correct her perception.

For example, when a person is afraid of dogs, he will experience the psychological process of thinking that the dog will bite him.

Yuan Xia was afraid of herself because of the long-term torture she had endured.

If you deliberately make similar actions during your subsequent companionship and gradually increase the intensity as her condition improves, she will gradually accept the fact that "I will not hurt her, even if I am angry."

Her fear of herself will slowly dissipate.

In the past, this method was also called systematic desensitization, which means that by allowing the patient to face anxiety and fear stimuli while applying opposite stimuli, the anxiety and fear are gradually eliminated, so that the patient no longer has a pathological reaction to harmful stimuli.

During this period, replacing fear with other emotions may be more effective.

If he had understood Yuan Xia's psychological problems earlier, he would not have whipped Yuan Xia for pretending to be Tianji.

What bothers Jiang He is that Yuan Xia has a masochistic tendency.

But this is all for later.

Yuan Xia must not continue to stay in the Shanfa Hall, as that sick environment will only gradually harm her. But is she willing to give up all this? Honorable status, powerful power, and sufficient cultivation resources?

The values ​​of this world are completely different from those of the previous life.

Everyone is seeking the truth and practicing. To cut off someone's path is tantamount to killing their parents.

Even if he really turns into a madman, as long as he has profound cultivation, so what?
Jiang He gently held her little hand, and she blinked nervously again.

Why does Master want to hold hands? I am not a little girl anymore.
Even though she wanted to hug her master so much before, she tried her best to restrain herself.

It was not until she met the disguised Feng Yi that she hugged him gently in order to find the familiar feeling of fear.

"Cough cough."

Jiang He was also a little embarrassed. He could clearly see the shame and anger that flashed across Yuan Xia's eyes.

After all, Yuan Xia is different from Min Xin or Jin Er. She is relatively mature in mind and older in age, and she understands the differences between men and women.

This is just to get her used to it.
During the Aoki Castle period, Yuan Xia would tremble and get goose bumps every time he touched him.

But with constant contact, she gradually adapted.

In the end, I even dared to hug him actively.

This fact also gave Jiang He the confidence to reduce the shadow of himself in her heart through direct contact.

Holding hands is better than hugging her every day.

Yuan Xia's small hand was icy cold but very smooth, and was held in his hand stiffly, as if it would slip out at any moment.

When I held Yuan Xia's hand when she was little, I never felt how good it felt. It just felt like I was holding a skeleton.

Jiang He pretended not to notice her discomfort: "Come on, I'll take you to see your junior sister."

The black-haired girl stood there stubbornly, not moving.

She lowered her head, timid but firm: "Master, please, please let go, Yuan Xia will follow you."

To be honest, Jiang He was a little frustrated.

This was the first time he was refused contact by his apprentice.

He didn't want to go against his apprentice's wishes, but after spending a long time with Min Xin, he knew that sometimes what one says does not represent one's true thoughts.

Yuan Xia is not as girlish as Min Xin, but she was distant and refused to let me support her before. But she was secretly unhappy if I really didn't help her. Why?
Jiang He suddenly thought of Yuan Xia's masochistic fetish. Could it be that she wanted him to "dominate" her?
For example, her previous unhappiness was not because of whether she supported me or not, but because I followed her ideas.

Jiang He was not sure whether his guess was correct or not.

But with Yuan Xia's level of cultivation, if she really wanted to object, I couldn't force her.

Jiang He said nothing and continued to lead her forward.

Her body was very weak, and she was easily pulled by him, and her small hands struggled weakly.

Jiang He couldn't see her expression. He seemed to be tough on the surface, but he was actually very nervous.

I was afraid that a knife tip would pierce my chest from behind.

When they reached the entrance of the inn, nothing happened along the way and they both breathed a sigh of relief at the same time.

Jiang He let go of her sweaty little hand and shrugged:

"In fact, Master is also quite scared."

She seemed to have not expected Jiang He to say that, and her eyes, which had been dodging, froze for a moment.

"You are now stronger than Master. What if you want to attack Master?"

Jiang He smiled and praised, "Yuan Xia is one of the most outstanding talents in the cultivation world. Not only is she beautiful, but her cultivation is also very profound."

How could this girl have such low self-esteem?
However, Jiang He could also understand that childhood trauma would accompany a person throughout his life, like a thousand needles piercing the heart. Although the needles could be pulled out, the remaining holes would only echo with sorrow forever.

What's more, it is a trauma that targets weaknesses.

We still need to give more praise. Positive psychological hints are good medicine for everyone.

"Yuan Xia is sorry, Master. Yuan Xia. Yuan Xia is a witch."

"Even the Xuanying Sect's ruthless genius is fascinated by you, how could you be a demon girl? Moreover, my disciple Jiang He is a demon girl, so what am I, an old demon?"

"That's not what I meant. Yuan Xia is now a disciple of the Demonic Path."

She was slightly dazed, lowered her head again, and muttered softly.

In fact, this was the first time someone had praised her.

Even after her master became a better person, he never praised her. And after she became the Holy Son of Good Dharma, no one dared to say such things in front of her.

As for Xiao An, Jiang Yuanxia hated this person very much.

Every time he stood there without saying a word, staring at her with his eyes, it was disgusting.

She never thought that being pursued by the so-called leader of Xuanying Sect was something to be proud of.

Um.
Minxin likes to say things against her will, while Yuanxia always says what she really thinks.

But without exception, Jiang He needed to understand them in the opposite way.

Jiang He glared at the timid black-haired girl:
"Are you planning to betray your master? You are not some shitty disciple of the Divine Sense Religion. You are my disciple, Jiang He! I, Jiang He, am a cultivator who defeated the conspiracy of the Divine Sense Religion and Tai Zhen Tian. If it weren't for me, the Yuhua formation would have fallen into their hands, and I'm afraid the entire Zezhou would have been sacrificed. How could my disciple be a demon girl? She is just being slandered by outsiders like my master."

He also felt guilty. After all, no matter how many reasons there were, Aoki Castle was destroyed by him.

But it is undeniable that if the Yuhua Array fell into the hands of the Demon Cult, the consequences would definitely be much more serious than it is now.

In that battle, the Yuhua Array tried its best to operate until the array patterns were erased, making it impossible for the Demon Cult to control it anymore.

"Master has always been Master Yuan Xia!"

Jiang He thought that the girl would be scared by him, but he didn't expect her to suddenly grab his hand, choking with tears in her eyes.

The look in her eyes was complicated. She was definitely not crying because of fear, nor did she recognize him as her master.

Jiang He looked away: "Wait for me here, I'll go get the carriage."

"Yuan Xia and Master"

The black-haired girl glanced at the bustling streets. The mortals were cheering and there was a strong festive atmosphere.

She stopped talking immediately. This was not a place she could go to.

Especially in this kind of environment, which is mostly composed of ordinary families with happy family life, she yearns for it and also has the desire to destroy it.

Let the happiness on their faces collapse.

But she knew she couldn't do that. She opened her mouth, clenched her fist, and whispered, "Yuan Xia is waiting for Master here."

"Um"

Jiang He knew that she was not used to being in a crowded environment, and that she probably had social phobia, which had complicated causes.
That's why he stopped at the door on purpose.

But how to solve this situation?

Yuan Xia witnessed the tragic death of her parents since she was young, and when she looked at those mortal families just now, her eyes were filled with envy and fear of approaching?

Maybe if Yuan Xia could have a family of her own again, this situation could be resolved.

(End of this chapter)