Re:Zero - Jobless Reincarnation: Succubus Sword God? I don't recognize it!

Chapter 222 God is God's, and I am mine.

The lid of the red teapot made a snapping sound due to the gushing steam, and white mist hissed out of the gap.

Blowing in front of Senis's face.

She stared at Izoloti for a long while, but the latter only exchanged a brief glance with Senis before looking away.

Put down the rag, raise your hand, and open the lid of the teapot.

In an instant, hot steam rose up, mixed with the rich aroma of black tea, filling the entire kitchen. ——After Allen went to Roya, Senis specifically asked the merchants in the village to buy high-end black tea in Roya in case Philip and his wife might visit in the future.

The tea is of good quality.

The fragrance is refreshing.

But Senis' emotions were somewhat complicated.

The mist was curling up and draped over the clothes of Izoloti and Senis.

The wisps are as ethereal as smoke.

With her slight sigh.

".I am sorry and regretful. I was once a noble of Miris and a devout believer of Miris, but now..."

"I am only a traitor, and I will no longer shamelessly ask Saint Miris to bless you."

Izuluti's hand, which was fanning the hot steam from the teapot with a smile, stiffened slightly. The indifferent expression just now disappeared. She restrained her smile, revealed obvious surprise, and turned her head to look at Senis again.

From what I could see, the latter's smile was bitter and contained some regret.

But there was not much regret.

Izuluti blinked. When she entered the kitchen, based on the similar aristocratic etiquette posture of Senis and the unusual hair color of the royal capital Miris delegation, she instantly realized through the keen and efficient information flow processing of the Water God Stream that Senis was a native Miris noble who believed in the monogamous Miris religion.

But she was only slightly surprised for a moment and then put away other thoughts.

If the betrayers of Milis were to be blamed for matters between men and women, then the Milis nobles in the capital of Charles, where decadence was rife, should most likely be hanged.

She grew up in the capital, and had seen a lot, so she was naturally numb, so she did not show any unnecessary attitude on her face. Moreover, this was someone who had done a favor to her senior brother, so she just pretended that nothing had happened.

but.
Lady Senis actually apologized, and her demeanor and expression were clearly sincere.

This is completely different from Asura's nobles who break the law knowingly without any sense of shame, only think about taking from God, and do not follow the teachings.

Izuruti blinked and corrected what Senis said.

The tone is soft.

"You once believed in Saint Miris, and Saint Miris also blessed you. Since you said that you were once a noble of Miris, but now you live in a remote village like Asra, I believe that many things must have happened to you. Then, for a former devout believer, God will naturally see your difficulties and will not blame you for leaving."

Senis was stunned when she heard this, then she chuckled to herself, and her tense body relaxed. She shook her head and reached out to take a cup from the cupboard beside her.

He did not speak in a tone that he would use to speak to his juniors, but in the tone that he used to speak to his fellow followers of the Miris Church.

"People of the same age as Allen seem to be very precocious. Thank you for your comfort. This is the first time I have seen a Miris believer as tolerant as you, but for you, this is probably not a sincere thought."

Isaruti smiled, picked up the teapot and poured tea. The stream of tea flowing from the spout of the teapot was like bright red silk, connecting the teacup and the teapot, and reflected in her dark pupils.

When he spoke, he changed the subject and talked about Charles' situation.

"Madam, there are many believers in the capital who believe in Milis, and there are also many false believers who do not follow the doctrine. If I continue to insist on the doctrine, I will only be asking for trouble."

Senis nodded. "My husband was once a noble. He is quite familiar with the noble customs in the capital. I have also heard him talk about many things. It seems that there are not many nobles who are as devout as you."

Isa Luti squinted her eyes. "The reasons for joining the religion are different, and their devotion to God is naturally different. If they believe in Milis with shallow desires such as praying for money, power, and women, and their beliefs conflict with their selfish desires, then they will naturally easily degenerate into false believers, because their beliefs are not pure in the first place."

After hearing this, Senis was silent for a moment and then spoke.

"Then what is your reason for joining the sect, Miss Isaruti?"

The bright stream of tea broke off.

Izuluti looked at the full cup of water and gently placed the teapot on the table.

"Bang."

Isaruti's words fell.

"Unfortunately, I am also a 'pseudo-believer'."

Senis was stunned for a moment, and then she heard Izuluti continue.

"But I am different from those pseudo-believers. I chose to join Miris because my parents passed away and I needed an 'anchor' to connect me to the distant place where they were."

She turned to look at Senise.

"I am not completely loyal to Miris or God. I just covet God's mercy and the glory beside His throne. God loves believers and He collects the souls of the dead. After I die, I will also see fellow Miris believers in the glory beside His throne."

"Them, my parents."

Isaruti reached out and skimmed the foam on the tea in the cup, her eyes a little vague.

"My faith in Miris is not pure enough."

Senis was stunned for a long time before she looked at Izuluti with a slightly distressed expression in her eyes.

Although the girl in front of him looked very aristocratic and mature, she still had some of the characteristics that are unique to young people.
Stubborn and sharp.

There is a very obvious characteristic of this age group - they have a serious attitude towards things in black and white. For example, now, although they are extremely devout Miris believers, they have to criticize themselves from a fundamental starting point and classify themselves as "pseudo-believers".

If one only has a longing for God himself, then he is worthy of being called a "believer."

Then there probably wouldn't be many true believers in this world.

Senis smiled.

"If these are all false believers, then most people in the Holy Empire of Milis are false believers. After all, even the Pope had to fight for power to get to that position. Has he always been pure in his belief in Milis?"

"Only those who believe in Milis purely enough are worthy of being called believers. In that case, haha, I'm afraid only the 'Son of God' who completely separates his selfish desires from his faith is worthy of being called a believer, right?"

Izuruti was only focused on the matter at hand and did not comment on what Senis said.

Senice blinked and listened to the faint voice of Paul coming from the living room from time to time.

"But, if you really count by that standard, I should have been a true believer."

Izuluti's hands froze, and she tilted her head to look at Senis in surprise.

The latter smiled gently.

"Don't get me wrong, I'm not the Son of God. But I think I have completely separated my selfish desires from my beliefs. Maybe it's a bit shameless to say this, but I still have awe and respect for God. Even though I have now abandoned Milis's teachings and am no longer worthy of being His believer and have become a 'pseudo-believer', I still believe..." "God only watches the world from outside the sky, and He never responds to people's expectations."

Izuruti opened her mouth wide.

"Are you saying that Miris's teachings are wrong? Even if we don't follow the teachings, we can still get His attention? How is this possible?"

Senis smiled bitterly and said, "Don't be like this, Izuluti, this is just the self-consolation of a pseudo-believer. It's me who is wrong, not the doctrine."

Isa Luti then realized that she had said the wrong thing. She closed her mouth and spoke silently for a while. "I'm sorry, ma'am, I'm just a little surprised, and I didn't mean to target you."

"It doesn't matter. It's a fact that it goes against the teachings. I don't mean to make excuses for this matter. I'm just expressing my own feelings and thoughts."

Senis looked at the black tea with a look of reminiscence in her eyes.

".I was the second daughter of the earl of the Milis Holy Empire, the so-called daughter of a good family. In the first fifteen years of my life, I never disobeyed my parents' instructions and always abided by the teachings of Milis. However, unlike others, some believers always hope to tie some sustenance and selfish desires to faith. It may be that my family was well-off when I was young and I did not have too many selfish desires, so I never tied any selfish desires to Milis's teachings."

"This perception has continued to this day. I even quarreled with my family after my fifteenth birthday and ran away from home for freedom. I was even deceived when I joined the adventurer team and was forced to be a cheap recovery staff. I used healing magic almost without rest every day. I never expected to receive any favor from God to help me out of trouble."

"I have always believed that no matter whether people in the world are in suffering or not, God is sitting in the sky. He is God, and He cannot empathize with the joys and sorrows of mankind, nor will He provide a helping hand."

She looked at Isaruti's somewhat dazed face and smiled with her head tilted.

"So I think my faith is pure enough because I have never thought about getting anything from God. I just purely fear and respect Him. That's all."

Isaruti was really stunned. It was the first time she met a "pure" believer like Senis.

Without praying for God's response, without any purpose to fear God and worship God? Such a person actually exists? And he is in Asura?
She didn't know what to say for a moment, and couldn't judge whether Senis's beliefs were in line with the "standards" of the Miris sect, so she had to focus on Senis's own experience.

"And then? Cheap recovery crews, then"

Senis felt the warm temperature of the teacup with her hand.

"It was not God who saved me, but my husband."

Isaruti was stunned, and subconsciously thought of the words that Allen said to comfort her at the Mizukami Ryu Dojo many years ago. She blinked, and then heard Senis continue to speak.

"At first, under the influence of Miris's teachings, I hated him. Although he was a noble of Asura, he used rude words, always broke his promises, was childish and impulsive, loved money, treated others as idiots, and would touch girls' buttocks at any time. He even showed that he had a head full of obscene thoughts to pursue me."

Senis stroked the edge of the teacup, and the warm feeling seeped into her body temperature through the cup.

"But he's not a bad person. He always helps me. Even though he makes fun of me for being ignorant, he always lends me a helping hand as if he really has no other choice."

“So, he became my husband.”

Thinking of this, Senis couldn't help but recall the night when the affair broke out two years ago.

she continued.

"However, before marriage, he promised me to follow monogamy. Many years later, something terrible happened. As you can see, I eventually chose to become a 'betrayer'. I chose to forgive some of my husband's bad habits and to abandon the teachings of Miris."

"because."

"God is God's, and I am mine."

"God sits in heaven."

"I choose the path that will 'save' myself."

"Although my husband has many shortcomings, even though he pestered the maid and didn't keep his promises, which made me so angry that I wanted to leave the house, but after calming down and venting my feelings afterwards, I found that I had actually been prepared for this."

"I am actually angry about the fact that he did not keep his promise. It has nothing to do with the maid or this family."

"I finally accepted his confession as he knelt on the ground."

"Some things were destined the moment he saved me."

"If he hadn't saved me, the outcome would have been even worse, right? Or, if he had been a worse person, I wouldn't have ended up well. I wouldn't have been able to decide whether or not to go against the teachings in that situation. But at least the choice is still in my hands, right? I can still struggle, make judgments, and choose my own path."

"Of course, to some extent, this statement still looks like the sophistry of a traitor."

Senis picked up the teacups and placed them on the tray one by one, smiling brightly.

"In the eyes of you, a devout believer of Milis, my behavior must have many inappropriate aspects. I do not defend those inappropriate views, because I do think that I am a 'betrayer', and those speculations about the gods are only based on my own wishful and subjective judgments."

There was a commotion in the living room. It seemed that Sylphy and Alice were coming with Roalds and Norda.

"You seem to have said too much. Let's go and bring the black tea over. It's just the right temperature now. It would be a great help if you could come over. Could you please pour four more cups of black tea?"

Senis picked up the tray and was about to go out, but Izuluti spoke in a daze.

"You misunderstood, ma'am. I am not insisting on your approach. After all, I have seen too many things in Asura."

Senis turned to look at her in confusion, and then heard Izuluti continue to speak.

“I’m just a little curious”

"If one day, the gods no longer just look at you, but establish a connection with you, telling you that it is wrong to violate the doctrine, and the doctrine itself is correct, then what will you do?"

Senis paused at the door and gave her answer almost without thinking.

"I will kneel down and confess to Him, and then seriously question Him about me being a 'betrayer' who violates the teachings."

“Are you still qualified to be His believer?”

Senis smiled.

Turn around.

Stepping onto the long corridor outside the kitchen.

With just a turn, the figure disappeared from Isaruti's sight.

　I specifically deleted the number of words to below a payment limit, so... could you give me some money so that I can be recommended? I guess you all don't want to see me being laughed at by new readers, so please help me and save my face.

　　Plot: Boomerang. Adds some religious color to Senis's personality and behavior logic.

　　This makes forgiving Paul more plausible.

　　And then dig a hole by the way, yes, just by the way.

　　In addition: Senis is the Son of God, which can directly provide information. The fact that her mother became demented after being saved is actually a side effect of the Son of God's ability, so it has never been cured.

　　For those of you who are fans of anime, I need to explain that the Son of God is a chosen one who is born with some rule-like powers. The one who will summon the Seven Stars in the future (the essence of the Great Transfer is summoning magic) is also a Son of God.

　　This chapter provides a lot of information, completing the original setting of how to become the Son of God.

　　So, the accompanying question is - does the god of Miris exist?
　　

(End of this chapter)