Re:Zero - Jobless Reincarnation: Succubus Sword God? I don't recognize it!

Chapter 42 Paul's future, words that cannot be spoken

After Paul patted his forehead and assured Mrs. Somar that Alan did not bully that boy Somar, the lady finally left with a satisfied blushing face under the burning gaze of Senice.

Um.
He is worthy of being the only pure love god of war in Buena Village on every level.

Afterwards, under Alan's instigation, and because Roxy was not good at rejecting people, it didn't take long for them to form a circle and begin testing Sylphy's magic control and magic power level in the yard, which also attracted the attention of Ceness and Lilia.

"Okay, Sylphy, use the water ball technique. Ah. Be careful not to hit the tree that Mrs. Senis has carefully cultivated."

"Yeah good! Water Ball Technique!"

"Hey! Sylphy, you poured water on my head! Where are you looking?!"

".No. Sorry Rudy!"

Sylphy apologized absentmindedly and hurriedly, but her eyes kept wandering around Roxy.

The latter looked at the two of them helplessly, scratching his face.

At this time, Lilia had returned to the house, took out a dry towel, and was wiping Rudy's hair.

And Senis showed a helpless and doting smile, standing by and watching the children's mischief quietly.

This scene was like a painting, imprinted in Alan's pupils, and he smiled happily.

"Ten years later, Rudy will settle in Shalia in the Kingdom of Lanoa. Perhaps there will be a similar scene. I always feel like I can vaguely see the future."

He blinked, took two steps back, and looked at the five people again.

'Rudy. Lokisi. Sylphy. Lilia. Senis.'

The summer sun was very dazzling, reflecting the faces of the five people clearly.
The smile on Alan's face slowly faded.

"All the characters that I have seen so far in the plot are here. Those who will be in the Shariarudi family in the future are here."

'Someone who shouldn't be in the future', Alan turned his head and looked behind him.

Not far away, Paul was leaning against a tree trunk. The tree was like an umbrella, hiding his figure in the shadow under the tree.

He and Senis and the others were not bathed in the same sunlight.

The leaves were dim and shadowy. Alan could feel Paul's gaze on the people in the sun, but he could not see his expression.

He squinted his eyes, turned and walked into the shadow beside Paul, then turned to look at his face.

Paul leaned quietly against the tree, his arms folded across his chest, a smile on his lips, silently watching his wife and children in the sun, seemingly very comfortable. He did not turn his head to look at Alan who was approaching, but just kept looking into the distance and said with a smile.

"Oh? Why are you here?"

Alan looked at Paul's profile, was silent for a long time, and finally spoke.

"Uncle, to be honest, I have no concept of family, so I have always been curious, if I die, what will my family think?"

Paul was stunned, turned his head to look at Allen, hesitated for a long time, and then sighed.

"Well, I really want to make up some nice words to tell you, but I'm sorry, Alan."

Paul glanced at Senisrudy in the distance and looked at Alan apologetically.

"Honestly, I can't empathize with you. But I think"

Alan then interrupted him.

"What if I say, and you put yourself in my shoes, and one day in the future, you, uncle, passed away due to some accident. When you are dying, will you feel any regret towards your family? What would you want to say in your heart?"

Alan looked at Paul's surprised eyes and finished his words.

".Or, in the end, will you say nothing, just look at your family, and quietly welcome death?" 'Just like in the original plot.'

Paul was a little annoyed at first, but after seeing Alan's serious expression, he realized that the other party was currently alone, so he couldn't help but sigh inwardly and didn't care about Alan's reckless words.

He was silent for a moment, then thought for a long time before speaking.

"If it was when I was an adventurer a few years ago, I would probably have said nothing and faced death calmly. To be honest, I have always had a regret in my heart and wanted to talk to my deceased father in person to resolve the knot in my heart. Therefore, death does not mean the end for me. Adventurers themselves face many dangers every day, and everyone is mentally prepared to die in an accident."

Alan blinked and was about to speak, but then he saw Paul look up at Senice and Rudy and smile gently.

"If it were now, I wouldn't be so open-minded. If I really die in an accident in the future, if possible, before I die..."

"I want to see Senise and Rudy again."

Alan looked up at the teardrop mole at the corner of his eye.

"Have a look?"

Paul's smile gradually faded.

"Yes, to see if they are okay. If they are all safe, I might feel a little relieved. Haha, besides this, I also have my own little thoughts. I might think."

"Perhaps everyone will shed tears for me, the incompetent head of the family."

Alan stopped looking at Paul. He lowered his head and looked at the scabbard beside him. Paul continued to speak.

".If Ceness, Rudy, and even Lilia would cry for me."

"That would be great."

After saying this, the two were silent for a moment.

"But if I only take a look, I won't be satisfied."

Alan didn't look up, his eyes were slightly lowered.

Paul smiled self-deprecatingly.

"Everyone can say nice things. Maybe there will come a day when I will try to accept the reality and pretend to be calm when facing death. But in fact, I will definitely wail deep in my heart saying things like 'I don't want to die'. After all, "

".I still have so many things I want to do"

"I can't bear to leave Senis. Maybe she and I will have a few children in a few years. I can't bear to leave Rudy either. I want to see Rudy and the children grow up. Are they going to school well? Will they be bullied by others? If all goes well, when I am old, it will be nice to hear my grandchildren surround me and call me grandpa."

"As expected, I still don't want to die. Just thinking about it makes me nostalgic."

Alan subconsciously began to rub the knife at his waist.

"What if you and Rudy were in a very dangerous situation, and only one of you could survive? Or, the situation was so critical that you would die to save him. What would you think, uncle?"

Paul was stunned, and the figure of Rudy in the distance was reflected in his pupils.

He did not pause from time to time to choose his words like he did before. He just blinked once and immediately turned to look at Alan.

“Although there are still a lot of things I want to do, but if I have to choose between the two, forget it.”

He smiled.

"I'd rather die."

　About the plot: maybe fans of the novel will be more touched by it, but fans of the anime will be confused. Well, if you are still watching the anime now, you may feel touched in a week.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)