Re:Zero - Jobless Reincarnation: Succubus Sword God? I don't recognize it!

Chapter 432: Will people see a revolving lantern before they die?
Allen has loved watching mountains and rivers since he was a child.

When the weather is sunny, the blue-green mountain "Aishan" will lean against the eaves of the house motionlessly.

There is a long stream outside the yard. From a distance, it looks like a snake crawling along the hillside. According to the aunt in the yard, it is a tributary of the river flowing down from the top of the mountain, called Xuan River.

The river water passing by the door looked as unsteady as the old man guarding the yard.

Old people are always losing things.

A shallow section of the Xuan River was left in the yard.

To be precise, it was framed in the welfare home by a fence.

Although people outside the hospital call this place "orphan", the word "orphan" is not really a nice word.

Therefore, abandoned babies were strictly forbidden and ordered to call their "home" in this way.

Everyone in the courtyard is a big family.

All my brothers and sisters have the surname Ai.

The same surname as Aisan from far away.

Alan often played by the river beach until he was seven years old.

This was not because he liked to play. In fact, he preferred to stay in the bedroom and read, or sit on the riverbank when no one was around and watch the train whirring along the track outside the yard fence in the sunset.

But playing on the riverbank in public is a symbol of "power".

Alan had no physical defects or congenital diseases and was one of the few children who could be let out to play.

Children always have pure thoughts, and this feeling of privilege is surprisingly tempting.

You can show your own 'uniqueness'.

then.

The shadow of the not-so-high Aishan Mountain in the distance;

The riverbed is covered with wet mud;

The train passed slowly under the setting sun;
The envy in the eyes of the children in the same courtyard.

These are the "mountains, rivers, lakes and seas" that Allen saw during his childhood.

After the age of seven, Allen started school.

After a few days, they stopped going to the river beach to play.

He became friends with Ai Qiu and Ai Hao.

Ai Qiu is two years younger than him, likes to eat sweets, has a cute appearance, but suffers from mild hearing impairment.

Aihao is one year younger than him and has a slight stutter. Every time he fails to speak clearly, he gets beaten by Alan.

In order to ensure that the cat can be adopted normally, this minor defect must be hidden.

Children in welfare homes over the age of three are unsalable, so they need to work harder to market themselves.

It was under such circumstances that Ai Hao was restrained by Allen, who personally turned him into a sensible child who was "not good at talking but acted prudently".

Within half a year, he was adopted by a foreign couple.

Ai Hao cried bitterly when they left, but Alan smiled happily.

He said.

"Get out of here now, and don't come back again."

After this incident, Allen was greatly encouraged.

So he stepped up his "correction" of Ai Qiu in the same way.

But Ai Qiu was obviously a very likable child in the welfare home. Every time an adoptive parent came, he couldn't help but ask for candy.

The act of 'asking' is not welcomed by adoptive parents.

In the minds of adoptive people - I can give you candy, but you can't ask for it.

This resulted in the latter not being able to be adopted even though he hid his slight hearing impairment very well.

Just when Alan was about to come up with a suitable method for the other party in order to successfully follow the plan to have both Ai Qiu and Ai Hao adopted before they go to elementary school.

An accident happened.

A DINK couple took a fancy to Allen.

Because Alan looks smarter than his peers, and they like smart and sensible children.

Just like that, in the sudden change, Alan only had time to remind Ai Qiu to eat less sweets in the future, and then left the orphanage.

He seemed to have a home.

Three weeks, only three weeks had passed, and Alan was 'returned'.

In fact, he has tried his best to play the role of a smart and sensible child at home.

But the problem was that he still found it difficult to call the woman who adopted him mother.

At that time, he had already started primary school and was clearly called an orphan by his classmates, so no matter how beautiful the lie of "big family" woven by the welfare home was.

He also clearly knew that he was an abandoned child.

How can an abandoned baby have a mother?
The DINK couple's patience limit was only three weeks. They quickly decided to have a child of their own. Without giving Alan more time to adjust, they sent him back very quickly.

This is only natural.

but
On the day Allen returned, he successfully used his own anger and took advantage of the adults' compassion to send Ai Qiu, who had come to greet him, out of the orphanage.

Even if there was no apology afterwards.

But he still felt he had 'succeeded'.

In this way, before going to school, Ai Hao and Ai Qiu would not be ridiculed as "orphans" by their classmates.

well.

So, he returned to being alone again.

I can start sitting on the river bank and looking at the mountains and water again.

I no longer help my "friends" find adoptive families.

That's what 'kids' do, after trying something new and novel.

They quickly lost interest in it.

——That’s what Alan thought at the time.

"Do you regret it? You thought you took good care of your 'friends', but ended up dragging yourself down?"

As the sun sets, the warm glow of the sunset burns the river beach.

A black-haired little boy with a crew cut sat on the riverbank with a stern face, glancing sideways at the tall and strong young man with strange white hair and sharp eyebrows standing next to him.

He raised his eyebrows, looking like a little adult, "Regret? What are you talking about?"

The white-haired young man, however, sat down next to him with a smile on his face and casually changed the subject.

“How does it feel to realize your ‘self-worth’?”

The black-haired boy grinned, feeling proud that his carefully hidden "fame" had been discovered.

"Cool."

“You give others ‘value’, but who thinks you are ‘valuable’?”

The little boy stopped laughing.

Alan, now a grown man, rubbed his childhood self's head with his hands.

"Don't worry, there will be bread and milk, it's just a little late, just be patient and wait."

Little Alan rolled his eyes at him.

"The train is coming."

"Really?" Alan asked in surprise. He raised his eyes and looked at the railway tracks under the hillside west of the orphanage.

Sure enough, the end of the field of vision.

A green passenger train came over leisurely with a puff of gas.

Alan stopped asking questions and looked over, sitting with his younger self and enjoying the tranquility of the moment.

To be honest, he was a little surprised when he saw his childhood memories emerge before him.

But I soon got used to the feeling of watching almost forgotten memories as if they were a movie.

There is a very wonderful feeling of happiness.

For a moment he wondered why he was here and why he saw this strange scene, but his mind was in a mess and he couldn't think of anything and couldn't remember anything.

He only remembered that he seemed to be pushed here by someone, and he only remembered that the other person helped him unload a kind of suffocating burden.

As for now?

Where did it come from? Where is it going?

These doubts could not cause any ripples in a heart that was becoming increasingly peaceful like the surface of the water.

Well, now that we are here, let’s make the best of it.

Since you can see it yourself.

Then take a look.

At this moment, his childhood self was stomping on the ground next to him. He turned to look.

That's a nest of ants.

Weird looking ants.

Alan looked up at his childhood self, but what he saw was a childish face that looked a little excited.

"What are you doing? Aren't you supposed to be watching the train?"

"Oh, you're annoying, just as annoying as these ants."

".You're so rude, aren't you afraid that I'll beat you up?"

"Why are you beating me? Why are you busy stepping on ants with me?"

"Oh, you better step on it yourself."

The train gradually came closer with a grunt.

Alan stopped looking at his playful childhood self and just stared at the approaching locomotive.

"This grey one is really an eyesore, it's baring its fangs and claws, I'll step on it to death." Bang, a kick.

"Why are there still red ants forming an army to bite me? Oh, and they have shells, which is an eyesore. Let's step on them to death." Bang, a kick.

"Ants actually have a nest? It's a bit hard and an eyesore, so I stepped on it." Bang, another kick.

Listening to the noise beside him, Alan secretly laughed. Why didn't he remember being so naughty when he was a kid? He looked at the approaching train and was about to shout at the other party to stop playing.

At this moment, the next sentence entered Allen's ears.

"Oh! This ant is so powerful. Look, it has blue eyes. It's so beautiful. Do you want to step on it to death?"

Blue eyes?
Ants have blue eyes?
Doubts arose in my mind.

Buzz! ! ! !

The train was coming.

Alan didn't look down, he just stared at his favorite scene from his childhood.

Why do you like watching trains?

Because the train track is a one-way street, when it rushes up, anyone in front of it will be crushed.

This was the most powerful 'thing' Alan had ever seen as a child.

This thing is now passing by the yard beside me.
Bang Chi, Bang Chi.

The locomotive was out of sight.

Bang Chi, Bang Chi.

Behind them were rows of darkened windows.

No, not dim.

There seem to be people in those windows
Thinking of this, Alan suddenly laughed.

There really is someone there.

The first window is Ai Hao, whom I haven't seen for a long time. I always thought that he would be living the life of an elite class abroad.

Sure enough, look, this kid wearing gold-rimmed glasses and dressed in a suit and tie is waving at me.
Alan smiled and raised his hand to greet the other party.

But before a smile could appear on his face, his expression froze.

The second window follows.

It’s Ai Qiu.

His face was still that of a child, he was holding a handful of candies, waving his hands and wiping his tears in front of her.

Alan didn't know what to do for a moment.

Then, he was not given time to think.

The two of them passed by each other amid the hum of the train.

There was no one in the windows one after another behind.

Alan suddenly felt lost, but before he could calm down, the first carriage completely disappeared from his sight.

Alan's eyes widened.

The second carriage that comes into view is no longer a green carriage, but a huge carriage with a simple shape, similar to European carriages.

Someone was smiling and waving at him from the first window, with pupils bright and fiery.

That's Sylphy.

Alan felt a little happy. He felt that he hadn't seen Sylphy for a long time, so he smiled and waved to her.

A figure flashed by.

The next window showed Lokisi waving her hand, her blue hair flying in the air, and half of her body leaning out of the train window.

He waved slightly to Alan with some hesitation.

There is a slight contradiction between body language and behavioral logic.

He is indeed a Muggle teacher.

Alan smiled and waved.

In the next window, Rudy was waving and shouting, "You are my God! Alan!"
This caused sweat to break out on Alan's forehead.

The next ones were Senis and Paul. Oh, and Sylphy's parents, Roltz and Norda, were also waving.

Next one.
Alan was suddenly stunned, his eyes sore.

Red waves were flying in the window, Hilda's eyes were curved, and she was holding Alice in her arms with a raised brow, waving gently to her.

Just like the gaze that I saw almost every day in just one year.

Yes, I need an adaptation period before I can call out "Mom".

This time limit lasted a full year.

It's really slow. No wonder he was sent back to the orphanage after only three weeks. If it was a year, maybe
I don’t think that’s possible.

After all, there is no one around me to help me get through this difficult time.

Alan could only smile bitterly and wave goodbye to Hilda.

A figure passed by.

The next one seemed to be a man with brown curly hair, but before Alan could see the man's face clearly, he disappeared in the hum of the train.

Next was a red-haired maid and two children. The red-haired child's face seemed to be getting bigger and smaller, and it was hard to see clearly, as if it was real or not.

The next one was Isaruti, who was wearing the familiar swordsman uniform of the Suishin-ryu dojo. She held her chin with one hand, with charming eyes and curved eyebrows.

Wave goodbye.

Further back.

Alan found that he could not recognize the people in the window.

People of all races, skin colors, and faces passed by on the high-speed train.

He felt that those people seemed familiar, but he didn't know where he had seen them.

Alan frowned subconsciously, but then, considering that it was just a passing train, he naturally relaxed his brows.

It's normal not to recognize it, right?
How can a train car be filled with people you know? That's too much.
Just as I was thinking this.

The train came to an end.

The turbulent wind dissipated.

At the rear of the quaint carriage, there is a fence similar to an observation deck.

A long-eared girl with blonde hair and wearing simple and quaint clothes was leaning on the railing with her hands, looking innocent.

She has the same red eyes as Sylphy, with the corners of her eyes slightly raised.

At this time, Alan looked at him in surprise and actually jumped up excitedly on the train.

shouted Alan with a big smile;

"Laplace-sama! I'm here!!"

The train was gone in an instant.

Allen's face was full of horror.

Laplace?

Who?
Yes. Dragon King, who is that blonde long-eared girl who looks like Sylphy's adult self?
An answer came to Alan's mind.

She is not Sylphy.

She is Elina Lijie.

Laplace's adopted maid, who sacrificed herself in an attempt to increase Orsted's chances of defeating the human-god, was left in Longming Mountain forever after Laplace was split in two.

but
Why can I see her face clearly? Isn't this a picture that should only appear in Laplace's mind? There should be no description of it in the novel.
novel?

What do you mean?
What novel?
At this moment, the somewhat regretful voice of my teenage self sounded beside me.

"Although this blue-eyed ant is beautiful,...
Ants are ants after all
Stomp her to death."

(End of this chapter)