Lu Mingfei, who has bipolar disorder, refreshes the holy text every week

Chapter 11: Eruption of Silence
Lu Mingfei was very angry.

It's not that I'm angry because of mania, it's that I'm angry because of depression.

"Professor Guderian, in terms of overall quality, this student Su Xiaoqiang is better than me."

"In terms of potential, she is better than me."

“I saw this with my own eyes!”

In terms of academic performance, Su Xiaoqiang ranks among the best. In grade exams, Lu Mingfei often performs poorly due to depression and fails to achieve ideal results.

Only when you are manic occasionally can you reach Su Xiaoqiang's level.

Not only that.

He also saw Su Xiaoqiang's magic yesterday. Compared with his rubbish enforcement that could only bully crying girls, the magic seemed more powerful.

That’s huge potential!

"You said you would give me a scholarship? That's only for outstanding students. Who am I, Lu Mingfei?"

Su Xiaoqiang clenched his fists.

What words!

Look at what Lu Mingfei said?

She was the one who witnessed Lu Mingfei's excellence with her own eyes!
Extremely terrifying super powers!

Unrivaled pressure!

She felt that she needed to say a few words to Lu Mingfei.

"Lu Mingfei."

"Yeah." Lu Mingfei thought that Su Xiaoqiang also felt that Professor Guderian was talking nonsense, and was ready to drag Su Xiaoqiang to scold him too.

"I think what Professor Guderian said is very right."

"……what?"

Lu Mingfei was stunned.

what's the situation?
Didn’t Su Xiaoqiang just have an argument with Professor Guderian?

Why are you on the same front with Professor Guderian now?

Su Xiaoqiang looked into Lu Mingfei's eyes firmly and said.

"Lu Mingfei, I think you have excellent overall qualities and great potential. You must have confidence in yourself!"

Lu Mingfei chuckled and pointed at Su Xiaoqiang.

"You are definitely trying to comfort me, aren't you?"

"You're afraid that I'll be too depressed after knowing the truth, so you want to comfort me in this way, right?"

"I do not need!"

Lu Mingfei felt that the whole world was laughing at him, the whole world was laughing at him, they were waiting for him to jump in and then mock him mercilessly.

That must be it!

Professor Guderian saw that Lu Mingfei was already in a state of madness and was extremely depressed, so he quickly came up with an idea and said.

"Actually, we accepted you and gave you a scholarship because of your parents!"

Lu Mingfei finally calmed down and looked at Professor Guderian blankly.

His parents, whom he missed the most, had not written to him for a long time. How he wished that when he fell ill, he could hold his mother's hand, lean on her arms and cry loudly to vent the pent-up emotions in his heart.

"They care about you very much," Professor Guderian said. "Although I have never met them, I have a photo of them here. Oh, and there is also a letter your mother wrote to the college about you."

He took out a photo from his pocket and placed it in front of Lu Mingfei.

Su Xiaoqiang was also very curious about Lu Mingfei's parents, so he came over to watch.

The photo shows a garden in summer. In the distance, you can vaguely see the Kassel Academy in the sunset. In the near distance, there are countless vine walls, which are dark green and transparent. A man and a woman are walking hand in hand in the vine walls. The man is wearing a loose white shirt and a pair of loose-leg pants, and a pair of wooden slippers on his feet. The woman is wearing a pure white cotton home skirt.

Lu Mingfei couldn't control his tears.

He didn't dare to reach out and touch the photo, for fear that it was an illusion that would be shattered at the slightest touch.

Su Xiaoqiang hurriedly comforted Lu Mingfei.

"Your parents are at Kassel College, so you must go to Kassel College. It is the place closest to your parents!"

Even my aunt didn't have time to complain about the couple and said to Lu Mingfei.

"That's right. Look how well your parents treat you. They even found a college for you. Don't be willful. Go and study!"

He really wanted to see his parents, and if Cassel could see his parents, he would rather be deceived. Anyway, he was already like this, so what was there to be deceived about?

Professor Guderian noticed that Lu Mingfei was interested, so he quickly took out a letter and handed it to Lu Mingfei.

Dear Principal Angers:
Long time no contact. I hope your health is as good as before.

We probably won't see each other for a long time. Recent research has made new progress and we can't leave.

I have something to ask of you. My child Lu Mingfei is already eighteen years old. He is a smart kid. Maybe his grades are not that good, but we all believe that he will achieve great academically. So if possible, please help Kassel College in accepting him.

I can't tell him personally, so I have to ask you to convey it to me, saying that my father and mother love him.

Yours sincerely,

Giovanni

Lu Mingfei read the letter silently and didn't speak for a long time.

Professor Guderian cleared his throat, suddenly looked into Lu Mingfei's eyes, and said in an extremely affectionate tone and not very standard pronunciation, "Mingfei, Mom and Dad love you."

Lu Mingfei didn't hear what Professor Guderian said. He put down the letter, stood up and spoke softly.

"I'm going to the bathroom."

Lu Mingfei leaned against the bathroom door, sat on the floor, buried his head in his legs and cried bitterly.

It turns out that my parents haven't forgotten me yet.

Every night when he wanted to commit suicide, he would think of his parents.

After not seeing each other for so many years, he really hopes to see his parents before he dies.

However, he did not dare to contact his parents actively, for fear of hearing that they had forgotten him.

That would cause him even more pain and he would die without hesitation.

What's the point of him living if even his parents don't care about him.

Today, I heard the news from my parents.

The fact that his parents still remembered him made him a little greedy for life.

Maybe the letter was a fake.

But at this moment, he would rather believe that it was true. It was the only lie he could see through but was unwilling to expose.

Lu Mingfei felt that he was quite stupid.

In this meaningless world, he has no meaning either.

I am a meaningless person, pursuing meaningless things in this meaningless world.

At this time, a pair of jogging shoes with dark purple patterns appeared in front of him, but he ignored them.

Instead, the owner of the shoes squatted down and stared at Lu Mingfei with wide eyes.

"Oh, are you crying?"

"Weren't you pretty awesome that day?"

Lu Mingfei looked up in surprise. A tall and bright girl was squatting in front of him.

She was looking at herself with a smile, the sterling silver four-leaf clover pendant on her earlobe swaying, the diamonds embedded in it shining brightly.

"you know me?"

Nuonuo laughed: "How could I not know you!"

"That day I invited you to play StarCraft, and you beat me to pieces. Didn't that prove that you're not a coward, a wimp, or a pathetic person?"

"As a man, why are you crying here?"

Nuo Nuo's sarcastic voice entered Lu Mingfei's ears and awakened his memories of the day before yesterday.

The girl in front of him was Nono who had come to play StarCraft with him that day!
He used force to defeat her effortlessly.

Now Nuonuo is here to take revenge on me!

Being looked down upon by his own defeated opponent made Lu Mingfei's blood boil.

Coupled with the shock of the news from his parents just now, Lu Mingfei was shaking all over.

He was breathing heavily and staring at the girl in front of him. Finally, he couldn't hold back his pent-up emotions anymore and became manic.

"How dare you, a mere piece of trash, act so arrogantly in front of me?"

(End of this chapter)