Lu Mingfei, who has bipolar disorder, refreshes the holy text every week

Chapter 14 Freeze Frame Content…Dreamlike

Lu Mingfei was lying on the ground, looking at the sky.

"Nothing, just want to calm down."

Su Xiaoqiang took out the medicine he bought for Lu Mingfei in the morning from his backpack angrily.

"Here, take the medicine."

Lu Mingfei pushed Su Xiaoqiang's hand away indifferently.

"No, I don't want to take medicine now. My condition is not that serious yet."

Su Xiaoqiang grabbed Lu Mingfei's hand and forced the medicine into Lu Mingfei's mouth.

"I said, I don't want it!" Lu Mingfei sat up angrily and pushed Su Xiaoqiang away.

Tears streamed down his face and he felt out of control.

Everything he had just done shattered the dream he had woven for himself, that hazy and beautiful dream.

His fantasy about his parents began to crack and he felt a dull pain in his heart.

He didn't understand why his parents would send a letter to the school at this time instead of sending a letter to himself.

No matter how he called out to his parents, it was useless.

In his parents' hearts, he may have really been forgotten and is no longer their spoiled child.

His sky is full of wind and rain, and there is no rainbow anymore.

He hated himself for being useless!

His heart began to twitch due to excessive emotion. He kept apologizing for what he had just done and was in pain.

I am moved by the happy times when my parents were around me.

Su Xiaoqiang looked at Lu Mingfei in front of him and felt very heartbroken.

This boy has endured too much.

Because his parents were busy working away from home, he was sent to live with his uncle and aunt. He did not feel any parental love and even suffered from severe bipolar disorder.

She hugged Lu Mingfei gently and used her body to warm his cold heart.

I hope this will make Lu Mingfei feel better.

Lu Mingfei was stunned at first, but the pleasant scent of Su Xiaoqiang in his nose seemed to ease his sadness.

However, in his mind, it was surging.

His face was twitching, his tears still couldn't stop, and all kinds of emotions surged in his heart.

He felt that his wounds were full of sweetness, but it attracted a group of ants that were constantly devouring his flesh and blood.

My whole body was shaking uncontrollably.

My brain hurts!

Eyes bloodshot!
Chest heaving!

Difficulty breathing!

The feeling of suffocation made his whole body restless.

Su Xiaoqiang discovered that something was wrong with Lu Mingfei and was frightened. He quickly took out a sedative and fed it to Lu Mingfei.

However, Lu Mingfei had lost control and fell into a mania that was different from usual.

His eyes became cold. He glanced at the pills handed to him by Su Xiaoqiang, gently pushed it away, and then kissed Su Xiaoqiang's delicate lips.

"what?"

Su Xiaoqiang widened his eyes and looked at Lu Mingfei in shock.

Is he kissing himself?
The softness on her lips made her dizzy.

Lu Mingfei gently parted his lips and touched Su Xiaoqiang's head.

"I'm fine. I will go back quietly and go to school tomorrow. You should go back too."

After saying that, Lu Mingfei stood up and looked down at Su Xiaoqiang.

At this moment, in Su Xiaoqiang's eyes, Lu Mingfei's tall figure, with his back against the sun, was filled with arrogance that kept people at a distance.

He turned and left. Su Xiaoqiang subconsciously reached out to grab the corner of Lu Mingfei's clothes, but his fingertips brushed the edge of his suit and missed him.

Lu Mingfei looked ahead with a determined look and gritted his teeth.

He didn't recover at all, but became even worse.

The straight streets before my eyes meandered like a river, the tall buildings swayed like seaweed, the pedestrians were sometimes big and sometimes small, and the whole world turned into a dream.

He didn't want to hurt anyone and tried his best to suppress his madness.

Now Lu Mingfei just wanted to go back home and have a good sleep. He hoped that he would be able to recover after waking up.

His steps became untidy, his route became crooked, and he would bump into pedestrians from time to time.

He clenched his teeth and stopped himself from speaking. He was afraid that he would do something terrible and tried not to get into trouble.

This was the first time he was able to rely on his consciousness to control his mania.

He felt that his condition might have improved, and as long as he maintained it, he would be cured and return to normal.

With beautiful fantasies about the future, he continued to move forward.

However, his heart was beating violently, and the intense excitement made his fingers tense, his muscles twitch, and his breathing rapid and intense.

The restless beating and the panic of a wild horse raged in my chest.

When the scene in front of him became more normal, he turned and walked into a dark alley. The alley was filled with a pungent smell, as if all the garbage in the city was gathered together.

And he is one of them.

Lu Mingfei found a corner, leaned over and slowly squatted down.

The narrow light in front of my eyes became more and more dazzling.

He kept telling himself, don't be impulsive, don't be impulsive...

The world before my eyes seemed to be returning to normal and no longer distorted.

He was overjoyed. Did he overcome his illness?

It was the first time that he felt so happy. The feeling of relaxation made him feel like he was soaking in a hot spring, enjoying the embrace of the world.

He did not let his guard down and stayed up until night to make sure that he had really recovered.

Not depression, not mania.

He walked out of the alley, and the neon lights of the city were dancing in joy, dyeing the night sky of the city red.

The previous unhappiness seemed like a dream.

He didn't want to recall it, as if the dream was just wrapped in a thin membrane that would break with the slightest touch.

He didn't want to recall every heart-wrenching moment again.

In the evening breeze, fireworks from every household filled the streets, the whole world was filled with happiness, and everything became better.

In the crowd, he was extremely free.

He can have other dreams, and he can definitely be the same as a normal person now.

Everything is so wonderful.

He no longer felt any pain, and perhaps he wouldn't even need to take medicine anymore.

He will never be depressed again, he will never be manic again, it was all a dream!

Hahahahaha!
Yes, it was a dream!

At some point, his tears were bright red, flowing freely all over his face.

Everyone looked at Lu Mingfei as if he were a monster.

He stared blankly at the city in front of him that was dyed red by neon lights.

Why are they hiding from me?

He is obviously very normal now.

He laughs when he wants to laugh, cries when he wants to cry, and...

His vision was blurry and he felt very tired, as if something had drained all his strength.

Ugh?
what happened?

Is it because I am too happy and too excited that I am exhausted?
He staggered forward a few steps, fatigue rising rapidly.

At this moment, he seemed to hear some sound in his ears.

It was like I was deaf before, but I can hear the sound now.

"Quick! Take him to the hospital!"

Hospital?

Why should I go to the hospital?
Am I not already well?

I'm fine, all my illnesses are gone.

Why did you send me to the doctor?

He no longer had the strength to open his eyes. The world fell into darkness. That wonderful world disappeared like a bubble.

(End of this chapter)