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Chapter 441 Yang Xiaolan, you don’t understand love at all!
"My personal opinion does not represent the thoughts of the person in your heart. After all, some people are very persistent and tolerant in their feelings. They believe that true love requires tolerance and understanding, while some people also believe that love is complete and cannot tolerate blasphemy and betrayal. The key is to see what the person you care about thinks. Although I am very similar to him, I am not him, so my answer can only be a reference.

Now I have basically told you everything you want to know, so tell me something about Zhang Wufeng. I am very curious about this person who can write a novel like "Castle in the Sky".

"What do you want to know? No matter what it is, as long as you want to know, I will tell you without reservation." There was a hint of melancholy in Yang Xiaolan's voice, but she seemed to be familiar with such situations, so although she felt bad, she did not show any sadness.

"Well, I want to know about his personality traits and his abilities." Li Xuan said after thinking for a while.

"His personality traits have changed a lot. At the beginning, his health was not very good and his family was relatively poor. It was from that time that he began to engage in some novel writing. Later, because he could not make ends meet, he dropped out of school... In fact, it was because I was almost bullied once. Later, he rented a house near my school and concentrated on writing while taking care of me.

Later, his creations flourished and he made some money, which is actually a lot of money in a big city, but I thought he never made much money at that time...

Then there was the issue of the child. At that time, I was obsessed with it. Just because his mother said a few words to me and I refuted, he became rude to me. I was so angry, and with the persuasion of others, I aborted the child...

……

The scene at that time reappeared in Yang Xiaolan's memory bit by bit. Suddenly, she realized that she had been sitting too much.

However, she didn't know that this scene also appeared in Li Xuan's mind.

"I think I can completely understand everything you said." Li Xuan's face was calm. Even a truly strong man would not be able to guess his state of mind at this moment.

"Thinking about it, I don't know why it happened in the first place. In fact, many times, I didn't really want to quarrel, but just wanted to find something... I'm afraid that you men will never truly understand a woman's heart. Sometimes a very trivial thing is enough to make a woman think or sigh for a long time, but when a man doesn't understand, he may even find it incredible.

Many superficial personalities are just superficial. If you can’t go deeper, it means you can’t truly understand them.

At that time, every night, what I liked most was that he held me in his arms and fell asleep peacefully, but every night, he would be busy looking up information, organizing information, conceiving novels, writing novels, revising novels, managing book reviews, chatting with some authors and readers, etc. On the surface, this is a very easy job. If you are fast, you can write a few thousand words an hour, and it only takes two or three hours to update 10,000 words a day. But apart from these two or three hours, it takes time to look up information, organize the outline, and revise.

There are also things like managing book reviews, communicating with readers and authors, and if you read gossip during this time, ten hours or something is not enough. If you can only write a thousand words in an hour, it will be tragic.

Actually, which woman doesn't want to have sex with her husband after marriage? But every time... how should I put it? It's not that he doesn't have the ability. On the contrary, he is very capable and energetic in that aspect. Sometimes I just deliberately disagree because he doesn't keep a regular schedule...

I didn't want to say these words, I just wanted to keep them to myself, but I promised to answer your questions truthfully, so I said them anyway. After all, I'm not a person who likes to lie.

Of course, apart from this problem, he didn't have any other problems at the time, and after I talked to him about it a few times, he changed. But at that time, it was indeed me who changed my heart and easily believed the sweet words of others...

......"

Yang Xiaolan said lightly that the feeling of Li Xuan being by her side was very similar to that of Zhang Wufeng. She knew that she would not have the opportunity to wander under the moonlight with Zhang Wufeng and talk about her inner thoughts, so at this moment, in addition to answering Li Xuan's questions, this was also an expression of her own feelings.

As Li Xuan listened to Yang Xiaolan's words, many dream-like scenes appeared in his mind. These scenes seemed to be that person's experiences, and they were presented in conjunction with Yang Xiaolan's statements.

However, this feeling did not make him feel very comfortable.

"Originally I shouldn't have intervened in this issue, because no matter what, it is disrespectful to you and Zhang Wufeng, but after listening to what you said, I just want to say a few words as a man." Li Xuan said thoughtfully, his attitude was still calm, but his words seemed very powerful.

"Well, go ahead." Yang Xiaolan said silently.

"The problem you mentioned is just from your own perspective. Of course, after the incident, you must have considered the issue from a different perspective, so you feel that you have gone too far. However, you may not have thought that because you are considering it from the other person's perspective, you will inevitably leave your own weight in your heart first. When you consider it this way, the matter will be diluted. Even if you feel that it is excessive, very excessive, the effect you feel is actually less than one-fifth of the other person's own feelings.

This statement is not an exaggeration.

I think there may be several reasons why he did not truly accept you, because if it is true love and you just leave, then this love will remain at the level of hatred.

But from your description, his feelings towards you may be either strange or indifferent.

You did something too extreme this time.

You may have never considered that a man puts down his dignity and asks you to do the same with him, not because of that one time, but because of love. Otherwise, you said that with Zhang Wufeng's energy and ability to make money, he can find a few women. Nowadays, many women in games can be for a piece of equipment or even just for comfort... These are all very simple.

You may never have thought about the extent of a man's love, tolerance and open-mindedness if he is willing to give up his dignity for a woman.

I'm not saying I understand you, but put yourself in your shoes. I think a man like Zhang Wufeng is a man of pride and dignity that cannot be trampled upon. You have trampled on his dignity time and again, and this in itself has dealt him a fatal blow!
That’s not all, he deprived her of a child and frustrated his father’s last wish... I don’t know what you think, but in my opinion, if a woman like this treated me like this, I would cut off ties with her without hesitation, and even abuse her severely to let her know how serious this matter is!

Of course, if the man is not filial, this matter will not be a big deal, but if the man is very filial, then just because of this matter, you will no longer have any chance.

Let’s not talk about this point, just talk about yourself. The child is only two months old, but he is still a child. Are you willing to take him away?

There are some things that I don’t even know how to say anymore, because when you tell me about this, my emotions fluctuate greatly and I feel very uncomfortable. It’s not because of you, but because of him!
Maybe you or a woman of your type would say, it takes two to tango, so does that mean he is not wrong?
Yes, he made mistakes, of course, but so what? Behind every successful man, there is often a great woman. Whether a man can become this great woman depends on the woman's mentality.

Do you think a web writer would write in such a noisy environment during the day? Well, even if this doesn't matter, but many times, some writers' inspirations appear suddenly, and they record them at any time. At midnight, the mind is generally clear, the environment is quiet, with a cup of tea and a notebook, then the efficiency of a few hours at night may be incredibly high. To be honest, if it is not for making money, I don't think a writer can persist in writing every day out of interest.

If he didn't have a family, he could just relax and write for fun. Coding itself was just a hobby and there was no pressure at all. Then he would be a cheerful, sunny and positive person because there would be no pressure to take a break occasionally.

But it’s different if you have a family. The attendance bonus is very important. In this era full of piracy, the subscription situation may be worse than you think, so full attendance is a good guarantee.

For the sake of his family and so that you can have more money, perhaps many times, even if he cannot write a single word for a long time, he will still tear his hair dryly and write bitter and dry words. These words may not be attractive, but each word is a drop of blood and sweat.

And because of mental tension, collapse and even confusion, sometimes when he needs care, needs to vent, and needs to enjoy the taste of love, well, you quarrel, you make a scene, and even refuse when he begs.

So, do you think that in this situation, this man will still open his heart and talk to you?

I think that's fantasy, that's bullshit.

He would just think, forget it, there is no point in talking any more, he will never ask for it again, it doesn’t matter whether he does it or not, he can just solve it with his hands.

I'm really mentally confused and in a bad state, so it doesn't matter if I go to a bar or an entertainment venue.

Life, in fact, is such a tragedy, nothing more.

At this time, did he indulge himself? If he did, then the family was unstable; if not, then he still cared about his family and his responsibility as a man who provided for the family.

But at this time, you were really awesome, you took the child away all at once, and extinguished his last hope. I really don't know what was going through your mind at that time. Wouldn't you read a little bit of psychology when you were online? Did you look up a little bit of the mentality of men and care about him?

Okay, let’s not talk about these, let’s just talk about what happened after the divorce.

After the divorce, he was nostalgic and gave you his last penny, so that you could live a good life for a while after you left. Twenty thousand yuan? Not much, but not too little. At least twenty thousand yuan can still buy a lot of things now, and you can build a decent bungalow in the countryside.

Because of this, he didn't even have the money to go out to work, and even had to borrow money from others.

Look at what you are doing? He is borrowing money, and you are sneering in the group. And you are sneering with Huang Yuansheng, and...

I'm sorry, I got emotional, but I still want to say one last thing. You said you had sex with Huang... Well, then there's no hope at all.

I can’t imagine what reasons a person who has been hurt by you would have to convince himself to accept you at this time?
It’s because you are sick and because the Huang family abused you that you remembered his goodness and that silent man who was always protecting you silently.

At this time, the reason for regret was simply that the Huang family was not as good as Zhang Wufeng, and he repented because he was in trouble and felt that he seemed to have gone too far.

So, let's assume that the Huang family treats you very well, you are the young mistress, the man surnamed Huang is very devoted and caring towards you, and then his family makes a lot of money, tens of millions.

At that time, Zhang Wufeng was not yet rich. If you got married, he would be embarrassed. He did not have such a glorious rise and would be laughed at.

Do you feel happy and pleased to see him in such a miserable state and being laughed at?

If he continues to be in poverty, and if you become richer and more powerful, then one day when he is desperate, will you lend a helping hand? If he apologizes to you for some trivial things in the past, will you give up the wealth and glory of the Huang family and return to him? Think about this answer before answering.

In fact, there is no need to think about it, it definitely won’t happen.

Yes, you said that you jumped off the building later, and you were thinking that if he didn’t lend you the money, you would jump off the building, and you would not feel guilty…

This is also ridiculous. You divorced him and he gave you his last fortune. So why don't you feel guilty if he doesn't lend you money? You were so unkind and unjust before, so how can you expect others to be kind and righteous to you? I think your mindset hasn't really changed.

Even now, you still envy him for marrying the woman he loves, and for his happiness. What do you envy? Just because he has changed, just because he has become more mature, stable and outstanding? Do you feel regretful?
What if he was in a worse situation? Would you feel more certain that your original decision was correct?
You understand true love at the beginning. In the beginning, you will buy him a toothbrush to save money for a meal, and prepare everything for him carefully... Do you know what this is called? This is selfless love, loving others, giving up all your own preferences, and thinking about others.

Zhang Wufeng seemed to be doing this from beginning to end.

Dropping out of school, staying with you, is it really because of lack of money? Student loans can easily help you finish college. Even if you don’t take out student loans, you will still owe tuition fees, which means you won’t get a diploma. But schools won’t let people stop studying. Not only that, if your family is poor, there are also scholarships and the like. As long as your grades are not ridiculously bad, and you work hard, the tuition problem is not difficult to solve. What’s so hard about making 10,000 yuan a year?

But he gave up his studies, are you afraid to move?

He may have given up many jobs as an editor for websites, etc. Have you ever thought about that?
He even gave up his dignity early on and accompanied you to study. Have you ever thought about how others would comment on him in the countryside if they saw him not studying but just following you around for women? You didn't think about it either.

Maybe you thought about it at first, but later you didn't take it seriously.

(End of this chapter)