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Chapter 469 Her Happiness
"Are you feeling better now?" Leng Hanyin asked with concern, trying to hide the unspeakable feelings in her heart.

"Me? I'm about 50% recovered. In fact, 50% is already very good, and I will be fully recovered soon." Zhang Wufeng said confidently.

"Then, do you remember who you are?" Without Sally Ling'er's interference in memory manipulation, Leng Hanyin returned to the real process of getting to know Zhang Wufeng. Therefore, she also knew that 'Li Xuan' was a person with amnesia and was only temporarily living in Li Yue'e's house.

"Who am I? Well, I haven't recovered yet. I'll tell you when I'm fully recovered." Zhang Wufeng realized that a disaster might be about to happen to mankind, so he didn't bother about this issue anymore, because no matter what the result was, Leng Hanyin only needed something she 'once had' and never cared about how long it would last.

Therefore, if she really wanted to stay with him, Zhang Wufeng didn't want to drive her away for the time being.

This is not indecision, but because since the relationship has already occurred, one must bear certain responsibilities. Zhang Wufeng has always been like this.

If it weren't for this, he would not have accepted Sun Feifei in the first place. However, everyone has their own choices. If Leng Hanyin is just seeking comfort and self-satisfaction for a period of time, and then lets go after being with him for a while, then let everything go.

"Well, if you recover, remember to tell me!"

"Of course, don't worry."

……

On the bed, Leng Hanyin snuggled in the arms of Li Xuan, also known as Zhang Wufeng, for the second time. However, this time, Zhang Wufeng did not have sex with Leng Hanyin. He just held her quietly so that she could sleep peacefully all night.

As time passed, Leng Hanyin fell into a deep sleep with a satisfied and happy smile on her face, while Zhang Wufeng quietly left a trace of crystal mist into her body, allowing it to repair her body autonomously.

At the same time, Zhang Wufeng closed his eyes and thought about his situation silently.

After some thought, Zhang Wufeng drew together all his consciousness and poured it into his forehead.

The crystal ring between the eyebrows has reached the level of seven layers, but the state of this crystal ring is constantly flickering and is very unstable. The dragon pattern on the crystal has been broken, and the previous blood is immersed in the imperial seal. No abnormalities have appeared for the time being.

This situation made Zhang Wufeng feel a little better, and through the memories of these two people, Zhang Wufeng also understood that the other party's feeling in his crystal space was like being immersed in the universe. There seemed to be a virtual figure meditating in the universe.

And at the moment they were destroyed, a black hole appeared in the universe, and an eye appeared in the black hole. The eye shot out a light of destruction, and then completely destroyed them.

This memory fragment was searched out by Zhang Wufeng from two groups of forbidden memory spirits. Because this memory fragment, that is, the area of ​​the spirit, is very straightforward but very attractive, Zhang Wufeng easily understood the situation.

"The memories of the two are still very powerful." Zhang Wufeng glanced at the two large groups of spiritual energy. The spirit that flickered like a ghost fire jumped up and down from time to time, sometimes bright and sometimes dim. If it was someone who didn't understand, they would definitely be shocked and frightened, but after understanding it, they would just treat it normally.

Zhang Wufeng's consciousness wandered in this space, and then he saw the laptop computer while jumping. He thought about it, and with a touch of his hand, he sent the laptop out of the crystal space, and then he also withdrew from the crystal space between his eyebrows.

After coming to his senses, Zhang Wufeng directly connected this compact notebook to the Internet by plugging in the 3G wireless network card.

I opened the novel Sky Castle and logged into the private YO account, and immediately the big picture avatar started jumping.

Among these messages, there were more or less congratulations on his marriage, congratulations on his becoming the "Leader of the Martial Arts World", blessings from the website editors and requests from some readers to add him as a friend.

With the powerful configuration of his laptop, it almost crashed because of the huge message attack! You can imagine how huge the message is! This is not to mention the reason why Zhang Wufeng no longer has so many friends.

Zhang Wufeng read the messages one by one, and then replied to one or two appropriately. His mentality was very peaceful.

When he was leaning on the edge of the bed, Leng Hanyin just rested her head on the inside of his thigh. This action was actually very ambiguous, but for the time being Zhang Wufeng could completely surpass Liu Xiahui, so he remained indifferent.

"Hello, Wufeng. First of all, congratulations on your marriage and your fame and fortune. Maybe you don't remember me... I'm Li Juan."

Inexplicably, Zhang Wufeng suddenly saw this news.

"Hmm? Li Juan? Of course I remember you." Zhang Wufeng sent this message and then added a smiling emoticon.

"I am reading your diary now, and I am very moved by it. In fact, this diary has a lot to do with the reason why I am talking to you." Li Juan sent such a message.

"Huh? What diary?" Zhang Wufeng was a little curious. Although he could guess some things from the words between the lines, if he cared about all of these, then such a life would be very boring.

"That's the article. I'll send it to you."

Li Juan said this and then sent a diary over.

“When my family was so poor that we couldn’t even afford fertilizer, I dropped out of school and went home without hesitation.

My dream of going to college was extinguished in an instant. My teachers and classmates tried hard to persuade me to stay, and even offered to pay my tuition, but I smiled and declined. Facing a poor family, I had endless energy and felt that I should support the family like a man. I started looking for a job. There were many jobs suitable for me, such as working as a bricklayer at a construction site or being an apprentice at a steel plant, but I didn't want to do any of them. I thought the pay was too low, and the highest monthly salary was only 120 yuan, far below my imagination.

One day, my fourth uncle asked me to go to the bleaching powder factory on the outskirts of the city. He had been working there for more than half a year and earned a good income. But from his thin face, I could tell that it was not an easy job.

I agreed to give it a try. On my first day at work, I was loading trucks. Bags of bleaching powder were piled up like a small mountain on the construction site. A 50-kilogram bag of bleaching powder was very heavy, but I don't know how I managed to hold on. When I got off work, I did some calculations in my mind. I had carried 220 bags in total that day, totaling 11 tons. I was really shocked.

At night, I couldn't eat, and I felt a tightness in my chest. My mother asked me what happened, and I forced a smile and said, "I carried 220 bags of bleach today, and each bag was 22 cents. I earned yuan." After dinner, I went back to my room to rest early. Suddenly, my chest felt depressed, and a mouthful of hot and fishy stuff came out of my mouth. It was bright red blood. But I didn't say anything and quietly washed the dirty clothes.

The next day, I woke up early, drank a bowl of egg soup, and went to work again. I didn't want to miss this opportunity to make a lot of money. Riding my bicycle, feeling the cool breeze under the shade of the trees, I felt that this summer was full of hope. From that day on, I became a full-process production worker in a bleaching powder factory.

The production process of bleaching powder is very simple. Soak the lime in water, sift out the fine powder with an iron sieve, remove the stone impurities, put it into the chlorine gas tank for chemical reaction, and pull it out and put it into bags after 3 days. But I dare say that producing bleaching powder is the hardest and most tiring job in the world because it is all done manually.

At that time, there was no running water in the factory. All water had to be pumped from the well and then carried to the factory in buckets. The lime pile was like an insatiable drinking machine. One truck of lime required hundreds of buckets of water. Every day, my fingers were swollen and red from being squeezed by the iron handles of the buckets.

When sifting lime, in order to prevent the lime powder from corroding the skin, no matter how hot the weather is, you have to wear more than three layers of clothes, roll up your trouser corners and sleeves, wrap a towel around your neck, and put a heavy, clumsy, and suffocating gas mask on your mouth. In order to earn more money, I often work overtime at noon to sift lime. Under the scorching sun, my body is sweating profusely in the layers of wrapping. The red stone powder penetrates every pore and dissolves with sweat. It feels like ten thousand ants are crawling on my body and biting me, and it hurts. Occasionally, the gas mask loosens and a cloud of dust rushes over, choking my face with tears. In such an environment, I sifted piles of lime one by one with a shovel.

Compared to transporting bleaching powder from the chlorine gas depot, sifting lime is a relatively easy job. Because it has been stuffy for 3 days, there is almost no oxygen in the depot, and the temperature is as high as 50 degrees. When entering, you must first take three deep breaths, then get in and shovel a bag of bleaching powder with a shovel in one breath, and then pull it out quickly. The whole process only takes 3 minutes, but it feels as difficult as an hour. Working overtime at night is the most unavoidable thing. When I rest, I lie on the dewy grass, look at the stars in the sky, think about my future, and fall asleep without paying attention. Every time I am woken up, I am very sleepy and my whole body aches. I really want to ignore everything and sleep until dawn.

A few days before the salary was paid, my uncle and I took advantage of the time to work a few extra shifts at noon to make up the 500 yuan. When we went to the river to take a bath, my uncle cried when he saw my skin, which was burned by bleaching powder and looked like fish scales. I showed off to my uncle by puffing up my arm muscles and said, "It's nothing."

I received 500 yuan, the first time in my life that I earned it with my own hands, and I felt like the richest person in the world. I knew that I had created much more than that, but I still felt very happy. I took the money and went to a bar in the city with my uncle and my co-workers to get drunk again. Then I kept 20 yuan for myself as pocket money and gave the rest to my mother.

My mother finally discovered my injuries and refused to let me work anymore. My fourth uncle found me a job grinding floors on a construction site.

A few years have passed. Now, I have a relatively leisurely job and my monthly income exceeds 500 yuan. But I always think that the first 500 yuan I received is the greatest fortune in my life. Because, while I earned that money, I learned patience and endurance, and learned how to be a man who dares to challenge himself, which is enough to benefit me for the rest of my life..."

"Oh, it's this one." Zhang Wufeng smiled slightly. This was not his original work, but a friend he met when he went to work after graduating from high school. At that time, they both did this to make money. After graduating from college, together with Yang Xiaolan, the friend had become very successful and wrote such a diary. Zhang Wufeng was deeply touched and felt that it was inspiring to him. Moreover, he had almost experienced the same thing at the beginning, so he put it in his own essay.

Unexpectedly, Li Juan at this moment was so touched by this matter.

"Well, I didn't think that you dropped out of school because of this. I looked down on you at the beginning. I'm sorry..." The message sent by Li Juan was very sincere.

"Actually... forget it, there's no need for you to apologize. Are you unhappy? What's wrong?" Zhang Wufeng could feel that Li Juan at this moment seemed to be completely, how to put it, somewhat decadent and desperate.

This feeling made him feel particularly uncomfortable.

After all, Li Juan was his classmate in high school and the first year of college. Could it be the boyfriend she was dating?

Li Juan is a very kind and simple country girl. She is quiet, pretty and cute. Especially when she smiles, she has two dimples which makes her look shy and very likable.

Zhang Wufeng recalled Li Juan's past and learned about the boyfriend she tried to date in her first year of college, the man named 'Zhan Shuguang'. He couldn't help but understand something in his heart.

During his first year in college, Zhan Shuguang was very addicted to gambling and it was hard to change his bad habits. Just because he saw Li Juan being forced by the owner of a store outside the school to buy a pair of shoes worth more than 300 yuan, Zhan Shuguang not only beat up the owner, but also kept caring for and comforting Li Juan, which touched Li Juan very much.

Later, she fell ill several times, and Zhan Shuguang never left her side...

"What's wrong with you?" Zhang Wufeng couldn't help but ask.

"He and I broke up." Li Juan said a few simple words, which made Zhang Wufeng a little depressed.

However, not long after, Li Juan sent part of the message again.

She used to be a typist and could type very quickly, but even so, it still took her more than ten minutes to finish typing that paragraph.

"I met him in a big store outside the school...

During that period, he was really nice to me and I didn't find any faults in him.

He transferred during my sophomore year, and then after my senior year, he picked me up.

I was very happy at that time because he didn't forget me. But after he came back, I found that he had changed.

He actually fell in love with buying lottery tickets and gambling. Later, I followed him back to meet his parents. Before leaving, his parents gave me 1000 yuan as a gift. I gave it to him before the money was even warm in my pocket. At that time, he lost money in gambling and owed money, so his family gave me the money to pay it back. When I was about to pay it back, my grandfather suddenly passed away. I was stunned when I received the call. When I got home, I knelt there and cried until my tears dried up. That was the person I used to depend on!
Later on, all the debts were paid off, and his family also gave us some money to open another store. It was going well, but I needed to restock some goods, so I left again. I gave him 9000 yuan from his family and asked him to keep it safe. But when I came back half a month later, he not only lost the 5000 yuan he had, but also the 7 yuan he had won. The yuan his mother gave him was gone too. yuan was gone in less than half a month. I didn't have a cell phone, and he didn't even offer to buy me one. I was completely dumbfounded when I came back, but what good could crying do? At that time, the second store I partnered with was being renovated. From every brick to every screw, I went there myself. In the middle of winter, I had to get up at o'clock every day, while he could sleep until he woke up naturally. Later, he came to help me paint. After the new store opened for a few days, the result proved the saying that "it's not easy to do business in partnership". The store closed, and he was in debt. It just so happened that it rained all night. At that time, I wanted to die. I first went to the place where he often bought lottery tickets and begged the boss not to sell him lottery tickets anymore. Then I went to his home. His mother cried when she saw me.
Later, his mother only said to him that this girl is pretty good and he should cherish her. Although the days were very dark at that time, I was very moved to hear these words from his mother. I happened to be pregnant, and he took me to his home. During that time, he really loved me and changed a lot. At that time, I thought that I would accept death in this life. The New Year was coming, and my birthday was also coming. His family specially booked a place in the hotel to celebrate my birthday and gave me a set of clothes, which meant that my efforts were rewarded. However, after the New Year, he played cards for thirteen days at his brother's house. He said he would buy me a mobile phone, but in a few days, except for buying some things from my relatives and giving me two or three hundred yuan, everything else was gone. I thought it was over again.

On the night of the 15th day of the Lantern Festival, I got drunk, trying to forget all the bad and unhappy things, even him. Later I said we broke up, but we didn't end. He always answered me with a laugh, as if he thought I was joking, and the days went by slowly. Thinking back to when we first fell in love, he was really good to me, giving me whatever I wanted, including clothes and cell phones, and he would be the first to show up when I was sick, but what about now? There is no trace of the old him.

Every time after paying off the debt, I would think that good days were coming, but disappointment accompanied me again and again, and the days passed slowly. It happened that his brother said they wanted to do business together. Thinking of this, as long as he could stay away from gambling, it would be fine. So I took 3000 yuan from my own mother to help him. I was 23 years old that year, but I was still disappointed. The business did not succeed, the money was gone, and the debt was not paid off. This time I really didn’t know what to do. I was really blind. There was no friend around me to talk to. Bad luck came again. I was pregnant again and had no money. He went back to his mother for money, but his mother said she had no money, but she gave it to him later. He said he would come and take care of me for a few days and wait for me to get better. When he went back, his mother said that we beat our children and had to work hard, and we didn’t enjoy the luxury like you guys. He let it slip when he told me these words. I didn’t say anything. I didn’t eat anything in those days. I vomited everything I ate. I don’t know why I wanted to eat the cabbage from the shop I used to go to. I told him, but he said it was raining now, so I’ll eat tomorrow. My heart sank when he said that. I just drank water for five days. I lost six pounds in five days. I felt like flying when I walked. He cooked the only meal for me in five days. It was neither watery nor dry. Then my mother took care of me. My mother didn’t know what was going on at the time. I was afraid that my mother would worry, so I just said I had a cold, because every time I caught a cold, it would take half a month to recover. ,
Wufeng, you know, I vomited all night long at that time, as if I was going to die. The day after the child was beaten, I started working. I didn’t rest for a day, and didn’t have a good meal. I thought the hardest days were over, but I was disappointed again. He started a business with others and could get 1000 yuan every month. Once he went back when the day to get the money was almost up, and he gambled again after getting the money and lost all his money. This time I thought I really wanted to let go, but his mother came to me and asked me to go and persuade him. When I went there and saw that he seemed to be fine and was sleeping so soundly, I was really angry. I pulled him up and slapped him twice. He was stunned at the time, and so was I, because I didn’t expect him to fight back!

A man who claimed that he never hit a woman fought back and kicked me. The kick landed right on my stomach, which had just been a week after I had an abortion. I thought I was crazy. I bit his arm, as if I wanted to bite off that piece of flesh. I turned around and left, crying. I thought this was the last time. I said that even if I owed you in my previous life, I paid it back this time. His mother stopped me and he said nice things again. I was 24 and he was 25 this year. We are still living our lives, but I think this is really the last time.
Sometimes I talk about this online, and my brother says I am so stupid and that he feels so bad. Yes, I feel so sad too. It is because of these experiences that I am the strong person I am now. When he said this, his eyes were red. I thought that if these things happened to others, maybe some people would have gone to see God earlier, but it happened to me. Now I still look forward to the future, but I know that nothing will make me cry again!
After ten days of cold war, I heard that he was with a girl. On August 8, I went to ask for confirmation, because I still loved him, but he said no. I believed him, but he was lying. On September 31, he was sick, and I went to see him. He said that his world only had himself, and I thought it was time to leave.

On September 9th, he called me at night. I think I was really fed up with him, so fed up that I didn’t even want to hear his voice. On September 8th, I went to Mozhen. I wanted to leave because I still loved him and didn’t want to quarrel anymore. I wanted to give each other space. On September 9th, ten days later, I came back and heard from my good friend that he was living with that woman. I thought my dedication to him could only end here, so we broke up...

We were so stingy that we didn't even want to say the simple word "break up". This time, my tears really dried up, not even a single tear could fall. We still lived on, but suddenly I realized that life is beautiful and it's great to be alive. Now I often think that if I hadn't left, if we were still together, there would only be two endings: one is that we lived very well, and the other is that I died. Because of my departure, both endings are no longer my endings. I want to live my life and my days seriously. I fell in love with him with my eyes closed, so I left with my eyes open. Only then did I realize that even if the sun is not so bright, as long as the mood is good, there is hope, and I will look forward to the days ahead.

There is no lie that cannot be uncovered in time. The important thing is to wake up in time after knowing the truth; there is no wound that cannot be healed. The key is to cherish yourself. The world is full of good and bad people. No one can guarantee that they will not be deceived by lies. When you find that you have been deceived, it is too late to say anything. Don't stand in the well and look at the bottom of the well, otherwise you can't climb out even if you see the bottom of the well clearly. You must learn to protect yourself...

After going through the forbidden zone of love, I found that there are still many things waiting for me to do. The ancients said: "The fragrance of plum blossoms comes from the bitter cold." I like the taste of coffee because it is sweet after the bitterness. I hope my life is the same. After so many things have happened, I can go through it bravely. I know and I believe that I am ready to face every difficulty and setback.

......"

Looking at this result, Zhang Wufeng felt deeply touched.

Li Juan is actually too soft-hearted. Sometimes, it is not a good thing for a woman to always accommodate a man.

Because Li Juan stated the issue from her perspective, after reading it, Zhang Wufeng just took a deep breath and fell silent.

"Zhang Wufeng has always been disdainful of Zhan Shuguang. He even had a feeling at the beginning that if you don't like Xiao Ma and like Zhan Shuguang, you will regret it. He even said this to Li Juan, but Li Juan just smiled gently at the time, and then looked at Zhan Shuguang in the distance with a gentle smile.

It has to be said that women, immersed in love, are actually as sad as Leng Hanyin and Li Juan.

When it comes to human nature, Zhang Wufeng felt a little ashamed. How similar were his attitude towards Leng Hanyin and Zhan Shuguang's attitude towards Li Juan?
"Li Juan, do you hate him? If you hate him, I can help you."

"Hate? No, after all, even if he disappointed me, I was still happy. I am very satisfied with this.

I know you have great abilities, so I hope you can help me. If you don’t have time, forget it. ” Li Juan said thoughtfully.

(End of this chapter)