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Chapter 53: Life is full of regrets, the water flows eastward
After the call was made, the other party answered the call almost instantly. This speed surprised Zhang Wufeng a little, because Yang Xiaolan used to take his calls lightly. She would answer when she wanted to and hang up when she wanted to.

"Your phone was turned off just now. Were you writing a book?" Yang Xiaolan's voice was a little gentle, and the tone was not artificial, which made Zhang Wufeng frown slightly. It was very noisy on the other side. If he had good hearing, it would be difficult for him to hear clearly.

"Well, I went out to eat with Su Ru and bought her some clothes." Zhang Wufeng had no habit of lying, so he told the truth.

"Su Ru, she is indeed a good girl. Now that you have money, you can spend more money to heal the wound on her face." Yang Xiaolan's tone was a little gloomy, and then she said softly.

"Well, I know my limits. What's the matter with you calling me?" Zhang Wufeng's tone did not become enthusiastic because of the gentleness of the other party's words. This person really hurt him deeply.

"Well, it's hard to talk about this right now. I'm in the Internet cafe. I'll talk to you in text on YO." Yang Xiaolan said in a low voice.

"Okay!" Zhang Wufeng smiled disdainfully and hung up the phone directly.

"It's almost 11pm now, and she's still in the Internet cafe. This person is really crazy! Could she be playing games with Huang Yuansheng? Is she afraid to speak out loudly?" Zhang Wufeng felt a little disdainful. He told her not to look for her again, but less than a day later, she came again. Is this person thinking of another reason and excuse to ask for money?

Zhang Wufeng was still a little angry at this moment. Yes, after the divorce, she was indeed free! He did not abuse her and gave her the last 20,000 yuan! But the child was aborted less than half a month ago, and she had sex with someone else! This was too cruel and she had no self-respect!

Which man can bear this? Zhang Wufeng felt that he was very polite for not angrily telling her to get out of here!

After logging into YO, a bunch of messages kept popping up, most of which were identity verification messages for adding friends, and some were for reading manuscripts. Zhang Wufeng closed these messages helplessly and found the familiar YO that he had not deleted according to his memory. However, this YO account originally called 'メ唍媄ε宝唄じ', which was full of fancy Martian language, had now turned into a black cartoon character, and the fancy name had also changed to '孤零羽'. (The latter word is pronounced ling)

Most of the countless diamonds that had been lit up and grown to level 7 turned dark at this moment, and most of the icons that had been opened in several rows also disappeared.

The Martian language is gone, and so is the pouty, star-studded YO show.

Seeing the chat box with the girl in school uniform next to her and asking for free YO show, Zhang Wufeng suddenly didn't know what to say, simply because her YO signature was no longer in Martian language.

"Life is full of sorrow, and the water flows eastward."

Zhang Wufeng knew the origin of this signature. It was a poem written by Li Yu, the last emperor of the Southern Tang Dynasty. The poem was called "The Crow Cries at Night", which contained a special kind of melancholy and heavy pain.

Li Yu, the last emperor of the Southern Tang, was the last emperor of the Southern Tang. In the eighth year of Kaibao, the Southern Tang was defeated and surrendered to the Song Dynasty. The last emperor was captured and taken to Bianjing. He was given the title of General of the Right Thousand Oxen Guard and Marquis of Disobeying Orders. Later, he was poisoned to death by Emperor Taizong of Song, Zhao Kuangyi. This poem was written by him while he was imprisoned.

'The flowers in the forest have faded in spring, too quickly, helplessly, cold rain in the morning and wind in the evening. Rouge tears, drunk with each other, when will they come again, it is the long regret of life that the water flows eastward.'

This signature and Yang Xiaolan's change made Zhang Wufeng's heart seem to be pinched hard!
Before, because of anger, he didn't care about any tone of Yang Xiaolan, but at this moment, just a sentence and a black cartoon character gave him an indescribable heavy feeling.

What happened to this woman? Why is there such a deep atmosphere of despair? "Wufeng, thank you for calling me. I really appreciate it. I'm telling you, I got my retribution. I got genital warts. It sounds like a minor disease, but to me, it's my retribution!
You are right, reality is not a fairy tale, it is not that beautiful! I am not the princess in the idol drama, and the prince I thought was just childish and ridiculous!

Now I finally understand that fairy tales can only be read to children.

I had a lot to say, but I couldn't. Before this, I was waiting, waiting for your call. I didn't hold out any hope, I was just trying to experience how you felt when you were waiting for my call. I stood by the vegetable market in the dark for two hours, feeling how you felt when you were waiting for me like this... I didn't feel much, but I found that I was a stupid woman from beginning to end.

At night, I stayed up all night in the Internet cafe. I didn’t feel sad because I was very interested in your novel “Castle in the Sky”. I thought that the entertainment novels that I looked down upon could give me hope, an urge to read the next chapter, and an uncontrollable smile of comfort…

Having said this, you may still think I am hypocritical, but I no longer have the right to explain anything. Any explanation is actually so empty and powerless.

I understand that you cannot tolerate betrayal, so I don't want anything else now. If possible, I just want you to pass the music "Castle in the Sky" to me so that I can listen to it. I am very confused now. I used to think that the music was so annoying and painful that it made my eyes ache. Now I think carefully, read your book, and recall the music you loved so much. I find that I am really moved and peaceful. The indescribable feeling of peace allows me to finally face all difficulties positively.

Huang Yuansheng and I broke up. Although I had that idea myself, he was more straightforward. Because you were appreciated by Miss Sun, his uncle apologized to me after knowing about it. However, when I left, Huang Yuansheng still hit me. It was a slap in the face. It was so hard that the corner of my mouth was bleeding.

I feel like my life has never been this dark since I left you.

When we broke up, you were right. I would regret it. By then, even if I kneeled down to beg you, you would never forgive me. I think all of this has been verified.

People always know how to cherish things only when they lose them. But by the time they know how to cherish, it is too late!

This is such a good saying, and it is so deeply rooted in people's hearts, but if you have not experienced it, everyone will suffer from it! No matter how wonderful others say it is, and how shocking the people are with famous sayings, if you have not experienced it, you will always feel it is far away and you will always not understand it.

Having said so much, I still have a request. You can think that the previous words were a prelude to my request and a hypocritical affectation.

I'm going back to my parents. It's not easy for my parents and my brother. Genital warts are contagious in daily life. Without you, my parents can't afford to support my brother to go to college, so I have to bear all this by myself. I want to cure this disease and don't want to pass it on to my family. If it were just me, I would have left this world directly, silently, alone, in the dark, with dirt and sin all over my body, jumping into the abyss of hell. But I still have my own responsibilities, I must live on.

It's easy to die, but hard to live!
The doctor said that I had to go to a big city for genetic engineering treatment, but this kind of professional gene cultivation treatment costs a lot, and the initial estimate is 100,000. I want to borrow money from you. I have 20,000 yuan myself, and you can lend me 80,000 yuan. Even if I become a beggar or a construction worker in the future, I will definitely pay you back, I will!

......"

About ten minutes later, a message from Yang Xiaolan's YO name 'Gu Ling Ling' came over.

(End of this chapter)