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Chapter 87 Leaves [4]

The night breeze is blowing, and it feels a little cold tonight.

Standing on the pedestrian bridge not far from the hospital, Yang Xiaolan's eyes were a little dull.

What happened yesterday and today made her heart suffer endless torment. Whether it was the doctor's indifferent attitude when she saw the doctor, or the doctors and nurses' fear of being contaminated during the examination, she was somewhat irritated.

Especially the woman with a mean face, who had a conversation with several other doctors when she went for the check-up: "These brain-dead women nowadays, who mess around all the time, deserve these diseases! Do you think this would happen if they behaved themselves and didn't check into hotels with their online friends? This woman even had an abortion, and I don't know if she's married. If it was my daughter, I would strangle her to death! What a loser!..."

At that time, because it was getting late, there were no other patients in the outpatient clinic. She just happened to have some questions that she hadn't asked clearly and was going to come back to ask, but she didn't expect to hear it clearly...

The treatment plan and explanation the doctor gave her really had no good effect.

She was not stupid. Although this hospital was very famous, she felt that the service attitude was not very good. The attending doctor was also vague in his words. He did not even mention gene therapy. He only talked about freezing, interleukin, wart removal and so on. He wrote a large list of medicines, the value of which was as high as more than 15,000 yuan!
Yang Xiaolan thought about it and felt that continuing with this treatment would definitely be a bottomless pit. Even though Zhang Wufeng had transferred 15 yuan to her after chatting on YO the night before, she still felt that it was just a drop in the bucket.

Doctors in big cities seem to have lost their medical ethics. They only know how to prescribe expensive and ineffective medicines, and have completely forgotten about saving lives and healing the wounded. At least, after the detailed explanation from the aunt who was the director of the gynecology department of the county women and children's hospital, she already had a good understanding of this disease.

So when faced with those sweet-talking doctors who asked her to prescribe medicine, laser freezing and other treatments, she suddenly felt very sad.

So, she gave up treatment.

She found her younger brother who was studying in Wusheng and gave him the bank card. There was nearly 17 yuan in it, which was enough for him to finish college and become independent. Her parents worked in a factory and although they only earned a salary of more than yuan, they had enough food and clothing.

Instead of spending all your money on medical treatment and then working to earn money, it is better to give the money to your family and then leave this world.

In her brand new Apple MP4, the not very loud but very mellow external sound was playing Ah-Shan's song "Leaf" on a loop. Tears kept falling from her somewhat dull eyes.

"If you really want to repent, find the tallest building and jump off it. Not only will you be free, but you can also kneel down and apologize to my father! You, take care of yourself!"

The angry message sent by his YO was as clear as an angry roar in his ear. How deep the hurt must be for a man who loved him deeply and once lost his dignity in front of her to say such heartless words!
Yes, she cut off his offspring, broke his father's last wish, had a relationship with his friend, and took away his last money...Looking back, she could hardly believe that she could do such a cruel thing!
She had no complaints about the result. In fact, she just felt very stressed. After leaving him, she realized that she could no longer do anything well.

I didn't realize it when we were together, but I suddenly realized it when we were not together. But, it's really too late.

If there had been no betrayal, there might still be room for salvation, but now...

Yang Xiaolan suddenly laughed. She felt that at this moment in her life, it was completely meaningless.

The dew was heavy and icy on summer nights. Cars with their headlights on passed by from time to time under the overpass. Those cars had a pair of big oval eyes, like huge iron monsters.

……

Taking out the N97, Yang Xiaolan's eyes were filled with relief. The complex emotions of depression, fatigue, regret and despair had completely disappeared.

She had a smile on her face, and her expression, without any makeup, was calm and peaceful.

Apart from her family, the only contact left in her phone was Zhang Wufeng.

The call was connected quickly. From the other end of the line, there was a very shocking music. A hoarse and powerful male voice was singing loudly, "This is the best punishment for impulse..." This was Dao Lang's original version of "Punishment for Impulse".

"What's wrong? Not enough money? If not, I'll give you more later. Don't worry about it! Also, I've already taught Huang Yuansheng a lesson and broke both of his hands. That's a relief for you." There was a brief silence on the other end of the phone, and then the music and the vibration of the speakers became a little quieter. Obviously, Zhang Wufeng must have found a quiet place to answer the phone.

Zhang Wufeng's voice was gentle and caring, but also a little indifferent but distant, which she could sense. This feeling no longer had the strong intimacy and care of the past.

However, this gentle and caring tone still brought tears to her eyes.

When a person is about to die, his words will be kind and sad, and his emotions will be fragile and rich.

She cried silently, and her tears were like a broken string, and she couldn't stop them. This was the first time since the divorce that Zhang Wufeng spoke to her in a gentle tone. Although the words were not as gentle as before, she was already very satisfied.

"No, I just suddenly wanted to hear your voice, so I called you. I'm leaving, but I have no way and ability to pay you back, so I'll owe you this last time! In the next life, I will definitely pay you back! Finally, I wish you happiness and joy. I believe that you will find a good woman who cherishes you, loves you, and understands you!
Goodbye, dear! "

Yang Xiaolan said softly, with a strong blessing in her tone. She raised her head, and the night wind dried the tears from the corners of her eyes, cold as a knife.

The mosquitoes around her were madly sucking the blood from her face and arms, but she could no longer feel it.

There was silence on the other end of the phone, but she hung up at this moment.

She put her cell phone and the MP4 playing songs into a brown leather bag, hung the bag on her body, then climbed over the railing and closed her eyes.

When the last two tears rolled down, she jumped down gently.

She was physically and mentally exhausted. Her frail body, wrapped in a pink ladylike dress, cast a faint glow in the air, like a dead leaf fluttering in the air in late autumn...

Under the bridge, the traffic is surging and coming and going.

In the air, Asan's sad singing voice still floats clearly.

leaf
Wings that can't fly
wing
It's leaves falling from the sky
heaven
It shouldn't be a delusion.
It's just that I have already forgotten
How did you start flying?

alone
It's a one-person carnival

carnival
It's the loneliness of a group of people

love
The original beginning was companionship
But I gradually forgot
How was it that someone was accompanying you?
I eat alone and travel
stop and go
Read and write letters alone
talk to yourself
Just where did my heart go

I can't even see myself

I think I didn't just lose you
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