Coquettish Rebirth

Rowling's eyes were fixed on Jia Hongjian's, and there was definitely no joy or eagerness in the expression on her face, and she didn't even have the secret feeling of being recognized for her charm after being approached by a woman, but like It's the expression of thinking about whether to give money when a person sees a beggar begging on the road.

Quietly, time passed by every second.This kind of waiting may be very difficult for others, but Jia Hongjian has no time to feel difficult at this time. He is now using all his acting skills to show himself more sincere and caring for Rowling.About 5 seconds, ten seconds, or 5 hours passed. Jia Hongjian didn't know how long it had passed. In the end, Rowling announced the verdict "please sit down".

When Jia Hongjian breathed a sigh of relief and sat down with a cup of coffee, he didn't rush to thank or say anything else, but quietly looked at Rowling, as if she was thinking about how to express her feelings. "Please don't panic after hearing this. In fact... I want to commit suicide." Rowling took a sip of coffee, then raised her head, and said to Jia Hongjian very calmly, with eyes as if she was too tired to lose her temper. .Looking at her state, Jia Hongjian was startled. On the one hand, he never knew that JK Rowling, the future rich woman, wanted to commit suicide. On the other hand, he could see the plainness in Rowling's eyes. A kind of blandness similar to seeing death as home!

"I..." Rowling was probably considering whether it would be embarrassing to say it, but soon she decided to say it.So, in a low voice, she said: "Not long after I graduated from university, I married a Portuguese reporter and fell in love for half a year. At that time, I fell in love and felt that he was the only one in my life. I told him I went to Portugal, got married, and had a child, but I didn’t expect that three years later, the quarrel between the two became more and more intense, until the last quarrel in the street. He actually drove me out of the car, just like that A man was left alone on the street, and then he drove away in a car..."

If someone else.It is possible to start comforting at this time, but Jia Hongjian did not.He looked at Rowling with a deep but understanding look.Encourage her to continue talking. "My dad remarried. He married a former secretary who was eight years his junior. I couldn't go to them. So I went to my sister and brother-in-law in Edinburgh. I came here and couldn't find a job. They helped me. Renting a house, I can get unemployment benefits of 100 pounds a week from Zheng Fu, and then I have no other income. I want to write novels, but I can only spend every day in this cafe that my brother-in-law and others jointly open Ask for a cup of coffee for free, then sit for a day. Write what comes to mind on a note in the cafe. I printed the story written in the first three chapters and sent it to the publishing house. No one wanted to publish it. When I was a child, I wanted to be As a writer, my father and mother are very opposed. They think that the ideal of being a writer cannot be converted into a real salary, and a pension when I get old... I can’t find a job now, and I live in a small square. Single mother with a daughter under three years old, my life is in pieces. My dreams are broken, I want to kill myself. I know this is wrong, I have a daughter. I went to my doctor in the psychological clinic, I want to tell He, I already have suicidal tendencies... But, that doctor is no longer, a doctor on duty told me that if I am depressed, let me talk to the nurse on duty... Am I... There is no point in living? Even the psychiatrist is unwilling to listen to me... Should I really die? I think death is the only relief, right?"

If Jia Hongjian was still wondering why Rowling agreed to talk so easily, it turns out that she has reached the most serious stage of depression at this time, and she has suicidal tendencies!This is very, very serious!This is not the kind of impulsive suicide, but really depressed to the bottom, feeling that the whole society and the whole life is a black hole, and the suicide is the stage of liberation!It's really the stage of torture to be alive!

Jia Hongjian thought for a while, and instead of hastily trying to persuade Rowling not to commit suicide, he asked quietly, "Do you love your daughter?" "Yes, she is my only hope now. I wanted to die before, I thought of cutting my wrists, I thought of getting an electric shock, when I calmed down, various details of suicide emerged in my mind little by little, and my brain kept telling me that doing so would be my relief , It’s very simple and easy, just do it! If it weren’t for my daughter by my side, I wouldn’t have gone to the psychiatric clinic at all, and I would have died.”

"Why do you want to die? Do you feel that life is meaningless? Your marriage is broken, your ideals are broken, and you can't even find a job?" Seeing Rowling nodding, Jia Hongjian asked again, "Have you thought about going to China?" To be an English teacher? Your salary may not be high there, and it is definitely not worth more than 400 pounds a month according to the exchange rate, but the school can arrange housing for you there, and your teaching tasks are not heavy, so you can use Write your novels in your spare time, and you can even spend one-third to one-fourth of your salary to hire a nanny to take care of the children for you, and you don’t even have to pay the rent to the school, the school will help you Pay. You just need to chat with the students in your native language, of course, my native language is Cockney English, not... other accent English..."

Jia Hongjian almost slipped his tongue. He originally wanted to say that he could not speak Welsh, because JK Rowling's birthplace, Gwent, happened to be reclassified from England to Wales the year she was born. In theory, Rowling's Mother tongue should be counted as English and Welsh!But putting this aside, it is really a good idea to persuade people to use their mother tongue to become a language teacher in China.Not a very good idea in this day and age, but a great idea in the 21st century!Now it should be a good idea to go to Japan and South Korea to be an English teacher, but why did Jia Hongjian abduct Rowling to go to Japan and South Korea?

"China?" Rowling looked at Jia Hongjian in surprise, and then said helplessly, "But I don't even have the money to buy a plane ticket to China! No! I don't have anything! I'm poor. Unemployment benefits can only keep me and my daughter alive, I don't even have money to buy manuscript paper, I don't even have money to heat! It's too cold in the house, so I can only run here and ask for a free cup of coffee, and then Sit for a day and write a novel on their free sticky notes!"

"I have the money." As he said that, Jia Hongjian took out a stack of checkbooks. As the chairman of a company that is about to go public in the United States, Jia Hongjian does not have a checkbook from the Bank of America. Is this possible?He directly wrote a check for two thousand dollars and put it in Rowling's hand. "Two thousand dollars is enough for you to fly from London to Shanghai, China." Such a move by him directly froze Rowling's mind!What's happening here?Everything in her life just fell apart, and now out of the blue an angel comes out and offers her $2000 to go to China and teach kids English?What is this, is it a hoax?

"If you don't believe me, you can go to the bank and exchange it for cash. No offense, but ma'am, what do you have to lose now? Daughter? You don't even need to take your daughter first, you can go first, over there After you stabilize, come pick up your daughter. If you don't believe me, you can go alone..." Jia Hongjian really showed his full sincerity.His sincerity did temporarily dispel Rowling's suicidal tendencies, at least making Rowling seem to be seriously thinking about this matter now.

"I know, life is meaningless to you, but you still have a daughter, you love her, what would she do without you? I know, in your opinion, even if you try new things, it may be basically useless." It will be successful, and it will be difficult to the point of horror. But the daughter is innocent, right, she needs a mother's presence in the process of growing up, right? Ma'am, I am not asking you to improve your life now, but Please try again for your daughter, even if it is an inevitable failure, even if the process will make you suffer, but this is for your daughter, after all, maternal love is great, mothers are willing to do everything for their children, Right?"

Jia Hongjian knew that for this kind of severe depression patients, their own lives didn't matter at all. They were not interested in anything and felt that everything was suffering.The only thing keeping them alive is the people they love.Although this is very hypocritical and dramatic, it is indeed true as far as the examples Jia Hongjian has seen with his own eyes.People don't need to live for themselves, but they can live for their loved ones. They can endure all kinds of sufferings for love and responsibility to their families, so as to suppress the desire for self-destruction to the bottom.

Rowling seemed to have been persuaded a little bit, so she wouldn't agree to go with Jia Hongjian now, but this matter has obviously entered the scope of her consideration.At this time, she seemed to have suddenly returned to normal. After taking a sip of coffee, she smiled a little tiredly, "Thank you, sir, I didn't know you were... My name is Rowling, Joanna Rowling .”

"My name is Jia, Jia Hongjian." As he spoke, Jia Hongjian wrote another check for one thousand dollars, "here is a deposit for you, you can use it to thank your sister and brother-in-law, and let them Help take care of your daughter for a while. Believe me, I am very sincere, by the way, do you have a finished novel? I want to see it, I am a fan of novels."

To be honest, according to Rowling's current state of mind, she feels that the existence of Jia Hongjian is just a black humor, that is, God gave her a hope, which will be taken away abruptly later.Either this Jia Hongjian was a liar, or it was some kind of prank program on the TV station, or some difficulties would arise later.But she felt that what Jia Hongjian said was right. For the sake of her daughter, she had the responsibility to try and suffer a little more. Even if she knew she had failed, she still had to try. For her daughter... , your support is my biggest motivation.)