Abstraction for a bad world

Chapter 96 Ideal
Ideals are like shooting stars. They will slowly disintegrate bit by bit under the resistance of moving forward, and finally become nothingness.

Hesitation, slowness, fear...

——People always question what they should do and miss opportunities.

Other people's opinions, the company's oppression, and the troubles that always appear at critical moments...

——Reality will always penetrate and envelop those thoughts of different temperatures, making them return to their normal freezing point.

When old ideals are exhausted, new ideals will be born at an appropriate time.

Like endless grass.

Then repeat, faster and shorter.

Until the unique shining humanity is transformed into the beautiful flame tails behind thousands of shooting stars, which are no different from all the others.

The countless gears in the garbage dump of the Sun City and the disposable parts in every giant company were born one by one in this way.

The experiences of suffering and sorrow may be mostly different, but the monotonous results are always the same.

Ideals will fall into emptiness and edges will be smoothed out by society.

"Not anymore."

Marina wrapped her arms around Yuan Qingzhuo and slowly sank into the bathtub filled with hot water. Her untied hair floated on the water and she smiled and murmured.

"What can't you do?"

Yuan Qingzhuo leaned comfortably on the softness behind him.

To be honest, after giving up some ridiculous insistence and choosing to obey and accept, the experience you choose to enjoy is simply amazing.

take off.

But what does this mean?
Yuan Qingzhuo twisted his body and leaned in a different position.

He felt an indescribable heaviness for the first time in a long time.

——I have never had this feeling before, whether it was when fighting against the evil god that attacked from outer space, or when saving the Terra world where Susie was.

Because he just needs to try his best.

Do your best and do what you can do so that you can have a clear conscience.

But not now.

If we still say "try our best" now, it would be a sign of cowardice and irresponsibility.

——For some things, is it enough to just do your best?
The original idea of ​​cleansing is not enough.

That's why he had always drawn a clear line between himself and Susie, and whenever she tried to get close, Yuan Qingzhuo would take a step back.

Yuan Qingzhuo likes to maintain such a clear distance from people.

In this way, even if some uncontrollable accident happened, even if he failed, Susie would still become the original appearance in the plot, and Yuan Qingzhuo would not feel too much guilt.

Because he really tried his best and did everything he should do.

That's fine.

In fact, he did the same thing to Marina.

He considered how much he should give her and carefully controlled the distance between them...but the dog's attack was too fierce and the timing was too good.

He even found the right moment and seized upon his character flaws, betting that he would not fight back strongly, and was thus forcibly taken down.

If a dog wants to attack step by step using the boiling frog method, he will never succeed.

Yuan Qingzhuo would not give her any chance.

But she accidentally succeeded.

After all, who could have thought that after a genetic awakening, the dog would suddenly become not only bold in thinking and talking, but also dare to attack him directly in such an environment.

"No, nothing. I was just thinking that I was a little hungry... I wonder what Millie will cook for me."

Marina pushed back all the random thoughts in her head and rubbed Yuan Qingzhuo's cheek with her chin: "Also, I love you."

Yuan Qingzhuo got goose bumps on his skin: "Say something normal."

That being said.

But Yuan Qingzhuo knew that Gouzi just liked to attack with a straight ball and liked to show his love without reservation.

Now that things have come to this, I might as well take a look at the forum to cool down my brain.

Otherwise you will become love-brained due to the constant attacks of the dog.

That's really bad.

"Normal? Then let the man in the white coat give you his entire body later."

Marina gently pinched Yuan Qingzhuo's cheek with her fingers.

He collected some insignificant rewards from the scoring posts like he was doing daily tasks, while looking at some old acquaintances' posts. [Hydra (God of Suffering): I will win in the next world's Suffering difficulty.]

[Hydra (God of Suffering): No, man, you don’t think we can defeat Suffering after going through Purgatory over and over again for more than ten times, do you? I am the first God in the whole game to clear Suffering! ]

After being amused by Hydra's outrageous words again, Yuan Qingzhuo replied:
"There's no need to fix your body. Won't I be unable to log in and help you fight? I'm using your body now, but it's ridiculously strong..."

He curled his lips, "Besides, if my basic physical fitness is too weak, sometimes I need you to protect me. I'm so full that I have nothing to do."

"No, no, no, no, no."

Marina held him and shook him coquettishly, stirring the water in the bathtub so that it overflowed: "I want it, I want it, I want it!"

Yuan Qingzhuo sighed,
"call--"

Snapped.

Under the water, a slightly dull sound was heard, which made Marina, who was acting coquettishly, stunned for a moment, and then her already red face became even redder.

——The effect is good, at least the dog stopped talking.

but……

Yuan Qingzhuo clenched his fist. Hmm, it feels really good.

"Listen to me, Marina."

He closed the forum he used for entertainment, got out of Marina's arms, and looked at her calmly: "I know that if I really want to refuse... no matter how much you want it, you won't object."

Based on Yuan Qingzhuo's understanding of Marina, if he refused again, this would definitely happen.

Yuan Qingzhuo smiled and said, "But my purpose is not to deny your ideas blindly, and you are not dependent on my ideas."

After pausing for more than ten seconds to give Marina enough time to think, Yuan Qingzhuo took her hand underwater and stroked the familiar palm and back of her hand.

"So, can you tell me why you want me to have a body so badly?"

He asked seriously,
"I'm curious—I'd like to get your opinion."

Then he could see that Marina's cheeks became even redder, so red that it seemed as if water could be squeezed out of them.

She stared at Yuan Qingzhuo, a man who was much younger than her.

Marina suddenly felt very lucky.

Because the hope that pulled her out of the dark quagmire came so suddenly.

There was no nagging advance notice, nor the foreshadowing that should be seen in novels and movies. It just broke into her life unexpectedly, without any chance for her to refuse.

Then, she made the only decision in her life without hesitation and successfully caught the man who could have escaped at any time, thus achieving her unique happiness today.

It has only been a few hours since I first met him?

It doesn’t seem too long.

Marina is very stupid. When she lived alone before, her biological clock was often disrupted. When she opened her eyes one day, it was daytime, and when she opened her eyes the next day, it was night.

So I am not very sensitive to time and can’t remember the exact time.

She slowly lowered her head and stared at herself, whose face was rosy and blurry, floating in the clear water.

This is me, so different from before.

Marina raised her hand, held the air in front of her left chest, then placed her fist on her heart, quietly feeling its beating.

——But can such a passionate and sincere emotion without any superfluous elements be forged with just time?

She thought not.

So, what is the meaning of time to her?

Yuan Qingzhuo looked at Marina who was silent, thinking that she was lost in thought, "Why did I say that just now?", so he spoke first:
"Then let me say this first - I don't want to have a body, at least not now because there are still many enemies in the City of Sun, and there is no need to implicate you."

He said he didn't want to implicate me.

very nice.

So Marina on the water smiled.

——I often follow my instincts and do things that I shouldn’t do. I also subconsciously say things without thinking, and then think about why I say them.

She is a little silly and a little dull, but this allows her to live more easily in the City of the Sun.

But Marina knew better than anyone else:
Only this time, it wasn't.

This is the only thing that is beyond doubt.

Therefore,
Marina smiled brightly, loosened her clenched fist, and clenched Yuan Qingzhuo's palm with her other hand, saying without hesitation:
"I think, from now on, I will stay with you, Yuan Qingzhuo, for the rest of my life."

——Even if this may be an ideal that will eventually be shattered, I will never look back.

(End of this chapter)