I am a literary giant in Japan

Chapter 164 Love, love, love, in the end, there is only destruction

At the beginning of the third chapter "Xiaoman" in the second half of "Paradise Lost", Tomomi Muramatsu and Rinko Matsubara, who have fled to Yamanashi Prefecture as an ordinary couple, begin to live the life they have always dreamed of.

Although his salary income has dropped significantly after the transfer, Muramatsu Tomoshi, who is still in the company's "newbie protection period", does not have to worry about performance pressure for the time being.

The only thing that makes the two feel regretful now is that the house they call "home" now is really incomparable to the apartment they used to live in the metropolitan area of ​​Tokyo.

The floor area of ​​a one-bedroom apartment is a bit too small, and many of the furniture and supplies were purchased to save money, so most of them are small and cheap and not convenient to use.

If possible, the two still want to move to a bigger house.

But in that case, not only will it cost a lot of money, but various other types of expenses will also increase.

Given Muramatsu Tomo's current income situation, changing houses is obviously irrational and unrealistic.

For this reason, even though the company's main business is logistics products, which has nothing to do with his professional and technical abilities, Muramatsu Tomoshi still works hard and tries to integrate into the working atmosphere of Kyoeisha.

Like the workers, he moved goods in the warehouse and ate simple lunch boxes in the restaurant with everyone else. He also changed his suit into a blue and white work suit, and of course his leather shoes, which he had to change into sneakers for easier movement.

At the age of 52, Muramatsu Tomoshi, who suffers from diabetes, feels that he is overdrawing his already limited life.

Unlike him, Rinko stayed at home almost all day. Apart from doing some housework, she kept practicing calligraphy - she was the wife of a medical professor and a teacher at a calligraphy training center, and she really couldn't get along with those peasant women in the countryside.

Every time he went home, Muramatsu Tomoshi saw her spreading the rice paper on the low table for eating. He always felt that she was wronged and pitiful, and the male chauvinism in his heart was constantly frustrated.

Muramatsu Tomoshi felt heartbroken when he thought that she gave up everything to be with him, and he thought that he would rent a bigger house even if it cost a little more.

But Rinko objected: "Instead of moving to a bigger house, why don't you just come back here every day?"

After Rinko resolutely followed him in his free love, she truly accepted this kind of life and did not feel embarrassed because he had changed from the former deputy editor-in-chief of "Gunzo" to a small salaryman now.

But a man's self-esteem is sometimes not something you can throw away just because you want to.

After reading this, Hikigaya Nako already felt that the ending of the two was about to become an irreversible tragedy.

She felt a little sad, but Mr. Kitagawa did a great job in characterizing and describing the two characters' psychology!

She is only 21 years old this year. In fact, she cannot understand the desire of middle-aged men and women for free love, nor can she feel how painful it is to abandon her family and be transferred out of the company.

But as the plot of the novel became more and more popular, she seemed to be immersed in the story. She could not only understand Muramatsu Tomo's self-esteem and pride as a man, but also feel the wildness hidden in Rinko Matsubara's heart beneath her gentleness and indulgence.

Without the constraints of the past rules, Rinko even tried various toys while playing poker, which is completely different from her Yamato Nadeshiko-like gentle image!
However, such a leisurely life cannot last forever.

The lives of the two of them are like a fragile glass window. The slightest disturbance or a naughty kid throwing a baseball at them can instantly shatter everything that seems beautiful into powder.

At the end of this chapter, a baseball really flew over!
Rinko's mother called and asked her to completely sever the mother-daughter relationship with her.

".I don't remember raising such a slutty daughter! She left home and lived with another man even though she had a husband. I will never forgive you until I die!"

Rinko's mother's words made Hikigayako a little frightened.

Her family is also a traditional Japanese family. Her father is an ordinary company employee who has worked diligently all his life, and her mother is a virtuous and gentle housewife.

From childhood to adulthood, the education instilled in her by her mother was to be a virtuous and dignified woman.

She doesn't have a boyfriend now and has no plans to get married. In a few years, when she finds her ideal partner and gets married, she will have to resign from the police station and devote herself to being a good wife to her husband.

If you do not quit your job after getting married and insist on working and taking care of the family at the same time, you may be criticized by your mother.

Women don't need to be ambitious.

This is a deeply rooted idea among traditional Japanese women.

Not to mention Rinko in the book, who not only worked outside the home, but also cheated on her husband and lived with other men.
If I became like this, my mother would beat me to death!

Hikigaya Nako stuck out her tongue. She could understand Rinko's surprise, helplessness and despair after receiving the call.

That is the painful feeling of having one's own life denied.

After talking to her mother on the phone, Rinko suddenly hugged Muramatsu Yushi tightly and whispered, "Hold me, hold me hard!"

Muramatsu Tomomi followed her instructions and hugged her tightly. She shouted again, "Hit me, hit me hard!"

"Beat you?"

"Yes! Hit me hard. I'm a bad boy. Hit me, please."

Rinko suddenly stood up, unbuttoned her chest, stripped herself naked, and lay on the bed. "She's completely broken!" Hikigaya Nako was moved by the extremely tense plot and immediately turned the page of the newspaper to read the next chapter "Half Summer".

Thinking that many people had already read these two chapters on Wednesday, Hikigaya Nako felt regretful that she had not kept up with the trend.

But the good thing is that now she can not only read Wednesday's newspaper, but also read the ending in one go!

It must feel great!

In the fourth chapter of the second half of Paradise Lost, "Midsummer", Tomomi Muramatsu and Rinko returned to Tokyo.

They have to finalize their respective marital situations.

Because the two had made up their minds, the other half of their de facto marriage finally agreed to divorce.

After finishing everything, the two met at Tokyo Station.

After the divorce, they should be completely free and very happy.

But the reality is that when the two met, they both saw disappointment on their faces.

In order to get a divorce, Muramatsu Tomomi left home completely and became a penniless man.

He had many good friends in Tokyo, but at this moment he didn't dare to see anyone, and didn't want to see anyone.

Let alone his family, his child has left with his wife, and his parents will not understand his crazy behavior.

Rinko Matsubara feels uncomfortable in a different way.

She has been alone ever since her mother decided to end all ties with her.

She went back to her old home one last time and packed up all her things and took them out.

However, when she got home, she was surprised to find that the house was not dirty.

Her husband, a professor in the hospital, used to have a cup of coffee before going out in the morning, and she was responsible for cleaning the coffee cup.

Now that she was gone, when she came back, she didn't notice the dirty coffee cup.

Not only were the coffee cups washed, but the kitchen rags were also wrung out and neatly stacked, the used small basins were drained and turned upside down, and there was even a hydrangea blooming in the yard in the vase on the desk.

At first, Rinko thought it was the housekeeper or mother-in-law who came to help clean the room, but then she found unfamiliar patterned towels and a red-handled toothbrush in the bathroom.

Soon after she left, there was a new mistress in the house.

"Could it be that Rinko's husband is also cheating on her?" Hikigaya Nako was a little surprised.

What made her even more emotional was that after discovering this, Rinko should have felt happy and relaxed.

Because she was not the only one who was unfaithful. It turned out that the other party had also been unclean from the beginning.

However, Rinko felt more depressed and lost.

"Love, love, love. In the end, there is only destruction."

Reading the last words of Paradise Lost, which appeared in Wednesday's newspaper.

Hikigaya Nako, a girl with little experience in love, suddenly felt it too.

It turns out that the word love, which sounds so comfortable, actually hides a poison that is so selfish that it can destroy everything!

"Huh - I really want to stop, but I really can't stop!"

Hikigaya Nako folded Wednesday's newspaper, placed it together with the previous issues of the Nikkan Sports News that serialized "Paradise Lost", and then couldn't wait to pick up the latest one.

The clock on the dressing table clearly showed 8:45.

If she went to the police station now, there was a slight chance that she would not be late.

But now, who cares!
Just be late!

I must finish watching the ending of Paradise Lost today!

Still outside, probably gone today
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(End of this chapter)