The Spirit World

Chapter 1004: Reincarnation Chapter Xiyue Can't Sleep
That's what I thought, yes.

For you, you just forgot, a dispensable person...

But for me, if you disappear from my world, I will lose the whole world...

Please... don't... forget me...

It turns out that the wind can blow gently through the tips of your hair and reach deep into your heart.

Sometimes, I wonder whether I should live in this world. After all, for me, this is my second life.

This is not fair to other people, after all, they only have one life. But thinking that the world I live in has never been truly fair, I also accepted it with relief, my rebirth without any ripples.

Sometimes I wonder why I was reborn, but I can't figure it out no matter how hard I try. I would rather spend one more minute enjoying my present life than to ponder such a vague and unanswered question.

I was truly relieved.

When someone calls me by my name, I can respond naturally.

【Kretschler】

【Colin Kretschler】

Are you surprised? Those who appear before me again, will you also meet me with the memory of the next life?

Or do you no longer remember me, no longer remember everything I have, no longer remember the tragic experiences I have encountered.

My father, my mother, in your eyes, I am still that innocent little girl...

Your hugs, your smiles, your beauty.

I tell myself all the time...I should cherish...

Don't... don't leave me...

don't want!!!!
"Kretschler, you are such a slut..."

once Upon a time……

A foot stepped on my head.

That was my distant cousin [Colin Bueno] who came from somewhere and witnessed my mother's madness with his own eyes.

"Now that your father is dead, you have abandoned the identity of our Colin family and gone to serve tea and water to lowly peasants! You are really... so lowly!"

I will never forget his extremely dirty face.

Having lost the support of my family, I was pitied by a kind-hearted tavern owner and became the only source of income for myself.

He, they, thought that Miss Colin should not serve tea and water to unrelated "No-Majors" even though I was just serving them the dishes they paid for.

Although I was young and ignorant, I never felt the slightest bit of "shame" about it.

It was just due to the inexplicable arrogance of people like Puano that the job was lost in silence due to their interference.

I was mercilessly humiliated by the elders of my family, but when I reached out to ask for a tiny bit of the condolence money that belonged to my father, their cold faces, like their coins, never appeared in front of me.

I lost my only job after my father's death, and my crazy mother finally lost her only chance of treatment...

I lost her.

Just like I felt powerless after losing my father.

I never thought I would be so miserable, I never thought I would suffer so much, I never thought my life would fall into the trough again and again...

My magical talent, which was once praised by Mr. Longxu, seemed to be buried in my blood vessels forever when I lost the opportunity to study in Fran, and it will never go out of business.

I have to leave my hometown and live a helpless life in a place where there are no familiar people.

It was at that time, sitting on the caravan's dragon cart, that I suddenly felt that my life was free...

I breathed in the air that I had breathed day after day, and it unexpectedly tasted sweet. My hands were covered in calluses, my back was bent in vain, my knees ached, my arms ached, and my heart perhaps also ached, but I could no longer feel it.

And the disaster happened at that time. It just so happened that the disaster happened... when I was dreaming of escaping from the city where I was born and raised...

The struggle for political power, the alternation of peace and war...

Like me, pathetic.

The death of Mr. Longxu made the [Tiger Chasing Faction] ready to take action. They blocked the city where the [Dragon Chasing Faction] and the [Princess] were located - my hometown.

The Great Purge happened.

So terrible human atrocities occurred on this day.

I lost my only identity and became a refugee.

I was trapped in the city and begged for alms, using my identity that no one cared about to seek charity from the people in the city. Refugees have no dignity, and I am not qualified to talk about dignity. I just remember that in those three dark months, I suffered from severe stomach problems. I vomited blood, had no gastric juice, and had a dirty body with fleas that I could never catch.

I spent three whole months in pain. Living in the refugee district was worse than death.

There were several times when I was almost violated by others. I couldn't understand why these pathetic refugees could still have evil intentions when I was so poor and had no feminine charm. I ran away from them and stayed away from the "untouchables" in Puanno's words.

I was angry and resentful, but ultimately I couldn't change anything, so I fled once again, fleeing from this dirty neighborhood.

My poor father would never have imagined that his beloved daughter would become so poor, miserable and pathetic after losing him.

I had to timidly guard the food, and I had to expose myself to the flames of life and morality and torment myself repeatedly.

I live tiredly, I live in this world with difficulty, my heart is getting colder and colder... my heart... is getting more and more numb...

I've seen so many bastards with sores, I've seen so many souls who died in violence...

I have seen so many cold hearts...

And, so many...

Poor guy...

Including myself...

Should my heart... also be cold?
I don’t quite understand…

At least, before I met [him]...

I no longer believe that people have good natures, and I no longer believe that there is much worth singing about in this world.

I no longer believe that this world has a reason for me to live...

So, on the night when I was abandoned for fear of a plague, I reached the top of the mountain in my hometown.

The end of my miserable life.

Yes...those painful memories...are lingering in my mind...

I was about to die, but suddenly I felt relieved.

Klecher...

Colin Kretschler...

What a sad and ridiculous life...

Kletcher, even if it happens again, you will still live such a miserable life...

Everything you lost... is something you can never have again...

Living in pain and suffering, will it remain the same? Will it never change?

I clearly can’t bear to live anymore…

I obviously...

"poor guy……"

He appeared before my eyes...

Even the sunlight is no longer dazzling.

Poor guy... me...

right……

But I couldn't speak, and there were tears in my eyes.

He just... had pity on me, and I could feel... his genuine concern.

Concerned about me, this...

No longer have the courage to live...

I……

call……

Why is the moon setting in the west tonight?

Why do you want to save me...

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(End of this chapter)