The Spirit World

Chapter 243 Why does the moon always disappear when the sun rises?
Marriage is like yesterday's sun. When you hear it rising today, you realize that it has already become today's sun.

If there is no interest involved and a man and a woman come together, say some ambiguous words, and enjoy some romance, people will definitely gossip about them.

But love between men and women is common in public and behind the scenes, and no one can escape marriage, from nobles to common people.

Although marriage is abstract, it is visible and tangible. Everyone will witness a marriage since childhood - the marriage of their parents. Children cannot immediately realize whether their parents' marriage is good or bad. Only when they need marriage themselves can they see more intuitively what marriage is like.

If there are too many couples who love each other and grow old together, there is no need to sing praises or pursue them. The so-called ordinary things are also a part of marriage. Feelings are something that is very difficult to describe. Physical pleasure is also a testimony to the good feelings. Dedication and care are also the silent dialogue of feelings.

I selfishly think that very few people have a good marriage - or a good marriage state. But if you ask me, what do I think is the best marriage state...

I can't answer it either.

Haha, but this doesn't stop me from pursuing the marriage that I think is most suitable for me...after all, no one will force me.

As the saying goes, you can never judge a person by his face. I have seen too many cases of bad marriages leading to the breakdown of families and the separation of husbands and wives. This has made me more determined to improve my marriage.

Otherwise, just ignore it.

To be honest, I can understand why Shirley and Tomoe Mami speculated about the relationship between Lin'er and me. Because even I think that Lin'er is too "persistent" in her feelings for me.

I don't covet a little girl's love for me. Of course, I can't say how much Lin'er likes me, but I can feel that every word she says is full of sincerity.

That is, don't let me get hurt, or die.

She said she wanted to protect me, and she really did. She didn't want an ordinary person like me to die in such a dangerous spiritual world.

I can empathize with her because I used to be obsessed with the death of others. What if the people I have to face every day, the people I care about every day, the people who accompany me die in this world?

Then your own life will instantly lose its meaning, and you may even be ridiculed by yourself.

I am no longer a "stupid thing" who is obsessed with life and death. I would rather believe that I am a "bad guy" who is willing to use my brain and do everything I can to stay alive.

I can naturally understand Lin'er's feelings.

But Shirley and Mami didn't understand. When they looked at Lin'er, they could only start from the relationship between men and women, and "foresee" that there was some kind of "engagement" between Lin'er and me to attach her unspeakable feelings to me, thus making all the unreasonable things they thought in their hearts become reasonable.

I paid attention to Lin'er, and saw that she nodded and lowered her eyebrows, remained silent, clenched her fists, and bit her lips gently.

The bright red lips whispered softly.

"Protecting Brother Yufeng... is what I must do..."

The brother Yufeng she was referring to was naturally me.

Shirley and Tomoe didn't understand, they just heard some syllables from Lin'er's mouth. I don't think Shirley and Tomoe were making things difficult for Lin'er, because they really cared about her. It's just that they didn't know Lin'er very well, and they abruptly interpreted Lin'er's feelings for me as a marriage contract, which made them feel sorry for "having to" be tied to a "country boy" like me, which hurt Lin'er's feelings to some extent.

Lin'er couldn't say much. After all, I was still there, and Shirley and Mami were the clients. She was silent, and I could only remain silent too.

I was the one being “accused”.

Maybe the source of this accusation lies not with me but with my parents.

Xunhuangying's smile also shows the seriousness of this accusation.

Many people in the world want to change from a pheasant to a phoenix, but no phoenix has ever wanted to change into a pheasant.

My little guide from the country was nothing more than a farmer's son, and "raising pigs" was just one of the things a farmer's son had to learn.

While the nobles were drinking afternoon tea, I might be cleaning up the pig manure and helping the pigs clean their sheds. Although I am not responsible for these things now, it is just because Rajel and Aria want me to succeed and do not want me to be a farmer who "raises pigs".

I don't know what others think, but I think there is nothing wrong with it. It sounds good to spend your life as a farmer. You don't have to think too much. Every day you either eat or work and sleep. If you are not starving and can sleep, it is not impossible to spend your life in a daze.

A happy day is a day, an unhappy day is also a day, and that’s how two days are spent.

There are probably countless two days in life... but they will eventually be counted.

However, I am the kind of "bad guy" who knows that life is only once. I am still so young, I am still so healthy, and I still want more and better things. I want to be a guide for this reason.

I am relying on my own conditions and efforts to take a path that I believe is right and can make my life better and leave me with no regrets.

I can be a farmer's son. I can also be a farmer, but I can't be a farmer all my life. I have reasons and I must be able to give myself and my family a better life.

Only then did I realize that I had some inferiority complex. The mere fact that my parents were farmers made me feel a little lost. Perhaps it was because farmers were an extremely important yet despised profession both in history and now.

I won’t comment too much on the profession of farmers, but I can never change them, because even I myself can hardly change.

I am full of ambition, isn't that what is called ambition? If I didn't have ambition, how could I be here?
I don't have a reason to succeed, but I have the determination to succeed.

"Lin'er and I don't have an engagement."

I say.

"Lin'er and I have known each other since we were young. We can be considered childhood sweethearts."

I ignored the ridicule. It's not that I'm open-minded, I just can't refute it. There's really nothing good about "raising pigs" and there's really nothing good about farmers.

There are so many professions in this world, and so many professions that you can do and pursue. If you force yourself to do a job that is not good, it is tantamount to pushing yourself into a fire pit.

"Childhood sweethearts..."

Shirley looked at me and then at Lin'er.

We looked like childhood sweethearts, so she might have had some doubts, but she didn't say anything else.

And after that, we didn’t say anything along the way, neither me, nor Lin’er, nor... Xun Huangying.

We were all quietly thinking about something, but my mind was blank, I didn’t know, and I didn’t understand…

I looked at Lin'er, as if she wanted to say something but stopped. I just looked at her quietly.

I always thought I could understand Lin'er, know Lin'er...

maybe……

What I wrote is too realistic. I don’t know what to do myself. I am somewhat pessimistic…I can’t say that every word I wrote is heartbreaking, but it does make me sad.

I know many people don’t realize to think about themselves…

I also know that many people cannot change the current situation...

I also know that many people have understood the rules of how the world works but feel helpless...

If [ambition] and [motivation] can help you, then I will be pleased...

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(End of this chapter)