The Spirit World

Chapter 263 There is nothing you have to do well, except your life.

I seem to have never done anything well.

This time, I want to focus on doing one thing well.

I am very unhappy now, simply because little things of this or that kind are holding me back from moving forward.

But when I put all this aside, I see nothing.

I realized that I had never thought about what I wanted.

I...

What do you want?

Can I give myself the answer? 】

Wang Die watched Chang Yufeng open the vermilion door. White light appeared from inside the door. Chang Yufeng's figure was extremely tall, as if he was no longer a twelve-year-old boy.

He was indeed no longer that, and without him even knowing it, his body had undergone a drastic change, as if he had transformed from a child into an adult in the blink of an eye.

His fingers were slender, his lips were like red jade and his eyebrows were like stars. His hair was no longer blonde, but was jet black and fell to his waist, hanging down his back. His entire body was covered by a dark robe, leaving only his white collarbone and neck exposed.

But he was just a child after all, and he had no desire to deceive.

He wanted to be an adult, and thought that being an adult would solve all his problems. But after he became an adult, he could only accept everything that happened to him bitterly.

At this point, he couldn't grow up anymore.

[To enter the spirit world, one must find the [Demon Stone of the Wilderness] that exists in the real world.]

[However, Mr. Chang Yufeng, Wang Die recommends that you do not return to the spirit world. As Lord Xun Huangying said, you are not yet capable of fighting against Mr. Chang Yufeng from another time and space.]

〔Mr. Chang Yufeng.〕

"But I have to go back. Lin'er is still with Black Sheep."

Chang Yufeng already had the answer and had made up his mind.

"Besides, I don't know which of you is telling the truth."

He was not suspicious, but now he was forced to doubt this and that.

[Mr. Chang Yufeng, I cannot agree with your approach. In Wang Die's opinion, you are a real fool if you return to the spirit world now.]

"Xun, I don't know what Xun Huangying's current situation is, but he asked me to find Lu Xinzhai. Lu Xinzhai may be able to tell me the answer."

That god who can travel through time and space.

Where else would it be?

Xun Huangying didn't say anything.

Xun Huangying said nothing.

Of course, he no longer hopes that Xun Huangying will say anything. He doesn't want to rely on anyone anymore!

Don't rely on anyone anymore!
Chang Yufeng, do you understand what you really want?

In the past, I wanted to be myself, I wanted to find the meaning of life, I wanted that illusory so-called ideal.

But in the end, it was just an empty dream.

The search for meaning itself is nothing but an illusion.

And now, what does he want?

Why is he...

And what about the current situation?
He wanted to be a famous guide? And live his life like that?
But, will my parents agree?

But, will my friends agree?
But, will my heart agree?

But, would those people who were innocently killed because of themselves agree?

But, will karma let him off so easily?
Will not.

Even if he wasn't avoiding it before, he had never faced it head-on.

Run away, run away, hide, hide irresponsibly!
A complete and utter irresponsible coward.

When did he become like this?
When did he become dependent on others again and again?
Instead of relying on yourself?

Instead of facing it proactively?

He didn't want to ask Wang Die anything anymore.

His chest was burning badly now, and he would break out in cold sweats whenever he thought of what he had done in the past.

Even if my memory is fragmented, even if I am kept in the dark by others, even if others are extremely powerful.

He didn't take the initiative to break the situation, which is why it turned out like this.

He, really, deserved it.

So, his silence now is nothing more than another form of confession.

Fortunately, he has realized his mistake.

Fortunately, he realized that he deserved it.

Fortunately, he still breaks out in a cold sweat whenever he thinks of his past self.

Fortunately, he hasn't chosen to give up.

Fortunately, he still has a chance...

Everything now, in the final analysis, depends on him making changes himself.

This is a journey without a life mentor. If he makes a mistake, no one will remind him. If he suffers, he can only endure it silently. If he escapes, there is no one to talk to and no one will advise him.

Let him make mistakes, let him escape, let him be weak.

Let him burn in hell like a puddle of mud.

Now, things might be much clearer. He must take the initiative. He can't just die. Some people don't want him to die.

Some people expect that he, whose name is Chang Yufeng, can save something.

So many people seem to be thirsty for something.

So many people seemed to be implicated by me.

So many people, innocent and suffering.

And he has never been an asshole who just watches and does nothing.

[Then, Wang Die can only wish you good luck, Mr. Chang Yufeng.]

[Wang Die cannot accompany you to leave, [Era of Disaster] will monitor all cross-border behavior.]

"The calamity of the era, what is that?"

Chang Yufeng's hand was on the door handle, stroking it slowly.

He was not surprised that Wang Die was unable to follow.

[Data shows that the Epochal Disaster is a mysterious organization with 52 strong men. The only information Wang Die knows is that the Epochal Disaster will completely wipe out all organisms that violate the laws of the Epoch. In other words, all Epochs cannot have any union, and they are the managers who deal with these joint troubles.]

〔And, under the command of, Lord Xun Huangying.〕

Chang Yufeng was not overly surprised when he heard Xun Huangying's name.

He glanced at Wang Die.

The words couldn't be any softer.

"You can't leave this room?"

[Yes, at present, the King Butterfly cannot leave this information space named "Time Narrowness" by the King Butterfly's owner.]

Wang Die is still cute and confident.

"Then how can I find you in the future?" Chang Yufeng looked at Wang Die's expressionless face. She was very beautiful, but she didn't seem to know that her casual smile could make people intoxicated.

The guy who made her must have loved her very much to have given her all the good things that could be called a human being.

Except calling him an idiot all the time.

[You can use the [Huang Yi Magic Stone] to come here, Mr. Chang Yufeng.]

"Where is the Huangyi Magic Stone now?"

Chang Yufeng didn't seem to want to know much about Huang Yi Magic Stone. Even in his pronunciation, the four short words were spoken in a light tone.

[The magic stone can make everyone's wishes come true. Mr. Chang Yufeng, you can use it to come here.]

〔I will look forward to seeing you again.〕

Wang Die placed her hands on her lower abdomen, like a dignified maid, except that she didn't know how to smile, making it hard to really believe that she could be approached.

She did not answer Chang Yufeng. She had clearly said that she would try her best to answer her questions. As for the Huang Yi Magic Stone, she just said it and never cared about it again. She did not even say, "Wang Die does not know."

Wang Die did not answer Huang Yi's question about the magic stone. Chang Yufeng squinted his eyes and looked at Wang Die.

He grabbed the door handle, and Xun Huangying's small stool was gently taken up in Wang Die's arms. Chang Yufeng had no way of imagining how Wang Die picked up Xun Huangying's small stool, or rather, he couldn't imagine how such a beautiful person like Wang Die could squat down to pick up something.

"Actually, I'm starting to believe what you guys are saying."

"Do you know why, Monarch?"

Chang Yufeng's emotions began to calm down. Everything needed to be let go by himself. If he wanted to become better and change himself, he had to accept his past self.

Otherwise where would the motivation come from?
Now I say, hey, let's do it, I'm going to do what I want to do. I don't care whether it's meaningful or not, I don't care what others think. In the education I received, it may be a bit awkward to face it so positively.

But don't be afraid, I'm not that scared anymore.

anyway.

[Wang Die didn’t understand. Mr. Chang Yufeng.]

Wang Die held the small stool as if she was holding a tiny baby.

“Because I began to believe that I could do better.”

"anyway."

Chang Yufeng took his hand off the door handle and put his hands in his trouser pockets, like a young man who was confident in what he was doing. With a slight smile on his lips, he was full of confidence and shook his head gently.

"I want to really do everything well now. I know it's difficult. I believe what Xun Huangying said. There is a black sheep. He is better than me. He even wants to replace me."

"I would also think, I am such a horrible person, why did he replace me?"

"Oh, maybe I am also a very good person. It's just that I have never discovered it."

After he finished speaking, the corners of his mouth slowly relaxed and he regained his composure. A golden light gate appeared behind him, bringing a gentle breeze.

What kind of wind will be behind that door?
So warm.

"Wish me luck. Monarch."

He said something that was not like his usual speaking style.

It was as if he had now become a friend of someone he had never met but seemed familiar to, and he was about to leave and say goodbye to his friend.

And this farewell is a different kind of words.

Wish me luck.

[Good luck to you, Mr. Chang Yufeng.]

Wang Die actually smiled gently, the corners of her mouth seemed to actually rise, she was no longer so dull, and her eyes were no longer so calm and shining.

How dazzling he was, standing in the golden gate of light. He turned around, said nothing more, raised his hands, and disappeared into the gate of light without shaking.

The vermilion door slowly closed, and light could no longer escape from here. It was completely dark. A bed that could only accommodate a child lay quietly against the wall. Surrounded by white walls without any decoration, it looked like a dead cage.

[This is totally different from what I thought, Master.]

Wang Die's gaze slowly moved downwards, and the small stool lay quietly in her arms.

The monarch butterfly holding it is like a mother holding her baby, and its dull eyes become gentle.

[I can feel his pain. This feeling is very bad. It makes Wangdie's heart tremble.]

[Now, he finally has to face everything alone.]

[I think he should know.]

[That’s great…]

She looked at the small bed in the room and gently placed the bench on the edge of the bed, as if there was someone who had once sat on the small bench watching the sleeping child.

So close. So far.

She slowly disappeared, just as she woke up, a green light flashed by, and her eyes stared at the red door, closing quietly.

Time never grows old.

There are so many people who want to do one thing well. If they can do one thing well in their lifetime, they will have no regrets.

Who knows?

Chang Yufeng didn’t know either. He hadn’t asked what happened in the spirit world. This was actually the first question he asked Wang Die.

However, it doesn't matter whether there is an answer or not.

He passed through the light gate and in an instant fell into a space full of exploding light, but the light was not dazzling, but soft and gave people a subtle sense of warmth.

Floating clouds are like light, wandering around.

He stared straight ahead, one foot firmly placed on the cloud of light, and various fragments of his life began to flash back in the light one after another.

The bunny boy ran wildly in the flames holding the baby.

The huge fire eagle soared into the sky but was brought straight into the sky by the ice-blue sword.

The flames burned innocent people in vain.

Rajel and Alia held him and stood on the hillside surrounded by flames.

Lin'er appeared for the first time, her purple skirt fluttering in the wind.

The girl in white, who was the incarnation of an ice dragon, stabbed the human world with a spear.

The children in the tunnel were running desperately.

A scorching black shadow attached to his body.

Dressed in gorgeous clothes, we go to the sky together.

Three thousand peach blossoms, asking for guidance on marriage.

Tan Mingqiu, Xiao Qingshan, the eldest princess who looks very similar to Lin'er, the demon boy, Xu Wenwen, Qilin Gang...

He remembered their names one by one.

The wind blew the fiery red clothes and overturned the light of the earthly eyes. It rose thousands of feet high and saw for the first time the devil who could be called Chuchu.

Jiang Boliang, the white fox mask on the rugged mountain. Yue Qingxue, the man-eating rat monster on the border. Bai Yutang, the swords of Yulu and Lanluo collided.

Junichi Tachibana, the woman who is as free as the wind.

Locke, the king's posture, the church bells rang, and pitiful and terrifying cries for mercy surrounded the feet of the Virgin Mary.

Lady Rose, Victoria, Mr. Longxu, the princess who looked very similar to Lin'er, and the young man in the white suit, sitting in a chair and gently stroking his long golden hair.

Lan Luo...

Why you crying?

Xunhuangying, why are you so sad?

Cry, and cut off the three thousand strands of worries in the cold wind and rain.

Go forward, the boy who is crawling on the ground trying to find the answer.

Run, Lilia, who is becoming increasingly lonely as she holds the body of a broken-hearted person.

When will so many horrific dreams come to an end?
Chang Yufeng looked at his three thousand strands of hair flying in the wind and touched his hair unconsciously.

He was quite emotional, but his attention was slowly drawn to another picture.

It was a small house made of earth, covered with thatch and with some talismans to ward off monsters. At the door was a small hole for storing water. It was all alone on the hillside, just a lonely-looking small house.

Inside, there lived a little man who hadn't slept peacefully for a long, long time.

He opened his eyes and looked at the darkness in front of him, as if he could see the entire sky outside the house that was sealed tightly.

How lonely.

What was he thinking at that time?

I guess no one knows it anymore.

Even Chang Yufeng himself didn't quite understand.

He was not surprised that he had suffered so much. He was surprised that he was getting more and more alive. After experiencing so many painful things, he no longer had such a determined look in his eyes.

He touched his face. Could it be that his face, which had never aged, still bear traces of the tears he had shed at that time?

What a poor fellow, struggling helplessly in the rotation of time and space, unable to tell the directions, unable to distinguish the different paths of the world.

original……

There are so many things...that I want to do but haven't done yet...

He came to the intersection of light, just like when he first came to the spirit world. Once he entered this intersection of light, he could no longer control his life.

There is a shadow that controls his memory, stripping away his soul and body.

There are so many people who want to kill him based on this groundless prophecy.

He struggled in pain for so long, and only today did he understand that he wanted to do something good.

These things.

Can't do it again later.

He touched the light door with his hand. The exit was right here.

The answers to the end of life are all here.

Isn’t it said that when a man meets his former self, he will only think about erasing him?
I think every man feels that he was a little stupid in the past.

Why are many things not done well? If they were done well, it would definitely not be like this now.

But this is different from regret and it will not stay with you for the rest of your life.

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(End of this chapter)