The Spirit World

Chapter 265 Embracing Loneliness

[I realized that I must take the initiative to pursue the life I want.

If I don't take the opportunity, I will regret it forever.

I thought like this...】

Arcs flicker and light and shadow interweave.

The sky in the dead of night is like a dead and silent grave, filled with creepy coldness and the omnipresent fear of death.

"Let's see who can kill faster, me or you who can escape faster!"

I have some ringing in my ears, or maybe I just heard…

The sound of Xunhuangying made me a little scared.

He gritted his teeth, hiding all his hatred and anger between his lips and teeth, and roared it out slowly, which scared me.

不… …等等… …

Where am I now?
Hands, legs, feet, body, glowing, my whole body is glowing.

"Crazy..." I heard the familiar voice again. In front of me, the dancer dancing by the campfire subconsciously protected the girl in front of him.

She had beautiful red hair that covered her entire back. I couldn't see her face, but her profile was snow-white. She stood close to the dancer's body beside the frozen flame, her hands shaking constantly, and her dancer's dress was shaking with them.

I certainly remember the dancer she leaned on, but I don't remember her.

I, I... returned to the spiritual world... in a... very strange way. My whole body was glowing, but everyone here was looking upwards.

Who is the madman the dancer is talking about?

I looked up and saw a scene that I didn't want to see.

Xun Huangying, no, I already know, that is the "black sheep" that Xun Huangying mentioned. He transformed into the appearance of Xun Huangying, carrying the sword I am familiar with [Magic Sword Artes], floating in the sky, as if to block the moon.

"No...he must be crazy..." the dancer emphasized again, and I could feel her fear because her tremor was very obvious.

I roughly know what state I am in now. When I returned to the spiritual world from the real world, I did not use the Desolate Magic Stone that Wang Die mentioned, so I entered a state similar to that of a soul. Although I only learned about this later, it is no longer important.

I was also floating above the ground, but I could feel that I was still forced to press down on the ground like a human being and couldn't float too high.

The Black Sheep is threatening everyone here as he is the mouthpiece of the entire spirit world. I heard his words, and now thinking back, he is indeed too powerful to make what he said seem so "crazy".

Let’s see who kills faster or you escape faster.

No matter who said such terrible words, I would think that he was a lunatic who overestimated his own abilities. But if it was the Black Sheep, I would not hesitate at all to think that he could really do it.

Although he is now disguised as Xunhuangying.

Even if Xun Huangying said this, it would not be inconsistent, because the two of them could actually do it.

This is based on my understanding of the two of them, but to other people, he who says such "crazy words" is definitely a complete lunatic.

"Who?!" The dancer seemed to sense my presence and turned around suddenly. I could no longer hear what Black Sheep said.

She looked at me, and I was quite shocked because I didn't know whether I would be seen by others. My body was glowing, and it should be easier to be seen, but her eyes were not on me.

And a man behind me.

"Shh, Koluna, don't be afraid." The tall and strong man put his finger to his mouth beside the frozen campfire and pulled the dancer named Koluna to his side. The girl who was leaning on Koluna fell down at once.

"【Keyue】!" Koluna called out the girl's name and wanted to pull Keyue, but she was pulled to his side by the man instead.

I looked at the man's face. He must not be a good person. He had a dirty face and an untidy beard caused by long-term alcoholism. I couldn't smell anything, but I saw the disgusted expression on the dancer Koluna's face.

His body must be stinking.

"Don't move. How come you don't recognize me as your husband after just a short separation?!" The man snorted and smirked. He put his hands on Koluna's shoulders, trying to pull her closer. His neck and head were already sticking out, close to Koluna's white neck.

"I don't remember! You guy! You are my husband!" Koluna struggled hard to free the man's hand, and immediately squatted down to help up Ke Yue who had fainted.

"Keyue! Keyue!" Koluna shook Keyue gently. Keyue held on with a dazed look in her eyes. She wanted to speak, but her lips stuck together. She fainted as soon as they opened and closed.

I stood, no, I floated in the air, watching the man take two steps forward and grab Koluna, my brows furrowed for a moment.

I don't have the time to worry about this, after all, I have more important things to do.

But the man actually started to make moves and forcefully kissed the beautiful Koluna.

Koluna pushed him away angrily and wanted to take care of Keyue again, but the man's hand became more and more powerful. He grabbed her right hand and even made her stumble forward, like a tied lamb spraining its ankle.

I moved forward, trying to push the man away, but my hand went through his body. Before I had any time to be surprised, the man fell to the ground with a thud.

"Damn Lulia, why is he here!"

I looked over and saw a white-haired woman who was holding a bench high suddenly threw it aside and trotted towards Ke Yue.

"Keyue!" Keluna ran towards the girl without any hesitation, and my nervousness was finally relieved.

I looked up at the sky again, but the black sheep had disappeared, replaced by the white arc of light that had always existed.

At Crescent Moon Lake, you can also see that pale arc of light, but you can't escape it after all.

"Ke Yue! Ke Yue! Hold on."

Koluna's voice once again aroused my desire for attention. I looked at Koluna again. The girl named Ke Yue was already lying peacefully in her arms. The woman in white who had just arrived was casting healing magic and placing her hand on Ke Yue's heart, sweating profusely.

I actually didn't know what happened, and Ke Yue should have nothing to do with me, but I realized one thing, that is, Ke Yue's heart stopped beating in the fear and terror of Koluna and the white-haired woman.

They were almost in disbelief at the same time, and then Koluna hugged Ke Yue and cried bitterly. The white-haired woman, who didn't understand what happened like me, was stunned for a moment, and then desperately used healing magic to fill the healing green light to the maximum.

My pupils contracted, and I knew Ke Yue was dead the moment they struggled.

I had just returned to the spirit world, and before I had time to say anything to the Black Sheep, I witnessed an extremely strange death.

“No, Ke Yue, please wake up, Ke Yue, wake up, no… Ke Yue… What should I do without you…”

But Luna's sad crying made her tremble uncontrollably. I felt a little depressed and looked around. The bonfire that was frozen in the ice was still burning in the ice, but it could not shine a blazing red flame under the blue ice.

As I saw, many people were lying exhausted, as if their magic power had been drained away. They were supporting themselves on the ground with their haggard hands. They seemed to have heard the threat posed by the Black Sheep, but most of them were ordinary people and could not resist even the ice that Lan Luo casually waved.

It was almost effortless for me to see Lin'er, and Bucky beside her. Bucky was supporting Lin'er and staggering with a tired look on his face.

Lin'er was like a frightened bird, stumbling towards me, but when I tried to make eye contact with her, her eyes were fixed on a pile of reddish-brown ashes.

I saw the ashes, and I didn't know that was me, but I should have known that it was indeed me.

Although I was right in front of them, they could hardly see me.

I was even somewhat happy to see them, but my low mood came over me and I had to squint for a while. When I opened my eyes again, a man in gorgeous clothes appeared in front of me.

He said.

"You should go back to where you belong."

I was a little confused. I didn't know him, but I recognized his gorgeous clothes as a disciple of Bailing Mountain. I thought he wanted to ask me to go back. Back to Bailing Mountain?
I don’t know, but…

I didn’t know if he could see me. I wanted to look back, but his words stopped me.

"Your sister was crying so hard." He looked behind me, and I had to turn around.

I saw Koluna's swollen eyes from crying, and I heard more cries. I knew that Lanluo had frozen everything so easily that almost all the weak guys here were removed from the world of the living.

I suddenly understood what the man meant. I didn't have such a smart insight before.

I looked at myself again.

Hands, icy and white.

Legs, long and tender.

The body, maybe the belly is slightly protruding.

This is definitely not my body.

I don't seem to recognize myself anymore.

"Go back quickly, I can't take you away." The man's words made me look back at him. He looked very sad, and his sadness made me sad too. I felt like I was about to cry, but I suppressed this emotion all of a sudden.

I glanced at Lin'er, who was squatting on the ground sobbing without any sound. The pile of broken ashes was tightly grasped in her hands. Bachi was lying behind her in pain. The priest was tilted and broken in two.

There is an indescribable throbbing in my heart. I should run to them and tell them that I am still alive...

No... I shouldn't tell them that I'm still alive... I'm dead, completely dead, and worthless.

My life, Jack Nyman...seems to have come to an end.

"What's wrong?" The man seemed a little puzzled by my stunned expression, but I had no way to tell him, and I had no way to ask him who he was.

"Go...child..."

He waved his sleeves, and it was like a gust of wind, letting me fly lightly towards Koluna.

That beautiful dancer was crying heart-wrenchingly, but there were so many people crying here that I couldn’t tell where their crying was coming from.

I looked at my body again, and a heart-shaped birthmark on the side of my wrist caught my eye. It was very small, but it looked like mottled rust on my pure white right hand, giving it an embarrassing stain.

I also saw this birthmark on Ke Yue's right hand.

I had no way of thinking any more.

Maybe I should listen to Wang Die... right? But I can't listen to Wang Die. Now I am Chang Yufeng and I am actively living my life.

I don’t need to care so much about the consequences of not listening to others. No, the word “consequence” is too serious. I should use “cause and effect”.

I am not afraid of cause and effect, whether good or bad.

That's right.

Since I opened the vermilion door, I must have thought of the worst-case scenario.

Have I become Ke Yue?
I don't think so, because I already know clearly that Ke Yue is dead.

Many people died.

Many people have died.

They won't come back.

I didn't die, it's just that I still have a breath of air, and a breath of anger stuck in my chest. I think, once I have vented this anger, I will die.

anyway.

I slowly flew towards Keyue. I didn't know what this was called, reincarnation? Or, soul possession? Or another form of reincarnation?

I don't know, I've been through this too many times... I've forgotten... Have I become numb? I can only remain calm and indifferent to this and that, without any emotion.

I should have some emotions.

I was about to be "reincarnated" into the body of a dead child, for no reason, no inside story, nothing, anything that I knew or didn't know.

I accept the reality in vain and can only wait in vain. Is there anyone who can explain to me everything that happened?

But I won’t passively avoid it like before.

I actively seek change, I actively accept everything that is happening now, and I will not rely on others to explain everything that is happening to me.

I accept the present and I accept everything that I am about to face.

What is left of my whole life?

If there was no Xunhuangying, if there was no reincarnation, if there was no Lin'er, would I have already disappeared from this world?
I do not know.

I do not know.

Anything else I need to know?

Maybe not.

But I seem to be still living stubbornly, no matter whether I live well or not, wonderful or not, or worth it or not.

I turned to look at Lin'er, she was crying so sadly.

I thought so.

I should hug her, as if she could predict the future and knew that I would be in danger. But she still couldn't do anything.

You can only watch me die.

I have done this countless times.

I could only watch her die.

A strange thought popped into my mind. Although I had seen her leave this world more times than she had seen me leave this world, we had both cried for each other, so we were even.

I won't run away anymore, I thought.

Because the world still needs me, so, I am still alive. It doesn’t matter who needs me. Anyway, being alive is an incomparable happiness.

As long as the world needs me, I will live. As long as I am alive, the world will need me.

I looked at Ke Yue, the dead child, placed my hand on hers, and moved it slowly twice.

The heart-shaped birthmark had slight wrinkles, as if it was driving the right hand, causing the heartbeat to shake violently, and then like a pump, drawing blood, delivering blood, returning life to the world.

"Ke Yue... Ke Yue! Ke Yue!" Ke Luna shouted at the top of her lungs, her joyful shouts echoing over the dead silent Crescent Lake.

But she was the only one who could get a response.

"Keyue!" the white-haired woman shouted loudly. She was exhausted, even more tired than me who had just opened my eyes.

It seemed as if I couldn't open my eyes. But I still opened them, and the silvery arc of light pierced my eyes, causing me to shed tears.

"You scared me to death! Keyue!" Keluna hugged me and shook my body. Thanks to her, I was able to feel my whole body.

I have never felt so weak in my body.

The man looked at me, as if he was waiting for something, and locked eyes with me.

I looked at him, and he slowly disappeared, along with the appearance I knew of him.

"Sorry……"

The first words I said when I came to this world were "I'm sorry."

Perhaps Ke Yue used my words to say sorry to the people who loved her the most.

I want to say sorry too.

I struggled to move my aching head.

Turn in the direction I want to see.

Lin'er hugged the pile of ashes in pain.

When I wrote “He doesn’t even have the right to education”, I knew I would delay the update.

Writing such horrible words will give you nightmares.

Many of the lines I wrote in this book made me break out in a cold sweat. So much so that I couldn't update it quickly enough.

I won’t think about anything else. So many things have happened recently. I just feel that it’s so hard, so painful, and everyone is suffering so much.

Of course, there is actually no need for me to say this, because the slap has not hit me in the face yet. If I say this now, it would be a bit of a whining, but if it hits me in the face, I might not be able to say it, which would be a bit ironic.

But, as I said, irony is meaningless.

(This chapter is written three times. That is, there are three branches.

The first one: go through the door, confront the Black Sheep in spirit form, and then have to rely on Ke Yue's body. The reason for rejecting it is that I think it will feel like possession, which goes against the original intention of the existing character.

The second one: go through the door, come to the world to find Huang Yi magic stone to go to the spirit world and start the story again. The reason for the rejection is that the plot of the previous dozen chapters of [commission] will be meaningless. It is completely unnecessary to restart the story, and it is impossible to restart the story, which does not conform to the original intention of the character.

The third one is this. Why do I agree with this? Because I think Chang Yufeng has become more mature and can truly face death. What does Chang Yufeng in α17503038 want more when he returns to the present with the Huangyi Magic Stone? He wants a life that will not make him grow old alone. This is also the reason why Chang Yufeng (Li Goudan) in the first life did not enter reincarnation. It is very reasonable. I accepted it.)
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(End of this chapter)