The Spirit World

Chapter 272: Love, there is so much that is out of reach.

The most painful thing about becoming an adult is facing responsibility.

"Anyone can be irresponsible, but you can't."

Xun Huangying looked at the silent Chang Yufeng with his big eyes through his black sunglasses. He didn't know what Chang Yufeng was thinking. That was of course impossible. It was just that Chang Yufeng's mind was blank, like paste, which surprised him a little.

"Oh, but you can't."

He repeated this sentence, then looked at his watch: "To be honest, sometimes I don't know what you are thinking. Maybe too many things happened too fast, leaving you at a loss."

"But it doesn't matter. No one will blame you. After all, you are still behaving like a child. We must be tolerant enough to tolerate our "child" who is highly anticipated by everyone and make mistakes again and again."

"Otherwise, we would be just like you."

His last sentence was full of sarcasm, but because his tone was extremely gentle and his eyes were covered by sunglasses, he looked extremely gentle.

It was obvious that Xun Huangying had always been unreliable and irrelevant, but he started to criticize Chang Yufeng.

Chang Yufeng kept staring at his hands.

"Even this kid you dragged in here is much more mature than you."

Xun Huangying looked at Ke Yue and praised her even though he had never spoken a word to her.

Ke Yue looked at the floating lamb quietly. His strange attire did not surprise her. Instead, Chang Yufeng's appearance made her worried.

He immediately sought help from Huang Ying.

The first person he called out to when he encountered an unknown situation was Xun Huangying. Xun Huangying suddenly appeared again, forcing him to think about whether his previous words still counted.

This is ultimately an immature behavior.

He has not yet tried to accept the current situation that he has to face alone.

Why do you always call Xunhuangying?

"The biggest difference between you and the black sheep is that you have chosen two completely opposite paths, my dear sheep."

Xun Huangying didn't care about Chang Yufeng's call. He responded to Chang Yufeng immediately: "You are just one miracle away now."

“A miracle of stopping to know oneself.”

"Great! I'm leaving!"

Xun Huangying hummed twice and touched his belly: "A long time ago, I couldn't accept the fact that I was the Supreme King. Later, I realized that who cares about you. I am the Supreme King. I just bear some infamy. That's all after I die."

"Do so many people really care what your name is?"

"It doesn't matter at all! Who cares?"

Xun Huangying said something in English, causing Chang Yufeng to look at him with a strange expression as if he was looking at a guest from another world.

But! In fact, they are all people from another world.

This shocked Chang Yufeng again.

It has been so long since he felt that he belonged to this world!
Since when did he start to think from the bottom of his heart that he was a person from the spiritual world?
He clearly came from the mortal world... He knew that beyond this spirit world, there was a completely different world! He knew better than almost all the people in the spirit world that there were always people better than people! There were always higher worlds better than higher worlds!

What is he obsessed with now?
He didn't understand. He felt that he was no longer confused...

He didn't know that he clearly no longer pursued some so-called "meaning of life".

He should understand what I am thinking now!
But there were too many, too many things that he...he couldn't understand at once, impacting his world.

He hadn't had time to...accept...

Right, if you want to become an adult, the first thing you should understand is the responsibility you must accept without any reservation.

Only in this way can you see clearly how you should go on your own path.

The father is old and the mother is sad, the son is young and the wife is weak, birth, old age, sickness and death make life colorful.

Responsibility is imposed upon us invisibly. How can we escape it? Of course we can escape it. People will always despise those who abandon human ethics.

"What if we accept reality?"

"You are the King of Tianyu's Benevolent Heart!"

"Nothing else! Let others say whatever they want, damn!"

"You still don't understand the laws of this world~"

"Stop talking!"

Xun Huangying waved his hand and put on his sunglasses: "Hey, I thought of a big problem!"

He saw Chang Yufeng looking at him with an extremely dissatisfied look, a kind of anger and resentment because he talked too much.

He is him, isn't he?

Why, must it be someone else's reincarnation...

Ridiculous!

It is because everyone regards him as the eleventh generation of the [King of Benevolence of Tianyu] that he has ended up in such a situation!

The suffering he had gone through, the people he had faced, everything he loved, was not because of him, but because of him!

This one is called Tianyu King of Benevolence!
he!
Really!

hateful!

"Don't look at me like that... I don't owe you anything."

"It's Chang Yufeng who owes you a lot... hehehe."

Xun Huangying smirked. He didn't need to be responsible for the resentment towards Chang Yufeng.

"So, you can only lose your temper here. You can't blame anyone. You are furious because you are powerless. You are furious because you are powerless."

He waved his hand and suddenly became quiet again towards Chang Yufeng.

Although Chang Yufeng couldn't see his eyes, he could feel Xun Huangying's seriousness.

他 说:

"I'm going to tell you something very important. You must remember it."

Chang Yufeng's eyes were focused, and he had no doubt at all about Xun Huangying's desire to be serious.

Because he knew that if there was one person in this world who was kind to him, it was Xun Huangying in front of him.

He is irresponsible, even arrogant. But, as he said, so what?
Is arrogance also against the law?

Xun Huangying used to be in charge of law. What kind of trivial, unscrupulous, and inhumane things had he not seen and heard of?
As long as you open the Book of the Law, every line and every word is stained with blood, full of hatred and sucking the marrow out of your bones.

However, there are still people who can circumvent the law, it just depends on whether you are willing to believe it or not.

Of course, such things do not happen all the time, so they are not alarmist, but rather real.

"Crying is of no use."

Xun Huangying told Chang Yufeng a profound truth.

Crying is of no use.

Chang Yufeng did not seem to understand, but closed his eyes and really thought about what Xun Huangying said.

cry?
Who cries for no reason?

Since there is no reason for crying, then crying is useless.

"Remember this sentence. It is very important to you."

Xun Huangying finished speaking and looked at his watch again.

"Okay, okay, next time you come to me, remember to let me know in advance. I'm really on vacation!"

He looked at Chang Yufeng, but Chang Yufeng didn't look up for a long time, so he shrugged indifferently and looked at Ke Yue.

Ke Yue pursed her lips shyly and smiled. Xun Huangying also smiled at her, with a happy and genuine smile.

He was actually laughing.

"I don't know what you are thinking, Xun Huangying..."

Chang Yufeng suddenly spoke.

"I don't know what you are thinking about anymore, Xun Huangying. Are you still thinking about revenge?"

"Revenge? What is that? I no longer have any motivation for revenge. The [royal family] that I swore to protect are all dead. The only ones I want to avenge are innocent descendants. The gods who planned all this have long since left the world and gone to the [Heavenly Palace]. My good friend [Chang Yufeng] is still alive in this world, and, uh, alive and well?" "What do I want to avenge?"

Although he spoke at length about his experiences, he could not withstand Chang Yufeng's sudden questioning, and his voice stopped abruptly. He only heard Chang Yufeng say something that made him pause.

"But what if I want revenge?"

Chang Yufeng had a frown on his face, and the plum blossom on his forehead was frighteningly red.

It was like a drop of blood, rippling and spreading between his brows.

"What if I want revenge?"

He repeated it until Xun Huangying's body began to slowly disappear from the bottom to the top.

"What revenge do you have? What vengeance do you have? That's so funny."

Xun Huangying shrugged again, but his tone did not sound indifferent. Instead, it seemed as if he was avoiding the sentence and not letting Chang Yufeng continue speaking.

Don't let him listen to it himself.

"Let's go, Yang, remember...um...eat on time."

He finished speaking before Chang Yufeng and disappeared again.

That's just how he is, uninhibited and awful.

Chang Yufeng kept his words in his stomach. He knew why Xun Huangying didn't listen to him, because every word he was about to say was true.

He will definitely do what he says.

But, he just wanted to tell Xun Huangying, so that there would be a witness and he could vent his anger.

"I have a grudge, of course I have a grudge."

"I not only have hatred, I also have resentment. I am now filled with hatred and resentment."

“I hate myself for being incompetent.”

"I hate that I was kept in the dark."

"I hate them for being so arrogant."

"I hate that they insist on having their own way."

"I hate it, I hate it so much, I hate it so much that it has become a habit."

"This vengeance was caused by them, so how can they blame me for taking revenge?"

"I know that I have hatred in my heart, and all the hatred needs to be ended by me alone. Otherwise, the dead will not rest in peace, and the suffering people will be exhausted."

"I used to be a complete coward."

"I thought I had no hatred towards them, but they hated me instead. I was a complete fool. I was holding such a deep hatred, but I wanted to forgive them."

"Why should I forgive them?"

"I have said before that all hatred will be settled one by one. At that time, I had already thought about how to take revenge."

“I am extremely entangled in my own abilities and faults.”

"But revenge is not something that can be accomplished overnight. I buried it deep in my heart and was in great pain."

"I no longer have any illusions about my enemies. They are the people who have hurt me, the persecutors who have hurt the people and things I once loved, loved, and admired."

"If I could let go of even this kind of hatred, I would definitely consider myself to be trash without any bottom line."

"I don't want to be a coward, I don't want to be a merciful saint, I need to have hatred. I need revenge."

"Only in this way can I comfort the lonely souls who died for me."

"Anyone who wants to stop me from taking revenge on those who have hurt me is either stupid or evil!!"

"I don't need others to forgive the perpetrators on my behalf. My friends and family don't need others to forgive the perpetrators on my behalf either."

"How can I not have hatred?"

He talked to himself, and it was like a very calm motto being spoken under the influence of madness.

"To forget hatred is to betray."

He finally pulled out these words under his breath, he had so many deep hatreds, how could he just turn a blind eye?

It's just that no one came to condemn him. His heart was actually in great pain. Whether he was talking nonsense or talking madly, if he was really magnanimous and kind enough to forget all the hatred, he would definitely be a beast hated by the world.

Everyone was reminding him that he had to work hard, that he had to change himself, that he had to strive for progress, and that he had to remain calm.

He has to grow up!
He must!
Take responsibility!

We cannot allow those who have placed their hopes on him to suffer any longer!

how!

pain!

Whenever I think about how I have accomplished nothing and have been through so much, yet I can only watch one person after another die in despair!

His nerves were twitching.

Those painful memories came flooding back!

In that golden ocean, how many people had he hurt without any reaction? How many fools had he left with nothing but tears?

He breathed in agony, his chest rising and falling, his muscles twitching, and his heart ached.

"How can I not have hatred?"

He spoke sincerely.

How can I not have hatred?

I have a lot of hatred.

It’s just that I’ve always been looking forward and don’t want to face the bad self in the past.

I have been trying to change, but I did not succeed all at once as I said I would, which made me extremely painful. As my knowledge and age grew, this pain and powerlessness tormented me every night.

On the hillside near Bailing Mountain, I still have the cage in which I have surrounded myself. I lie inside it, accepting my own incompetence with peace of mind.

I wait for the dark, I wait for the sunset, but I don’t wait for the dawn.

When I look up at the starry sky, I don’t feel so insignificant, because I am deeply aware of my own insignificance, and I am not so arrogant as to be unaware of it.

I look at my body that can't grow up, I look at my face that can't age, I seem to be unable to do anything. Yet so many people place their hopes on me.

They suffer, and I suffer too.

I can only bury this hope day after day. 】

"I am in pain. Looking for the shadow of the wilderness."

He knew that the shadow of Xunhuang was still there, and the memory was like the buzzing of a cicada pupa, knocking on his life in the heat and anxiety.

“People who live for others, that’s what they are.”

Xun Huangying's hand suddenly appeared and patted his shoulder.

Patted gently.

"Or maybe it's just like this for everyone, and that's the pain of growing up."

The hand fell silent.

Xunhuangying fell silent.

"I will return all my memories to you."

The hand disappeared again.

In the small world of King Tianyu Renxin, warm golden light fills it, but loneliness and despair are surging, desolate, and dancing in the golden light.

"You should be able to bear it now."

"These ten lives, reincarnation."

I really work 996, or even 6813, and I have no free time at all. But the law stipulates that 996 is illegal. Even now, 996 is still encouraged. Haha, we are laughing.

However, I call the ten reincarnations ten knives. Each knife is fatal.

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(End of this chapter)