The Spirit World

Chapter 285 [X]

【Don’t you want this? 】

【Never separated in this life?】

[Who in the world would make such a poisonous oath? ]

【Heaven will make you perfect. 】

[The future cannot! Become! The past! ]

Someone once asked me if I had ever figured out why I was living.

I answered him.

I said, why are you asking me?

Whether I understand it or not, it has nothing to do with you.

Thinking this way, I can feel more at ease and not worry about whether I understand it or not.

However, later I felt that my answer was not sincere.

I should answer like this.

"If, I mean, if."

"If there is anything worth living for in this world, it is every person I meet in my unused life who is worth living for."

This is not just a cliché, because I really think so.

I want to live to be a hundred years? No, no, no, a hundred years is too long. There is no way I can live to be a hundred.

I live a...

I'll live to be eighty...

At the age of eighty, it seems that I can only lie in bed...

No, no, no, I'd rather live to be sixty.

Sixty years old, counting from infancy, reading and studying until adulthood, half daylight and half night, so, how many days are left in which we can realize why we are living?
I have to eat, have to listen to my parents' nagging, waste my energy on the innocent confusion of adolescence, and deal with the opposite sex who I don't know whether I love or not for many matters of reproduction.

Again, how many days do I have left to live for myself?

No, no, no, even now, I still think so.

I should answer this question like this.

"Do I have a choice? I think that most people don't have the ability to live the life they want. Or, if there are so many people who really know why they live and really live like this."

"Then you wouldn't be asking me that question."

"Because..."

“It is so precious because not many people know and can do it.”

I looked into his eyes and sometimes, I just didn't understand why he was so quiet.

I am not him, so I naturally don't understand what he is thinking.

"Lin'er."

He said.

Golden stars were circling around his body, and in his eyes, there were stars, just like in mine.

But, but I feel that there is always such a long distance between him and me.

I am so insignificant in front of him, because we are so close, yet so far away. So, I am so, so so small that I long so much to understand him, even if only a little.

I don’t want to…

In no mood……

What on earth am I thinking about...

"You can go down the mountain now."

He stood up, from the swing, from the other swing next to mine, and left my side.

His departure caused a slight shake that moved my swing forward, and I held on tightly to the thin willow rope.

This is a very beautiful willow tree. The stars on it are so bright that they seem to be plucked from the sky. He just used a small spell to turn the willow tree into two swings, one big and one small.

One for me and one for him.

He once sat next to me, and I swayed, flew high and far, then came back down, and was too far away from him.

He sat quietly but refused to let me push him.

He said he just wanted to sit quietly, that's all.

"Go down the mountain?! Master!"

"Your brother Yufeng needs you."

"But master..."

I don’t know why my master wanted to drive me down the mountain after I answered such a question…

"I can't teach you anything myself, so of course you have to go down the mountain."

He was quite calm, just staring at the clothes on me that he had knitted himself. He was also quite sentimental. He sighed, turned around, and shook his sleeves, just like a helpless opera actor.

Actually, I should understand...

did you mean.

Can……

Can……

I'm still so sad.

Really, is it him?

My ears were feeling a little hot, my heart was pounding, and my sweaty hands also made me realize what I was expecting.

Brother Yufeng and I are in a relationship where if we are together, we will be abandoned if we die...right?
What feelings...

I never thought that Brother Yufeng would have a relationship with me... No, no, no, what on earth am I thinking...

If I die, he will die too...

If he dies, I will die too.

We are all suffering from the same sad "curse"! We are all in the same boat!
We need to live together.

"I know you may be nervous now, but that's your blessing." Looking at Lin'er's state, she couldn't help but teasing: "You have a sheep that belongs to you alone. You are so lucky."

"I do not understand what you mean!"

Lin'er no longer looked at the star-like light that was still flickering and growing bigger.

The sound of breaking came one after another, and it was thrilling for a moment.

"It doesn't matter. You will understand sooner or later. You are still young, right? You are still young. It's too early for you."

She seemed to see her past self, and the more Lin'er resisted her inner feelings, the more interesting she found it.

Then she said something very firm, which forced Lin'er to think seriously.

"Have you ever thought about the future?"

future……

future……

future……

"Master...what should I do in the future..."

I asked.

The master always has to answer.

But when he really answered me, I wasn't that excited about what he would say.

I don't understand.

I didn't understand the word "later", but now there is a better word to replace it.

future.

I always think that my life is tied to another person. If he dies, I will die too.

I die. He dies too.

How can we have a future if we are like this?

"honestly……"

"I have not……"

"I've thought about it..."

I...I...I...

I just think about myself, and how I want to live to be sixty years old...

But, if I have never thought about having a future, how can I imagine what I will look like when I am sixty?

I found that to be a very scary thing.

I……

“Originally, nothing would have happened.”

The master raised his head and looked up at the starry sky. Behind him, I was stunned like a piece of wood.

I didn't know if he was answering me or talking to someone.

But I couldn't see if there was anyone around.

"But it still happened. I once thought about grabbing it, grasping it! Do it for her! Do something..."

Under the stars and the moon, the master's face was shining brightly.

That is!

I finally! I finally!
I finally understood.

The face I'm most looking forward to and the one I'm least looking forward to, will it appear?

Appeared in the gradually shattered star points.

Amid the noisy calls.

In, in, in the future that I finally understand...

Those eyes appeared in front of me.

"master……"

"after……"

"What do I need to do..."

For the first time, I heard my own voice.

It turns out that not everyone can hear their own voice.

"you……"

【Ding--】

【Jingle Bell--】

【Jingle Bell--】

【ah--】

【ah! ! ! ! 】

【Ah ah ah ah ah! ! ! ! 】

【Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! ! ! ! 】

(End of this chapter)