The Spirit World

Chapter 422 Always Meaningless
"Can you tell me... everything?"

Chang Yufeng turned around and asked Lan Luo who was beside him.

Lan Luo was particularly melancholy today, even supporting her chin with her hand, and her ice-blue eyes seemed to be struggling whether to look up at him.

"What?" It was just a soft whisper and he was too lazy to answer.

She laid one leg flat and the other leg bent. Except for the fact that she was not asleep yet, this sleeping posture was lazy enough. The hem of her white dress fell to the ground. The grass had a fragrance, the beauty had a fragrance, and the lamb had a fragrance too.

"I mean... can you tell me... my story..." Chang Yufeng pointed at himself specifically.

"Your...story..." Lan Luo spoke word by word, and his lazy lips were unwilling to open.

Chang Yufeng also felt sad. Lan Luo's emotions were erratic... Now... he wanted to ask, but it seemed that he couldn't ask.

"Yes! I really want to know why Xun Huangying is looking for me... I don't even know my true identity... Now... I keep thinking, who am I... what should I do... what should I do..."

Chang Yufeng turned his head and looked at Lan Luo's lazy appearance. The beauty lowered her eyes, too lazy to look at him. She just looked at the green bird in her hand. The green bird couldn't speak, and it tapped on the back of her hand. It also looked at her obediently.

"Ah~" She wanted to sleep, so she yawned and waved her hand. The bluebird followed her upward hand and flew up, stopped on the branch of the apple tree, and slowly closed its eyes.

"I don't know... everything about you... I only know that there are three kings in this world. In my opinion, each king has his own characteristics... and even his own destiny."

"Which three kings?"

Chang Yufeng said softly. Actually, no matter what, he should be excited because he is also the reincarnation of a "king". But now he is not excited at all, and he is not feeling good at all. The distress is already tormenting enough, and there is nothing worth mentioning at all.

"The King of the Supreme Realm... and... the King of Tianyu's Benevolent Heart..." Lan Luo told the story slowly, and that was all. The so-and-so king and the so-and-so king were only things that happened more than 3,000 years ago and had long since vanished into thin air.

"Which one am I? King..." Chang Yufeng looked at the ashes and fire in his hands. The fire... was terribly sticky and didn't look like flames at all.

"The King of Kindness of Tianyu... I..."

"I?"

"none……"

"Is it great?"

"weak……"

"Is that so... Then where should I go now? I want to go back... I'm worried about them..." Chang Yufeng crushed the ashes. Haha, these sticky flames even had some temper. If they didn't want to be used by him, they would be so thick and scary.

"The benevolent king of Tianyu...what an...ancient past..." Lan Luo was melancholy like an ancient elder. He spoke extremely slowly, and even his breath was steady and tranquil.

"Any king is fine... I don't care about this... These are just empty titles, useless... And... The most important point is, I am not... You also said that they are very ancient people... People who should have been left in history long ago, and should not come out to make trouble again... You know? I actually hate this kind of thing... I don't want to be anyone... I don't want to live under anyone's shadow." Chang Yufeng was a little depressed, because this was very difficult to endure... No matter what, it shouldn't become like this...

Without goals, there is no purpose.

"He lost his name... it doesn't matter... now, you are him... you need to face your destiny... let all the grudges end... with us, with the gods, and with the other kings."

Lan Luo didn't seem to care about his thoughts, but this was enough to make him even more conflicted.

"But you still haven't told me everything about the King of Kindness named Tianyu... There's a saying that goes, if there's no grudge, it's none of your business... But you always let me fight and kill. What do your grudges have to do with me, a person who lives three thousand years later?" Chang Yufeng had been looking into her eyes, but she kept her head down, as if she could never raise it up. Her white eyelashes matched her long white hair, but she was always like this and wouldn't look him in the eye.

"So... these are hard to explain... How can we tell right from wrong... Maybe there should be no right or wrong, no grudges in the world. There is only the rush between life and death..." She finally closed her eyes, melancholy, and lay down gently, staying in front of Chang Yufeng, lying flat on her back to rest: "Maybe it would be better if we were all dead... That would be the quietest thing..."

She seemed unable to speak normally, and every word she said was unclear...she even lost all her enthusiasm...and only wanted to sleep.

"I want to leave... I still have everything I learned in Bai Lingshan. Even without the huge spiritual power support, as long as I am not restricted by the Ning family bloodline... I can have enough strength as support. Under normal circumstances, I can still protect myself..." Chang Yufeng nodded affirmatively, as if he had already confirmed his thoughts.

Lanluo did not answer.

Lan Luo's mood can be described as changeable. He cannot be sure that he has grasped Xun Huangying's character, but as far as her emotions are concerned, the calmest and most reassuring one is Lan Luo's current mood - melancholy.

Most of the time, Lan Luo was still able to talk, but she was always so-called emotional, which made her very distressed. Chang Yufeng was also very distressed. Talking or speaking to such a person would definitely require more patience.

This is not a disease, but because Lan Luo has no heart and cannot control his emotions at all...

Chang Yufeng couldn't understand. He didn't know how a person without a heart should survive. But if it was Lan Luo who couldn't control his emotions, perhaps he could have some sympathy.

"I really want to leave... You know? I have weird feelings towards everyone! I don't want anything now! I don't know how I should live. It's not that I have no desires... I just... I don't know why I am still alive... If I keep living, will I still be myself... If my personality or opinions have changed and conflict with what I said before, then am I still myself? The me before was me! Then who am I now? Who will I be in the future? The whole world! It seems that I am the only one who doesn't know if I am myself... I'm not inferior... nor am I arrogant... I really feel... confused..." Chang Yufeng was depressed and talked to himself here. Lan Luo ignored him and Qingque was also resting.

There are flowers and grass here, and the fragrance enters the nose, making people extremely intoxicated...

But it was just depressing, and it made Chang Yufeng feel suffocated. No matter what, he wanted to leave now.

Everything is within the calculations of others... This distress... Why should I impose it on someone who knows nothing about the grudges of the past?
Be it reincarnation, being abandoned, or the cycle of life and death...

Why do you want to impose it on yourself?

Without these...

Who would think about their past life?

You haven't lived a good life, have you?
Why care about anything else?
If I could herd sheep, I would think it would be a good job now, to be with those speechless white creatures, to let them eat grass, to shear their wool, and to keep them company...

Don’t care about anything, don’t want to think about anything, and don’t need to know anything. The sky and the earth are high and wide, the sun and the moon are long, and they have nothing to do with you.

What does it matter? Nothing matters anymore... It's like I've never lived...

But why is it impossible to accept such a death?

With those lambs I cared for so well... it was a meaningless life... and an equally meaningless death...

Come to this world for a trip...how should I travel there?

Do you need money?

What good is countless money?

Do you want power? What good is endless power?
These are just desires...

Since you don’t care about life and death, what’s the importance of these fleeting things?
Now, what's the point of living?

Chang Yufeng felt exhausted. As a little lamb, he was nothing after all... right? Whether it was a peaceful life... or killing... those struggles with the gods, the devil, Xun Huangying, and himself seemed to be there and not there... but they appeared all the time, which made him confused...

Who is alive...

Is it Chang Yufeng?
Is it Ning Yufeng?
Is it the king who has lost his name?
Or are they still the bodies filled with memories...

What are these?

He now understands more and more, everything... everything related to fate...

Someone always mentions this word to him...

He always listened, not knowing how to answer... If there really is destiny in this world...

Then why is fate so tortuous, carrying worldly desires and turning the final outcome into dead dust?

Why do people only call suffering fate...

Life and death are fate. It is definitely not a survival game where things change from good to bad and from bad to good that is called fate.

Destiny should not be an excuse to motivate people to strive for progress, nor should it be a reason for people to sink into decadence.

It is something that should be vague, destined when a person is born, including the "end of the person" that is brought about by the layers of "survival".

This is man's destiny.

Rather than worldly desires - [the loss and recovery of money and power] - such things that make people's lives vanish, it should be the spiritual pull - [a part of life that must be experienced and lived for. ]

[The desire attached to physiology comes from the understanding of life, and the inevitable death is the manifestation of fate.

Everything that happens on the "road" of life and death can be called fate, which is the common sense of fate.

From the moment a baby is born, it is destined to find the destination of liberation for his life through his personality that changes with time and experience.

To put it more simply, how a person should live should be determined by the person himself, not others. Human life is short and extremely long, and not many people stop to think about the meaning of life...

Because for most people, living...is already not easy...

I want to live better than others, but I am constrained by the evaluations of others and cannot live out my true self. I want to live a peaceful life, but I can never find myself. I want to balance myself and others, but I am always restricted on both ends and live an empty life...

Both material and spiritual wealth are needed to be free from the burden of the world. This kind of wealth is not overflowing money and emotion, but the "moderation" in the doctrine of the mean.

Chang Yufeng's mind was blank, and he was also wondering what to do now...

Why did things turn out like this...

He can ignore everything... He doesn't want to know the answer... Because the answer is no longer important...

He didn't want to die. He always had pity for the meaninglessness of death, but he also always despised the meaninglessness of life. He shouldn't be idle, but he didn't know what to do. It seemed that there were too many things accumulated, enough to make him confused... He could only wait day after day for them to end the tangled situation. He wanted to hide for a while so that when he appeared again, he could be calm and stand and say to others, hello, my name is Chang Yufeng, it doesn't matter who I am, I'm just a guy called Chang Yufeng, if you ask me why I'm so happy, then I should only answer you, I'm very happy, because I'm Chang Yufeng. It's that simple...

That's it...

Perhaps such a day will never come...

Now I can't see a way out...

This little lamb was always so sad, and he always felt like he wanted to crash into the grass and die...

Whether it was myself in the orphanage... or in the world without the orphanage, or myself born in Wenti County... or those thousands or tens of thousands...

who……

Which one is the most real self? Which one is closer to the most real self... Do you know? Does Chang Yufeng know?

The little lamb shed tears. He was in a bad mood right now... He didn't want to cry. He didn't know why he was crying. Maybe it was because no one gave him an answer...

Or maybe, his current situation is terrible...even frighteningly low, and the throbbing of his heart makes him cry in pain.

A hand was placed on his head, the hand was as white as jade and the wrist was as white as snow.

"Don't be sad... my dear king... everything is just beginning. If you lose your will, we will fail in the game with everyone..." Lan Luo was still asleep and did not open her eyes... She spoke very slowly, just like an old wise man, although she was so beautiful.

"I don't know... I'm just very sad... Maybe the sheep's original emotions infected me..." Chang Yufeng replied.

"The world... is not beautiful, so you need to understand better why it is like this... I can't explain to you what happened in the distant past... But I can still tell you... everything you have to face... Xun Huangying will understand... everything you do..."

"You said something I don't understand again... It's like you made something out of nothing... It makes me even more sad... This is what bothers me... I don't even know who I am..." Chang Yufeng sighed and wiped away his tears.

"You don't need to understand, you just need to accept it... just like all the living ants in the world... meaningless life... meaningless death. Although you are different... but this is necessary... you need to understand... you are just you..."

"I……"

Chang Yufeng wanted to speak, but the hand was so cold that he shuddered.

When he looked over, Lan Luo was already asleep...

Sleep quietly.

He didn't know what to do, so he dragged his round body away from Lanluo's original point, curled up like a ball of fur.

sleep?
Maybe it's sleep...

When will the days spent with Lan Luo come to an end?
Many times, if you feel that they do things without reliable logic, you can recall that you need to eat when you are hungry. This is a kind of logic, but it is physiological, giving you a signal to eat. It is logical that you need to eat at mealtime. You will also be hungry before mealtime, but this does not belong to the logic of eating at mealtime, so it seems illogical. The only logic is that I need to eat. Otherwise, I will starve to death.

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