The Spirit World

Chapter 447 A Lonely Soul [Yang]

[“But even after going through so much hardship... he still didn’t grow up...”

"Please don't ask if he has grown up... You should ask if he can endure so much suffering..."

"Humph! Even if he gets that power, so what! He will fail in the end! Failure! Will stay with him for the rest of his life! It will drive him crazy until he dies!"

"No, he can fail. My Feng'er can fail... He is not a saint, just like you are not a saint..."

"I am a god! Of course I don't need to be a saint..."

"Not all gods can be as noble as saints..."

"Chang Yinglan! This is the heaven! Even though that's your child! But now he's just a puppet that all the gods are watching!"

"No! My child is not a puppet! He will know what he wants to do... He will pass through the Tower of Babel! Come here! And destroy all the false things!"

"You are still stubborn!"]

Are you...crying?

My children...

"Little master... do you know?" Xiao Lan held Chang Yufeng's head, put her forehead on his, and felt his slight trembling.

"Don't cry... little master, all the suffering will pass... so what? It's all in the past, isn't it? Those things in the past cannot defeat little master, and the sufferings in the future will definitely not defeat little master!"

"I didn't cry..." Chang Yufeng sobbed, "I just don't understand why I can feel so sad and tired when I'm standing here fine... I can't feel the slightest bit of relief... I'm thinking about how I should break through every time I breathe... But I can't break through... I'm such a failure..."

"Hey...you are a man, right?...I think a man should be upright and stand tall. No matter how big the difficulties are, he should stand up and smile!" Junyi Tachibana was somewhat surprised to see this grown man crying without reason, but her heart trembled as well, because he was indeed sad, upset, and even desperate.

“Don’t cry… I didn’t cry when I failed to survive the heavenly tribulation, so what? Am I not alive and well now? It would have been a passing cloud! Let me tell you! At that time, so many people cried because they lost another god! They were all sad and upset for me, but I never cried. I told them! If I can survive once, I can survive a second time! Damn it! Why are you crying? I didn’t even cry!”

Seeing that Chang Yufeng didn't move, Ju Junyi became anxious and threw the umbrella to the ground, shouting: "You are a grown man, why are you crying all of a sudden? How are you a waste! I don't have any spiritual power at all now! I just want to seek revenge on the guy who shook off all my spiritual power! I didn't say I was a waste! I will definitely make that guy pay the price! You said you are a waste! You wish!"

The cold wind was still blowing, but it was like a silent knife, cutting everyone's body. The coldness that cut through flesh and blood penetrated into the bones, but the two people standing here did not move.

"My dear little master, there is nothing to be afraid of... You can fail... No one can't fail... But you can't give up... My dear little master... You are so unique. Your kindness, your hard work, your honesty and stupidity, your generosity in treating others, have all turned you into someone who can never be defeated by troubles. You can be afraid, you can be terrified, but you still have the courage to face reality... This is living for yourself... Didn't you say that your heart is as sincere as a mirror? That high-spirited young man! That's you... Why do you have to dwell on this? Every step you take has brought you here down to earth. No matter whether this step is in the calculations of others or not, you can take the courage to move forward!"

"Actually, I didn't cry..." Chang Yufeng was still sobbing softly.

"I just feel... I have failed so many times... I have hurt so many innocent people... I have implicated them... I have caused them to be hurt because of me... I have made them extremely disappointed in me..."

"No one is disappointed in you! Little Master! No one is disappointed in you! Really, you have done very well... No one knows how to go on in the future! Who can say that the future will not be like this! No one will blame you... They will praise you, and they will still think about them in their hearts... Cry for them..."

Xiao Lan looked at Chang Yufeng, her big eyes filled with moving tears.

Junichi Tachibana stood quietly in the rain. She intuitively felt that she was redundant... After all, she was just a parasite that refused to leave...

Her current brain circuit did not allow her to leave, but she still felt uncomfortable seeing Chang Yufeng like this...

She thought she had touched Chang Yufeng's heartstrings. Where did his pain come from? She didn't know... but she understood that it must be very painful.

Apples can be bitter...

right?

"I'm not a child anymore... I know I'm not crying anymore... I'm fine..." Chang Yufeng wiped his tears: "Let's go to Qingfeng Mountain and investigate. If there are no clues, we will set off to Longzhong... I'm going to see Lan Luo and ask him everything..."

"Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!" Xiao Lan's mouth corners were pulled upwards by her apple muscles. She nodded heavily without saying anything else.

All right……

The man suddenly started walking again, heading towards Qingfeng City. Junyi Tachibana looked at this man who changed too quickly...

She understood a little bit... She guessed that this person had gone insane and couldn't stop...

He seemed to be conscious, but in fact, he had little understanding of emotions.

He couldn't express himself freely, or maybe he was too divided...

It was as if his crying suddenly stopped, making his behavior even weirder...

He seemed to have figured out some things and became particularly open-minded.

His body stopped shaking, and everyone could sense that there was something strange about him, but this strangeness was so important.

Because that is the ambition of a young man.

His energy and spirit began to slowly recover, and his haggard eyes were so bright.

Maybe my mentality has changed.

He knows his shortcomings...

I am always thinking about improvement...

He was never one to give up on himself... He still wanted to resist...

Otherwise I wouldn't be here...

He will resist in the end... He has already lost count of the lives he has taken.

He needed revenge on the people who had caused this... revenge on them.

"I just feel wronged now... I clearly want to do things well, but I just can't do them... I know they are very powerful! He has never met them face to face, but they have played me so hard that I feel like a loser now! But I can't feel wronged! The stronger they are, the more I want to win back a game from them!"

Chang Yufeng's voice trembled a little.

"Do you know? Xiaolan! When we were in Wenti County, those minions had already spread all over Wenti County! Hatulin! Longxing Society! When Xun Huangying told me that they were spying on my existence! I didn't know what happened at all! And Bailing Mountain! No one actually wanted me to go back! It's just an empty shell! There is no place for me to settle down, I don't want to go anywhere, I don't dare to own anything, I want to stay in Wenti County forever! They don't want to, I want to be in Bailing Mountain, they don't want to, I want to go to Fran, I also want to go to school peacefully, I am always worried that Erica's family will be assassinated silently because of me! Orange, I don't have any energy to lie to you... I'm not lying to you for your own good... I just think I should let you, as an outsider, not have too much to do with me... I don't want to lie to you... But I have to lie to you... What I say and think is so strange... You want to find Xun Huangying, I never think it's a fool's dream, because we are so similar... We both have to challenge everything that is simply untouchable..."

"I don't know your past..." Junyi Tachibana was silent for a while: "I just feel that I am forcing myself on you. I think you are a good person... and you won't deliberately drive me away... I just think you are weird... I can accept anything you do..."

Junyi Tachibana squatted down, picked up the umbrella, and opened it. The umbrella opened with a whoosh sound like a peacock spreading its tail, and the mud attached to it fell off.

"I'm a strange person too... I always feel like I was going to die a hundred years ago... but am I not still alive now? They all think I can't survive... I'm only one step away from becoming a god! What so many people dream of... but so what... they all think I definitely can't accept it... but I can accept it! I reached the Heavenly Rank through my own efforts. They say I have a good talent. I get up in the middle of the night to practice, and I search all over the mountains and plains for rare and exotic fruits to make up for my missing spiritual power. I think it's normal for me to succeed, and it's also normal for me to fail, because I'm still alive if I become a god, and I'm still alive if I don't... People have to live when they are born... I'm just looking for the way I should live... Even if I die on this road, isn't that normal?"

Junichi Tachibana patted his clothes which were now soaked.

"Although Bailing Mountain is not a proper mountain for cultivating immortals, it accepts everyone! Even if you are at the Earth Level, it will accept you, unlike other mountain gates that do not allow anyone to enter unless you are at the Gold Level. First, they think it is difficult to achieve great things if you practice below the Gold Level, and second, they are poor... It costs a lot of money to cultivate immortals! A person's life is almost over after living for a hundred years. It is the principle of borrowing life from heaven. Without relying on spiritual materials and treasures from heaven and earth to supplement, how much progress can you make by simply absorbing the spiritual energy of heaven and earth day and night? At that time, my mind turned around. I told myself that although I am an ordinary person, I will agree with what others say about me. Let them say that I am stupid or dull, it's up to them. The food I eat will not go into their stomach..."

Jun'ichi Tachibana seemed to want to say something else, but paused.

She looked at the silent Chang Yufeng.

His spirit and energy have improved a lot from the inside out, but he is still probably depressed.

The rain fell on his shoulders, but he didn't notice it. He didn't feel better because of what he said, but because he was thinking about a lot of things in his mind that made him feel much better...

Maybe this is the wonder of self-awakening...

He may always be like this...not close to others, always alone.

Lonely people always have their own antidote to deal with loneliness.

But did he ever think that it was not just random thoughts... but a companion to himself... He felt that he was wrong, but he was unwilling to admit it in his heart, so he imagined someone scolding him to make him feel guilty and blame himself.

But just scolding was not enough, so he started to talk to the imaginary person, telling him that he was wrong, but his crime was not punishable by death, and that his mistake could be made up for. In this way, the imaginary person then conjured up a referee and asked him to administer justice.

Things took a turn in my mind...

If it bends around, it will make people feel weird...

He reflects on himself, he feels sad, he refutes, he feels depressed, he realizes he is wrong, he feels happy.

"The test of the fairy stone in Bailing Mountain is not to test people's qualifications, but people's confidence in themselves. It is true that there are indeed people with qualifications to compare, but in fact, the earth-level masters who are full of confidence in themselves are also skilled in Bailing Mountain. Those who are determined to be earth-level and give up on themselves will never spend too much energy and wisdom to improve themselves. If those who are at the sky-level are too complacent and don't practice well, it is normal for them to be surpassed by others... Everyone will suffer... Every family has its own difficulties. It is common to have red fur coats today and tattered clothes tomorrow. Whether it is a person seeking the Tao or a boy entering the world, they cannot escape the retribution of cause and effect. Flowers bloom and they will fall, and people are born to die... If you want to bloom beautifully and live a wonderful life, it all depends on your own ability. Don't say that you have lofty ambitions, but in reality you are lazy and eat and sit back to enjoy the fruits of others' labor. Let alone the daydream of wearing gold and silver, even the petty thefts are not allowed..."

Jun'ichi Tachibana touched his hair, which was a little cold because of the rain.

"Besides, it's the principles of this world... You said you want whatever you want, and I'll give it to you. Your life is given by your parents, so where does the tyranny come from? You talk about suffering, you talk about worry, you talk about difficulty. When you compare yourself with others, the difference is too big and you feel that your parents are not living up to your expectations. You really don't want to be a useless thing. What if you do it a thousand times better? Suffering, everyone has to endure, it's just that you haven't seen it. In the Old Testament era, did you know that Chinese women could not practice cultivation? Not to mention cultivation, it was difficult to even recognize words and letters, it was difficult to take big steps, it was difficult to walk small steps, but now they can stroll on the street! Suffering, if you insist on talking about it, then there is suffering everywhere, and suffering is not terrible, because people themselves are very small, and they can die if they fall down. But throughout history, there are a lot of people who are not afraid of suffering! Those who make a fortune without talking about their family background, and those who don't do petty things, all have to suffer..."

Chang Yufeng was stunned for a while...

Perhaps, if we have to count, it should be a woman who is about the same age as me. It would be unreasonable and illogical to talk about this and that in detail.

But she can just speak, which can be considered a talent.

Just as she said, her ability to work hard enough to overcome the heavenly tribulation and become a god in one step was definitely related to her character.

She doesn't need to worry about anything...

Just keep moving forward...

Who doesn’t have a family background? It’s just a matter of whether it’s prominent or not… Who doesn’t have something to complain about? But some people can be happy with their family in poverty, while others can be worried in wealth and honor. This is the role of the self in this…

Compared to the various aspects of life in the world, whether it is joy or sorrow, only those who understand themselves can understand and work hard to improve themselves.

He may fail... but he will never regret it...

Because his efforts are spontaneous...like the sun rising...no need to ask why...

Perhaps the sun is being pulled by an invisible string, or perhaps it is being pulled by some force to keep spinning and exploding.

So what?
You are alive...

It has nothing to do with whether the sun rises or not.

You have to live when the sun rises and you have to live when the sun sets. But you always live in a good way, live without owing yourself, and live uprightly.

Suffering... so what?

(End of this chapter)