The Spirit World

Chapter 483 Greedy and Careless Volume Act
[Act 10: Crazy Talk]

Baiyutang...

Chang Yufeng looked at Bai Yutang.

I wanted to say something, but the words were stuck in my throat and I didn't know what to ask him.

He didn't know Bai Yutang's background...

What a sad thing.

He always gets caught up in other people's motives, and he always runs into a bunch of shit like that.

Those who put enormous pressure on him overtly or covertly always appear one after another inexplicably and then disappear inexplicably. There are many things he wants to do and many things he wants to know, but he always fails unexpectedly. It is undeniable that this annoying feeling is also related to himself.

But they always hid it...or just ignored his thoughts completely.

Everything about Bai Yuting made him feel disgusted for no reason.

Perhaps this feeling directly made him compare himself to Xun Huangying. He couldn't, and even didn't dare to hate Xun Huangying, but he could hate Bai Yutang.

Bai Yutang knew everything, and he was laying his cards on the table here. His purpose was obvious. He wanted to... strengthen his confidence in killing Lan Luo.

Why, why are all the complicated things intertwined with him, why, why can't each of you explain everything clearly.

Yeah... That's impossible...

From the first day he was born...he should have understood this...

Any love, hatred and grudges that the people who gave birth to him, that is, his parents, have will be attached to him, whether he is willing to accept it or not. His parents' upbringing and self-cultivation, their education, guidance, companionship, and even their financial resources and abilities will all affect the life of this newborn.

When he was born, he had nothing to do with me.

This life is given by his parents, not that he can come into this world just because he wants to. When he comes into this world, if he does not receive a good enough education, and is separated from the education of his parents and the education of the educational institution, then can he really think of this?

Or, how much is missing from what he could know?
Since he was a child, he was taught by Rajel to be a person who can protect himself and his family, and to be a brave person... to face all hardships.

What a sad thing this is...

He may have understood these principles long ago. His source of knowledge came from Old Tom. After studying for a period of time in Bailing Mountain, he never gained such refined knowledge...

That was such a sad thing. The knowledge he had stored was totally insufficient. Before he had time to adapt to one place, he had to move to another. His powerlessness was magnified, his insignificance was magnified. He needed so much, but what he could think of was so little.

This shouldn't be the case. He might regret not having a stable life to acquire enough knowledge, or maybe he wants to gain enough cultivation, not just a gentle character.

This seemed so important to his shortcomings that his entanglement and sadness were all trapped in a dead end without any purpose or long-term goal.

Perhaps he should understand one thing: what exactly he can possess, status and wealth, or character and growth.

Or maybe both.

He wanted to be himself... He regarded himself as an independent individual who could not be controlled by others. He originally thought that he had had enough of Xun Huangying's control, but he never understood that the time he lost with Xun Huangying that could have allowed him to calm down was getting more and more, even to the point where he could not recover at all.

The more he wanted to be himself, the more people pulled him back, forcing him to grow up in a short period of time, or to see the situation clearly, do things clearly, do them well, and do them right, based on his own judgment.

But he doesn't always make the best judgment, he's not always right, and he doesn't even know what important decisions or choices he can make.

He just wants to be independent and individual, and find his true self, but he often fails because of the limitations of his control over the situation.

He had lost too much of the logical structure in his mind and was unable to come up with a good enough philosophy of behavior to follow.

He always follows his heart...

Just like him now, he doesn’t know Bai Yutang’s background, he doesn’t know the background of the five major families here, he doesn’t know Xun Huangying’s background, he doesn’t know Chen Lin’s background, he even doesn’t know his own background.

That's why he looks stupid enough.

It was as if there was a voice in his heart telling him that he should follow his feelings, but he could not get an accurate answer because that voice did not give an accurate answer or judgment.

Follow your own feelings...your feelings, whether they are right or wrong, sincere or hypocritical, vague or clear.

There is a huge misunderstanding here.

Some people have their own consciousness since childhood, realize that they are a member of the family, work hard, have good character, and make a name for themselves.

Little do people know that whether his parents are by his side, whether they educate him, whether the education is directed, and whether the power of teaching by example has influenced him, these are all absolute, and together with his education and experience in the academy, they build up his character little by little and make it shine. He may not encounter setbacks or he may encounter setbacks, and when he recalls it, it will be different because of the influence of more and more people he meets as he grows older.

But this is not fate.

These are all life lines, intertwined by the changing lengths of the ages. Everything that happens becomes so fixed because the life lines have only one intersection at a certain moment.

So, when life can be lived again, the intersection of one lifeline with other people's lifelines becomes very different at a fixed moment, and everyone's life is disrupted. The life of this child named Chang Yufeng, everything he can and cannot do, becomes so... important and changeable.

Chang Yufeng's lifeline was shining, and so were everyone's lifelines, but this was not destiny after all.

Destiny is these lifelines that entangle everything about you. The early arrival or early end of those fixed intersections will bring changes to everyone's life.

But no one can start over...

Chang Yufeng can't do it either...

Perhaps he should have died long ago...but Xun Huangying forcibly implanted his memories into him.

His life, from the moment he came back to life, was so tragic...

His soul should have perished in the flaming dreamland called the King... He had no way to resist the inexplicable fear in his heart.

Everyone calls on him to be a man of integrity... Everyone wants to tell him that you are... the King of Kindness of Tianyu, and that your bright future is so shining, and you only need to do a little bit to get it.

Do something that he is unwilling to do...

That is... before he wants to become himself, kill Lan Luo...

Why...why did he want to kill Lan Luo!
If everything was arranged, he should be told why...

Instead of hiding...

Just mention this matter instead of making it have enough motivation.

Just like in countless rainy nights, all he could do was watch the giant ice dragon being pulled by the steel cable and resonating its last breath of ice dragon. What she was shouting was the despicable human...

Why are humans so despicable...what did she do wrong...

Let her scream out!

Let her cry it out!

Let her...understand...why humans are not mean...

Instead of killing her... he resolutely accused her of a crime out of thin air... and let her continue to die in her own end...

He can't do anything...

he thinks……

Why can't he do...

Is it simply because they don't know each other?
Or is it his cowardice?
In the rainstorm, he clearly saw his final appearance...

Those bloodshot eyes... that torn mouth and hideous face... he could only watch... the heavy rain washing over him.

Nothing...can be done...

He lives...

It's like dying...

No one came to tell him... what he should do... His parents were not by his side... His master Old Tom was not by his side, and even the shadow of Xunhuang deep in his heart was the only one instructing him...

Kill it...

Kill it...

Kill it...

He didn't want to... He forced himself to leave everyone, and he was still lucky enough... to be found... and then the terrible and weak Xunhuangying was driven away.

Instead of being exterminated...

He simply didn't have enough reasons to kill Lan Luo... He knew that Xun Huangying's pressure had always existed, and the connection had only been severed recently...

All he could do was not to expose his extreme emotionality so...seriously...terribly.

His restraint also reveals his stupidity...

He knew, he knew everything. He certainly knew that all the people who were related to Lan Luo's grudges in Longzhong City would show up...

He is one of them...

But so what. All he could do was just stand here... He couldn't react quickly enough because he was too passive. All his resistance was powerless, so he was timid and couldn't find his true self.

He shaved his head to show his determination, all he wanted was peace of mind...

Actually, this is of no use at all...

As long as he comes into contact with everything about Xun Huangying and everything about the [King of Renxin Tianyu], he will inevitably come to such a situation, which will make him sink into the quagmire.

Be it Bai Yutang, myself, Xun Huangying, Chen Lin, or everyone present...

In his eyes, they all lived so vividly in his eyes... Why could they be so opinionated, why could they be so smart, why could they ignore the feelings of others and pour their emotions on others...

He couldn't do it...but he couldn't really be a pushover...his tenderness and his affection had slowly become ingrained in his bones.

When he realized that he had done something wrong, everything about him began to become so extraordinary...

He was having a nightmare. From the red door, the bright red hand of the deputy director stretched out, grabbed his neck and refused to let go...

He called Lin'er's name until the rainy night in Wenti County... everything was turning around...

She came here with him and was lying on the hospital bed...

He has changed a lot. Everything he thinks about is so... gentle... He even hesitates to touch the scars on other people's hearts...

He has become the kindest and best child in the world...

"Hey..." Someone was calling him softly.

It's a woman's voice.

"Sir..." The woman spoke to him softly in a pleasant tone.

When he looked over, it could only be her.

She is such a beautiful woman...

"Sir, if this girl needs painkillers... I have some here... I'll get them for you right away..." She looked back gently and put her white hands into her sleeves. A silver bracelet on her hand was shining brightly, tapping against another small ring, making a small, gentle sound of reminder.

Chang Yufeng said nothing and turned around to look at Ju Junyi. Ju Junyi lowered her body in pain and Chang Yufeng gently stroked her to prevent her from falling.

"Look... here..." The woman placed a small box in front of Chang Yufeng. Chang Yufeng looked at the exquisite box, took it, opened it with one hand, and there were many inconspicuous pills rolling around due to the bumps.

"Let me help you..." The woman quickly stood up and placed her sword on the chair. She was dressed in a fluttering red dress. She walked around Xun Huangying and Wang Haoyun and came to his side while they were staring at her.

She walked around him and held onto Jun'ichi Tachibana again, so he was able to free his arms and gently put a pill into his mouth. The bitterness of the medicine was so strong that he could hardly bear it. He frowned unconsciously, took another pill, and quickly walked around to Xun Huangying and got a cup of tea.

When he ran to Junyi Tachibana without stopping for a moment, he gently placed the pill next to Junyi Tachibana's lips. Junyi Tachibana pursed her lips and put the pill into her mouth. Chang Yufeng placed the teacup next to her mouth, and the light tea slowly flowed into Junyi Tachibana's mouth. Her expression then relaxed a lot.

He also gently supported Junichi Tachibana.

"Thank you...thank you..." Chang Yufeng spoke to her. He was taller than her, so his nod of gratitude was not so obvious.

"Well... Sir, you are so polite..." She smiled gently, leaned forward, and said to him: "Who are you, Sir? Where do you live?"

Chang Yufeng looked into her star-like purple eyes, which seemed to be deeply attracting his... fate for all eternity...

"The four seas and eight wastelands...are all my hometown..." Chang Yufeng also answered softly...

She frowned, her willow-shaped eyebrows slightly tilted, and then relaxed.

"it is good……"

She seemed quite surprised by this answer. She stretched out her hand and offered the chair: "Let this girl sit here... She is weak now... Let her sit here..."

Chang Yufeng glanced at Junichi Ju, who shook his head: "I won't sit, thank you..."

"But……"

"There's no but... I don't want to sit..." Tachibana Junichi raised her head angrily and stretched her neck. In front of Chen Lin, she looked like a giant snake with its head raised and spitting out its tongue.

"Okay..." Chen Lin glanced at Chang Yufeng, and slowly walked step by step to the side of Xun Huangying. Xun Huangying laughed softly, and seeing her sitting down helplessly, he laughed even more happily.

In fact, I think the part I wrote is not good at all... It has lost its entertainment value... I had a hunch that this part would be very boring, but I had to bite the bullet and write it... I can't keep thinking philosophically, because it is a novel, not a philosophy book.

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