The Spirit World

Chapter 486 Reincarnation Chapter The Past in My Heart

To my dear sheep:
I think now you have understood the truth of life.

The truth of life is nothing more than to survive.

Of course, there is no denying that reincarnation is a technical job. A good birth naturally has the expectation of allowing people to live better. This is something you cannot deny and must accept.

Well, what I just said was just a joke, because no matter what, this is not something you can choose.

Wherever you are born, you will be restricted by the people there. This applies to your personality, your education, your future, and anything that requires growth.

A good situation is fine, but if you want to escape from a bad situation, it may be much more bitter. Regarding the overall situation and the current situation, I can’t think of a few people out of a thousand who can really escape from their own limitations, because this limitation will continue to grow with your age and contact with people and society.

Eventually, some people will be able to break free from the limitations of their own lives. Of course, they are still limited by the education they have received and the people they have come into contact with, but they are more influenced by their own thinking.

That is what is commonly referred to as criticism, and self-criticism.

Of course, that means truly thinking independently.

Whether you like it or not, only through constant criticism and self-criticism can you discover your own shortcomings.

You may have also discovered that in so many reincarnations, the only reflections you can get are those that you truly want to change and that you are able to do.

It is not shameful to criticize yourself, is it? You always say this about yourself: I am too kind, so they always think I have no temper. In fact, I sometimes hate myself for being like this.

No?
Do you know how shocked I was when you told me that? I always saw you smile and always saw you worry about others. I thought you were used to being surrounded by those children.

You are truly an angel on earth…my sheep…

But, it turns out that you also have troubles... At that time, I discovered that kindness is not simply being nice to others without complaining, but keeping the kindness in your heart for others and taking action.

What can I say about you, my sheep?

I think you are too stupid, what can't you say? Those children will understand you, no matter what, they love you deeply, this family love, you can tell them, you love them deeply, but you also need enough space to love yourself.

I think you are really stupid...

If I tell these children something this important, they will surely understand.

Especially, that girl Lan Luo, her dependence on you is beyond words. Although she has lost her heart stone and cannot control her emotions, as long as she sees you, she will be as innocent and happy as all other children and can forget all her worries.

And that boy Zhong Yan always imitates you and treats all other children gently. He takes you as his role model and wants to be like you.

Then there is the big sister Hongsheng. She always leads other children to try to share your sorrow. They put your favorite plum blossoms on the top of the mountain where you have stayed. There are already brilliant plum blossoms all over the mountain. Of course, the plum blossoms are not brilliant, only the flowers planted by the children for you will be brilliant.

I think... these children are really brought up by you... your dears.

It really makes me happy that they can have your kindness.

Although I'm not kind.

You know, I always say this about myself, I'm not kind, not at all.

I almost hate those who claim to be kind. They are all hypocrites. Kindness is not a medal. It won't shine if you put it on your face. How can a truly kind person publicize his kindness? Of course, you may not like what I say, but it is always like this. Hypocritical people can create an image of themselves as kind by publicizing a small good deed, but it will not last long. Although people will not praise people who are too kind, they will not reject getting along with truly kind people, because they can ask for too much from kind people...including feelings.

I can say without any guilt that I am also asking for your affection.

You are so nice, why should I not bully you? Your angry look always comes to my mind, and I wonder how cute you are to fall for my trick again and again.

Of course I know that this may be a little wrong, but I really want to, really want to, look at you, just look at you like that.

You love everyone deeply... How bad is that...

You can also try not to love everyone, although this is difficult for you but easy for others.

This is not important.

What kind of mood do I have in mind when writing this letter to you?
I do not know……

Maybe I just want to hear your voice and see your face again. I don't know if you will forgive me... But I went to see Yu Su... She told me that you will definitely forgive me... Because you are such a person...

Then will you forgive me?
In these nine reincarnations...will you forgive me?
It seems that your divine body has been lost... Everything about you seems to have been lost... All traces...

I was wondering how I could find you...

When I find you, I will make sure you understand that I am not here to ask for your forgiveness. I am not a person who can apologize, and I will never apologize to you.

I am simply bad, I am a bad person, you are a thorough good person, then I am a thorough bad person, this way, you must always remember me...

that……

In the nine reincarnations, you will cry...

As an ordinary person, would you cry and feel depressed because you are too ordinary? After reincarnation, you must be a little imperfect, right? Would you be angry? Would you want to break free from your limitations? Can you think of your limitations and make changes?

Are you still a good person?

you……

Well... I can't say anything sentimental, but I can tell you that I... can always find you...

Although you look like a woman, even your name has changed...

But, so what... I never told you that I wouldn't use the power of memory... to... you... Hahaha, don't say I have a bad taste, but you know what?
This kind of thing is really fun...

You became a! woman!

Reincarnation is a wonderful thing.

You have suffered so much... and now you have to become a woman and suffer the unreasonable malice of this world... It really worries me to death...

How can I help you...my dear sheep...

Should I be your master? In the world of spiritual power, the strong always prey on the weak. If you are strong enough, will things be much better?

As a girl, of course she has to protect herself, right? With strong enough spiritual power, she can roam freely in this world...

How great...

In this world... as long as you are strong enough, you can have the right to speak, money, and power...

Although this is also cruel, for those who don’t have family advantages, good education, or even self-awareness, they can hardly do anything...

So, I will teach you even more...

However, I discovered that these things were not enough…

I found that according to human rules, women must get married... What kind of man would a girl like...

Is he brave and responsible... or is he a kind person like you...

Would you mind if he is rich... For example, if he makes a move, you can have... enough money for you to spend, and you don't need to worry about firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea...

Or, would you like someone who is powerful...who commands the support of all...who is handsome and heroic...who leads the most powerful organization in the world...

Or...what kind of man? I have to help you check it out anyway...you have to get married in this life anyway...

Since I don’t know what kind of person your husband in this life will be... then just combine them all into one person... to save you the trouble... He will definitely love you very much... I swear, he will definitely love you very much.

Well... there's more... there's more...

I want to say something else...

[“Lu Xinzhai… do you… think I should say something else?” He looked at the glowing ball of light on the table.

"Business..." The ball of light flickered, illuminating the surrounding darkness.

"Oh……"

His tired face was illuminated, his pale lips were pursed, and he picked up the pen to write again. 】

I remember... I still have something to say to you...

That is... I still want to fight to the sky for you...

How could they deceive such a kind person like you... You could obviously sacrifice yourself for the peace they talked about. How could anyone in this world be an enemy of such a kind person like you...

They are always dirty...

It makes me sick...

The flies that live in the sky...

If I don't kill them... I really won't be willing...

Even though you have already given in step by step for their sake, they still want everything and impose shackles on everything you love.

I know... my own strength is not enough...

But I have a way... I have my own plan, but I can't tell you about it. You just need to watch...

I will take everything you have and kill you in the sky...

I'm sorry...your children...they were infected by the evil spirit and are out of control...

I'm so sorry that I didn't protect them for you...

This kind of thing...

How should I write for you?

He stopped writing...

Sighed,

A cough sounded here. He lowered his head and looked at the words that were crooked due to weakness. The light shone into his eyes, flashing faintly.

His eyes are so bright. 】

I want to tell you one more thing... Do you still remember Yu Su? The goddess who always stood by your side...

She is imprisoned in the prison, her soul is almost torn apart... I hope to unite... I have always been able to unite the strength... I must go to save her...

I was thinking that I should have told you something a long time ago and I should have told you now. I couldn't do my best on that matter... I'm sorry...

Lu Xinzhai told me, when you die, tell me never to shed tears for you...

How can I not shed tears for you...my sheep...my dear sheep...

If kindness can't change the hypocritical Lu Zhongxing, then let evil do it...

By the time you read this letter, perhaps centuries have passed... What a long day it was...

What a...long day...In a world without you, it is always long...But when I think about my plans that are far away, and I feel that time in this world passes so quickly...it is impossible to have...

This is so much like your death... Although I can still see you again... But for me... you at that time will no longer be you...

By the way, I also asked Yilongzhi for help, but that guy always stays away from the world, so his failure is inevitable...

Now he's in hiding, and even I can't find him...

I thought he should help me...but he didn't...

I am not afraid of fighting alone... Just like Quetzalcoatl, when I heard that he led his people to rise up in resistance and was killed in Golgas, I was shocked and speechless...

Perhaps Quetzalcoatl is as kind as you, or perhaps he is touched by your spirit...

You influence them, and perhaps you have also cared about their future and felt helpless, and they repay you with the same kindness.

Even death is worth it.

I have said that in this world, kind people should not be bullied. This is not just because they are easy to bully, but because they are the ones who should be proud of...

[“Lu Xinzhai, there’s more…what else should I say…”

He looked at the ball of light again...

The ball of light rolled across the table.

"And your last words, right?" The ball of light quickly dimmed and became silent again.

"My...last words..." His pupils dilated slightly... He seemed to know something, and the corners of his mouth rose again. His thin face, along with the bones on his face, cast a dark shadow.

"Okay... I was wondering why there was always something bothering me. It turns out that... I'm going to die too..."]

having said so much……

I really don't want to say goodbye to you...

We were born together... grew up together... I never thought I would say goodbye to you... because I always felt that saying goodbye would never happen to us, and our separation always came and went quietly...

I didn't see you for the last time...but I will always be by your side...

I don't even need to say goodbye to you...

Because we both know that we will meet each other eventually...

Encounter...

My dear sheep...

You must live happily...

When I come to you...please tell me...long time no see...

——Your wolf
[He put the pen aside...

Looking at the darkness outside the window...

He wanted to find something in the dark sky... but he failed in the end...

"So there is no moon today..."]

(End of this chapter)