The Spirit World

Chapter 519 Blank Chapter
[I really want to... I really want to live... My dear Mr. Ning, my beloved Mr. Ning.]

【Ding--】

While Yun Zong was galloping wildly, Chang Yufeng suddenly felt a buzzing sound in his head. The buzzing sound in his head made him tremble at an inappropriate time, and he almost fell off his horse.

Fortunately, Lin'er pulled him. He shook his head violently, feeling dizzy. The world was spinning, and he didn't know whether the sky was round or the earth was square. All he could hear in his head was one "ding" sound after another.

"What's going on... Is it a side effect?" Chang Yufeng held his head uncomfortably, his wrinkled face making him look extremely ugly.

Watching the figure flying away from him getting farther and farther away, he could only watch with one eye open due to the pain. The pain was so unbearable, like an ant drilling into his brain, biting his nerves and making his whole face distorted.

"Brother Yufeng, what's wrong!" Lin'er supported Chang Yufeng. Yun Zong suddenly disappeared and they almost fell to the ground. Fortunately, Lin'er's Wanxiang Hand supported them and lifted them up.

Standing up slowly, Chang Yufeng really couldn't open his eyes wide to see the situation around him. He supported himself on the ground with trembling hands, and beads of sweat the size of beans dripped onto the ground like a surging tide.

He was the only one squatting in pain on this road. People around him looked at him and walked away without knowing why.

"I...it's okay..."

Despite saying so, Chang Yufeng's condition did not improve at all, and even got worse. He started to retch. Although the changes in his body were not over, the sight of a grown man retching so violently on the side of the road scared everyone present.

Lin'er patted his back helplessly. Chang Yufeng's veins bulged and bloodshot appeared on his face due to violent retching. He couldn't vomit anything, and this kind of discomfort only made the people watching him more distressed.

"Brother Yufeng!" Lin'er placed her hand on Chang Yufeng's back and poured her own strength into it. Slowly, golden light flowed into Chang Yufeng's back, but her hand was quickly bounced away. It was almost impossible to save him in this way.

How could this happen to such a good person?

Is it a side effect?
still!

Chang Yufeng only heard a ding sound, and suddenly the noisy sounds around him disappeared. He immediately felt much better. This unexplainable pain, retching, and the roaring in his head made him feel like he was dying, and now they stopped because of the ding sound.

Chang Yufeng swallowed his saliva. His eyes were red and his hands were weakly supporting him, like two shaky pillars.

It took him a while to come back to his senses, feeling his internal organs, his even breathing, and even his quietly beating heart.

Everything seemed to have never happened. He was staggering. He should have had an expression of pain, but he couldn't force himself to do so because he didn't feel any discomfort in his body.

He quickly closed his eyes and felt the changes in his body.

There was no change at all, as if nothing had happened just now, and as if the person I was just now was completely different from the person I am now.

He was terrified by this feeling, it was like... a last burst of light, which was terrifying.

Looking at Chang Yufeng standing up, she was also a little scared. From her violent reaction that almost made her cry to her current state of being completely fine, Chang Yufeng really scared her.

When Chang Yufeng was doubting himself, there was no strange feature on his body, and the strength in his body returned to its original state.

"Brother Yufeng, you..." Lin'er pulled the corner of Chang Yufeng's gorgeous clothes and saw that Chang Yufeng was also observing her. There were tears in her eyes, but she didn't know what to say.

It is true that Chang Yufeng has grown into an adult now, and this elegant young man in black clothes is so handsome and extraordinary, but the series of actions he just made were too scary, like the cough and gasp of a dying person, and death only takes a moment.

How can this not make people worry...

Chang Yufeng regarded these as side effects of the crystal ribs, but such side effects really scared him. It was not just a matter of dying, this body seemed to be aging at a very fast rate, making him feel an unprecedented suffocation without warning.

This feeling of suffocation was accompanied by violent dry heaving, as if all the internal organs were going to be vomited out of the stomach.

"Heh..." Chang Yufeng tried to make a fist with his hands, testing his strength. The feeling of power surging never ended. In other words, maybe it was a temporary imbalance of power?

"I'm fine." Chang Yufeng answered Lin'er again. He touched Lin'er's head. Lin'er looked at him worriedly, and the tears in her eyes were wiped away by her.

"Brother Yufeng...what's wrong with you? Why don't you want to tell me..." Lin'er grabbed Chang Yufeng's hand. Chang Yufeng, who originally wanted to comfort Lin'er, was a little dazed instead. Being held by Lin'er like this, her gentle hands were soaked with sweat, and her worry made the sweat even deeper.

Chang Yufeng didn't know what was going on. Maybe this was the side effect of the unknown power, but what could he do? He had to accept this "gift" because he was a waste.

To be honest, no matter from which aspect, I am a useless waste now, right?
The magic he possessed was only enough to create a finger-sized flame residue with a snap of his fingers.

How could I possibly snatch Elaine from Longxugong, Kraft, or even the Shadow Hunters...

The little broken dragon of the big lizard was lying peacefully in the carriage. She was dead. The people I knew were facing the danger of endless suffering in the future.

How can I feel at ease if I just sit back and do nothing?

"I..." Chang Yufeng smiled, a bitter smile that made his whole face look much more haggard, and his whole body seemed to be weaker than before. He smiled bitterly and said: "Lin'er, I don't know why this happened. I can't tell you the whole story because I don't know either."

But Lin'er was obviously unwilling to believe it. She was so scared that she held his hand more and more tightly. Her hands were much smaller than his hands now, but her strength allowed Chang Yufeng to feel the torment in her heart.

Her worry was evident on her face.

Whether she was high-spirited or seriously ill, she showed a worry she had never had before. Her pink lips slightly opened, wanting to speak, but helplessly, she chose to believe: "Okay, but, you know, Brother Yufeng, you don't have to be that powerful, you know? Lin'er, I have super powers, I will protect you. Believe me..."

Lin'er's words made Chang Yufeng surprised and sad. He looked at Lin'er hesitantly with hesitation in his eyes. He could see Lin'er's hope.

That was not the hope of becoming a dragon, but the hope of keeping himself safe. He also knew that what happened just now was really scary. If anyone else felt dizzy and retched so violently for no reason, everyone would be scared.

"Of course I believe you..." Chang Yufeng couldn't take Lin'er's hand away. He let Lin'er hold it tightly. His body began to slowly return to its original state. The black hair, black clothes, black cloud sleeves, and handsome face all began to slowly fade away, and he returned to his original appearance.

An ordinary boy.

He was not surprised by his own changes, never. Perhaps he had known that there would be side effects, but he did not expect them to come so soon. When he thought he had accomplished something, reality always left him with no way to fight back.

The lotus umbrella hung down behind him. Now, she was as tall as Lin'er. Lin'er hugged him happily and put her head on his shoulder. He could feel her joy, because it seemed like this was indeed the first time he listened to Lin'er.

He looked at Lin'er's joy, because if he returned to his original appearance, such a scary situation would not happen. The child named Chang Yufeng would not retch violently, like a dying man, making people around him stay away, worried that he would die as a result.

"I know it's wrong for me to do this." Lin'er touched Chang Yufeng's head: "Strength is not the most important thing. Believe me, Brother Yufeng, you are safe and healthy, which is the most important thing."

Chang Yufeng nodded blankly, and suddenly, he shrugged his shoulders easily. The warmth in his heart warmed his whole body like an electric current, and under the scorching sun, it actually brought a hint of coolness.

"Yeah... I think so too." Chang Yufeng put his hand on her back and patted it gently. The crystal rib fell to the ground with a clang, and made a crisp sound when it encountered the hard soil layer.

"Brother Yufeng, I will go and help you save Elaine." Lin'er extended her hand and looked at Chang Yufeng with her big eyes, as if asking for his opinion.

He didn't cry and make a fuss about saving Elaine...

He didn't cry out for power.

He did not cry or make a fuss, making himself the center of the world. Now, the target of the shadow hunter was not himself.

The Ministry of Internal Affairs’ target is not itself.

Hatulin's target is not himself.

Even all the bad guys’ targets are not you!
Everything that is happening now is as if he has jumped into a fire pit alone!
No one treated him as the center of the world, except Lin'er who was standing here at this moment.

Longxugong's plan made everyone who approached the brown unicorn carriage within a few miles a suspect. Just think about it, is he really sure to snatch Elaine?

Even if I managed to snatch Elaine away, what would happen? Would it be an endless escape?
He did not answer the excited Lin'er. Lin'er's meaning was very simple. He must never use this thing that caused Chang Yufeng to have such severe side effects again.

She didn't say it explicitly, but she said that she had the power, and Chang Yufeng must give up the power of the crystal ribs.

Chang Yufeng was unwilling to give up the gift of power, but he still gave it up. It was not only because Lin'er said that she hoped he would be safe and healthy, but also because for a moment, he seemed to realize something.

He is a man who wants to be himself.

He is, to be his own man.

He is not a puppet to be manipulated by others.

What is he living for?

If I accept this gift, can I still be myself?
Isn't it all back to the starting point?

He thought that it was never too late to mend the situation. He thought that his stupidity had never disappeared. He thought that all his thoughts were so immature. He wondered if he should just give up.

Because only by making radical changes and rebuilding can he be himself.

Like a joke, he was back to the starting point, craving for strength.

If he wants to save Elaine, he must have power.

However, he should not save Elaine because Elaine did not know her at that time. Just as Chun said, the feelings he and Elaine had were not enough for him to risk his life.

What an irony...

He became a little devil hungry for power again.

He is obviously not like that.

Perhaps he should think carefully about how to be a cheat student in Fran, how to pass the test of the Carolingian family, and how to do something he wants to do.

Instead of worrying about Elaine.

It's really ironic that he has become a little kid who doesn't care about any consequences. After doing whatever he wants, he always does the wrong thing.

Being smart.

opinionated.

No remorse.

How could I possibly save Elaine if I was like this? And what would happen if I saved her?

Can you achieve everything you want by dreaming?

"I feel very bad." Chang Yufeng looked at the people coming and going, the carriages and pedestrians running into the distance. They were also looking at the two children and the crystal rib that fell to the ground.

The dust rose up, forcing Chang Yufeng to cover his eyes.

"What?" Lin'er was stunned. She thought she could hear a voice of approval, for example, let's go with Elaine.

In fact, she didn't even know who Elaine was.

"I feel that we can't compare to Longxugong... We can't even compare to many people." Chang Yufeng said to himself with a smile: "But there is nothing we can do... We live under the same sky, so there should be some comparison. There is nothing we can do about it..."

He shook his head helplessly.

Face the reality.

Elaine, there was no way he could save her.

He didn't give up, but he felt deeply exhausted.

This tangled thought, the tangled thought of whether or not to save Elaine is actually not that annoying.

Because, no matter what, it was impossible to save him.

He struggled in other people's traps again and again, as if someone saw through his mind and set traps step by step and arranged everything before that.

In a world where none of this revolved around him, his thoughts began to become strange, even useless, hopelessly immature and stupid.

When he desired power, it came.

When he longed for freedom, it became more and more distant.

When he longed to be himself, he found himself always being calculated by others and never able to break free.

After he came to his senses, he realized that what he had had never changed.

Amina, Rajel, Erica, Lin'er, only these people who have never been away from me from the beginning to the end, treat me sincerely.

Besides, what else did he need to ask for?

Seek to be yourself.

But what is it to be yourself?

What a long and difficult road that would be.

(End of this chapter)