The Spirit World

Chapter 560: End of Never Mind
I,
Now, it’s still me.

I am afraid of my own incompetence.

In fact, I am already incompetent.

Faced with her death, I could only cry.

Tears are the cheapest thing. My tears are even more so.

I listened to the annoyed sounds outside the door. I didn't see the boy's face clearly. I didn't even care about anyone's face anymore.

In my eyes, they are just living shells.

Same as me.

"Could you please open the door? If you are Chang Yufeng, I do have something urgent to discuss with you." The boy's voice was very childish.

I never knew any children.

I just listened and wanted to go back to sleep, he had been making noises for a long time.

I was disturbed by his noise.

"I'm not Chang Yufeng. Go back. I don't know you."

I answered him, erasing my own name as well.

If my name is not Chang Yufeng, what should I be called? If I am willing to give up even myself, what is the meaning of having a name?

If you can, please call me by a code name.

I am the first person born into this world.

If you know, please tell me. Use that number to represent me. If I die, the name will be meaningless.

"But... you are... Although I can't call you by your name directly, if you are Chang Yufeng, I do have something very important to confirm with you."

The boy knocked on the door again.

The sound in my room is meaningless.

"I don't want to hear anything right now. I haven't done anything important. And I don't want to do it."

I said this almost lazily, because I don't want to... I don't even want to...

I sighed.

I held my forehead with my hand. The exhaustion from vomiting just now began to make me see stars. I felt so uncomfortable that I could no longer answer his questions.

"You must have seen my mother. She is in trouble and I hope you can help her. If you can help me, she will be very happy."

He still hasn't said who his mother is, and I don't want to know.

I started to get annoyed with everything about him. If he wanted to finish what he was saying, and finish it all at once, but he was always tangled up and didn't talk about the end, it would make me very impatient.

If you want my help.

I am a piece of trash...

How can I help...

"My mother's name is Chen Lin. I think you have seen her. She is in trouble now. I hope to get your help."

What he said woke me up.

I stared at the ceiling in disbelief. I couldn't imagine how unreasonable, how ridiculous, and how much he drove me crazy.

"What did you say!?"

I yelled angrily:
"Don't talk nonsense! I'll beat you up!"

Does she know what she is talking about?

Does he know how insulting the name he called her is to her and to me?

Chen Lin is dead.

The little boy's unreasonable behavior aroused my anger.

I sat up suddenly.

"Tell me again, whose son are you? You'd better tell me clearly!"

I looked at the door angrily, and I could imagine the ugly face of the child outside the door who wanted to play a trick on me.

"My mother, Chen Lin, needs your help. If you can open the door and listen carefully to what I say, I think I can tell you the details."

The boy's tone was very proud, as if he had really played a trick on me. The angrier I became, the more happy he was that he had attracted my attention.

"Do you know what you're saying?"

I couldn't accept it, and I said something that I didn't want to say.

"Chen Lin is dead! I won't allow you to insult her again!"

I yelled in anger again. It seemed like I could only do this. Yelling made my head congested with blood. I couldn't really walk over to open the door. I knew the height of the little boy. Although I was weak, I was not so weak that I couldn't beat a little boy.

He keeps saying mother, mother, mother all the time.

Isn't it shameful? Why do you want to humiliate me? Why do you want to slander her with such a reputation?

If he was the mother of a child this old, what did she become!?

The more I thought about it, the angrier I got, so I stood up and was about to hit the little boy to tell him and let him know the importance of respecting a deceased person.

"My mother is not dead, only her body is dead. If we can go to the [Underworld] to retrieve her soul and create a body, she will be resurrected."

The boy's voice was getting closer and closer. I opened the door suddenly and listened to what he said. I felt more and more that I was wasting my time.

This boy is beyond help.

There is no cure for me either.

I don’t understand what he is saying, nor do I want to understand it.

I looked at him fiercely, but he didn't show any fear. Instead, he touched his face and smiled.

My hair covered my eyes and I could only see everything about him dimly.

He was wearing a Hanfu costume and carrying a full-length medicine box on his back. I even saw a clearly visible and gorgeous scabbard on his back.

When he laughs, I get angry.

"Can I go in and talk in detail? I'm a little thirsty from shouting."

"No." I leaned against the door frame, covering the exit.

"Do you believe me?"

"No." I didn't even bother to shake my head, even though I was weak.

"So, will you go to the underworld with me?"

"will not."

I frowned, disliking everything about him.

I think it is others who dislike everything about me.

Everything I have, a dirty and messy room, a weak body, and a past that can never be returned to.

I should be disliked by others, so how can I dislike others?

What qualifications do I have?

Of course I do. If anyone wants to bully Chen Lin, I will never forgive her.

Can I really not be done with someone? I can't even find the murderer. I can't even finish something like this.

I wanted to fight the murderer desperately, but I was powerless and couldn't do it.

"Then... why did you open the door?" The boy seemed confused by my behavior, my anger. My everything. "Because you're annoying."

I can't say I wanted to punch him.

I need to approach him slowly.

Punch him hard on the head.

He was beaten so hard that he felt dizzy and dazed! He was beaten so hard that he saw stars! He was beaten so hard that blood came out of all his seven orifices!

Chen Lin! Mother!
How could he be so cruel and defame someone's innocence?
Chen Lin is not yet an adult!
This little bastard! He was trying to make fun of me! He came to my house to make fun of me!
Touch the forbidden area that I cannot touch.

Touch, a dead one! Innocence!
I approached him, clenched my fists, and wanted to hit him, but it seemed like I was powerless and he quickly dodged.

"Why did you hit me?" He looked at me puzzledly. I didn't expect that he could move so quickly while carrying such a big box. I wanted to hit him again, but he dodged me again.

"No reason! You little bastard!" I failed again and again, but I saw his shadow. I suspected that I was dazzled, after all, I was very weak. I didn't expect his speed to be so fast.

What a coward! He is so cunning.

"What little bastard? I'm the good boy in my aunt's eyes. She has never hit me..." The boy came up behind me very briskly. He seemed not to dare to touch me, so I chased him. He went into the house and I heard a scream of "Oh my God".

He looked at the monster cave, which was so dirty and messy that it had hardly been cleaned for three months. His exclamation and the action of covering his nose made me feel that it was natural, and then I was furious.

"Who are you? Why are you playing tricks on me?"

I followed him into the room.

I slammed the door shut. Once the door was closed, he would have no way to escape.

I was surprised at my thoughts.

because……

I suddenly thought... Was it that the murderer who closed Chen Lin's door in the same way that night, leaving her with no way to escape death?

I even saw her terrified profile...

She must be very scared...

She must have been desperate... watching... her only way to escape being locked.

I thought about her weakness, I thought about her weakness! I thought about...

I knelt on the ground...

I covered my face in pain...

what should I do……

The boy was surprised by my performance and quickly jumped to my side. Perhaps he felt that he could not watch me kneel down, so he wanted to pull me up.

"You almost got me struck by lightning..." He pulled my body forward. He wanted me to get up, but I was... confused again, thinking of her helplessness...

I am in so much pain that I can't express it in words. Everything about me is so... disgusting.

"Don't kneel! What's the point of kneeling? Auntie said that a real man should kneel only to heaven and earth and his parents! No one else needs to kneel! You kneel down all of a sudden! Are you still a man?"

He seemed very anxious, and also seemed to be a little annoyed: "How come I have to deal with someone like this... Oh... It really makes me worry!"

I cried…without any warning.

I could feel her pain with my butt.

The knife marks on my body cut me and made me bleed. The broken hands that were twisted when I resisted made me suffer terribly. The broken and turned-out legs that I tried to escape made it hard for me to bear.

Her pain...

Her pain...

Her pain...

I can't accept this. This kind of thing... would happen to her...

She is so innocent...

No one can ignore...her innocence...but no one can share her pain...

Even I can’t… I can only cry…

Crying helplessly.

"Hurry up!" The boy pulled my shoulders and forced me to stand up. He was so strong that I couldn't even resist.

"Hurry up and stand up!" The little boy also started to get angry: "Don't cry! Be a grown man! Stand up straight! Don't cry!"

He is obviously still young...

But I couldn’t understand…why he had the courage to tell me not to cry…

Why can't I cry? I can only cry...

Her adoptive father no longer cries because he received a consolation money, her classmates no longer cry because their future is more important than such a person, and all the people she has met once have never cried, they only sigh, and they only make the next person more alert.

Because the dead cannot be resurrected...

Because the murderer has not been caught yet.

The murderer is still at large and the killer has not yet been brought to justice.

No one in this world cries for her anymore, so why can't I cry for her anymore!
I should cry for her...

I should! Cry for her all night long...

Until I can no longer shed a tear, forever, I will cry for her...

do you know……

Maybe...I really shouldn't cry...

But I can't even take revenge... Then, I can only cry...

I feel sad, I sigh, I pity, and I cry.

I seem to be wearing a heavy yoke for all my life.

"Forget it! Cry if you want!" He simply ignored me.

He picked up the broom and swept the floor gently, afraid of raising dust.

As he was sweeping, he said helplessly: "I think no girl in this world likes a sloppy boy. If you don't pay attention to your image, how can you please her... I really doubt how she fell in love with you in the first place... This place hasn't been swept for at least half a year... You are such a sloppy guy."

"Although I'm practicing, I still have to say that people who live like this are destined to be laughed at by others... I don't want you to be like this. So, for mother's sake, cheer up as soon as possible. Of course, it can also be for me... If, you... Forget it, I think you should not be interested in me. Just like I have no interest in you."

"I'm quite shocked that there is such a living condition in this world. A person can actually survive in such an environment and not mind it at all. In a sense, it is really an amazing ability."

He almost chattered: "I am not helping you clean up. I am just clearing a clean place for my mother's soul to return, and by the way, I am helping you take care of the perfect image of you in her heart."

"I'll give you a haircut later. A man should not cover his forehead, because an exposed forehead represents confidence. A good man definitely needs confidence."

"My aunt asked me to do this hard job. I was not happy about it at first. After all, there is no need to repair this collapsed time and space. But in this time and space, I can see what my mother looked like when she was young, and what you look like now. To be honest, this is beyond my expectation."

"I mean, the way you are now is beyond my expectation."

"You can live a good life. No matter who you lose, you must not lose your fighting spirit in facing life. Although this is what my aunt said to me, I am telling you now, which also means that my aunt said it to you."

"He asked me to find my mother's soul. I wondered what that meant at first... When I arrived in this time and space, I realized that the me in the [Main Time and Space] would never be born."

"Maybe it's a good thing, after all, I'm one of a kind. There are no copies."

"It's just... I feel really sorry..."

"You and mother went through so much hardship...but you only gave birth to me once..."

"I know... this should be a form of fate..."

"But... since I was born... some of the shackles of fate have been broken."

(End of this chapter)