The Spirit World

Chapter 569 In the Name of Orange
"My life... has many, many regrets...

Pity……

[Gurgle gurgle…]

Almost filled my life...

I was born with less health than other people... If I jog a little, I will feel sick, and even die...

This means that I can't grow up like a normal child...

[Gurgle gurgle…]

I watched them jumping, fighting, and making noises, and I felt so sad... That was not my life...

When I was little, I thought, what's the point of living for someone like me... Even when I sleep, I have to be careful not to press on my heart... It's such a simple thing... I can't do it... as I please...

You know all this... I don't need to elaborate on my regrets..."

[Gurgle gurgle…]

Gong Xin drank water in big gulps... maybe because he wanted to drink to drown his sorrows... but he could only drink water...

This makes him look funny...

"Heart disease..." She looked at Gong Xin's worried face and picked up some food from the plate.

She pushed the hair on the left side of her face back, moved closer to the plate, and ate the food generously and naturally.

"It's not that scary... I see you're full of energy... What's there to regret... Don't you eat and drink every day?" She raised her head. Although she saw that he was melancholy, she didn't think that what this man said was credible...

"Haven't you heard of this saying?" Gong Xin placed his hands on his chest, sighed deeply, and tapped twice gently.

That posture seemed to say, look... my broken heart...

"What?" She grabbed her hair again. Her long, smooth hair was slowly blown by the air conditioning in the store. She picked up the small meatballs on the plate and put them in her mouth. She took a sip from the beer bottle, gulped, and went back to eating the vegetables...

"Some people die at the age of eight and are not buried until they are eighty..." Gong Xin said these sad words, but he was unable to reveal any sadness. Instead, he seemed to think that these words were a bit strange, causing the corners of his mouth to rise for a while.

"Come on...if you don't want to eat...you don't have to...I'll eat it..." She ate the food crazily and quickly took away the food in front of Gong Xin...

“I think this sentence is quite profound… and it fits my state of mind these years…” Gong Xin gulped down some water again: “Just think about it… how pitiful I was back then… Others could play on the streets, eat on the streets, and travel around the world, but I couldn’t… This… is a pity… I’m almost 20 years old, and I’ve never left this small place… At least… I can live a normal life, and I’ll be satisfied…”

"I think that you shouldn't worry about whether you have this disease or not, and you don't need to worry about whether you have regrets or not. You are living a good life now, aren't you? You can still talk to me about everything, and there is nothing wrong with you..." She put the vegetables into her mouth, chewed them, took a sip, and swallowed them.

"That's your opinion... On the surface, there's really nothing wrong... People's hearts are hidden in their chests, invisible. My heart is dead... Really... I don't think there's any meaning in my life..." Gong Xin was a little depressed: "I thought about this question when I was a child... What's the meaning of life... The more I think about it, the more I don't understand. What's the point of living like this? The fact that I can survive is a miracle that my father and mother have borrowed from the heavens... I haven't died yet, just because..."

Gong Xin looked at the pair of chopsticks on the plate quickly picking up the meat slices and putting them into his mouth. He looked at the woman opposite him. She was very beautiful, but she was a foodie... She kept eating...

This sentence is very heavy...

But she acted as if she didn't hear it...

This made him even more depressed: "Ah... when my parents pass away... I guess I won't live long either... I can't let them die before them..."

He stammered and said the last sentence.

"That's what I think anyway..."

The chopsticks were placed on the table with a loud bang. Its owner widened his eyes and glanced at Gong Xin...

Gong Xin also looked at her...

Her eyes were so clear and transparent, her eyes were brown, a dull red, and she was a little angry... Then she picked up the chopsticks, picked up the food, and ate it...

Drinking with head down...

"Huh? Do you really think so?" She put a piece of tofu skin into the pot. The white hot steam slowly rose up, the water began to boil slowly, and the red oil of the hot pot also bubbled.

She lowered her head and slowly put the dishes into the hot pot. The plate was empty... Gong Xin's plate was also empty... She ate...

"Well... I really think so..." Gong Xin seemed to be very determined about this idea...

Perhaps he really has many regrets...

He had no choice but to run like a normal child...

He barely felt... the slightest breath of youth when he was young...

He has no friends... Maybe it's hard for someone who needs to stay at home all the time to make friends...

His regrets were indeed full, having been carried for twenty years...

What is the meaning of life?

He also understood that... People in this world, as long as they go to the hospital, will definitely see all kinds of separations and deaths...

All kinds of joy and despair...

But perhaps, what he saw in the hospital since he was a child was... naked despair.

That's terrible... A child shouldn't have too much, see too many separations and deaths...

Life... those who do not have "normal" physiological structures... will they feel that the world is unfair from the moment they are born?
Those children who have faced a huge gap between the rich and the poor since birth...will they feel that fate is unfair from the moment they are born?

If you feel it’s unfair…

So how should we change it?

Is it really that easy to change...

You will regret it... Sometimes, you just can't do things that others can do easily...

You will be sad... Sometimes, you just can't get what others can easily get...

Will you regret coming to this unfair world?

"You are really, too naive... Your brain is broken, you need to experience a little bit of social beating! In this way, your brain will not be full of random thoughts."

She looked at the vegetables and meat, these things boiling in the hot pot, turning over and over in the white steam and the fragrant soup, enjoying it, or rather, without any feeling, just letting the soup eat her.

Gong Xin was in the white mist and couldn't see her face...

She just stared at the meat boiling in the hot pot...

"Have you earned the high medical expenses your parents paid for you? Do you know how much money they spent? They work so hard every day just for you to say such things? You are such a grown-up, don't you feel ashamed?" She snorted and felt that the man in front of her was a little childish. She clearly saw his expressionless face in the white mist, but it seemed heartless.

That should be a human face, but it is so distorted... It is not old... It is distorted, crooked, and not human-like...

"You are only in your twenties, and you want to take care of your parents until the end of their lives. Have you earned enough money for them to stay in the intensive care unit after seeing the doctor? Do you know how much it costs to stay in the intensive care unit? Do you know how much it will hurt them if they hear what you said?"

She gnashed her teeth and cursed: "You are a grown man, do you know that? A grown man should be more manly and responsible, instead of always thinking about these trivial things... The meaning of life itself has no meaning... The most important thing for you to live in the world now is to survive. Since you have a heart disease, you should cherish your own life instead of having such stupid ideas, understand? Since you also know that it is a miracle that you are still alive... then believe in this miracle... Anyway, a miracle has already happened once..."

She scooped up the food from the hot pot with a spoon and slowly put it on the plate, looking helplessly at Gong Xin who came to help.

"So, if people can figure this out... be optimistic, there is nothing to worry about in this world. Really... the difficulties are not important, what is important is your choice... the choice is very important..."

She said a lot, and as if she had finished, she started to blow air into her plate again, and happily started eating again. It seemed that such words did not come from her mouth, so that she was like a little brat, only eating meat and not vegetables...

"I've thought about it too..." Gong Xin watched her eat and drink beer. Well, at least she was not a child. She drank... and drank in big gulps without any regard. She could drink very well. She also said that beer was as light as water. How could it be alcohol? Such bold words.

Gong Xin drank water, and she also drank "water". He had no choice but to look at the water in the cup...

Gurgling down my stomach...

Well, thinking about it carefully, this kind of thing is indeed my fault... Everything I have, I have lived for so long... It is indeed like a miracle...

"Just think about it..." She took a sip of wine, burped comfortably, looked at Gong Xin proudly and smiled: "There are so many, so many people in this world!"

She danced with joy.

"So many different people, each one is completely different, but they live in the same world. Even in the smallest places, there are countless different individuals..."

"Hiccup~"

"They are connected together, making this world colorful... This in itself is a miracle..."

She watched Gong Xin struggling to turn over the food on his plate.

"The world we live in every day exists. Every day, even if it is so ordinary, is a series of miracles. "

She smiled and took another sip of wine: "Don't show off your childish ideas everywhere, especially don't tell your parents what you just said to me, understand? That would be too stupid... If you tell me, I won't come to chat with me next time, I tell you..."

"Well, I'm not that stupid..."

Gong Xin sighed...

He did feel that after he spoke out his words, he felt much better...

Although he claimed that he had no friends...but the beautiful woman in front of him, who was drinking and eating meat with big mouthfuls, was more friendly than a friend...

"Next time, let's not eat hot pot, let's go eat some cuisine? For example, Japanese or Korean barbecue..." Gong Xin stirred the meat in his bowl...

Slowly pass it to her, put it in her bowl...

She looked at Gong Xin in surprise, frowned, and put the meat down: "What? You have even chosen the place for our next chat? Wouldn't that make me a confidant? Can you get rid of me with just a hot pot and a meal of meat? That's too casual..."

She stopped eating, crossed her arms, and looked at Gong Xin who was smiling bitterly.

Every breath Gong Xin takes is very heavy...

However, he still managed a smile.

"Then what do you want to eat? As long as you want to eat, I will take you to eat." Gong Xin looked at her, and she suddenly clapped her hands happily, put her hands heavily on the table, and said with a snap: "Okay, it's a deal, and it can't be changed!"

"Once you say something, you can't go back on your word. But you have to finish eating this first." Gong Xin tapped the plate with his chopsticks, and the tinkling sound echoed in this small private room.

"Ha! Then your wallet will bleed a lot. I'll give you a chance to regret it." She shook her long black hair and wiped the sweat from her head with a tissue.

"If you want to help me save money, I'd be happy to do that." Gong Xin put a piece of meat in his mouth and ate it. It was a little spicy, but meat is meat after all, and it was really delicious.

Meat...

What a miracle...

He actually thought meat shouldn't taste good...

"Well, don't worry, it must be something you can accept, but it's very expensive!" She started eating meat again and slowly put down the beer...

She took another sip of the wine... as if it was really water. After three or two glasses, she felt nothing.

"That's bad. I can accept expensive ones, but my wallet can't accept it."

"That can't be helped... Once words are spoken, they can be spilled. You are a man, always remember that you are a man! You must be responsible!"

"What about you... You drink like this, you're more manly than me... No, all the Northeastern dudes are more manly than me~"

He laughs.

"It's water, okay? What's wrong with being a bit manly? It's not impossible."

She shook her head and smiled triumphantly.

"Of course, of course~"

He ate the food on the plate...

The meat is delicious, the vegetables are also delicious...

For a long time, they didn't speak.

Because they were all overwhelmed by the spicy hot pot...

One of them was born with a natural intolerance to spicy food, one of them ate a large chili pepper, and the other ate a small Sichuan peppercorn...

She fanned herself, stuck out her tongue, and complained that her tongue was both painful and numb…

He also fanned himself, stuck out his tongue, and looked at her like a grown man, and laughed even more happily...

What's a man afraid of spicy food? Right?

He went to see the people outside the store. A little boy was walking on the street carrying a large cabinet on his back. He was wearing a small Chinese costume. He looked very strange and handsome. He walked past Gong Xin and watched the handsome boy walk away through the glass...

He pointed it out to her.

Her eyes lit up and she said, "How handsome."

He also nodded and smiled helplessly.

The moon was very round at night, but the wind was a little strong... They walked quickly on their way home, watching the wind blowing back and forth, making funny faces of passers-by.

Gong Xin was afraid that she was drunk, although she was not, so he sent her home. Gong Xin walked to the small courtyard next to it alone and opened the door with his key.

He called out to his mother, saying he was back, but his mother scolded him angrily and told him to go take a shower.

He could only go and take a shower obediently.

Sitting at my desk, holding a pen...thinking quietly...

Perhaps, the characters he created were already exhausted. After experiencing so many reincarnations, the man named Chang Yufeng was so thin and emaciated. Fate had always been crushing him...

He had no way to resist...

He gave up resistance...

"How can we give up on this guy...even his author didn't give up on him..."

Gong Xin muttered to himself, turned the pen, and the pen tip returned to his fingers.

He wrote:
【Everything that happens to us every day, so ordinary, is an unparalleled miracle that happens one after another.】

(End of this chapter)