The Spirit World

Chapter 697 (I)
(This chapter is connected to the future volume, Chapter 55)
【BJ, the 13th Affiliated Hospital】

The black night is like digging out a piece of blood in the whiteness, leaving only darkness here, making everything around appear clear and bright. Perhaps it is intentional, everything here begins to reveal a different atmosphere.

The flower opened gently, perhaps because it was the time for it to bloom, so it bloomed. The flower was white and translucent, poking its head out from the corner of the cliff outside the windowsill, blooming, with its stamens facing the house, releasing a charming fragrance.

The ticking sound of the ventilator could be heard in this ward. This was the intensive care unit, and apart from the people doing the night rounds, there was probably no one else here.

She is a little girl named Chen Lin. Everyone calls her Lin'er because this name is very important to her.

It is said that when her mother abandoned her, she cried to her and called her "Lin'er, I'm sorry."

She was in a cardboard box, like a stray cat, watching her mother leave, but she could do nothing. In fact, she didn't know her last name. This "Chen" was the name of the vice president of the welfare home that adopted her.

She had a congenital heart disease, and because of this disease, she was hospitalized more often than anyone else. This was a very difficult disease, and the ventilator had to be stopped several times, but she survived every time, letting the long-line ventilator make a beep, beep, beep sound, telling everyone present that this little girl was still alive, and please don't give up on her.

This time, she was hospitalized just because a boy pulled out her hair. Maybe they were just arguing at that time, and she shouldn't have argued or received special care. But this is an orphanage, not her home. She doesn't have a father and a mother here to take care of her alone. So, when her illness relapsed, everyone was caught off guard and was in a panic.

But now, her condition has eased a lot, and everyone breathed a sigh of relief. Except for the culprit, although he didn't mean to do it.

Because he didn't know that a person could be so fragile, so fragile that she would die just by taking away one thing from her.

Fortunately, he still has a chance to make amends.

A small hand was placed on the wall. He wanted to open the window, but found that the windowsill had been closed for a long time. Of course, this was the intensive care unit.

"Xun Huangying... Is this really the space where I exist?" He turned his head to look at the lamb behind him and slowly took his hand off the window. The clear blue cloth slid down like a waterfall, blocking the view inside.

"Um……"

Xun Huangying walked out from behind Chang Yufeng across the seat next to him and stopped in front of the door.

"α17503038, this is how I named the time and space you are in."

"Alpha, 17503068? Have you traveled through so much time and space?" Chang Yufeng watched the lights in the corridor slowly go out. This voice-controlled light was unaware of their existence.

"How is that possible? Ms. Mei Qingzi helped me screen out nearly 10,000 individuals with basically qualified physical qualities. I selected 1,000 individuals with basically qualified psychological qualities from these 10,000 people, and then screened you with the others. I found that you are the most qualified for the position of Tianyu Renxin King... That's how I found you. Logically speaking, you should be one in a million."

Xun Huangying spoke casually and vaguely, which only highlighted his "one in a million"

"This seems illogical. How do you know that I meet the qualifications you assume?" Chang Yufeng slowly pushed the door. The tightly closed door seemed to welcome a new guest. Before Chang Yufeng touched it, he suddenly understood.

Chang Yufeng glanced at the door and saw Jin'er lying on the hospital bed. The ventilator was accurately recording Lin'er's heartbeat. The heartbeat graph, which rose and fell like a mountain, jumped in Chang Yufeng's eyes like a rabbit bouncing in place.

Chang Yufeng was not surprised at all, and didn't even stop for a moment. He walked to Lin'er's bed and stood there quietly.

Looking carefully at this face that I haven't seen for a long time.

This is his time and space, or to be more precise, this is the time and space that he has started to reshape.

This is a very frustrating question, because no one knows how they should make choices about everything, and no one is born understanding how they should live. The things that parents give to us are too important. If we lose our parents, our education, and the ability to reflect on ourselves, what should we do in the future?

Chang Yufeng was lucky, as he knew how to live early on—living for his own selfishness. But many people who were busy with work, running around in social circles, and interacting with relatives and friends did not even have the right to stop.

He also stopped to think, for example, about how he should live his life, what is the meaning of everything in life, and how much time is left for himself after a lifetime of birth, aging, sickness and death - where should the ordinary people who live in society and struggle for a little livelihood go?

Have you ever thought that there is another kind of life in this world?

Some people can grow up surrounded by their parents' love all day long, while others can be injured or even die by their parents' beatings.

Some people can spend their entire childhood without worries, while others are bent over and dare not imagine a childhood before they even reach the legal age.

Some people are free to pursue their own love, while others have to face the hardships of arranged marriages and early childbearing.

Some people are promoted rapidly in the office, while others jump off tall buildings.

Some people live for themselves, while others can only grow up under the pressure of others.

Some people die at birth and can never outrun a drunk car, while others live to be a hundred years old, escape death, and have many children and grandchildren.

Some are flattering, while others are upright.

Some are loners, some are sociable.

Some people once thought that the earth was the center of the world, some people once proved that the sun was the center of the earth, some people thought that the sun was the universe, and some people proved that there is a sun in the universe.

Some people jumped into the river and never returned, while others took the return train back to their hometown.

Some people work hard all night long, while others go crazy at night.

Some people are lying under other people's beds, while others are facing an empty bed in the red tent.

Some people devote their whole lives to love, while others hate love so much that they are crazy about it.

Some people are gifted and become pillars of their own, while others receive countless help but end up being useless.

Some people are born complete and compare themselves to a yellow beam; some people are born incomplete and secretly feel sad.

Some people hate the heaven for not giving them pillars of society, while others despise the earth for being born in a foreign land.

Some are cold and miserable, some are sad, some are happy and some are cheerful.

Some people are sick and can't survive the long nights, while others are healthy and wish they could stay in a warm tent all year round.

Tears of sorrow are all due to fate’s suffering, while expressions of joy are all due to God’s will.

Love or not, it’s all yourself. Hate or not, how can we be a couple?
Some people admire everlasting love, while others devote their love day and night.

Some people love clearly, while others prefer to be confused.

All love is love, and all hate is hate.

Some people only envy the mandarin ducks and not the immortals, while others pray to the immortals or Buddha but end up in vain.

You know, does Chang Yufeng know?

You understand, but does Chang Yufeng understand?

What you said is clear, but can Chang Yufeng explain it clearly? What you said is clear, but can Chang Yufeng explain it clearly?

Let’s talk about love or not, Lin’er and Chang Yufeng are old acquaintances. Let’s talk about affection or not, Lin’er and Chang Yufeng don’t have much feelings for each other.

Who am I now, the me of the past?
Who are you now, the you of the past?
What's the point of talking about moral principles? When you can't afford to eat, who would really be willing to listen to others talk about morality?

"In fact, Lin'er is one of those people with a short life span... no, a girl. She won't live past ten years old."

Xun Huangying also came to Lin'er's bed and slowly touched her face with his furry hands.

Her face was frighteningly cold, and there was no sense of body temperature. She looked like a dead person, without any sign of life.

"She is so beautiful..."

She is very beautiful, and to say that a ten-year-old girl is beautiful may really be a compliment.

His beauty is so simple and calm; his eyebrows and eyes are outlined, and when he smiles, you can feel the sunshine and warm your heart. His fair face is because he rarely gets sun exposure and is a little anemic. He is weak and sickly and can't go anywhere, so his white face is frighteningly white.

In addition to her young age, her face is full of collagen, and her black and shiny hair is also due to regular care.

This is the reason why she is beautiful... not because she is born beautiful. A girl who knows how to dress up, a girl who doesn't eat the wrong things, a girl who needs to avoid certain foods, will not get fat.

Would a girl like this be ugly?
That's what makes her beautiful.

It's that simple.

When they are young, they cannot and do not need to work. They stay indoors for a long time, so they know how to dress themselves up and take care of themselves, instead of allowing themselves to eat indiscriminately and thus lose their figure, and being sloppy and not taking care of themselves.

She really made herself beautiful.

Rather than natural beauty.

Maybe she knew that she would not live long, so she was willing to dress herself up to make herself prettier and more beautiful while she was alive, so that others could understand that this girl who would not live that long in this world was also trying hard to live...

Instead of giving up on yourself...

When others say she is beautiful, she will accept it with pleasure, because she knows that this may be what she deserves. She has known how to accept compliments since she was a child.

When someone says she is too mature, she will just walk past that person silently, or maybe she won't care about him at all. Because she knows that she won't live that long...

There may be a big difference between the maturity of a ten-year-old girl... and the maturity of a little girl who will never live past the age of ten.

She would not tell anyone that she would not live that many more years. She would still happily go to see the flowers every day, chat with the vice-president's grandmother, and find the dumbest little boy in the world and tell him.

Hey, why are you always alone?
If you don't mind, I can be your friend.

Of course, if you really want to treat me as a friend, I might be your best friend.

Really? Chang Yufeng...

Can a little girl lying on a hospital bed who needs a ventilator to breathe and will never see the sun tomorrow really be your friend? Can she be your best friend?
If she died today...perhaps there would be only one person in this world who would die with guilt.

If she died today...

How many people would know?

Perhaps one of them includes himself.

But it shouldn't be many, because she was just a passer-by in the eyes of others, and many people didn't have the chance to see her... Maybe...

She's willing to meet any silly boy who's willing to meet her...

She will come from thousands of miles away... along with the rush of the great rivers...

Perhaps, she won't survive today...

Do you know what's in her heart?

She might have finally rested here...

No one knew what she was thinking because she never told anyone.

No one would be too gentle to a girl they have never met. She would just be pushed into the morgue slowly...

No one came to claim her... because she had no family from beginning to end...

Perhaps her family had already been living happily together in a house thousands of miles away, and she no longer belonged to that family... Of course, no one knew where she came from... nor her family...

I don’t even understand where she will be buried... Maybe in the soil, maybe in a cemetery, maybe in the sky, or in the sea.

"I seem..." Chang Yufeng gently grabbed her hand.

"What?" Xun Huangying looked at Chang Yufeng who was dressed in white.

The tears in his eyes were golden. He was a god now... The tears a god shed were also different...

"She's such a...incredible girl..."

Chang Yufeng burst into laughter and said, "I don't know why so many people are willing to help me... willing to be gentle to me... I don't know what their purpose is. Maybe it's because I'm too kind, so they treat me well... I feel that I don't belong to anywhere at all... I only belong to this little girl here... Do you know? She should be the King of Tianyu Kindness, not me... What virtue do I have?"

"But, she is just one person in your life..."

Xun Huangying sighed and said, "Remember the [possibility] I told you about?"

"Remember..." Chang Yufeng slowly squatted down and grabbed that hand with her hand. Her heartbeat was so weak... but it wanted to, beating, beating violently.

"Among the ten thousand experimental subjects and all the people you met, only Lin'er, who died at the age of ten, could open your heart. Do you know what I mean? She is the only one among the thousands of possibilities... the one who made you understand the most basic meaning of [Tian Yu Ren Xin]..."

Xun Huangying touched his nose, as if he was about to cry...

"The most basic meaning of Tianyu Renxin is the endless pursuit of oneself. Who am I, why am I alive, why do I do this, why can't I do it, why did I do it, why did I fail after I did it, why can I succeed after I failed, why can I start over, why am I sometimes no longer myself, why don't I feel that I am myself every time, how should I exist, how should I handle things, what if I don't handle it well, what if I don't have the ability to handle it, why I still messed up after I handled it well, why do I need to do this... why can't I do this... In the exhaustion of self, understand that Tianyu Renxin is actually controlling your own heart. I can, I can, I can do it, I want to get it."

(End of this chapter)