The Spirit World

Chapter 707 [Revised Chapter] My Dream...

[All chapters before and after this chapter in Volume 4: Ni Yu Zhi Shang form a closed loop and are a reincarnation in their own right]

This story is a complete tragedy...

Yes...I am not a child anymore...

I have clearly realized this...

Everything I have, doesn’t seem like what I can possess… It’s like a knife hanging over my head, making me feel miserable…

I ended up deconstructing myself...

In the past I would wonder, what kind of person am I?
Cowardice, inferiority, or, endless fear...

What am I afraid of...

Maybe everyone wants to see a beautiful woman saving a hero, but for me, that is not a hero saving a beauty...

I don't want to ruthlessly expose this fact, but for me...is Lin'er really important to me?
I already knew that I was one of countless experimental subjects...

Do you know what this means? There are thousands and thousands of me in this world... repeating this endless cycle... but this cycle is secret. If Xun Huangying hadn't mentioned it accidentally, I wouldn't have known that there was such a plan in their imagination...

I am a test subject, an endless test subject...

I am just a piece of trash that was put together. I am not a hero at all. How can I save people in this world who have nothing to do with me, a test subject?

If the responsibility of saving the world falls on me...

What do they have to do with me?

I need someone to save me too!

I'm just a test subject...

No matter what I do, it's useless... I'm nothing more than a complete experiment. My life, everything I have, my dream...

They are completely controlled...

I……

What kind of person is he?

I love, I want to love the beauty...

I love my family who have been waiting for me in every reincarnation... They don't know my identity, I am no longer a... test subject, standing beside them, I can feel that they care about me...

I, the test subject named [α17503038], stand in front of my family members whom I have to face again and again. I can feel the warmth they give me... Even though I have felt it again and again...

To them, I really exist...

But for Xun Huangying... they were just test subjects to shape an individual like me, just in a different form... they acted according to their own behavioral memories... I... acted according to my behavioral memories...

They only know that I am... their adopted son... Maybe their son has a bright future... Maybe everything they have... will be fine with the help of this "son"...

Maybe this son shouldn't have existed...

What kind of person am I...

What am I to them?
A walking corpse?
A shell filled with consciousness?
A girl who doesn't matter where she is...

possibility……

There are no possibilities in this world... I have never been a hero... I am just a body that can be slaughtered at will... Why do you want to shape me into such a person?
Why put the burden of saving the world on me?
Why can I only watch them die?

I have nothing...why give me hope that I can't have?

I am just a person who does not need to exist in this world.】

"Oh no...α17503038 has a rejection reaction..." A man pushed his glasses and searched quickly on the screen.

A hand was placed on his shoulder to signal him not to make a fuss.

[I am... just... the dregs of life... Everything about me... is not cared about by others...

Let me!

Let me!

Let me!

Let me!

Go to hell...】

"He is denying his own breath... He... wants to bite his tongue to commit suicide..." The man in front of the screen, looking at this man, closed his eyes in pain...

His teeth bit his tongue... If he bit off his tongue, he would... die... from this world...

Because of the excessive bleeding...

It doesn’t seem to be a very glorious thing…

[“I don’t understand.” Chang Yufeng used his sword to prop up his broken body. The poison had already seeped into his blood and began to take effect. His long black hair, which had been tied up, was now scattered. Blood and dust were all over his body, sticky and ridiculing. His sword originally glowed with blue light, but now it was emitting a faint light. Blood was flowing from the corner of his mouth, and his clothes were tattered. He looked like a stray dog.

"You won't understand!" Her huge claws flew over, and with one heavy blow, she was about to kill Chang Yufeng, just like stepping on an unrelated ant.

"boom!"

The giant claw attacked violently, and the ground collapsed. Chang Yufeng had no time to defend himself and was crushed to the ground. In an instant, he pierced through the ground and flew out of the upper level of the Ice Crystal Tower.

"Even if I were to choose again, I would still choose to come back and save you, just like before." Chang Yufeng used up his last bit of strength to say this, his voice was very light and soft, as if he was still whispering to her. With the pale blue light and whistling ice wind around the ice crystal tower, Chang Yufeng fell into endless darkness. 】

"Captain..." The man glanced at the hand, that clean hand, as if it was still holding him down... In fact, that hand was just placed on his shoulder.

"He bleeds to death... How long will it take..." The owner of those hands gently took his hands away and placed them on his waist. His teeth were chattering, and his hands were clenched into fists...

"About... three minutes..."

"I see... Then why is he like this? Has he appeared before?"

"No...no...no other experimental subject has done it the same way as him..."

His eyes were like black fangs...staring at the person on the screen.

The captain's hands were shaking...

Just like that person's teeth...

It's like... the tongue biting the teeth...

【"Brother Yufeng..." Lin'er chased after him. He walked very fast, as if he had deliberately left her behind. He walked step by step, blocking the black and white lines. The illusory figures on the street began to twist and turn. The black and white lines wrapped around her body like shackles. She chased after him quickly, but he was getting farther and farther away. Like a distant mountain walking backwards, her steps became heavier and heavier, and the calls became smaller and smaller, and even inaudible, leaving behind his gradually blurred figure, and his gentle eyebrows and eyes, echoing in her heart.

"Brother Yufeng... wait for me..." Lin'er called out, but there was no response. The small figure shuttled between the black and white lines, sometimes far away, sometimes near. The fat boy appeared blankly, and the way he imitated his smile made her heart tremble. The bucktoothed girl stared at her fiercely, and the silent warning made her tears turn in her eyes aggrievedly. Her star-like eyes were shining, and his figure was always there, but far away and untouchable.

Suddenly she remembered the days in the clouds, when the gods loved her like the apple of the eye of the whole world. Wherever she went, the sun and the moon danced for her, and the stars sang for her. On that white bridge with the bright moon, she saw him for the first time, and it was like this. No other day she had ever lived could compare to this day. She stared at him with her star-like eyes, and he smiled at her, not giving her a single extra glance...】

This world is over...

The dust outside the window howled with the wind and snow...

"We still have to save him..." The captain finally put down his hand.

"Okay!" The team members began to fiddle with the buttons on the screen... Every button could save him. Even though he wanted to die, as long as this button was pressed, he could be cured...

Let him gain... a longer life...

A longer life...

More...

He would rather give up his life...

"No experiment subject will give up... to become a god... this experiment subject... is unique..."

The captain looked at the man in pain sternly... His hideous face could no longer fit on the entire screen. He wanted to die, but the buttons were fiddling with him... He was in so much pain that he wanted to die...

He started to go crazy...

He began to... hurt himself without hesitation... Although he could only bite off his tongue, but in that vessel... he could no longer do anything...

"Don't give him painkillers, just leave him like this..." The captain seemed to want to see his limit...

There is an old saying that goes, if you work hard, God will help you.

I don't know if this sentence is true, but I know that only by continuous hard work can I make up for my lack of talent.

Others put in twice the effort, and I put in twice or even three times the effort. The only time others have is also the only time I have. Time does not favor anyone, nor does it make anyone feel unfair.

Time flies like an arrow, day after day, year after year.

I learned about my brother's death a long time later, and my master, Prime Minister Xiao Qingshan, had kept it secret from me.

All the letters I sent out never reached my brother, because during the six months we were apart, he rushed to the front line without hesitation...

What a fool, isn't it?
This is him...

Stupid and stupid as hell, and also very... simple... stupid...

I didn’t know about this until a long time later… So, for me… this sadness is more like… anger… Everyone kept silent about this matter, because such an impulsive and reckless person who can’t even be restrained by a cow cannot fulfill the duties of a guardian. 】

He was... bleeding madly... blood was gushing out madly from his throat, from his broken tongue...

The bright red blood filled the entire vessel.

He was in the blood... He frantically wanted to pull out the trachea in his body...

"I want to know... why he is so different!" The captain placed his hand on the screen, eager to look into the eyes of this unique individual...

All the test subjects' vital signs were normal, except for this one, which was flashing red like crazy... But he was still alive... But he wanted to die...

"Maybe it's because of this memory? Or... this memory triggered his resistance?" The team member adjusted his glasses and fiddled with the buttons to keep this already crazy experimental subject alive for a long time...

I am not alone...

I'm not even an animal...

I'm just a shell...

I simply can’t do this…

Treat the people others love as the people you love...

I was forced to dream...

I was forced to hope...

I was... imprisoned like a prisoner...】

"Captain... it's no use. He tore off his breathing tube. If this continues, he will probably die in the container due to lack of oxygen..."

The team member fiddled with the buttons violently. He could control this man, but he had no way of controlling this beast...

This beast, which is running and seeking its own end, is trying to break free from his cage...

"α17503038... I know you can hear me... I want to talk to you..." The captain put his hand on the button, a red button that could end his life... No one really has the right to end his life...

But, this button is there... for this very moment.

Just like... at that moment...

[“I just feel wronged now... I clearly want to do things well, but I just can’t do them... I know they are very powerful! I have never met them face to face, but they have played me so hard that I feel like a loser now! But I can’t feel wronged! The stronger they are, the more I want to win back a game from them!”

Chang Yufeng's voice trembled a little.

"Do you know? Xiaolan! When we were in Wenti County, those minions had already spread all over Wenti County! Hatulin! Longxing Society! When Xunhuangying told me that they were spying on my existence! I didn't know what happened at all! And Bailing Mountain! No one actually wants me to go back! It's just an empty shell! There is no place for me to settle down. I don't want to go anywhere. I don't dare to own anything. I want to stay in Wenti County forever! They don't want to. I want to be in Bailing Mountain. They don't want to. I want to go to Fran. I also want to go to school peacefully. I am always worried that Erica's family will be quietly assassinated because of me! Orange, I don't have any energy to lie to you... I'm not lying to you for your own good."】

【Destiny, the so-called destiny: one is fate, which refers to the nature given by nature; the other is luck, which refers to the changes in the ups and downs of each stage of life. Everyone is a vassal of fate, and none of us can change our own destiny. No one can determine his own destiny at birth.

The longevity of life and energy is an unspeakable miracle. 】

My dream...

[The ice flowers rolled and fell in front of his eyes. With the help of the early sunshine, the originally white ice flowers flashed a moving red for a moment.

My dear, little master.

He fell slowly, the baby on his back was crying, but even at an altitude of 10,000 meters, the crying of a baby would not make any sound, just like the sound of birds that came and went, so small and so humble in this high altitude.

My love...

How, how, how much I love this world...

How, how, how I wish... I love...

Everything I can love...

My dream...

(End of this chapter)