The Spirit World

Chapter 763 The Lost God

Most of the people's affairs in this world have nothing to do with you. You either laugh it off, or you are speechless, or you sigh. To put it simply, only family, friends, and even people you have met once or twice will change your life and take notice.

There is no such thing as a stranger dying thousands of miles away that would make you cry bitterly.

In fact, this is not selfish at all, it's just that this is an unspoken rule that is tacitly accepted in society. It's okay if you keep it in your heart, but as long as you tell it to the public and say it so bluntly, everyone will definitely think you are selfish, even difficult to get along with, and have no sympathy.

But the death of a person thousands of miles away would not really make you cry bitterly, unless this person was quite famous and told you all the good things he had done in his life when promoting him. Then you would feel that the death of such a good person is really not right and would be sad for a while.

When someone secretly tells you about some of the bad things that person has done, you may feel that the sadness you just felt was unnecessary, and then you may put yourself in the other person's shoes, revealing your own fickle character and not being so rational anymore.

Oh no... Where are there such pure people in this world? The wrong things we do and the good things we do are already objective. How we solve and deal with the good and bad of this objective existence is actually not that important.

Human nature just can't stand the test.

In other words, it would be fine if it is really a test of human nature, but what we are afraid of is that it is not a test at all, and the dark side of human nature actually erupts, shocking, surprising, and unacceptable to people.

This is the scariest thing.

Chang Yufeng has calmed down now. In this [Spirit World OL], if you don't understand more as you grow older, you will definitely fail.

Things in the past do exist objectively. No matter what happened in the past, it cannot change the emergence of the distant and long butterfly effect, which makes the present what it is.

Knowing the present and understanding the present is the most important thing.

Don’t talk about the past, don’t talk about the future. Only by recognizing the present can you grasp the past and the future.

Chang Yufeng's mentality is completely different from before. He is no longer a simple person. He still carries a lot of things from the past, including many things he has now, rather than things about the future.

"I have experienced many reincarnations." Chang Yufeng looked at the young prince. In the netherworld that the young prince had to face day and night, those who had experienced reincarnation were struggling in pain.

The mountain of swords was filled with wailing corpses, the sea of ​​fire was filled with boiling flesh and blood, and the glacier was filled with nothing but stiff stumps of limbs and arms.

Will they suffer? Of course.

But are they really suffering? That may be a question that needs to be discussed.

"If I were allowed to live again, I would definitely do my own thing well."

Chang Yufeng sighed, took out his shining heart, and slowly threw it into the sea of ​​fire.

The heart of the god slowly rotated, spinning leisurely in the fiery red ocean...

Flashing, yet empty, the future.

"If I were given three days of light, I would definitely go see this world." The little prince laughed: "This is such a wonderful wish. Because there are no ifs in this world. So it is also cruel, which makes people empathize. Because, after experiencing cruelty, those who can finally look back will know how precious what they have lost is."

"This should be consistent with... you... and you three thousand years ago... you also gave up your godhood. This time, there was no betrayal, no so much abuse, and no so much reluctance."

The young prince looked at the heart of the god Chang Yufeng, and a brilliant spark exploded in the boiling flames.

"Don't you think so?" Chang Yufeng looked at the young prince gently.

His eyes finally brought a little bit of tenderness that had not been seen for a long time.

He was no longer cold, but calm and gentle.

He was like this, flickering in the dark green light of the underworld.

"What?" the young prince asked him, taking a step forward.

"Loneliness is the most terrifying thing. Whether it is money or power, they are endless desires. And only loneliness will make you want to fill them. As a result, people who live in loneliness are the most terrifying." Chang Yufeng felt [loneliness] for the first time.

A long time ago, no matter when I was alone, running around the world being chased by others, or fighting alone, I never felt lonely.

Only now did he feel a long-lasting loneliness.

Loneliness is a subjective feeling and experience of isolation and alienation from others or society, rather than an objective state. It is the self-enclosure of a person's living space and living state. Lonely people will be isolated from social groups and live in a negative state.

Lonely people probably need sensory stimulation to make themselves less pathetic. Even a small existence should not be lonely.

"Maybe... maybe... maybe... right..."

The young prince tilted his head and raised the corner of his mouth slowly: "Who knows... Maybe sometimes I do feel lonely."

She said secretly:
"When Xun Huangying came to teach me how to play cards, I realized that I had indeed felt lonely during these three thousand years. All of the people here are dead. They experienced disasters here, and then their memories were washed away and they returned to the human world. But they were always unable to communicate with me. I could only watch them come and go. Then, slowly... it became difficult for me to get closer to them, and I became truly lonely. I think Xun Huangying is also a very lonely person, just like me. I don't understand why you left us and wandered in the human world."

“What is the most important thing in this world?”

Chang Yufeng sighed.

"Many people have lived for most of their lives and summed up their own experiences. No matter what they seek, love, or desire in life, there are many different opinions. This is meaningful. If the answer to the question of what is the most important thing is the same, then life should always be the same, and that would be meaningless."

"What about you? What do you think is the most important thing right now?"

The young prince was eager to know Chang Yufeng's answer.

"family."

Chang Yufeng answered this question without hesitation.

"It's not because I didn't have my biological parents around me when I was young that I think family is important. I have parents and have been with them for a long time. There has never been a day or a period of time when I felt that my family is more important than anything I have. Can you imagine? Many people don't have such a good family. Even from birth, they can foresee the tragedy of childhood and life. Whether poor or rich, they may be accompanied by loneliness. This is not a tragedy that can be clearly understood, but no matter how complicated it is, it should lack the courage to lose."

Chang Yufeng looked at the young prince calmly, straightened his chest, and put down the ordinary sword.

"Whether you have it or lose it, it's a terrible thing, right?"

"Probably." The young prince shook his head.

The wind in the underworld blows so hotly.

"I want to...live out my whole life...that's what I should have. In fact, I'm not afraid of losing anything. When I realized and started to take care of myself, my life...became clearer...even though there are still many things I don't understand, losing something can no longer break me down."

Chang Yufeng stood in the increasingly wide sea of ​​fire, and with his last smile, he said: "Little Prince, if possible, come and find me and play... I will always welcome you..."

"I will." The little prince had tears in his eyes and kept nodding her little head, which meant that he understood the agreement.

Chang Yufeng slowly waved to the young prince and said goodbye. The young prince also waved but did not hear the goodbye.

Only then could one see that the young prince had been standing on the bridge over the sea of ​​fire, and Chang Yufeng had been lurking above the sea of ​​fire. Now, Chang Yufeng slowly sank into the sea of ​​fire.

He closed his eyes and let the sea of ​​fire engulf him. He was so calm and composed that he didn't feel the pain at all.

[Looking for the shadow of the wilderness… Fire! Fire! All fire!] It turns out that this memory originated from here.

How would Xun Huangying feel when he watched himself slowly sink into the sea of ​​fire?
It must be very sad...my dear wolf...your sheep will eventually leave you...

I was not born a god... Please remember this... So many encounters, so many lies, so many reincarnations...

In the end, it’s just one sentence: take care of yourself.

I am not the person I used to be.

Do you understand it?
I am not always right, nor am I always wrong.

I... am not pretentious, nor am I content with mediocrity...

I clearly realized that this is my life...not some frightened lamb.

I should have my own fantasy in life, and I should have my own direction in life.

Chang Yufeng's body slowly sank into the sea of ​​fire, as if he had lost this shell of a human being forever.

The bubbles of flame rolled in the sea of ​​fire, just like experiencing this and that, a fork in the road of memories that will never make sense, and this period of life has truly come to an end.

"The reincarnation of the King of Kindness, Tianyu, has ended..."

[Zisha] came to the side of the young prince, and the suspension bridge in the sea of ​​fire began to shake slowly.

"No... yes, it just started..."

The young prince watched Chang Yufeng perish in the sea of ​​fire. When his divine body was completely consumed by the fire, he would completely transform into a soul. Then he would drink a bowl of medicine to thoroughly cleanse his memory. His life as a god would then come to a peaceful end.

"I don't know."

Zi Sha felt the young prince's emotional fluctuations and watched calmly as Chang Yu Feng disappeared.

"Reincarnation is not a bondage, but a kind of blessing for a better life. Every life should exist objectively." The young prince answered the question irrelevantly, and Zisha did not understand why his young prince was so profound.

Perhaps it was because of sadness, but as a small prince who was a god, he could see Chang Yufeng, who had reincarnated as a human being, at any time. Perhaps this was not a reason to be sad.

The young prince calmly glanced at the raging sea of ​​fire, his handsome pair of silver eyebrows trembling slightly.

"Death is the final destination of gods. Xun Huangying should have understood this... a long time ago."

This sentence was not meant for Zisha to hear, so Zisha had no way to answer the young prince.

However, the young prince answered himself.

"Yeah... it's so lonely..."

Every bit, every drop, every minute, every second is life.

Whether you can get through it, it’s life; whether you can’t get through it, it’s also life.

Gods seem to have no constraints of time, but this is actually the most uncomfortable thing. Because there is no end, a person whose life has no end will not understand or do anything reasonable.

Because only with an end does this intellectual thing have meaning.

What is the principle we need to understand in order to achieve immortality?

No, immortality, just watching all the people who will pass away, the things that will be lost, the time that will slip away from my eyes, watching other people's things... what's the point...

Even if you feel sad, happy, angry, or aggrieved at the beginning, the passage of time will make all your joy, anger, sorrow, and happiness meaningless.

Birth, old age, sickness and death.

After seeing and hearing too much, it is inevitable to become numb and lose the fear of time.

It is because time passes silently that we can feel the preciousness of life and understand how rare happiness is.

Only then can you truly understand how to cherish.

“Few people know how to cherish something before they lose it.”

It was like I heard Xun Huangying’s mumbling.

Chang Yufeng turned into a star-like light, traveling through time and space.

Those people, those scenes, those bits and pieces of reincarnation, all flashed before his eyes.

But he also knew very well that every bit and every second of this life was proof that he was alive.

He smiles, he cries, he is angry, he is ecstatic, all of this is his life. Even if he is sitting on a stool in a daze, he is living every minute and every second, which is the proof of his existence.

There is no point in being in a daze, but he did it anyway.

This is the correct way to understand the meaning of life.

Do successful life and failed life really have exact definitions or meanings?

It seems that there is no such thing. Just defining success or failure will make you feel at ease every minute and every second of your life. Living in the world, among people, and in society, you can have expectations for death.

No, it should be dead and have some meaning in human history.

Rather, it is the meaning of the existence of the world itself.

Without humans, time would never stop.

Without human definition, time will abandon all that has passed.

This is the most basic truth of this world.

Such a grand tragedy, yet so small.

But humans are humans, and can only be humans.

Everything concerning mankind, concerning mankind’s future, exists in time, every minute and every second.

No matter what the end of humanity is, no matter when and where life ends, it is understandable and normal.

"My dear sheep..."

(End of this chapter)