Iron Snow Clouds

Chapter 5046 (Five Thousand and Forty-Six)
When the man said this, he paused and thought for a moment.

The gray-handed man could clearly sense that the other party had not finished speaking. Although he did not know whether the other party would pick up the conversation soon, he wanted to continue asking, but he felt that the other party's eyes showed that he seemed to be lost in thought. The gray-handed man was worried that if he hurriedly spoke to the other party and asked him to continue speaking immediately, it might lead to something bad happening. The gray-handed man did not think that his interruption at this moment would make the other party unable to communicate normally, but he still thought it would be better not to say that. So the gray-handed man glanced at the brown-handed man, and seeing that the brown-handed man did not seem to be in a hurry, he decided to continue waiting.

Fortunately for the Gray Hand Man, the man continued talking before he had to wait any longer.

"But... but after I decided to commit suicide, I should have... no longer cared so much about hypocrisy... at least... at least during that period of time... that was the case." said the man.

"Did you think of 'hypocrisy' at that time?" asked the Gray Hand Man.

"To be honest, nothing obvious about 'hypocrisy' came into my mind, but I could still feel the discomfort at the beginning... but... it didn't last long." said the man.

"Why didn't you care so much about hypocrisy at that time?" asked the man with gray hands.

"Because... because... I was thinking about committing suicide at that time... A person who is about to commit suicide... probably even if... even if he doesn't want to... he can feel... that the truth and falsehood in the world will soon have nothing to do with him... For those things that have nothing to do with him... he really doesn't need to care about them." The man said, "When a person decides to commit suicide, then... then he will probably... no longer take many things in the world so seriously... No matter what happened in the past, no matter what will happen in the future, but at least after that person decides to commit suicide, before he gives up the idea, he will... will not take many things seriously."

After saying this, the man felt that it was not very rigorous to say this directly, and began to worry that someone would find something wrong with his words, so he added: "I... I was talking about myself. Actually... Actually, if others decide to commit suicide, will they be as indifferent to many things as I am before giving up this idea? This... This is hard for me to say. I am talking about... just myself..."

I thought I had explained it enough, but the man felt like something was missing, so he added, "Of course... even if I was talking about myself, that... that kind of thought can only represent myself at that time... People... people always change... People at different times... in different mentalities... may also... be different. What I'm talking about is... my thoughts... at that time. At that time, I wanted to commit suicide... maybe... maybe I didn't care much about some things in the world, so... what used to make me feel hypocritical... at that moment... didn't make me feel so disgusted."

"So you didn't have any intention of avoiding the spring sun at that time?" asked the Gray-Handed Man.

"Yes, even during the time when I felt unwell, I...didn't try to hide away," the man said.

(End of this chapter)