Iron Snow Clouds

Chapter 998: No Face

"You just told her how you want her to call you, but you didn't force her, right?" Jian Rou asked.

Tian Wen said "hmm".

"Putting these words together as the reason for what you blurted out that day makes it somewhat believable," Jian Rou said.

Tian Wen looked sad as he said, "I disliked the Yueyang identity so much back then. Now, that identity is gone. Tiecang Court stipulates that the cancelled Yueyang identity can never be restored. Now I suddenly understand that it has brought me many things that did not originally belong to me, such as the right to call her 'Le Yu'. I once said that I would just call her 'Le Yu', but now... she is still Yueyang, and I am not. In the future... even if I can see her again, I will never be able to call her by her name again. I am no longer qualified to call her 'Le Yu', and can only call her 'Le Yueyang'. If my Yueyang identity was cancelled when I could feel that she loved me, if she really loved me, she would probably allow me to continue calling her 'Le Yu' because of her love for me, but last time... I couldn't feel her love for me anymore... I couldn't feel it... really... she was far away from me. I don't... I know why she is like this, but I am too embarrassed to understand. I originally thought of the name problem when I was lying to her, but I care so much about it now! After I knew that she was the person I fell in love with, it became a knot in my heart. In fact, if you think about it from another angle, it might be the best thing for me that she doesn't love me anymore, although I will be sad. If she still loves me and I can still feel that she loves me, I will definitely be even sadder. I now feel that I have no face to talk to her about love anymore. I have lied to her... already! This has nothing to do with whether I can tell her and explain it to her clearly, and whether she can forgive me, because I will never be able to forgive myself in my life. She is the person I fell in love with, but I lied to her... I lied to the person I fell in love with... This is not forgivable at all! I will never be able to forgive myself..." Tian Wen said, his eyes moistened.

Seeing him so emotional, Jian Rou comforted him, "Brother, don't be too sad." She asked, "When you said you lied to her, did you mean you said those words?"

Tian Wen said, "It's much more than that. In fact, I... I said a lot of lies to her... I used her... when I could feel that she loved me. When people love someone, they tend to let down their guard against that person..." Tian Wen lowered his head and asked himself, "How shameless is it to lie to someone who lets down his guard against you because he loves you?" Then, he looked at Jian Rou and said, "I can't call her by her name in front of her anymore. I couldn't help but call her that when I was talking to you just now. Although you are my sister, it's not right to call her that even if it's just in front of you, right?"

Jian Rou saw tears in Tian Wen's eyes, and from the way he spoke she could tell that he was releasing more and more sadness, so she smiled and said, "You also said that I am your sister! We have been talking in very low voices along the way, and there is no one else around, so I am the only one who can hear what you said. Of course you can call others whatever you want in front of me, and I can't tell anyone!"

(End of this chapter)