1987 My Era

Chapter 366: Desire Bursts

Santana.

To Li Heng's surprise, Huang Zhaoyi drove a Santana this time. To be honest, it didn't quite match her noble status and bold temperament.

Huang Zhaoyi may have seen his confusion and explained: "This car is low-key."

Li Heng secretly complained that nowadays people can drive private cars, why should they still be low-key?
But later I thought that for people from a family like theirs, driving this kind of car is indeed quite low-key.

How does the saying go? People from different classes have different ways of speaking and underlying behavioral logic.

After opening the car door and sitting in the passenger seat, Li Heng then turned into a taciturn mode, his eyes drifting out the window, with no intention of talking at all.

He didn't say anything, and Huang Zhaoyi didn't know how to start the conversation.
After a long time, she finally tried to say, "I have been following your new book, it is very well written."

Hearing this, Li Heng slowly came back to his senses, "Have you read the news report in the newspaper?"

"Ah."

Huang Zhaoyi hummed, "I have seen some, too. Both good and bad."

Li Heng withdrew his gaze from the car and asked abruptly, "So do you think White Deer Plain is pornographic?"

Is it yellow or not? This is a very abrupt question.

After asking, he was stunned, then frowned, his eyes inadvertently swept over her body, and he actually had an idea that was about to happen.

This has never happened before.

In the past, she was very beautiful and charming, and most men would remember her at first sight. But in Li Heng's eyes, although she was beautiful, he instinctively did not think too much about it.

Regarding this issue, due to her persistence and infatuation, Li Heng did explore the reason when he was bored.

At first he thought it was because of her age and he resisted instinctively.

But after careful consideration, he denied it. He was already so old in his previous life, and theoretically his mental age in this life was much older than hers. A mature and charming woman like her was actually more attractive to an older man with rich experience in bed. Therefore, it was not essentially a matter of age.

Rather!

It’s because there are no shortage of beautiful women around him, which makes him not that hungry.

It is undeniable that if someone is as beautiful as Song Yu and Zhou Shihe, he sometimes cannot control himself. For example, during the rehearsal in Beijing, under the same roof, he had several erotic fantasies about Zhou Shihe.

The reason why he was able to hold back at that time was, firstly, that he had a strong will, and secondly, that Teacher Yu was in the same room.

Third, Zhou Shihe's family background was not bad, and since he was so weak now, he restrained himself from touching her deep down.

Well, when men have romantic thoughts about outstanding women, it is out of male instinct. From a physiological perspective, there is nothing wrong with it.

The key is self-control!
If a man has no thoughts about a woman who is at the top level in every aspect while living in the same room, then probably only a eunuch can do that.

In other words: self-control is relative.

If Mr. Yu was not in the same room at that time, and he could see Zhou Shihe day and night for more than 20 days, would he be able to suppress it? It's not certain!
If Zhou Shihe was replaced by a girl with a slightly weaker background, would he still be able to suppress his anger? It's not certain.

It’s like, faced with the choice between desire and life and death, he has no choice but to give up desire and be more afraid of death.

Zhou Shihe's family background does not allow him to be indecisive at this stage, so with various conditions complementing each other, he showed great restraint in the capital.

Li Heng never flaunted his loyalty or claimed to be a saint. He just experienced the baptism of beauty like Song Yu, Xiao Han and Zi Jin, and his immunity to outstanding women was slightly stronger than that of ordinary people.

But at heart, he is just an ordinary man!
He has all the thoughts and aspirations that other men should have, and all the desires that other men should have, and maybe even more.

For example, when Teacher Yu whispered in his ear and spoke to him in a teasing manner, his body reacted directly several times.

For example, most men can finish making love in ten or twenty minutes, but he has a superb physical fitness. In his previous life, he had been switching between Song Yu, Xiao Han and Chen Zijin for decades and never felt powerless.

According to Zijin's words of joy and anger and complaint: This is talent!
God has given us this gift, and no one can do anything about it, and no one can envy it!

Huang Zhaoyi was very perceptive, especially when facing this man who made her heart beat fast. She was extremely sensitive. As soon as his eyes fell on her, she noticed it immediately.

Combined with his abrupt question just now, Huang Zhaoyi subconsciously turned her head to look at him.

It’s better not to look at this!
Upon closer look, I discovered that his eyes were slowly turning red, and the way he looked at me was completely different from before.

In the past, Li Heng was always able to remain calm whenever he faced himself.

This time, as time went by, his breathing became heavier.

Finished!

The thought "It's over" popped up in her mind again. She was in big trouble. Xiaoyue was serious and she probably drugged him.

Huang Zhaoyi felt confused and guilty at the thought of drugging. It was true that she was fascinated by this man, but she had never thought of getting close to him or getting him in this way.

Because she disdains to do so and is not ashamed of it.

When their eyes met, Huang Zhaoyi hurriedly looked away and tried to calmly answer his question: "I think it's good. Hmm."

At this point, she thought for a moment and said, "I don't know if it's an illusion. I've read the first 12 chapters of your White Deer Plain seven times. I always feel that Bai Jiaxuan is just a soul figure who connects the past and the future. The most important and distinctive character is Tian Xiao'e. She reveals the sadness and tragedy of the times."

In addition to being a Peking Opera performer, she also has an amateur title, that is, a literary critic. She wrote because she loved literature, and the readers trusted Editor-in-Chief Liao to send it to her, thus starting this irreversible "fate".

Although this fate has been her wishful thinking so far, she has never regretted it. She met him, fell in love with him, and finally fell in love with him irrevocably. Although she became lonely, her inner world became richer, her life was no longer boring, and she had thoughts from then on.

Even though this wish is illusory, difficult to fulfill and hard to reach, it is enough to support her to live a wonderful life.

When it comes to relationships, she is rather contradictory. She is very picky, but also very easy to satisfy.

She had no ambition for him. If he gave her a smile, it would brighten her whole spring.

She expressed her own views from a literary perspective, and she ended with a statement that resonated with him:
“Perhaps, you clearly understand that writing these contents will cause huge controversy. But you just want to show all those obscure and difficult-to-tell things.”

Listening to these words that were exactly what he wanted, Li Heng's gaze towards him became dazed. A woman with such talent, such good looks, and such a great family background, had accidentally tied her feelings to him. He didn't know what to say for a moment.

He was very confident about his appearance. Not to mention Fudan University, even when he saw the "Ken Takakura" in the movie, he felt that this actor could not compare to him. This was not an illusion of his wild imagination, but the conclusion he came to after countless outstanding women in his past and present lives rushed to his arms.

But no matter how handsome he is, it shouldn't be like this for a woman of Huang Zhaoyi's status. After thinking about it, the appearance of a "literary man" is too tempting.

This is the limitation of the era, but also the fruit of the era.

Seeing that he was staring at her without saying anything, Huang Zhaoyi hesitated for a moment and asked, "Did I say anything wrong?"

Li Heng shook his head: "No. It's not wrong, but you just said what was in my heart. I wrote these plots in the hope of showing all those obscure and difficult to tell things, which was highly recognized by my teacher."

Hearing this, Huang Zhaoyi felt a faint joy in her heart for no reason. This joy was indescribable, and it felt like she had been appreciated by him for the first time, with the sweetness of a young girl encountering love for the first time.

Although this sweetness was extremely deceptive, she still enjoyed it. Santana drove forward again, and suddenly, Li Heng shouted: "Stop!"

Huang Zhaoyi braked several times, slowly stopped the car to the side of the road, tilted her head to look at him with a worried look on her face.

She was really worried, because in her sight, his expression was changing at a speed visible to the naked eye, becoming more lustful and aggressive. It was obvious that the drug was starting to take effect, and he was trying his best to suppress himself.

She scolded Liu Yue again in her heart, saying that she was too reckless and had been spoiled too much since childhood. But after scolding her, she didn't know what to do.
After taking a few deep breaths, Li Heng said to her in a low voice, "Turn around and go to Xuhui, to Shanghai Medical University."

There was no way, he had to make this decision, he felt like he could not hold it back any longer, his blood was surging, the sea of ​​desire was about to drown his rationality, he really wanted to indulge himself at this moment.

But there is no suitable woman in Lushan Village. Mai Sui, who made him fall in love, has a knot in his heart. Zhou Shihe, who made him have romantic fantasies, is impossible. Teacher Yu died if he tried.

When Huang Zhaoyi heard that they were going to Xuhui, she subconsciously raised her right wrist to check her watch. "It's 9:37. It will probably be almost 11 o'clock when we get to Xuhui. Is it still in time?"

"Then tell me, do I have a better idea?" Li Heng said this with anger in his tone. If the instigator Liu Yue was here, he would definitely let her taste the consequences of her own actions.

Seeing his unfriendly tone, Huang Zhaoyi was stunned for a moment, but said nothing more. She restarted the car, reversed and turned around to drive towards Xuhui.

Along the way, she drove as fast as she could, fearing that he would be unable to handle it or lose control.

For a moment she concentrated on driving, and he looked out the window, trying to distract himself. The car was dead silent, and no one spoke.

She wanted to talk to divert his attention, but she didn't know where to start.
Because of this incident, she felt that the man in front of her had a prejudice against her.

Huang Zhaoyi felt very bitter. She had to bear the consequences of the cause that Xiao Liuyue had sown. Because the source of everything was ultimately her own fault. If she hadn't been obsessed with him, what happened today wouldn't have happened.

Both people in the car were in agony.

She was in mental torment and felt sorry for him.

He was tortured both mentally and physically and was almost going crazy. I wonder how much drugs that silly girl Liu Yue gave him?

He is like this now, where can Liu Yue, who drinks more, hide to solve his problem?

We drove out of Hongkou, passed through the central urban area of ​​Jing'an, and were about to reach the border of Jing'an when Li Heng suddenly shouted again: "Stop!"

He shouted "Stop" a little hoarsely, then he closed his eyes tightly and grabbed the seat with both hands.

Huang Zhaoyi looked at him and understood where he was now. She immediately drove the car forward for a while, turned right at a fork in the road, turned into a small road, picked and chose, and finally stopped in the reeds.

Li Heng frowned, "Why stop here?"

Huang Zhaoyi answered the question irrelevantly and asked with concern: "Can you still hold on?"

As soon as these words were spoken, the car fell into silence.

No one is a fool. The car was parked in a deserted place, and she said this. How could Li Heng not understand her guilty thoughts?
Liu Yue is willing to pay for the sins she has committed with herself.

Fearing that he would misunderstand her further, Huang Zhaoyi bowed her head after a long while to break the deadlock and said, "Everything that happened today started with me. I apologize to you."

As she spoke, she murmured again, "Don't worry, after today, I will disappear from your world and won't bother you anymore."

She expressed her stance, saying that it was not her intention, but she was willing to take full responsibility for the mistake.

When she said this, she was nervous, afraid, trembling, and determined to die.

Hearing these humble words, Li Heng was stunned for a moment, then slowly turned his head to look at her.

She was dressed in bright red, had a slim and plump figure, beautiful looks, and extraordinary demeanor. She was definitely a great beauty, a peerless stunner.

No wonder Feng Gong and others praised her as the best model for the Da Qingyi role in Peking Opera during the rehearsal of the Spring Festival Gala in Beijing. After seeing her, the Da Qingyi role became concrete.

Sensing her thoughts, Li Heng said in a hoarse voice at a certain moment: "Put your hair up."

Huang Zhaoyi raised her head and looked at him, her eyes seemed to say: Your hair is tied up.

Li Heng raised his finger with difficulty and pointed, "Pull it up a little bit, it's a bit messy now."

Is it messy? Huang Zhaoyi glanced at the mirror subconsciously and found that her hair was indeed messy after traveling all the way, and the rubber band was loose for several circles.

After calming herself down, Huang Zhaoyi put her hands behind her head and, right in front of him, first untied the rubber band, then took out a comb from her bag and combed her hair again.

Her movements were graceful and full of aristocratic air, and her movements were very ornamental. After a while, she skillfully tied her hair up, giving the impression that there was a cluster of green leaves among the flowers, which was very bright.

After finishing her hair, she put the comb away, thought for a while, and then looked at him again.

Their eyes met in the narrow space, and an indescribable breath arose spontaneously, as if a lot of things were revealed in an instant.

She asked softly, "How is it now?"

Li Heng suppressed the heat in his heart and said, "Very good. Your swan neck is the most perfect I have ever seen, with soft lines and charming collarbones."

He stopped talking halfway through. This damn desire still filled his entire brain, making him speak without thinking.

Huang Zhaoyi seemed to see through his self-contradiction. After thinking for a while, she mustered up the courage to ask, "Then, do you like it?"

At this moment, in the uninhabited wilderness, in a small cramped space, when he was about to lose control of his lust, her words were full of temptation and guidance, like adding a fuse to a nuclear bomb that was about to explode, which was undoubtedly very deadly!

Huang Zhaoyi was neither dissolute nor frivolous, but she knew that in this situation, instead of shrinking into guilt, she might as well do something for him.
Or, from Hongkou to Jing'an, seeing how upset he was, she was struggling with her thoughts all the way, doing her own ideological work, trying to convince herself.

Frankly speaking, in the dead of night, she had more than once dreamed of sleeping in the same bed with him, and fantasized about the scene of them making love.

There were even times when I couldn't bear it anymore and went to the shower to relieve myself with him in my mind.

She was willing to be with this man. She was willing to give him both her heart and body without any hesitation.

The reason why she was struggling like this today was that deep down in her heart she didn't want to spend the night with him in this way.

The reason was simple, because he was unwilling and angry at the moment, and maybe even complained. If she took the initiative to throw herself into his arms in this situation, it would be difficult to explain clearly. She was afraid that he would misunderstand, misunderstand that she had set up today, misunderstand that Liu Yue was instructed by her.

She knew that no matter how she tried to clear herself of suspicion, as long as he kept thinking in this direction, she would never be cleared. So, she made the painful decision to stay away from him.

She would rather never have him than let him feel mean.

She was struggling with her own thoughts, and when the car drove off the main road and came here, it meant that she had made a decision.

Now that she has made the decision, she will no longer hide it and just be free and easy.

Whether it is right or wrong, if he hates me, after tonight, I will no longer appear in his world and will never bother him again.

The sentence "Do you like it?" completely detonated the lake in his heart, completely detonated the depth charge, and completely blew open a hole in his desire.

Suddenly, his desire seemed to have found a flood outlet, and it rushed in like a mighty army. Li Heng swallowed hard, restraining himself! Restraining himself! After restraining himself for a long time, he suddenly gave up and reached out his hand.

(End of this chapter)