From the end of the world

Chapter 403 Chang'an Dream Fox
Compared to Yin Yue's memory, Chang'an's memory is too small. Although I have tried to prove that the length of memory cannot be an absolute basis for the latter to be swallowed by the former, in the battlefield of spiritual consciousness, huge memory is more advantageous than tiny memory, which is also indisputable.

Even though the Silver Moon side of Chang'an's soul had been sealed by me, he had after all once broken the seal that the Zhu family had set on him, and had been acting lawless outside for a while, so the side of Chang'an might have been mixed with a lot of Silver Moon's colors.

I can't help but worry that if Chang'an has Yin Yue's past memories, whether his self-awareness will be affected again and turn into Yin Yue's shape.

Fortunately, Changan gave a negative answer.

"If you're asking me if I can remember all of Silver Moon's memories... I can't."

When it comes to this question, Chang An also became serious and explained seriously: "However, if it is the memory from when I was captured by the man who looked like he often went to the gym until I was rescued by Ah Cheng... I still remember it."

"Looks like a guy who goes to the gym regularly..."

Zhu Shi was confused at first, then suddenly realized: "Oh, you mean Chen Long."

"I say I remember, but I can only remember it vaguely." Changan continued, "The memory of that period of time before gave me the feeling that it was like having a terrible nightmare. After waking up, although I can tell you the general idea, I can't remember many details, and I may even have remembered some parts incorrectly.

"If I hadn't woken up and found myself lying in this place, and my sister hadn't asked me all kinds of questions, I would have even doubted whether the experience had really happened."

Zhu Shi thought for a moment and suddenly said, "Fortunately, you either can't remember or can't remember clearly, otherwise you would be able to recall from a first-person perspective how your biological mother Yin Yue gave birth to you, and how she raised our biological father from childhood and fell in love with him."

"what!?"

Chang'an seemed to have just realized that there was such a horrible possibility. He was shocked and his eyes seemed to pop out.

While he was wavering, Zhu Shi first looked at him with insight for a while, then turned to me and said, "My brother is not lying or acting."

"Wait, were you secretly testing me on a lie?" Chang'an was shocked.

Zhu Shi said unhappily, "How could there be no accident? You scared me just now. This is also a necessary process, just bear with it."

Maybe Zhu Shi has been doing the lie detector test since Changan woke up, which may be one of the reasons why she wanted to be present when Changan woke up, but she didn't say it, and said that the test was only started now. Maybe telling the truth would make Changan feel uncomfortable, but this is also to protect Changan.

"Since you know what happened before, many parts that need to be explained can be omitted." I said, "I think you should also be able to think that your father, Ying Lingyun... He is our mortal enemy."

"Well... I understand." Chang'an's face turned gloomy.

Then, I said directly: "Ying Lingyun is dead. I killed him."

Neither Yin Yue nor Chang An saw the scene of Ying Lingyun's death. Chang An seemed to be avoiding the question and did not ask about it, but I directly pointed it out.

Chang'an's expression changed and finally turned into a long sigh.

"Do you hate me?" I asked.

Chang An shook his head and said, "After knowing what he did, I no longer have any hope for him. He has done so many evil things, and it is his own fault that he was killed.

"If I had the power to stop and kill him, I would probably make the same choice. Ah Cheng, you just did what I wanted to do.

"Besides, you did that just to save me. If I hated you, I would be really ungrateful.

"...No, actually, I did something ungrateful to you. Although I was led by my ego at that time, I kept saying things like I was disillusioned and that I had misjudged you, even though you had already done what I didn't dare to do...I deserve to die."

As he spoke, he revealed mixed emotions.

"That's all in the past." I said. "But I still have to apologize to you in person." Changan looked at me, "Ah Cheng... I'm sorry.

"And, thank you."

I didn't argue with him and accepted his apology and thanks. Seeing this, he smiled with relief.

After a while, he finally returned to his normal state of mind. Compared to such a heavy look, this light-hearted style suits him better.

So I got back to the point and continued asking, "How are you feeling now? Have you felt anything unusual? For example, do you hear hallucinations, or feel like your consciousness is about to be replaced by another cognition at any time?"

"No, everything is normal." Chang An seemed to be carefully feeling his own condition, "But..."

Zhu Shi asked: "But?"

"I don't know if this has anything to do with my condition." Chang'an said, "Before I woke up, I had a strange dream."

Upon hearing this, Zhu Shi's expression suddenly became extremely serious: "What was the dream?"

It took me a while to realize why she was so serious.

The self-awareness of Yin Yue was sealed and suppressed into the unconscious realm by my stone collar, and dreams reflect the phenomena of the unconscious realm. Although after the last consumption, the self-awareness of Yin Yue has been shattered to the point where it can no longer form self-awareness, it is definitely not possible to take it lightly.

Perhaps the remnants of Yin Yue's heart can affect Chang'an through dreams.

"I dreamed that I turned into a fox with white fur," Changan recalled. "I was in a dark forest full of poisonous insects and ferocious beasts. I was always avoiding danger and struggling to survive. My intelligence seemed to have become the same as that of an animal. I was ignorant and could not even remember who I was.

"One day, I ran out of the forest by chance and saw some humans passing by on the road chatting and laughing. After returning to the nest, I had a dream. I dreamed that I turned into a human named Zhu Changan, and I was eating hot pot with a human named Zhuang Cheng and another human named Zhu Shi.

"Afterwards, I, who originally didn't even have the concept of 'I', suddenly had a thought - was I originally a white-haired fox, and I dreamed of becoming a human named Zhu Changan; or was I originally Zhu Changan, and I just had a dream of becoming a white-haired fox?
"I was thinking and thinking, and when I came to my senses, I woke up in this room."

After saying this, he seemed to still be a little unsatisfied.

The forest full of poisonous insects and ferocious beasts probably refers to Yueyin Mountain long ago, which is said to be the origin of Yinyue. As a monster, Yinyue may have really had an experience of struggling to survive in a dangerous forest as an animal. At the same time, the description of Chang'an reminded me of the story of Zhuangzi dreaming of a butterfly.

Did Yin Yue really have such a dream a long time ago, and was it recalled by Chang An in the form of a dream? Or was it just a dream mixed with multiple consciousness materials?

In Yin Yue's worldview, could it be that he was originally just a weak white-haired fox, and only in his dreams could he become the powerful Yin Yue and the current Chang'an?

The spiritual world of monsters may be a mystery that I am destined to never explore.

I felt weird when I thought that this silly and cheerful young man and that charming and evil monster girl were actually the same person. They might not even be different personalities, but different aspects of the same personality.

"Chang'an, are you happy to be friends with me?" I asked.

"Ok?"

Changan was confused at first, then he smiled widely.

"Very happy!" he said as a matter of course.

I have a feeling that maybe Silver Moon won't wake up for a long time.

(End of this chapter)