This is apocalyptic

Chapter 201: Lies
The text has no beginning or end, as if he wrote two sentences whenever he remembered, and there are various smears and broken words in between.

For example, the word "rescue" filled several pages and was then erased.

This kind of thing is not common. In such a long time, Bai Xiao has only seen the one left by Lin Huayou and this one. It is rarer than gold.

Lin Duoduo was confused, but Bai Xiao could understand a little bit. "Back then, the remaining people in the community should have split into two factions. Some wanted to gather together and rush out, while some wanted to stay here and wait."

"Oh, that's the difference between my father and some uncles at that time." Lin Duoduo understood.

"That's it."

"Was the explosion caused by someone fighting zombies?" she asked.

"I don't know. It was so easy to explode back then. For example, you were cooking and suddenly turned into a zombie, and then the water in the pot overflowed and drowned the gas stove... Or you were smoking and suddenly had convulsions, igniting the sofa, and the fire started to spread and burned to the kitchen."

Bai Xiao said, seeing Lin Duoduo's confused face, he paused for a moment and continued: "Anyway, there were a lot of dangerous items at that time. They were fine if used normally, but they would become bombs if they got out of control. Sometimes they were more dangerous than zombies."

There is nothing to be afraid of with just one zombie, but if that zombie starts a fire, everyone in the building will panic, and then run out to find a lot of zombies outside.

Lin Duoduo couldn't understand that kind of panic, it was too far away for her.

[X month x day, very good, lighting fireworks in the house will not attract zombies, the security door is strong enough, and there are also survivors who chose to stay downstairs. I saw him go out, but before he walked out, he alarmed the zombies downstairs and had to retreat. There are also many zombies on the street. In this situation, he cannot leave alone and must wait for rescue.]
[The survivor downstairs came up, and I discussed with him how to get out. There were other survivors in another building, and we wanted to unite, but we were rejected. The other party seemed to have other ideas.]

[I hate this shabby neighborhood. If I want to go to the underground garage, I can only take the elevator. If there is a power outage, I have to go out. My companion comforted me by saying that there may be more zombies in the garage. Even if there is power, I may not be able to come back after taking the elevator down. This made me feel a little better.]
[...]
[I was wrong. Maybe it was right that I didn’t run out with those people at the beginning. I shouldn’t get close to anyone… because my companion turned into a zombie. I watched him go from feeling uncomfortable to having bloodshot eyes. He wasn’t bitten. In fact, we didn’t even try to go out in the past few days… but he turned into a zombie just like that. I thought about those people who ran out with me earlier… they probably didn’t know that the more people gathered, the more dangerous it would be]

[Luckily I locked him in the room when he started to act strange. Now he keeps banging on the door. It was so sudden. I don't know how it all happened. He seemed to be infected out of nowhere, and I'm still fine. I don't know if I will suddenly become a zombie too. I think I probably know why the survivors in the other building refused to join us]
Looking at the words from twenty years ago, Bai Xiao raised his eyelids. It turned out that they were not from the same family. There was an old zombie trapped in the room next to the one who picked up this book. He was his companion back then.

The two of them were searching the building for supplies to survive, but suddenly one of them inexplicably turned into a zombie. It was really scary.

"It suddenly changed?" Lin Duoduo read this passage over and over again.

"Could it be a roar, thunder and lightning, and the collapse of the sky and the cracking of the earth?" Bai Xiao said, "That's how the Zombie King appears, not how the zombies appear."

Lin Duoduo said: "The most terrifying thing is the silent one."

The following text is obviously much more disorganized and cannot be connected, and it seems like a long time has passed.

[…The survivors in the other building also turned into zombies. I saw him wandering around the living room. Maybe one day I will suddenly turn into a zombie… Now even if a group of people appear, I don’t know whether I should approach them.]
"So your father was not put into the shelter back then." Bai Xiao suddenly said.

"My father?" Lin Duoduo asked.

"He found the shelter but was unable to get in, and thus escaped the disaster. The shelter disappeared." "Why didn't I know?" She was shocked, looking at the zombies. She had never known about this. How did Bai Xiao know?
"You were too young at that time, and I didn't want to leave you with... any hostile feelings. After all, even if he failed, he still hoped that you could wait for rescue from another shelter. There was no other way out." Bai Xiao said, "In fact, telling you is useless. It will make you lose hope."

"Then how did you know?"

"Aunt Qian told me."

"Aunt Qian..." Lin Duoduo was stunned for a moment and remained silent.

Bai Xiao knew that she had also figured it out.

If she couldn't understand why Lin Huayou didn't tell her, the fact that Aunt Qian knew about it but never mentioned it to her for all these years was enough to explain everything.

Even if Lin Duoduo were to die one day, they would still want to hold on to hope and leave when they really couldn't survive and had to accept their fate.

Rather than committing suicide out of despair.

Hope...that is the most precious thing in the end times.

Lin Huayou chose to conceal it, but in the end Lin Duoduo did not go to the shelter.

In fact, what they did was not wrong. When they caught Bai Xiao, what Bai Xiao saw was a human being full of vigorous breath, not a walking corpse like Zhang Tan and Yu Ming who survived in the apocalypse.

"That's why Aunt Qian told you to go find it," said Lin Duoduo.

"Even if I failed, you still don't know what the future looks like, and you still try to live until the day you die... She had a hard life, and they didn't want you to be like them. In fact, they succeeded, and that's why you are who you are now."

When Lin Duoduo grows up, maybe Lin Huayou will choose to tell her... but he didn't wait until then.

So Aunt Qian continued to keep it secret until this human captured Bai Xiao.

"If I hadn't appeared, you would have lived a life full of hope and hard work." said the zombie.

“They thought I would be fooled.” Lin Duoduo shrugged. “In fact, even if I didn’t know about this, I knew there was no hope when I grew up. I even suspected that everyone outside was dead. I saw fewer and fewer traces of scavenging in the city. I used to see traces of bonfires left by others, but it was the same when I went there two months later. There was no less zombies on the street, but fewer and fewer survivors on the road.”

After a pause, she continued, "At least I lived well for the first ten years."

"They have also prepared for the worst." Bai Xiao nodded, "At least you lived well during those years."

(End of this chapter)