bad youth

"I sang to her: 'Little Swallow, wearing a flowered dress, come here every spring. Why do you come here for the sake of Swallow? Swallow said that the spring here is the most beautiful.' I sang this song over and over again, because in my heart I was really scared, so there was vibrato in the singing. After singing, Qi Siyu sang along with me, and it was still this song over and over."

"Little Swallow, wearing a floral dress, comes here every spring. Why do you come here for the sake of Swallow? Swallow says spring here is the most beautiful..."

Ye Zhan sang this song tremblingly, his voice was full of tension and uneasiness, as if he had really returned to the bed in that hotel, holding Qi Siyu who sang with her in his arms.This beautiful nursery rhyme was sung from Ye Zhan's mouth at this moment. For some reason, there was a hint of eerieness, which made my back feel chills.I can even imagine that in that hot hotel, the fans were squeaking, the monotonous anchor news came from the TV, and Ye Zhan and Qi Siyu's trembling singing echoed in the room.Ye Zhan sang over and over again, his voice becoming more and more terrifying and hollow.I looked at Liu Yanfu, his Adam's apple was moving, obviously frightened by Ye Zhan's voice.

"Ye Zhan?" I finally couldn't help it: "Continue to tell the story behind." I found that my voice was shaking, as if I was afraid of something.Ye Zhan didn't seem to hear it, and he still sang dryly: "Little Swallow, wearing a floral dress, comes here every spring. Why do you come here because of Swallow, Swallow said that spring here is the most beautiful..."

I looked at Liu Yanfu for help, and his forehead was covered with beads of sweat. "Doctor Liu?" I called softly.Dr. Liu woke up like a dream, and quickly took the small clock, and was about to press the button that would make the sound of "guji guess".As long as the sound of "Guji Guji" sounds, Ye Zhan will definitely wake up, and this story can no longer be told.Liu Yanfu stared at Ye Zhan closely, with a very serious expression, and said slowly: "Wang Hao, find a way to pull Ye Zhan back to the beach."

I quickly said: "Ye Zhan, do you think the sea is blue?" Ye Zhan ignored it, and was still singing dryly: "Little Swallow, wearing a floral dress..." I said again: "Ye Zhan, look at this sand is soft." Not soft?" Ye Zhan turned a deaf ear and still sang hollowly: "Little Swallow, wear a floral dress..." Liu Yanfu said: "No, wake him up, or you will sink deeper and deeper." I was anxious and shouted: "Ye Zhan, I want to eat coconuts!" Ye Zhan was stunned for a moment, and the singing stopped abruptly: "Oh, I'll pick them for you."

Liu Yanfu breathed a sigh of relief and put down the clock.After a while, Ye Zhan said: "Here, you can eat." I made a "sucking and sucking" sound, thinking about what to do next, and Ye Zhan said again: "Mouse, the juice has been drunk, what should I eat?" Eat the pulp inside." I said "Oh" and made the sound of chewing my teeth again, thinking that this master is really hard to serve.

After being silent for a while, Ye Zhan said again: "Mouse, do you want to continue listening?" I quickly said: "Yes, yes."

"Yeah." Ye Zhan responded, and continued: "During those three days, we spent most of the time watching TV on the bed. Although the sheets under us were extremely dirty, it didn't seem to be a big deal after we got used to it. When it was time to eat, I went to a restaurant outside to buy it, and the two of us devoured it with the disposable lunch box. We didn’t wash up after waking up in the morning, and we didn’t dare to use the washbasin in the hotel. That’s it for the two of us Living unkempt, hour after hour..."

"Qi Siyu is also a little crazy. Sometimes he would ask me what our child's name is. How is Ye Xiaozhan? Lying on the bed, he would suddenly say: 'Will Ye Xiaozhan be very sad knowing we don't want him?' I was startled into a cold sweat. Qi Siyu became dazed, and began to rub her stomach and talk to herself, muttering without knowing what she was talking about. Once I deliberately got closer to listen, and I heard her say:' Good boy, it’s not that mom doesn’t want you, it’s that you came at the wrong time, if you want revenge, go to your father...’ Then he made a horrible laugh of ‘giggle’, which scared me almost out of my wits. That’s me For the first time, I felt the pain of living like a year, every minute and every second seemed to be tormented in a pan of oil, and my spirit was also like a tight string, which seemed to be broken at any time."

"Because the room was so hot as a steamer, the electric fan was turned on 24 hours a day, and the sound of 'creeping' resounded throughout the room. I was so impressed by this sound that after a long, long time , This voice will suddenly flash into my mind without any warning, like a sharp boning knife cutting through my mind randomly."

"Qi Siyu is getting more and more confused, saying that after we abort this child, will we have a second child in the future? If so, what name should we choose? He also said that if this child does not abort, we will have a second child in the third year of junior high school. As parents, when we are about to graduate from high school, our children should go to kindergarten, and when we go to college, our children should go to elementary school. They can talk and talk all the time, when it comes to their children marrying a wife. In the end, they will hug me and ask , Ye Zhan, will you not want me? If you dare not want me, I will cut my wrist and commit suicide. I will seek revenge on you with my children, and let you have no peace every day! I was tortured by Qi Siyu's crazy words, how many times I wanted to rush out the door, but I finally endured it."

Hearing the words "snap out of the door", I was thrilled. Could it be that Ye Zhan couldn't stand Qi Siyu's nagging, so what happened later?I only heard Ye Zhan continue: "At that time, I felt that Qi Siyu was a little abnormal, and I was almost abnormal after being tortured by her. Two abnormal people lived almost isolated from the outside world in a hotel in the suburbs. What I see and touch every day are those few things, the squeaking fan, the monochromatic TV set, the bed sheets that are too dirty to see the original color, and the bedpan placed in the middle of the floor, I feel like I am going to die If you stay any longer, you will surely die.”

"When I went out to buy food several times, the prostitutes gathered in the yard would look at me and laugh. 'Little handsome guy, why don't you leave after staying for several days, is your girlfriend having a baby on it? ''Little handsome guy, you haven't had sex these days, you can't hold it anymore, sister, let me help you out.''Little handsome guy, because you are so handsome, I can consider not accepting it. You money.' When they saw me, they spoke obscene language, and immediately guessed what we were here for. This made me even more embarrassed. I just wanted to find a crack in the ground, and every time I saw them He just hurried past with his head bowed."

"Qi Siyu became more and more nervous. In the middle of the night, she would suddenly burst out laughing 'giggle', and would touch her stomach and sing, with a messy tone: 'Little baby, go to sleep, wake up tomorrow morning, and knock you out!' Her laughter was terrifying in the dark night, and it made me get goosebumps all over my body, and my spirit was devastated like never before. After Qi Siyu sang the song, she would say in a mournful voice: "Ye Zhan, if you dare not want me, I will die with you!' My scalp was numb, and I felt like I was about to collapse."

When Ye Zhan was describing this passage, Qi Siyu's voice was imitated vividly. He would sing the song "Little baby, go to sleep, wake up tomorrow, and knock you out" with a shrill voice, and said in a mournful voice: 'Ye Zhan, if you dare not want me, I will die with you! It can be seen how deep these voices were in his impression, and how painfully stimulating they were to him, so that Liu Yanfu and I, who were listening next to us, felt our scalps go numb for a while.

Why did Qi Siyu become like this? Is it because of too much mental pressure?Thinking about it, yes, after all, only 16 years old, exactly the same age as Hua, probably no one can bear such a sudden change.But Qi Siyu's state...is really unbelievable. Judging from Ye Zhan's memories alone, Qi Siyu is almost mentally ill.

"Finally on the fourth day, Qi Siyu took the last medicine. The doctor said that there would be a reaction in 1 to 2 hours, and the symptoms were similar to girls' dysmenorrhea. Qi Siyu lay on the bed, staring blankly. Ceiling, I don't know what to do, I can only sit on the bed in a daze. The electric fan is still ringing, making people feel extremely depressed. I don't know how long it has passed, Qi Siyu suddenly let out a gasp I hurriedly turned my head to look at her, and saw her frowning tightly, clutching her stomach, enduring the pain. I quickly asked her how she was, but she shook her head, as if she had no strength to speak."

Speaking of this, Ye Zhan breathed out again, as if he was making up his mind, he continued after a long time: "Qi Siyu got out of bed, walked to the potty, put the potty under him, took off his pants, and squatted down." Going down, the blood from her lower body splashed a lot on the floor. When I saw this scene, my mind was buzzing again, and I almost fainted on the spot. Then Qi Siyu wailed in pain, as if he was suffering from something Painful punishment. I hurried over and tried to hug her to give her some comfort, but she pushed me away and said: 'Don't touch me first, I hurt very much, and now it hurts very much.' I had to retreat to On the one hand, looking at her nervously, for fear that something unexpected will happen to her, and the string in her mind will become tighter and tighter."

"Qi Siyu was wailing in pain, when there was a knock on the door suddenly, the hotel owner's voice sounded impatiently: 'What are you doing in there, if you feel uncomfortable, go to the hospital, why are you crying and howling here?' I hurried to the door , said through the door: 'Excuse me, we'll be fine in a while.' The boss said: 'Don't get blood on the sheets, or you'll have to pay the price!' Then he left cursing."